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Friday, September 19th, 2003
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9:08 pm - I believe in Jesus
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Me, Edwin and Joseph went downtown tonight. We took a trip to the cemetary after we walked around for 2 hours looking for a freakin bathroom. While waiting for our ride home, it was getting darker. Some guy was standing by the pay phone I was using and started making conversation with Edwin, while I was on the phone. Joseph was looking around like he was lost, while Edwin kept talking to that stranger. When I got off the phone, both Edwin AND Joseph were listening to that guy talk. He was teaching them how to tie a tie. I missed half of the conversation, but I leaned against the phone booth and watched and listened to what the guy was telling Edwin and Joseph. I don't know how tying a tie got them into a conversation about religion. The next thing I knew, I was holding hands with this guy (some complete stranger), Joseph and Edwin. We were praying on a drug dealers corner, with cars honking at us, and people staring at us. The man started crying and started asking us if we believed in "our holy lord" and other crap. It really got to Edwin, but me and Joseph didn't get a single thing the man was saying to us. I felt left out because I wanted to understand the connection this man was trying to make with us....but I couldn't. Well, the whole point of me going downtown was to meet people, and I met a stranger, not really who I wanted to meet, but I enjoyed his company and lecture on religion and church. It was nice. I have a shit load of homework to do, so I have to make this entry some what short. Bye.
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current music: Berlin * Sex (I'm a...)
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| Wednesday, September 17th, 2003
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9:55 pm - I'm So Hurt!
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This is the second time I got stood up by the same guy. The feeling is so horrible. I could've cried tonight, but, he wasn't a good enough reason! I feel so stupid. I'm so stupid. Damn. Joseph got on my last nerve today...I might kick his ass. He chews like a freakin cow and it gets on my nerves. I'm so ..... *sigh*
current mood:  sad
current music: Cursive * Downhill Racers
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| Tuesday, September 16th, 2003
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7:12 pm - Bad Johnny
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Joseph pissed me off today. Pissed me off alot! He wasn't listening to anything I was saying to him. It made me so angry. He got into my make-up and messed up my good make-up brush and I was so close to socking him in the balls when he kept putting his fag hands in my face...and hes lucky I didnt sock him in the face when he started talking about his eating disorders. I was like, "Save it for someone who fucking cares!". Ooooooh was I angry today! Theres some gay guy (an open/out of the closet gay guy) that rides the bus with me and Joseph and he likes to talk mad shit on Joseph. I don't get it? Is the gay guy on my bus jelous of Joseph cause hes more gayer than him? Dumb. Shit talking is for niggers. Dumb niggers. Becky called me today, I was in a bad mood so I hung up on her. Dumb Becky. I painted my nails with this red glitter, it smells like Egg Nog. Must be Christmas. My mom called me to tell me her plans for my Birthday. I told her and my dad I didn't want nothing big....no Sweet 16 kinda party or anything. She reserved a section at The Rainforest Cafe in the Ontarion Mills Mall. I've never eaten their before. I'm hoping to invite Edwin and Joseph...and maybe someone else, but I'm not sure who yet. Oh Yeah, I almost forgot, the pretty guy called me last night. Finally! After nights of waiting for him to call me, he does. Right when I was getting ready for bed, I answered the phone and he was like, "Is this Shannen?"...and my heart melted. Hahahaha. Yeah, it was an A-OK Conversation. I cleaned my room like a good kid would do. I washed my laundry thats been piled in my closet for weeks now. Smells like dirty wet boots in my closet now though. Tomorrow is Wednesday night....guess what that means! Yep, I'm going out! I'm pretty sure Joseph and Edwin are going with me, if not, I'll be forced to travel on my own...maybe I'll get laid, by some greaser, or greaser"S", or by a scummy dirt infested punk, or maybe....I'll just go out and wander the streets like a loner. Hah!! Loners are cool, I'm fine on my own. =( My stomach is talking to me...ouch.
