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Blurty for ashley.
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| Monday, March 21st, 2005 |
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Me: I've never seen Star Wars Adam: *gasps* Me: sorry? Adam: You are unamerican best night of work in a really long time. yay for pal, friend erin, adria, adam, melanie *happy early bday to friend erin* |
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| Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005 |
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But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time |
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| Thursday, February 24th, 2005 |
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| so it's 2:01am and i am still up because i can't go to sleep, i've been doing alot of thinking lately and it all kind of came to it's peak tonight. it's not bad, the reality of it just didn't click 'til tonight. i suddenly realized something that has slowly been coming to me the past week and a half. honestly, as much as it scares me - it's a good thing and makes me happy. now .. i just gotta work up the courage and take the next step, let those who need to know know. | ||||
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| Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005 |
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hi people, ... so upon the commencement of this entry, I realized the box in which we (or I) are (am) to write entries, says "event" .. hmm, i found this a tidge odd (but apparently I am odd, like pal told me last night but i was just trying to be nice and make him a card because it was his half birthday) okay, so the half birthday thing reminded me that i went to work last night (that's where i made the half birthday card .. if you were wondering about the connection) .. yes, so i was the guest service closer and normally i would bitch and moan about going to work , BUT not this time ... why? no, not because Derek came and visited me and Erin (it didn't happen) .. but because ERIN was working. SO MUCH FUN, don't even know where to start ... except we didn't go on break together. moving onward .. so remember how sad i was when I had to start working without Derek, well I still hate it but i've started to be like its work, i gotta go, me and Derek still completely have our friendship .. but now its going to suck because meghans leaving me too. my best friend and my pal ... major sadness, what am i going to do? so totally have been talking to Erin alot more lately, yay .. she's such a good friend and always throwing things out there. and my dear Michael Ashley, good man .. good, smart man. new favorite full house episode ... "stephanie plays the field" .. season 4 i gave pal an online curfew of 1113 except i never told him because i didn't come up with it til about 1032 when i was talking to meghan. sigh, tis now past the time. im a loser. omg, he just came back as i typed this. but i am still a loser. hehe, smiles. two updates in three days .. not bad for me lately .. omg yay, tomorrow is wednesday. anyways, nuccie out. |
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| Sunday, February 20th, 2005 |
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Big Daddy, now there's a good movie.. sigh. anyways, my life is boring, well not really but i ain't in the blurty mood lately, my bad. hmmm.. i worked today .. oh and yesterday .. and tomorrow (WITH ERIN). i've also come to appreciate the concept of sleep lately. school is dumb, no, it's tarded but the bad tarded. poo was sick this weekend and i got maj maj scared 'cause i didn't want her to die. i'm also having a hard time adjusting to some things right now, but it's all good. oh, pal is gone now.. sadness. i also want to buy the full house dvd season one, or preferably have it given to me. anything else.. hmm, not so much no. hmmm i think my family got rid of the lifetime movie network, that didn't sit well with me. allen iverson is my favorite basketball player. i just IMed jer, and he just IMed me back. me and poo were supposed to go get pretzels last night but she was sick so we didn't but we will. doesn't really feel like break, oh well, who cares, as long as i'm not in school, that's all that matters. jesse mccartney needs to flipping come. yawn. can't wait for my coke and almond pretzel, haven't decided what dipping condiment i am going to get though, maybe caramel but idk. also looking forward to wednesday. i think that's all i have to say for now, bed shortly, k thanks. haha, i just remembered this from last week when me and meghan were in her car .. radio:: if you aren't at the liquor room tonight, you're nobody me:: fuck that, we are everybody She's got a smile that it seems to me Reminds me of childhood memories Where everything Was as fresh as the bright blue sky Now and then when I see her face She takes me away to that special place And if I stared too long I'd probably break down and cry Sweet child o' mine Sweet love of mine She's got eyes of the bluest skies As if they thought of rain I hate to look into those eyes And see an ounce of pain Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place Where as a child I'd hide And pray for the thunder And the rain To quietly pass me by |
