[Most Recent Entries]
Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in
|Sunday, February 23rd, 2003|
why do I love Melissa?
SORRY HI I AM ALIVE.
|Sunday, January 26th, 2003|
I'm sorry hi. here I am. I don't know where I've been other than going to Asia. Uhm, I don't know whats going on so bare with me if I'm slow and if I'm suppose to know something but I don't know what so yeah.
I love it how Melissa is always like, where is Jesse. She is the greatest, why isn't she my girlfriend yet or something? I'm surprised she'd still be all ,"JESSE :'(" because I've been neglecting this.. and her sob. Mmmmmmelissa is the best, and lets pretend this whole entry is dedicated to her... Melissa melisas mlelissial;dmleilsslamelissa:'(.
I think I now know whats going on... and yeah :-\.
I am done reading past entries, wzzup now.
melissa melissa melissa :'(
Current Mood: mmmmelissa :-*
Current Music: Taking Back Sunday - Blue Channel
|Thursday, January 2nd, 2003|
Elisha loves my layout... and she really isn't boycotting me. My layout is fucked up, I tried to do something to it but it just.. all flowed to the left so I don't care... I hate html. The color is kind of giving me a headache though.
So, talking to Melissa... I think I actually like her. K so I really don't think, I know so that I like her. I mean look at her, she's so pretty. Seeing her like two days ago made me really happy that she actually came and watched us... or me. So um after performing Sk8er boi, losing grip, and finally complicated i took off my pants and jumped around in my boxer/pajama. So I think I'm getting sick, but who (I typed whore..) cares if I'm sick right now. Who I care is ummmm.. Melissa. :-D. I think I'm sounding cheesy and stupid sorry I'll stop right now.
but, shes really amazingdsjkfdalfas.
ps. Melissa make new icons.
ps again. I showed her my ass :-[
Current Music: Simple Plan - When I'm With You
|Monday, December 30th, 2002|
wwhhaatt iiss uupp.. ii aamm ssoo bboorreedd.. llooookk wwhhaatt ii aamm ddooiinng.
sorry no more.
|Sunday, December 29th, 2002|
Yeah... theres this person, that I kind of talked to today, they just seemed amazing and I was like all fjdsklfkdslf, I don't know. Ew I think I have a crush.
I really have nothing to update about other than, why does David get 115 comments? God, what do I need to do to get so much? I'll sell my body. come on people 1cent.
I am really hungry and all the food around me I'm like no I don't want to eat that. I thikn I'm losing some weight and thats bad, food just turns me off right now >:O
Elisha would you please die?? >:O okay not really but mmm:-*
I'm really tired right now,and its only 10 24. sup.
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Somthing Corporate - I Want To Save You
Where is everyone? Wait, maybe'll be a good idea if I actually came online other than lurked. Um no one is online.
Where is Little Lavigne, I am going to teach her how to spell her name like Michalle Lavange. Or something like that.
Current Music: Good Charlotte - Say Anything
|Saturday, December 28th, 2002|
I'm alive, oops.
Here I am trying to update and I'm spammed with IMs not really but can we just say that because yeah. And someone already wants to fornicate, its all good but the rather do it with matt.
I don't know where I was but I'm here I think yeah. K aww, Little Lavigne has a journal how great is that.
exactly elisha: just update about how bad you want me and you'll be forgiven
I really really really want Elisha down my pants please. there you go.
i dont know what else to say fdsjkfdshdfherhrg
Current Mood: what i don't know
Current Music: shut up
|Tuesday, November 26th, 2002|
This icon freaks out Mark so I'll use it... well its new okay. But look, my chin looks fucked up, oh well.
I bit my lip, while chewing gum how smart is that? I also keep on biting it, I think theres no use for it to heal if its going to be bit on every 5 seconds.
It amuses me how the internet released out I'm With You. It's really great because Avril is kicking some ass. But yeah, the camera just focuses on Avril which is cool because she's singing, and it flashes us. Ummm... I think Charlie ruined it.. yeah okay I really should stop hating on him because he is really a nice guy. K, I'm With You will premier tomorrow... but if you really can't wait I'll link it up :shrugs:.
Ew, some people can't really screen cap, why can't I download I'm With You and cap my own, god.
ps. Why is Mark burning Evans shirts, they are too good, even though its like.. star shirt, star shirt, star shirt, and siesta.
Current Music: Simple Plan - Addicted
|Sunday, November 24th, 2002|
is here. Hey Mark... hows Closet Monsters goin.. without me? Heh..
So I deleted, I shouldn't have though because I still lurked around and it was hard commenting when your journal is deleted.
Hmm, I hope things are.. okay now. Because Evan- I'm sorry thats all I have to say. I feel like shit whenever I'm around you now, because I know what I did was wrong and yeah. I just hope that you can forgive me, and if not now, eventually can you forgive me? I kind of liked it how we were buddy buddy.. before it happend.
yeah, Hi Mark
|Friday, November 22nd, 2002|
|Get Inside Your Mind...
Today was quite frustrating for me. I woke up feeling 10 x shittier and I just wanted to stay in bed, close my eyes and not wake up. But really I can't do that, I got up and really tried to avoid everyone.
I talked to Matt today- the only person I ever did... minus commenting. But it wasn't really a good conversation, I mean it was quick, and kind of ended like that. I don't think I have a best friend who I can really talk to and tell them how I feel. I will get over it... eventually
. Infact, I don't ever recall having a best friend, just a fucking guitar- pen and paper. :shakes head: Wow, I thought that I would become a much more happier person.. than before, but really it feels equally the same. you'll always be that same ol' Jesse 4 years ago... same fucking Jesse Colburn.
Its getting late, I need rest...I know you lie awake at night
Counting stars but
You know they're only satellites
They don't hear wishes( ... )
This CD is great. Current Music: Justincase - Tell Me (What I Mean To You)
|Thursday, November 21st, 2002|
:mumbles:I knew I should've just.. stayed back not get into anything :sigh:...
I really feel like there is one thing to do.. and I don't know. I just feel like its necessary for me to do it...
Umm.. edit to this. I feel like shit, and I actually feel like a nothing. Yeah I fucked things up, I found out stuff, and now I'm backed away. I don't know why I am still here... I know I should've left with Mark, but I didn't want to, everything seemed to great and too good to be true.
It's felt like I lost two friends, and again its my fault, I don't know what else I can do other than stay away and apologize about 500 x more. I mean what more can I do? And again I feel quite shitty that I can just stay in a bed and not ever move.
I don't know what more else to say, I'm quite speechless, just full of I don't know. I don't want to get up at all... just leave me alone. I'll eventually be "okay" if not... I'll put on a fake face and walk around with such fake emotions.
And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can the world want me to change,
They're the ones that stay the same.
The don't know me,
'Cause I'm not here.
yeah so I've fucked things up, shoot me whatever...
why do I even bother.. right?
Current Music: John Rzeznik - I'm Still Here
|Wednesday, November 20th, 2002|
blah I messed up, and oh well I'll keep this entry because I have a comment on it
|Wednesday, November 13th, 2002|
i am a guitarist for avril lavigne, like oh my god wow, lets all ask for my autograph now!
um really i dont know. hi
edit: i think im very uncreative so, here. just jesse okay.
i love that okay at the end, i will now over use okay, okay, okay okay okay okay okay okay okay?