current mood:  silly
current music: Eddie Meduza * Rockabilly Rebel
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| Monday, September 15th, 2003
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8:28 pm - Crash Diet
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I have to go on a stupid crash diet. My mom brought me my birthday dress. It's really pretty. It's pink with these weird white lines on it and it poofs out like a 50's style dress. About the "crash diet", the dress my mom brought me.....fits me pretty damn tight! I have to lose like...5 or 10 pounds before my birthday for the dress to look GREAT on me. Damn! But I love to eat! No more chips for me =( I love chips too, oh well. I dyed the bottom and underneath my hair pink...it's more of a hot pink too, but it came out fuckin HOT! hah. I saw Edwin today. Thank God for his sister having beautiful hand writing, she saved my ass by a hair...(eew). I didn't get kicked out of school, but I have to have her redoo the letter. Sucks, but hey! beats getting kicked out of school. Oh my fuckin god!!! BECKY!!! BECKY!!! Becky came to my house today!!! I was like, what the fuck is going on here! I didn't want to be mean to her so I let her in and she brought her dog over, so we went to my room. We sat down and talked and she told me she missed me and she hugged me....and it was like bliss. I had to collect my thoughts thought, because, I hadnt talked to Becky for a reason....cause she was a lying sack of bulimic shit! But, I felt so sorry for her cause she had no friends and people threw stuff at her and....her story is pretty awful. I'm thinking hard if I should befriend her again or not. I'm starving! Chips!!!!
current mood:  hungry
current music: Misfits * American Nightmare
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| Friday, September 12th, 2003
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5:09 pm - I'm Going Away For The Weekend
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Man. This sucks major penis. I have to go to my mothers house this weekend to watch a shit load of little monsters. I'm hoping I get paid for it, but then again, I'm hoping I just get to go home early. Today was Josephs first day at Continuation School. Lucky him, he got to start on a Friday. I'm freaking out because I have to turn in a Parent's Note on Monday (for me missing (skipping) school on Wednesday). Edwins sister forged me a note. I hope he gets it to me before Monday, or else I'm screwed. I'm trying not to think about it. If I just went to school like I was supposed to and I didn't have 'meeting this hot guy on my mind', then maybe I wouldn't be in deep shit. This little kids pretty cool that I talk to online. He's like 14 or something and hes fuckin funny as hell. Well, this morning me and Joseph were watching porn. Joseph raided his brothers porn collection and I was dying to watch some, so I asked him to bring em. He brought some Porno called, Hot Tasteless Tales, or something. Which....the plot of the whole porn WAS "tasteless", but all the sex was good. Hahaha. I gotta crush on this girl in my class. Shes so fuckin cute. She has the smallest body and the fattest ass I've seen (on a small person). Yeah, she's bi too. Thats hot. She thinks Edwin has "hot wet" lips. I showed her a picture of him and she told me he was cute. I was like, "No baby, YOUR cute"......JUST PLAYING! Thats the dumbest thing I could ever say to someone. Haha. Well, this is the only entry I'll be making for the weekend. My mom got her AOL takin off her computer, sucks for me. I have to find some losers to hang around with I guess.