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| Sunday, February 13th, 2005 |
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lessons from tonight:: but most of all ( ... so why do i, of all people, get to have this pal-ationship with him) I need your love to hold me up |
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i would like to first and foremost apologize to all of you for my lack of updates, just haven't been feeling the blurty motivation so what has been happening in my life this past week? honestly, i can't remember ... "Lil' mama show me how you move it go ahead put yo back into it Do ya thang like there aint nothin to it Shake.. sh..sh..shake that ass girl. " oh i do recall biffy running over a fence post, haha .. everyone, just IM her and say "haha". oh ps, Tom Brady won the superbowl, a week ago to the date, in case y'all forgot.. HOLLER. how those two things are connected, i do not know. here, i'll come up with a connection .. biffy is my bff and sir thomas is my lover .. see that was easy! and .. oh my word, boy howdy. thursday and friday were the best dave moments ever... ever. and if he isn't aware that i have a camera in which 21 out of the 27 pictures on it are of him, then he really is a moron. but who cares, because dave is god. so justin called me a slut last night and know what i say:: "your mom" OH! caitlin is now like ocd with dane and yay, holler .. go me. but still, gary is the best - def def.. (sugar cookie). friday night, poo and i went to Michael Me's house. tres fun and he has a rather comfy couch thing. and then shoe shopping except no shoes were purchased. and it was definitely reassured that myself and meghan are one person, case in point ... "moron". quote of the day: me:: if justin timberlake was to ever get with me michael:: like its an honor for him oh my love, kelly clarkson was on SNL last night .. i'm such a freak but i love her, lol. i wish i was kelly. worky worked all yesterday afternoon/night and this morning, except the only day i enjoyed working was today. ... i know this is random but i want to type it while i remember ... i really want to try that cherry vanilla dr pepper, k thanks. so, i think thats all i really have to say .. i think .. nuccie out. |
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| Sunday, February 6th, 2005 |
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friday night was an adventure. christina and i traveled to RIT and then back to webster for more entertainment and some food and then earthtones, got lost a few times but hey what did you expect but i am still proud of us to have found RIT from memory, so there. it was an enjoyable evening. and chai lattes rule my world. two minute warning til the end of the superbowl .. and who is winning, the patriots .. thank you very much. sorry for all ya'll rooting for the eagles, i never meant to disappoint you. i hate it when people try to act like they care about the superbowl, yet they've never seen a single regular season game. >> and tom brady, there's one nice looking man. or as adria likes to put it, "fo shizzle ma nizzle tom brady's the shizzle!" ... either way, tom brady is tom brady and noone will ever be tom brady. worked yesterday, that was uh.. fun (not really).. i did manage to take all my breaks and lunches with erin and meghan .. "walk with a few more diamonds up your ass" .. happy paul's gone, but idk its still just not the same anymore. :-/ the full house season one dvd comes out on tuesday. insert [::holler::]. oh yeah, me and meghan are one person, k thanks (or you can go to hell). been on a goo goo doll kick lately. sometimes i forget how talented they are. i had the worst dream i've had in a while last night, it felt so real though, i know the circumstances in it would never happen but it's having a very strong effect on me. |
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| Thursday, February 3rd, 2005 |
