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Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
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11:13 pm
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[ I'm alive I swear! Sorry for lack of updates, the place I work at has been really crazy lately. It is a really long story but to make it short. They waited 4 months to fix my computer, I have to catch up all of the paper work piled up thanks to that plus the crap they found. But yeah I just wanted to say I am still alive but if you remove me I will understand trust me. :) ]
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| Friday, March 14th, 2003
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1:02 am
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*Sits down on my bed with a small envelope, opens it up and reads over the letter.*
Oh give me a break....*Crumbles the letter up in a ball and tosses it in the trashcan nears the door*
He wants another chance. After all that has happened he said he wants a second chance, that he has change, that things would be different. Yeah right. He is probably the only one who would want you.... *Sighs* I need to remind myself next time I see him to break into song and tell him to Cry Me A River. *smiles*
I need to start getting ready to promote the Catch Me If You Can dvd, it's coming out pretty soon. This month I think. It sound be sort of fun I guess. *Shrugs*
I really need to get out or something. And I am just rambling now so I think I will just go to sleep. That always seems to work pretty good.
current music: Picture - Kid Rock & Sheryl Crow
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| Monday, March 10th, 2003
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12:39 am
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*Walks into my apartment tossing my purse to the side*
I went to the SAG awards tonight. I wasn't nominated for anything that I know of. That is bad when you can not even remember if you are nominated for an award or nothing. I didn't see Scott there....normally I would have him to walk down the red carpet with but he wasn't there. I walked down the red carpet alone. I am going to make this a short update since I'm pretty tired. But I heard this song on the way back and it really hit me...I won't sit here and say or try to sing the whole song. Trust me if I started singing you would end up totally deaf. But the part that really hit me hard was this...
shame on you, if you fool me once
Shame on me if you fool me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
Should've known better but I didn't
And I can't go back
Oh life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
And this feelin' that I can go back
Life goes on
And it's so true. Life does go on. No matter what happens it goes on. The bad things that happen to us we learn from and it makes us stronger. It sort of prepares us for the next hurdle in our lives. If you have one horrible tragic thing happen in your life and you get through it...you can make it through anything. Just like I'll make it past this whole I'm divorced thing... *smiles slightly and heads to bed*
current mood: tired
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| Wednesday, March 5th, 2003
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11:06 am
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*Hears the banging at the front door, slowly gets up & sleepily walks to the door opening it. Looks at the lawyer sighing heavily signing for the papers. Closes the door before walking to the living room and sits down in the chair.*
I already know what this is there is no need to open it. It is just telling me that the one person I was suppose to spend my life with is practically non-existant now. *Sighs* I stopped wearing the ring a while ago...near the end of filming Daredevil. I could never talk about it, I could never explain when people asked where it was. Everyone wanted it to be a secret until it was official. Well now it is. *Throws the papers to the kitchen.*
I thought I did everything right you know? I thought that when you fall for someone and you take that next step and say I Do that it was suppose to last. Maybe it is my fault....as my career picked up we saw less and less of each other. He did not want to come along to the sets he wanted to stay behind. Now I know why...I found out that night I came home.
*Wipes away falling tears.*
I am not letting him do this to me, not anymore. I am a stronger person that this... sure you are Jen I need to get out and do something. They always say life goes on and it does and it will...I will just do my best to suck it up and smile. Move on with my life and not let what happened hold me back from anything...
*Gets up cutting on the radio and turns up the volume. Heads to the bathroom to take a shower.*
current mood: lonely
current music: Life Goes On - LeAnn Rimes
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| Tuesday, March 4th, 2003
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6:38 pm
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*Walks into my apartment and lays down on the couch with a sigh.*
It feels so good to sit down. I have been at the Alias set since four this morning.
I'm Jennifer Garner, most everyone calls me Jen. As for my age? Let us just say I really do not look my age, people are shocked when I tell them. Not to mention when I have to explain about my husb...ex.... The seventeen hour days can be so tiresome sometimes but it is totally worth it.
I am still having to help promote the movie Daredevil some. The normal midnight flights to New York in time to be on the Today's show and answer the same questions. What was it like filming with Ben and Colin? Were there practical jokes on the set? Things like that. I had a blast filming it. Even if it did drive Scott and I apart.
I am not too sure what else to add right now. I could seriously use a shower.
*Pushes myself off of the couch and heads to the bathroom.*
current mood: tired
current music: Life Goes On - LeAnn Rimes
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