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[11 Apr 2005|08:18am] |
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Ok i'm back! This has been a totally kickback weekend. I liked it alot...moments here and there made me feel like I was back at home with my friends still in High School. It was a great feeling but then I realized we're all grown up and in the Military. I got totally drunk and made stupid phone calls and then somewhere along the night we decided to go Room Raiding and then head out to Denny's drunk as shit...we didn't do either. I finally started taking pics of all the stuff I do cuz one day I wanna remember my good times. I still don't know when I'm going to go home or if I even will when I get the chance to take leave. Alot of people have been leaving the Air Force left and right and these are just E2 and E3. Motivation and Morale are really suffering on this base. When I first got here I wanted to be the best airman out there and now i'm just chillin just trying to get by. Hmm....oh yeah I saw Green Day on tv when i was drunk and I got hyper as hell and was bouncing off the walls and I was playing the shit out of my buddy's guitar. I think I hold back too much when I'm sober...not like when I was 17 i'd just go all out and play my heart out...so what is it thats holding me back? I remember I would be up all night writing songs and making music to it...I had a ton of feelings I wanted to get out of me and that's what would help me maintain my sanity for another day. Took it all one day at a time, one song at a time...I've been bottled up way too long...almost a year. It's almost my one year anniversary in the military....so many things have changed since I joined...alot of people have left my life...alot of people have come into my life. Fair Trade? I don't know...I don't know. I still remember when I first got here I didn't have a single friend and I would just stay in my dorm room on the phone or just sat on my bed quietly...then i got really home sick and felt horrible. Now a few short months later i've got more friends than I can count and they are all great. Most of them are from Cali too! Norcal!!! Oh yeah before i forget the quote of the weekend " Drinks Are On Me " haha inside joke. I can't believe I'm 21...yeah its great drinking in clubs n stuff but It means i'm not a kid anymore...sometimes that scares the living hell out of me. I try not to think about it but all I have to do is look in a mirror and it hits me. Oh and before I forget whoever I called drunk this weekend I'm Really Sorry!!! Kelly Clarkson...my future ex-wife is coming to Utah in July!!! There's a bunch of other crap at that show but i'm only going for her and the military tribute so hopefully they'll give us free tickets and let us go onstage with her. So yeah anyways I have to get started on some work but i'll be updating later. Love ya all...not really but hey whatever right
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[11 Apr 2005|10:32am] |
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Eh...I don't feel like working so i'm doing a halfass update. Just found out someone down here in the Basement is crosstraining into another career field and this is his last friday too. So yeah we just lost not 1 but 2 Senior Airmen. I wonder alot if I should stay in this career field or cross train into something else. EOD, OSI, and Aerial Gunner sound like fun and i'll get alot of hazard pay and flight pay if i go on flight status. Those jobs also got re enlistment bonuses unlike my job because we have great retainability. on a different note Gir is my new dancing wallpaper and he's been dancing to Rufio and now NFG! It brings a smile to my face on how I use government equipment. The little things that get me thru the day. There's this other girl that wants to go sky diving with us but im not so sure i'd like her there...for reasons i can't say. what if she goes there with the intent to kill herself? what the hell will i do then? I'd be responsible for taking her knowing she has issues. I don't know how i'd live with myself. I guess i'll tell her she needs to talk to her commander about it. Hopefully all goes well and we have a blast. well i gotta do some quick work i'll be back in a sec.
Yeah it seems a sec has become a couple of hours...well another half hour left in the duty day unless some stupid shit happens. lemme finish up really quick. BRB. alright cool beans...I think I need to wash my BDU's again their smelling kinda funky. Yeah i just went up to OB/GYN I used to hate going there but the girls that work there are really pretty and I finally made conversation with one of them I may have had my arms full of Surgical Lube but hey it was still cool. The Med Group Superintendent just asked me If i have all of my paperwork in order in case the tragic happens and I straight up die this weekend sky diving. So say if the worst case scenario happens my family doesn't get my life insurance or anything just a dead son. Haha yeah anyways hell of a thing to make me think of. 5 more minutes till the day is over. I am really hungry today...my stomach never rumbles this much. No dude it's not the shits. I really gotta hit the gym today and then clean up my room...inspections are this week and I really hate rushing things in one night...yeah I leave my room and surrounding areas fucken spotless but I don't want to keep doing that all in one night. I am totally not the airman that left bootcamp back in July. Anyways the day is over!
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