current mood: melancholy
current music: Mike Ness * Mommies Little Monster
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| Thursday, September 11th, 2003
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6:26 pm - Heat Reflects Off My Black Jacket
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I went to school today, and I couldn't wait to get out! I met Joseph at my bus stop and we ran all the way to the High School, but we were too late. =( NO EDWIN. NO CEMETARY! So, we went to Josephs dads house. I stayed their for awhile. Joseph brought out his brother porn stash and I was like getting a sexual high from it...and right when he pulled out the porn tapes....his dad had to come. I was sooo fucked. I really wanted to watch them too. Damn Josephs dad. After an hour and a half of smoking and watching lame music videos on TV, I told Joseph I was gonna go back to the school, since it's only across the street. I worked up the nerve to go and talk to my old friend Kenny. He's so cute and innocent looking, and to think he used to like me, damn I'm such a bitch for never paying attention to him. When I went to talk to him, he kinda gave me the cold shoulder, like, "Hey Shannen." and he didn't even look at me and say it. I got kinda hurt so I just walked away and he yelled bye, but I ignored him. Sad. I'm a real bitch, so maybe thats what I get. I saw little Stevie today. He's all punk'd out. I asked him how all the guys were doing at school and he told me everyone looks different. Matty boy looks alot like Sid Vicous, which is really cool. He told me about Derik. Yeah, the hot horror boy. I hear he has the Jerry Only Misfits hair doo going on. I gotta see that! Everyone else, they just boosted the punk style up a bit. No biggie to me. Everyone wants to be punk now and days....its sad, cause, knowone want's to be Rockabilly or knowone wants to be Psychobilly. =( . Stevie looked cute. He dyed his hair black. Looks different but I liked it. I haven't seen him since I last got suspended from Rubidoux. That was awhile back. I got home 10 minutes ago. My dad called and left a message on our answering machine wondering where I was at. I called him back and he told me to get ready cause I guess hes taking me out to dinner with my step-mom-to-be. So thats cool. But people need to stop taking me out for dinner....or just out to eat period, I'm gonna blow up even more! I'm gonna start walking like a fuckin penguin! and NO I dont want that. I'm still mad cause my AIM Screen Name doesnt work. I still wanna cry. I miss this one guy that I talked too. He was soooo cool, and I don't remember his Screen Name. =( I hate it! Oh yeah! I forgot....hahahahaha! I havent talked to Rachel in like...4 weeks, 3 weeks, and I feel great. The last she said to me was, " I don't have friends! YAY! I don't need friends! Yay!". What the fuck is that shit!? Tell me please!? Cause it sounded like a bunch of bullshit to me too. Hahaha. So, I need to make some time for Edwin, cause, I really miss spending time with him....Joseph is starting to take over and I miss Edwin alot! EDWIIIIIIIIIINNNN!!! I miss you! How do you tell someone you miss them?! Hah. Well, I have to go get ready. Bye Everyone.
current mood:  pleased
current music: Interpol * The New
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| Wednesday, September 10th, 2003
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9:55 pm - Another Entry Made
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I woke up and my mom was at my front door. She had been waiting there for 15 minutes. She told me we were gonna go have dinner with her friend and her boyfriends grandaughter. I was like, "Okay, I'm not hungry, but I'll go". When we went, I didn't know my moms friends son was gonna be their. Hes hot...and cool. Hah! Funny. Yeah, Ryan, that cool hot guy that works at Spencers in the mall. We went to eat at TGI Friday's. I've never aten their before. Their fries were real good, but I ordered some chicken strips, they smelled like shit so I didn't eat them. That guy Ryan had these Jack Daniels chicken things....yeah, they smelled better and looked better than my chicken things. I took one when he wasnt looking. Haha. His girlfriend was their with us. It was the first time I'd seen her and met her. She has nice tits...I took a few glances at them. She has the most annoying laugh though. It's loud and embarrasing, well, it must be for poor Ryan. Haha. I didn't have to watch the monster from hell tonight, I was pissed cause I couldve went to Market Night, but oh well. I took another trip to the Mall at 8 o'clock. It was pretty empty and I liked the feeling of an empty mall. I kept thinking the world had ended and I was on a wicked shopping spree or some dumb fantasy like that. There were these guys outside the mall, who I guess had been looking at the patch on the back of my jacket, who came up to me and were asking me if I knew any local punks and stuff. I felt pretty stupid telling them I didn't. Some guy had asked me that earlier too at the bus stop. I think it's like a weird pass on thing..."Know any punk? Know any punks?". I'm thinking of taking a trip out to the Cemetary tomorrow with Joseph. I'm tired again.
