i'd. been. searching. for. you // chemistry

I must never have been able to notice, before the moment I first met you
I walked along, thinking I could live alone

All the doubts and regrets I had held so close
Were blown away by your innocent smile

Always, always by your side
Here, closer than anyone else
With these feelings, stronger than anything
I'll always protect you

I thought I finally understood, but just when we faced each other I tried to act strong
Before and after, I might keep repeating this pattern

Let the tears flow, when I can't even find the words I want to say
As long as we're together, we'll overcome everything

Always, always by your side
Here, closer than anyone else
With these feelings, stronger than anything
I'll always protect you

On a bright, sunny morning
Or on a windy night
No matter what the day is like, with unchanging feelings
I want you to look only at me

Counting the star drops, I sighed
Out of all these coincidences
This one thing that was born between us
Is not a miracle

Always, always by your side
Here, closer than anyone else
With these feelings, stronger than anything
I'll always protect you

Today, tomorrow, and the day after that
No matter how many years go by
Only this will never change
I'll always be looking only at you

I must have understood, in that moment when I first met you
I'd just been searching, I'd been searching for you
I'd been searching for you
I'd been searching for you

Blurty for Tsukasa.

do reallyknow how
i feelinside my
heartsince you
left me
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Monday, August 11th, 2003

Subject:boku wa...atashi desu~!!!
Time:1:01 am.
Mood: amused.
Music:Gackt = Sayonara.
08/11

Man, today was one of *those* days. I'm still barely paying my car insurance and made one of my friends buy me a bubble tea at the mall, to comfort me. Hahaaaaaaa yeah I'm pathetic at times. -.-** Since this is actually my first post and etc. I'll probably just describe what's going on. Oh, and to those who are reading this and are confused, this *is* actually my first time on blurty because this used to be my cousin's blurty but she handed it over to me, after I was complaining about needing something to vent with. Apparently she moved on to Xanga or whatever the hell they are called so since I made her the layout and etc. anyway I just claimed it back! XP So to Ayu's friends or whoever are reading this, too bad! She's gone! It's mine now, all miiiiinnneeeee!!!! *evil laughter* And I'm a loser. Yes, fair warning you are reading the ravings of an insane misfit. *hears people running.* I thought so. ¬_¬()

Anyway back to me! This is the Tsukasa show now~! Hahahahahaha! *cough* Well yes anyhow, college starts in about 3 more weeks and I reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaallllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy don't want to go! >< But my roommates are already complaining that I need to come back so I can pay for my rent, so I'll leave home soon. Blah. I wasn't living there for 2 months! They can pay their own bloody rent! Though I admit, California does have really high apartment fees. @_o;

I go back but really, only 2 of my classes will be offered and then a few weeks later, the rest of them will begin. Oh well, guess I can sleep in. ^_^ For awhile at least. =/ Oh! And GOOD news! I got a job! By miracle, I was flirting with the right person (for once) at a bookstore, of all places and he landed me a job! ^_^ It's at this small local cafe and close to the apartment, so I'm happy. ^_^ My brother said it was a nice place and the kind that served coffee and cakes, etc. and sort of a nice place to hang out or study. I'm stoked! *_* And that nice guy works there too ^^ Actually he's the manager o_O; Kinda bad cuz I didn't see him as anybody but a cute friend. ^^;; Oi ve...--;; I don't wanna get fired! ;__; I haven't even started yet. >_<;

My brother heads back to Columbia (the college) in another week and I'm going to miss him! Waaaaaahhhhh the future doctor of the family. ;__; He better buy me a car someday!! =X Right now, I'm going crazy cuz I need to pick a major soon. o_O; I was thinking of computer design but I'm not good enough for that, so how about something with money? I dunno, I know one cousin Takeru, back in Kobe wants to be a banker but I think he probably has a better chance at a math oriented job then me. I really hate the subject but it's not *that* bad. I think Mia wants to be a shrink, hahaha but she's good at that kinda stuff so that's good. Hmm...Jinnie wants to be a vet...Marc wants to go into the hotel business o_O;...They've all decided! So many of my friends have decided! Aggghhhhh....what should I do? What do I want to devote my life to? I dunno!!! *pulls hair* Owie...;__;

Aw...I dunno what I want to do. I think I'll go watch some Inu Yasha and brood some more...


-Tsukasa
outsiders: don't walk away

Blurty for Tsukasa.

do reallyknow how
i feelinside my
heartsince you
left me
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