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I am really tired, so this should be quick. hmm .. idk even what to say, OH! no, nothing. hmm ... school is boring, totally biding my time now. My AP Calc midterm bit me in the ass, so that's always fun. Oh, and what is up with gym being a real class now? Can someone please tell me that?! Something was said Monday night that really offended me to a certain degree and it's caused me to sort of keep to myself, it didn't really click in 'til Wednesday when I started talking to people about it and it's sorta brought down yesterday and today. As much as I hate work, it was good to go last night. It was good to see Hayley, Katrina, and Erin 'cause they all made me laugh. Yay for working with friend Erin, def gotta do that more often... def. And even though I am probably going to get fired due to my behavior at the huddle (thanks Erin) but oh well, I was just being loyal. Erin.. I'm just gonna throw this out here, you don't have to answer me now... think about it and get back to me. What has made me happy this week? Food, Last Comic Standing, working with Erin, Adria, talking to KellyPoo and Derek. I talked to Derek today for maybe ten minutes (dumb poker nights .. hehe), if that and it made my night. It made the gloominess of the past two days just go away for that little bit. Reasons like this remind me why I can't lose him ever, he means too much to me. I'll give a little bit of my life for you |
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| Sunday, January 30th, 2005 |
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one of the creepiest yet funniest weekends of my life >>>>Imagines75: yesterday i opened my fridge and there was a bottle of pepsi and i go "what the hell is that doing there?" and my dads like "thats all they had" and i go .. ready, "well you can have fun drinking that yourself" Imagines75: and then i am looking at the target flyer this moring and pepsi is 2 for 5$ and i go "oh look pepsis on sale, too bad i wont be buying any" SweetHeart7218: its almost as bad as my "what the fuck" comment when i opened the orange pad<<< on friday, myself and Meghan went out with MAshley and his sister. got ourselves some chinese and then went to the movie theater and then the cops came .. that's it in a nutshell. so on our way to chinese, we were stuck behind a rather slow moving vehicle and Meghan shouts, "YOU ARE HOLDING UP MY DINNER FUCKERS" and my life was complete. oh and ps, at the chinese restaurant - they serve pepsi and the ice cream is only for children. and then this convo between me and Meghan: Meghan: what the fuck is on your plate Me: i dunno Meghan: you put it there haha, i just remembered when i took my midol at dinner and dropped it down my shirt. that made us laugh and then we couldn't swallow our pepsi .. oh like the rest of the meal. then to the movies where we purchase our value coke and i get a small popcorn, except poo to my right ate most of it. that's all i want to say about the movies, k thanks. then the cops came 'cause of the car and the fatass almost fell in the ditch. i don't want to talk about this either. laser tagged it yesterday night. HOLLER. with Jer, Bif, Food Ave Adam, SABA and other peeps idk.. no pal though but i forgived him. Unlike the rest of the gang, i did not have a star wars code name, I was Jeremy and it was quite comical when Jer realized that. oh i just remembered when i first saw FAAdam dripping sweat, what a sight. went back to RIT where I was lifted and thrown (in the air) into a snowbank by friend Jer and then i had to crawl my way out while talking to pal on my phone, thanks Jer. lesson learned from last night, it's ridgemont, not greece ridge plaza. worked today and when i say worked, i mean i sat on my fatass and answered the phone for seven hours. bif was stupid and i said "hi meet my bff .. the moron". k, gotta go so I can get back to talking to Derek. |
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| Friday, January 28th, 2005 |
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1:57am on January 28, 2005 ... pal gets me at my own game.. it was brutal, definitely didn't expect it but he totally shut me down .. props pal, props. exams are finito and i didn't study for any, so if i fail, i guess i deserve it. yeah, don't care anymore. i finished eco in 38 minutes and psych in 54, damn i am good. Derek came over last night. (hehe). i want sugar cookies and today sucked. love my pal though, he made me feel better. tomorrow - CHINESE. enough said! Derek says it's bedtime, so goodnight children. |
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| Tuesday, January 25th, 2005 |
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exams suck and they annoy me. know what else annoys me, when people spell "suck" like "sux" .. that is just retarded people, c'mon. sorry, i am in a bitchy mood. so my plan for the ap calc exam didn't work, we all ended up going and ap english was pointless and french, well there's a joke for you. economics tomorrow and psych thursday morning, big yip. only thing getting me through this week is what's happening tomorrow when i get home and then friday .. both are and will be superb ways to spend my time. and i hate work, yep, i do, that's right. let's see, i am asked friday night at 7pm to work 745-415 saturday morning.. originally only asked to work til 12:15 but they are too dumb to realize that they had nobody from 12:15-4:15, so i do, sick as your mom, opening food ave to save their asses and then they get pissy with me when i call in for a four hour