current mood:  drained
current music: Cursive * Downhill Racers
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5:19 pm - He Never Showed =(
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=( I skipped school for today to have this guy come over to my house. =( He never showed. I don't know if I gave him the wrong bus number to get to my house, or if I didn't go out and wait for him on time, or I don't know if he just didn't come. I'm so mad and sad and...hurt. To make up for the rest of my day, since it was too late for me to go back to school, Joseph treated me to a CD at Sounds Like Music today. He brought me a Guana Batz CD. How I love em. I felt alot better after that. We walked around in the mall for awhile. We didn't stay out that long, only for about an hour. We were planning to go get Edwin from school so he could ditch with us, but....luckily we didn't...cause while I was waiting for that guy to show up this morning at the bus stop, I saw Edwins mom. She asked me and....Joseph, what we were doing wandering around and not in school. It was pretty funny cause she didn't believe that we start school later than Edwin does. Oh my goodness...another thing! While I was on my way to walk up to the bus stop to see if that hot guy came, some black guys pulled up and we're asking Joseph if he was my boyfriend! And stupid Joseph said "No", and those guys were like, "Hey Baby, Can we borrow your ears for a minute?"(whatever that means) and I was like, "Hahaha....Oh God! Sorry, I'm in a hurry." and those guys just would'nt give up, they wanted me to go and talk to them and I was so disgusted. Eck! At the Terminal Downtown, me and Joseph were standing around waiting for our bus, when some other black guys and some mexican guys were like...whisteling at me and staring at me and looking at my deformed legs and someone in a car drove by and called me a "ho". Boy oh fuckin boy! Was I pissed! And yeah....if a fuckin Greaser or punk was shouting and whisteling at me and trying to talk to me and staring at me, I woudlve been perfectly fine with it, but not no gangster hood bastards or whatever theyre called. Uh Uh! No No! Yeah, I got alot more compliments today on my hair! Geeze! I hate it! I know people say you should take compliments in a good way and as a good thing, but not me! I don't know why, but I get all offended. Joseph says I need to calm down when people say nice stuff to me. Hah. By the way, my feet are killing me! I finally put together an outfit that my creepers looked cute with, but damn, my creepers hurt my poor feet. I just got home and I'm sooo tired and sore. I still have to babysit too. My nephew is coming over to my moms and I promised my mom and my step-brother I would watch him. I think I'm getting payed, so it's cool with me. I gotta make sure to bring my Guana Batz CD so I don't get bored. I really really really wanted to go out to Market Night tonight...I was crying my poor bubbled eyes out because I forgot I HAD PROMISED my brother that I was gonna watch his little monster....so, maybe next Wednesday. Sniff Sniff. God Damnit! And I soooo wanted to see that guy today! I got my hopes up...and man! Nothing! No guy, no sex, no fun time, and yeah, no school since I didnt go. Damn. Well, I'm gonna take a nap untill my friend picks me up. I'm tired (as always). :: OHH YEAH! FUCKIN AOL BLOCKED MY xSUCKxOFFx NAME FROM AIM. I CAN'T USE IT ANYMORE. I HAVE TO USE SicTransitVaruka , NOW AS MY SCREEN NAME. i HATE IT! =( I CRIED SO BAD LAST NIGTH BECAUSE THAT HAPPENED TO MY COOL AS ORAL SEX SCREEN NAME. I DIDN'T EVEN SAVE MY BUDDY LIST....I CAN'T TALK TO ALL MY COOL FRIENDS ANYMORE. =( DAMN, I'D CRY RIGHT NOW, BUT I'M JUST TOO DAMN TIRED. GOODNIGHT ::
current mood: tired
current music: Teen Idols * She's A Poser
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| Tuesday, September 9th, 2003
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5:56 pm - My Name is Dora
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It's funny when people tell me I look like Dora The Explorer (that one girl from a kids TV Show). It's funny when people ask me if my hair is a wig or not. It's funny when people tell me they like my make-up....especially guys. Hah! I think it's funny when people compliment me...I turn pink, real pink. Ever since I started school, people compliment my clothes and hair and yeah....it makes me feel so proud to be different. Hahaha. Back to reality...Joseph came over this morning. He woke me up at the same time he does every morning, 8 o'clock. Damn, and today, I just didn't wanna wake up again. I almost didn't go to school, but I'd feel guilty staying home. Joseph told me her enrolled at Nueva Vista. YAY! This means he'll be taking the bus with me