cashier shift on sunday, keep in mind i can barely talk to even call in. yeah they can fuck off. worked again tonight, it wasn't bad .. melanie and jeff made my night as i was sent to food ave. there are certain people in that store that people know to keep me away from because i clearly hate them and wouldn't mind getting an attitude with, but then i would lose my job, so hey, what ya going to do? and ps i still am protesting the loss of my favorite target team member ever, they are highly, highly missed by many. superbowl in .. eleven .. days (i think), insert ::holler:: i have been talking to adria alot lately, major coolness. and jer - you are awesome-o, don't forget that.. EVER! ps i wanna thank my pal. i don't know what i would've done without them these past few days, i might have just gone officially crazy or broken down or something, i don't know .. let's not think about it. thankyou pal. Or the luck they're supposed to bring I've used all my wild cards But theres something I can do To get close to you I've got dreams of love and I love you I know you feel the same way too I feel your spirit When you're near me and when you're away Somehow somewhere I'll see you again But until then I've got dreams of loving you |
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| Friday, January 21st, 2005 |
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last two days of this school week sucked and they sucked bad sons. especially thursday, yeah if it weren't so cold outside, maybe i would've run away. the only things that saved me were talking to adria and then i called derek just 'cause i needed something that i knew would make me smile. >>derek has two hours and thirteen minutes until his curfew is up<< so after school, i go to the mall with adria .. just to eat, 'cause we all know how my life revolves around food. then we had to go run a few errands for her madre. highlight: "ew or double ew? .... TRIPLE ew!" come home, finally talk to pal for more than two seconds ... >>derek has two hours and eight minutes until his curfew is up<< ... bif comes over and she finishes getting ready and we depart. we are out and stuff and i end up back at the mall, nothing too fascinating really.... ROLLCALL!! ... oh fun times with the bif (don't be hatin'). ps i am evil and will be going to hell shortly. haven't seen meghan in too long, thanks. not kosher. no way jose. i just made a joke about the damn kitten and now i think i am funny. the rules of "k thanks" use and some pointers: ie. "derek can return from away now, k thanks" "k thanks" is a very serious phrase, please respect it >>derek has one hour and fifty-five minutes til his curfew is up |
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| Tuesday, January 18th, 2005 |
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i don't know how to say it but tonight was just the best night in such a long time. i got feelings that i haven't felt since august and september, i feel sorta refreshed and like a new start. idk, it was just an amazing night. he means the world to me, i don't need to talk about here 'cause he knows how i feel. :) right, pal?! |
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| Monday, January 17th, 2005 |
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so right now i am talking to jer and watching maury >> i would like to take the time right now to apologize to jer for only including him once in my friends survey wrote two college scholarship papers today, that was fun and when i say fun, i mean not. i also decided that i am not going back to school tomorrow. k thanks. ps looove christina ps oh and ps love that the eagles and the patriots both won yesterday. [insert holler] i want sugar cookies there was something else i wanted to say ... hmmm .. oh yeah, i remember .. my half bday is in like three days i think and i asked emily (well caitlin asked emily for me) to make me cookies 'cause i wanted some and that was the only excuse i could think of, and emily was like "sure" .. so that made me sooo happy. i wasn't expecting that but yeah .. yum cookies. i miss my pal. its sorta amazing how much you can love someone just for who they as a person and not including all the other reasons you discover later. hehe. |
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| Sunday, January 16th, 2005 |
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woke up at 1117 after going to bed at 422 thanks to white noise so thankyou white noise, talked to derek for a little while, watched the jets game, went out to lunch with bif at applebees, came home, saw that the jets lost, went out with laine, adria, and christina to dinner at panera bread, then the movies to see meet the fockers, then earthtones, came home, watched the fourth quarter of the falcons kicking ass, talked to meghan, doing this yeah but seriously, def need more times out like tonight with adria, christina, and laine. it was fun and relaxing. madd nice. and we didn't gossip, we just talked and expressed our opinions and there is nothing wrong with that. k thanks Friend Survey You've known the longest: Adria You've known the shortest: Hayley The one thats most special: i can't say that! it wouldn't be fair to the others You can tell anything to: mainly Derek, but also Meghan, Jer, BFF, Christina Lives farthest away: hmmm ... Adria? Lives closest: BFF Weirdest: All, it's like a prerequisite to being my friend Funniest: Me Most Shy: Christina Quietest: UH.. no Smartest: The Lambert Coolest: Meghan, def def Biggest Flirt: BFF Sweetest: Michael Ashley Cutest: Derek Tallest: JMoney Shortest: Meghan Most outgoing: Adria Most hyper: Meghan Most friendly: lol none of my friends, i'll say me Most caring: Jess Most annoying: HELL Most TRULY unique: Derek Most kissable: ^ Most adorable: ^ Most confusing: JMoney Most crazy: Meghan, Laine, Adria Always there for you: BFF, Christina, Meghan, Derek, Adria, Jer Always makes you laugh: Meghan Always has something clever to say: Jer Always makes you really think: Derek Always brigtens your day: ^ Best entries to read: hmmm i am told by many that my entries are the best but i guess ... Dave Most likely to be on tv: The Lambert, when we own the yankees duh. The one you'd take your clothes off for: i am disinclined to say here, ask me in a separate convo lol The one you'd make love to: ^ The one you would like to see in person: huh? that makes no sense The one who's never been single: uh ... idk .. MEGHAN The one who's always single: uh ... i really don't know this one First to get married: Jess or Me, possibly Meghan The one you'd be dating: duh. The player: BFF The heartbreaker: BFF |
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| Saturday, January 15th, 2005 |
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so i just downed a bag of sour patch kids, you may ask why .. and i can tell you why .. because you should not go see scary movies at 11pm .. ever kk, so tonight was the usual ehots gathering. s'all good, my dates were michael and meghan, both are fabulous. we all met there at 830, and not a minute sooner! good thing meghan's car is so toasty. so gregory, meghan, myself, michael, jer, tyler, and elana all meet and then like 12 minutes later jess comes. YAY! so bif thinks she sat at a table with jer and tyler because we couldn't "handle their wonderful presence" .. no, there just wasn't enough room at one table for all of us to comfortable eat. k thanks. meghan:: let's go to our car after ehots, me and the poo go back to her house. we wanted to watch the lord of the rings the two towers but we were unsuccessful in retrieving a copy, thanks pal ;). so we go online and my sister calls me and asks me something and since my dad is seven years old, he wanted to go see a movie and we all decided to go with him. yeah, white noise .. do not see that movie. wasn't even like it was that scary but it messed with my flipping head, ain't gonna lie. sat next to meghan, we were so scared we held hands and i don't think i even watched the last half hour of the movie and i wouldn't allow my feet to touch the ground .. at all. and value sized cokes cost $4.06. meghan:: screw your dvd, we're going to see a real movie ~ me:: fuck that, when you die, you're died, done have alot of work to do this weekend, like college and midterms and crap and its gonna suck but the only thing that is getting me through it is knowing that monday will come and i am looking forward to monday. If you feel your grip getting loose just know that I'm right next to you Hold on to me omg so yeah.. trying to calm down right now but ain't working so much. i think pal should come back online so i can talk to him about my experience tonight and then he might be able to make it all better but then again it is poker night, meghan. |
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| Wednesday, January 12th, 2005 |
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i forgot to put this in the last blurty entry:: (meghan:: i am so glad target has coke products) k thanks ps talking to my biffy the past few days has made me really at ease. thanks bif. so i didn't go to school yesterday because i didn't really feel like it and neither did bif, so then what is the point? know what i mean? but i went to work at night and the first hour was like cool as whoa because me and meghan were on lanes six and eight, respectively. but then she left. i am sorta contemplating whether or not i want to quit target, i was contemplating a while back but decided against it but now i sorta want to. o and gregory holtz was cart attendent, probably one of my more favorable fellow team members. he is madd solid. came home from school at 12 today, really just because i felt like it, no real reason. (wasn't pirate day) ... then i went to the mall with meghan, just to eat .. not to buy anything, just purely to eat 'cause there is a selection in