before and after school. I'm real glad cause I hate riding the twinkie bus by myself, it's really.....sad. Hah. He's excited too. I got off the first bus stop today. Joseph promised to meet me at the corner so we could go to his house. He didn't break his promise today. I was glad at that too. Hah. On our way to his house, we ran into Edwin. He went with us back to Josephs. It was alright. We had some spaghetti and peaches and yeah, "ate", at Josephs house. Me and Edwin didn't stay long at Josephs cause we had to get home. I took the RTA home. Hahaha. Joseph took it with me AND he walked me home. He's tooooo gooood to me. I feel bad when he walks everywhere just for me. I hope it doesn't seem like I'm using him in some way.....Cause I'm NOT. I don't think I'm going to go to school tomorrow. I'm so fuckin tired today. I have a little bit of homework to do. If I don't go to school tomorrow, I think I could finish it up, if not, I'll just finish it in class or something. Tomorrows Wednesday too. I think the Market Night thing is still going on, from what someones told me. I really really REALLY want to go to that. But I have to be a good girl. Hah. Yeah, so, I guess that means I better do some homework...Adios.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Hellbillys * Evil
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| Monday, September 8th, 2003
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7:04 pm - Speak No Evil
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I DID NOT want to wake up today...AT ALL! But Joseph came and woke me up this morning. While I was getting ready for school, he fell asleep on my floor, it was so cute. Haha. Yeah, when he woke up. I had to leave to go catch my stupid bus. When the bus came and picked me up, on the bus, these girls were asking me if I was dating him or if he ws my boyfriend or something and I was like, "HELL NO!". Hahaha, those girls wanted me to hook em up with Joseph. It was too funny. At school, it was boring. Me and this hot girl were drawing pictures of each other and I drew a picture of her and her boyfriend. It came out really nice, I'll admit. After school got out, I had to run and catch the other stupid bus that takes me home. It was even funnier when this guy sitting behind me on the bus, tapped my shoulder and said, "You have the cutest hair. Its really nice." I turned so pink, I never knew I could blush. I couldnt even say,"Thank You" back to him the right way. Hahaha. When the nus dropped me off on my street, I expected to see Joseph and maybe even Edwin. But, knowone was there. I was so pissed. Well, I went straight home and I waited for him to show up. Yeah, I just got quick news!!!! A girl that graduated at my old school....she was pregnant and she went into labor....knowone could take her to the hospital so she gave birth to the baby herself.....I think the baby was born dead, but she stabbed the baby to death even if it wasn't dead...she didnt know what to do after that, so she buried the baby in her backyard....the baby started rotting and the smell started rising from the dirt....the girls dad found out and called the cops on his own daughter. I dont know whats gonna happen to her, but damn that shit is sick! I cannot believe these Riverside people! What the fuck is up with all these murders and shootings....argh! its fuckin sick! I'm so disgusted!
current mood:  guilty
current music: Blasters * Dark Night
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| Saturday, September 6th, 2003
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9:57 pm - Voice Of Rebellion
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I'm watching the Man Show ( the back in the day Episodes). Damn these guys are idiots but I think Adam Corola is pretty hot. Hah. Yep, I'm so excited. I have no reason to be, but I'm pretending I have one. It's super damn hot in this room I'm in. It's like my ass is completely drenched in sweat and my hair is as wet as it would be when I get out of the shower. Damn, its that hot. Hah. I went to the mall today. Iwanted to get these kitty creepers I saw, but they dont carry them in tiny sizes. I got stuck buying these little black mary jane looking shoes with these gayass skull buckles on the side. Gayness. Oh well. Haha. Umm..I didnt wake up till 9 o clock after I got my shoes. Damn, I was so tired. I had some chicken for dinner and for some reason, I feel like getting sick. Edwin told me hes trying to cut back on the meats, and heson his way to becoming a Vegan, which is really cool. Yep. I go home tomorrow. I'm so anxious to go back for some reason. I wish I could take this computer with me back home though, cause the computers at my house are fucked up. Well, Sex is funny.
current mood: hot
current music: Mad Sin * Revenge
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| Friday, September 5th, 2003
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11:40 pm - Second Day Of School
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My bus that is supposed to take me to school....never showed. I had to call my uncle to take me to school. I was 45 minutes late. I'm suprised they let me in my class still. Phew. Joseph came over this morning. I was so happy. For some weird reason, I get really scared in my empty house, but when he was there, I didnt feel so scared. Haha. Yeah...he walked me to my bus stop at like, 10:30. I was in the bitchiest mood. The pants that I was wearing, well, the cuffs at the bottom kept falling, and I kept making Joseph fix them for me. It was so damn hot too. I had my make-up done all nice and neat...and yeah, it took me along time to do it too, well it smeared and melted onto my cheeks and around my eyes...I couldve sworn I felt like crying so bad. It was like a bad day. When I finally got to school, I only had to stay there for an hour and a half, since I got their so late. I'm doing pretty good in school for it being my second day and all. I got my second assignment since I finished the first. I think, by next Friday, I'll have my 10 credits. And I'll be done with English 10. Hahaha. Sucks that I'm not making up credits for the 11th grade, but this is what I have to do so that I can graduate ahead of my class. Well, ummmm....I'm at my moms house right now. I'm trying to type up some homework to I can fuck off this weekend and not have to worry about doing it at the last minute...sunday night. Haha. I gotta get back to work. Haha. Bye.
current mood:  good
current music: Christian Death * Romeos Distress
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| Thursday, September 4th, 2003
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6:41 pm - Today, Was A Good Day
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The first day of Continuation was nice. It's alot different from Home School and Independant Studies, but I like the change. Theres only 8 kids in my class. 3 guys and 5 girls. Thats good for me...it's been awhile since I had a good conversation with a girl. Well, I called Edwin to see how his first day of school was. He said it was okay. I'm glad...cause I'd feel bad if he had a bad day at school...cause if you start off bad, your whole years fucked. After that...I did some homework, which I'm not really used to doing (since I haven't done homework since the 4th Grade). I got some help from Edwin, so it helped out alot and I finished alot faster. Its pretty easy...but I know it's gonna get alot harder as I start moving up. I called Joseph. He said Rachel came over to his house. Some stuff went around the world, but it was NO trip to me. I've been having this "Fuck That" type of atitude lately. I need to get rid of it fast before someone beats my ass. I gotta bad mouth..haha. Oh Yeah! I went to go get my pants from the cleaners...and the stupid lady messed em up. Boy was I pissed! I've had these really funny feelings in me since yesturday...I like them alot! Hahah...hard to explain feelings...yeah, I won't explain them....yeah cause I can't. Hahahaha. "Soooo...how was your first day at school?"
current mood: hot
current music: Motorhead * Ace Of Spades
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| Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
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10:02 pm - I Was Scared!
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Yeah! Today my heart was jumping out of my body! I saw that guy...and I KNEW it was him cause his face was like...yeah....hes hot. Hotter in person but he doesnt look like he does in his picture...scary! I wonder if he noticed me...scarier! My stomach hurts bad! Ahhhhh! =( School starts tomorrow for me...if I do good, I'll graduate..I have to think positive tonight so I can learn to be ahead of the game. Haha. Bye.
current mood: excited
current music: General Public * Tenderness
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| Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003
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11:09 pm - Kapow
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Uh Uh Uh Uh Ooooh! I watched Clueless four times today. Haha. I'm like...so out of it! Like...yeah! And so back to my day...I went to go get my pants fixed with Joseph. Shit costs $6.50. Thats alot! I was starving! We went to Jack In The Box afterwords. Man...it was soo hot walking home from the Dry Cleaners. Haha. And we were both wearing black. Stupid black clothes. When we got back to my place...my room was nice and cool...like a fridgerator. We burned a few CD's and hung out...falling asleep on my bed and listening to music. It was cool. Hes starting to get into my genre of music. Which is really weird. Rockabilly and Psychobilly is far from his league. Haha. I burned him my Tiger Army CD's and a few 80's mixed CD's. He went home a happy man. How sweet. I still havent gone to replace my Interpol CD. I'm getting pissed. Fuckin CD player! Well, tomorrow me and the guys are supposed to go to the last Market Night. Its gonna be pretty sad because we built up our summer memories for the year there every Wednesday night almost...and now Summers over...sad. I gotta call from my Coordinator (from my old school) and they told me I have a Registration appointment tomorrow at 9 in the morning...Man! I hate waking up early! Alot! At least when I start going to this school, it'll only take me around 8 or 9 months to Graduate (a year ahead of my class! Yay!) I'm pretty excited about that, but I know I'm gonna have to work pretty hard. Hard is what I wanna learn to do best...haha. Well, I think I should get to bed...or try too since tomorrow I have to wake up all early and shit. So...yeah. *POOF* (I dissapear...)