the mall and we couldn't decide what to eat. so we go and the stupid dumb atm is broken so we had to walk to other end of the mall to get money but s'all good. come back to the food court and meghan starts flipping grunting and that will be one of the greatest moments of my life .. i am loling hardcore as i write this, like hardcore .. so i contain myself from laughter or something, idk and go to get two slices of pizza (no drink, it was pepsi products), then go get a plate of chinese (combo A) and a coke and go sit down. lol, meghan:: "can i order a side of you're a bitch" . so yeah, we are eating and laughing and enjoying our massive amounts of food, which we ate all of ps. good thing black is a slimming color! ... ps, does the mall have a manager? and do they have my picture? as if we haven't eaten enough, we go to auntie anne's and we each get a pretzel and a medium coke, tres yum. and this def supplied the quote of the day, also one of my most random quotes of the day... (me:: sometimes .. i think i am pregnant .. then i remember ... i haven't had sex .. yet) lol and meghan:: (fuck that, they'd poison us) and (thats not its name) and (you look like you would enjoy a garbage plate) so yeah, came home and didn't do any work but hey what's new BUT i did talk to derek .. phew .. i went a day without talking to him and it was like whoa, no just joking but in all seriousness i love talking to him, we agreed not to go more than two days without talking to eachother, idk. good convo, just hehehe I can't live this life Without you by my side I need you to survive .. i think it might all turn out to be okay |
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| Monday, January 10th, 2005 |
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ps apparently i take too long for hayley, thanks. friday.. major time spent with meghan, hayley, and michael ashley. ps i am an absolute fabulous breadstick maker and i sorta wish i could've had more mashed potatos but no *ahem*. yeah, twas a good night. (quote of the night) meghan:: damn and i just bought a 36 pack of condoms, what am i supposed to do with them now? saturday.. work til 3 and then more time spent with meghan and sir michael ashley. garbage plates [insert HOLLER]! (quote of the night) me:: where's michael? meghan:: i dunno .. hell? sunday.. best day of my weekend .. derek came over and we hung around until we both had to go to work 5-9. yeah, he def is my favorite. for the most part, it was a good day. :) today.. returned to school and that sucked but then i came home and went out with meghan. yet another target run to get break room cokes and this time, cookies, which we waited to be made. ps i quite enjoyed when i flew out of my seat due to the cookies being finished. (quotes of the night) meghan:: sam .. can die -- me:: look at this chick walk up in here like she owns the store -- meghan:: don't worry, even if you do horrible, you can still pass your road test judy:: are you lying? meghan:: yes its a fight, and I really wanna get it right .be happy pal. |
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| Wednesday, January 5th, 2005 |
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kk, monday - school, sucked. tuesday - get to in a second. wednesday - school, sucked. yesterday i went on a date with meghan. it was such an amazing date too. time for a recap! first we went to the mall. that's all i am allowed to say in regards to that topic. then we went to target, for no reason really - WAIT YES! we wanted to get a coke from the break room. yes, we wanted our break room coke. so after walking around the whole store saying "greg.. greg..", we found him. then we saw shelley and it was so exciting, i just pushed her cart and took off her shoe and it was MADD fun. okay, so then it was time to go get our break room cokes, but we needed to avoid beth so she wouldn't yell at us. so meghan goes, "i have an idea, lets go through green world and go through the back break room door" and then on the way out we sprinted, bolted, darted, hightailed it past beth to food ave where meghan had an oatmeal raisin cookie and i had this conversation with derek: Moi: "No, do not leave. Stay here and entertain me." Derek: "I have to go outside, I do not get paid to entertain you." Moi: "Actually, yes you do." Derek: "Oh, do you pay my paychecks?" Moi: "Uh, yes." Derek: "With what money?" Moi: "My money." Derek: "You have no money." Moi: "That's 'cause i give it all to you!" meghan and myself highly enjoyed that conversation. shortly after it, beth discovered us sitting in food ave, but just walked out of the store disappointed. so yeah, AMAZING date - i know. York35: nothing scares me York35: well except the income tax ^ i found that funny .damn kitten. |
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Blurty for ashley.
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calm.
groggy.
awake.
grateful.
nerdy.
bored.
discontent.
scared.