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current music: Depeche Mode * It's No Good
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I never wake up this early. But maybe today, I have a reason. Hmmm....what could be that reason (?)I don't know either. Well, I called Joseph and told him to come over. I have to run to the Dry Cleaners to get some pants fixed before school starts...in which I hope I find a school to go too since I'm so far behind in credits. Haha. When I get my pants fixed, that bitch better have them done by Tomorrow, cause I need them! Now! Oh yeah! I asked this asshead if he wanted to come over today....he said something like, "It's a date." I'm not sure what he meant exactly, but I know that he was full of shit. Maybe he'll show up...Maybe, He won't. I'll just have to be patient and see. (I'M SCARED!!). Subject change:: I had a brief conversation with this guy that my friend talks too. He said some pretty serious stuff about her. I think my friend (No Comment on her name) needs a good reality check. He mentioned this to me too... " You need to stop wasting your time thinking about the past and start living your life taking steps toward your future" It was a tear jerker because he was right. I don't know about me...but a reality check is good for everyone, once in awhile. Argh!! WHERE'S EDWIN!!!?? I thought he wakes up early! Maybe he decided to sleep in on the one day that I wake up early and go online! Thank Jesus for giving me Joseph whos awake at all hours of the day....phew! So...I caught my cousin downloading MILF Porn this morning...well, I didn't catch him, but the evidence was all out in the open. My iMesh downloading program was open and it said..."MILF HUNTER"~ I'm not stupid! I know what porn is...I know what catagory that Porn is...but I won't get into that. But, I have a very big mouth and I'm willing to rat that fatass out. Hah! My cousins on online (she gotta new laptop) College Girl haha...gotta talk to her. Bye
current mood:  awake
current music: New York Dolls * Trash
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| Monday, September 1st, 2003
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10:57 pm - They Didn't Like It
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I went to go drop my brother off at my moms house. They didn't like my hair. I fixed my CD player, there was a CD jammed in it, which just happened to be one of my Cure CD's. Fuckin Cure CD's...their everywhere. At least all I have to worry about it my Interpol CD. The Burgundy dye washed out of my hair. That was a waste of 6 dollars on some cheapass dye. Edwin changed his screen name...shhh, it's a secret. Hah. Yeah and I got my webcam back from my moms. I saw Lola and shes getting bigger...maybe she can have puppies soon, with my Brody. I tried to talk to this asshole online today to see if maybe he wanted to come and "hang out" with me tomorrow, but noooo, that fuckin ass didn't wanna asnwer my IM's so I said, "Fuck it!". I watched :: I Love The 70's :: almost all day today. Damn, made me wish I lived in the 70's. I could walk around with no Bra on and stuff...not like I don't do that already, but walk around and not have anyone say shit too me. Cool huh? Hah! Oh yeah!! I saw that girl Reina at another BBQ today. She looked really pretty, again. We got wet in the sprinklers at my uncles house. She has nice boobs...NICE boobs...nice and perky boobs! I wanted to touch them but I was fine just watching them bounce around while she soaked her shirt in water...(kinda like a Wet T-Shirt contest) Hah. I had fun. She told me that she doubts she'll ever see me again and I kinda figured the same thing. It feels good to know I met a really hot chick that liked me and was willing to give me a chance thought the borderline of distance problems seperated us. Sad Sad Sad. She called me not too long ago. It was a long distance call. Cool. I feel special. Well, I have to take a mad piss...so I'm trying to type this entry super fuckin fast. Bye...
current mood: chipper
current music: Blondie * Heart Of Glass
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1:53 pm - ..Shit.
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I went and got that Interpol CD today and right when I get home...I put it in my CD player and it brakes. Breaking my brand new Interpol CD, one of my Cure CD's and scratching my Joy Division CD. Boy oh Boy! Was I mad! I have to go see if I can get my money back for my Interpol Cd...but I doubt that. I'm going to go meet Reina today...at another BBQ. I wonder what shes gonna wear (?) Hmmmm... I told this little boy :: Everyone calls me Cheap Sex, but you can call me Shannen :: He didn't get it. Hahaha.
current mood:  bored
current music: Joy Division * Disorder
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| Sunday, August 31st, 2003
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11:27 pm - Quality Time
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I had to go to a Family BBQ today. At first, I did NOT want to go but then I thought about it and I realized that I had nothing better to do...so I got ready. When I got there...we were the first people to get there...then these girls that I had met along time ago showed up. They were punks...somewhat punks to me I guess. They tried to blast their shitty version of punk and I rolled my eyes like a bitch. Then...while I was sitting at the table...all alone, this really hott ass girl comes and sits next to me. Damn....she was really pretty. She was wearing a blue jump suit thing with a belly button cut Ramones shirt. I kept looking at her tummy cause it was all pierced up and she had her jump suit sagging low so I could see she had a big tattoo above her kitty. Uh huh was she fuckin hot! After a few minutes sitting next to her...she complimented my hair and then our conversation moved on from there. It turned out she was a Greaser chick and she was from La Puente (which I don't know where that is). She's 17 years old but'll be 18 next Thursday. I told her stuff about me and I swear she was drinking beer after beer after beer while we talked. Pretty soon "that girl" ( Reina ) was buzzed. I asked her if I could see her tattoos...especially the one above her kitty...and you wouldnt fuckin believe it...SHE DID! We went to the bathroom and she pulled down her pants and showed it too me. The bitch doesnt even where panties! I was like..." WHOA!!! DAMN!!! NICE!!!!" and she was like..."Wanna touch it!?" and I freaked out and I said "No..I don't wanna feel like I'm molesting you or anything" hahaha. Did I forgot to tell you she was "HOTT!" Damn. She told me she was Bi...what a relief...cause I told her I was "curious" (but everyone that knows me knows thats a damn fuckin lie!) She asked me if I wanted to hang out with her but switched that in a heartbeat to "Wanna go on a date...sometime?" and of course I said "Fuck yeah!" and I gave her my address and number so we could..."hook up" maybe on thursday (her birthday!!) or something. She drives...thank god! It sucked because I had to leave after that. I didn't even ask her what her number was (Dumbass me) but at least I got her name...Reina! How pretty is that! I can actually say...I had a Damn Good Day (except the feeling and doubtfulness that I'll never see that girl Reina again in my life...maybe someday =( ...but meeting her was as close as close gets to a Blessing)
current mood: crushed
current music: T-Rex * Children Of The Revolution
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1:30 am - The Castle
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I took the time to plan a day of fun with Edwin and Joseph. We planned to go to Castle Park in the middle of the night as we always plan our little get togethers. The Castle was fun for it being a little amusement park with a few rides. Haha. It seemed as if every employee that worked there...were very sweet and kind to me, Edwin and Joseph. There was this one girl that commented my hair and sooo many people that looked and commented on my T-shirt I was wearing. It was pretty cool...I felt some-what popular. I have this habbit of staring at people when their not looking, and I noticed that every guy that worked at Castle Park...had their eye brows plucked or waxed because they looked like girl eye brows. I think it's a new rule :: All MALE Employee's MUST HAVE Their Eyebrows Waxed:: Hahaha. Well...after so many rides that went in circles, we finally started having that sick to your stomach feeling and thought maybe we were hungry ( for some weird reason ). We left the park and went to Taco Bell. After that...we went to Dairy Queen to use there bathrooms because Taco Bells were locked. Stupid Edwin and Joseph locked me in the bathroom and if they wouldve left me in there for more than the time that I was in there....I would've gone CRAZY! Theres not much too type and too much too much to say so I'll justgo to bed now.
current mood: tired
current music: Interpol * PDA
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