AUGH! I hate M-Paint. I was a decent drawing program. One that requires one of those really cool ass pens. Oh the carnage I could cause with one of those.
HEY speaking of stuff. Here's another snippet of my Not So Private Private Collection!!! YAAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!
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So anyways, had a good ol fuckin time at Jacob's. We stayed up all feckin night & whatnot.
His EX Girlfriend is talking alot of shit about me now. It's funny. I only have a few things to say about that.
I was Jacob's friend LONG before she even came into the picture & whether she likes it or not...I'll be there for a long time after she's gone. I mean really...fuck I've known him for more than 3 years & she decides she wants to be cunty about it NOW?! Riiiiiiggghhttttt
Yeah ok & she called me a Poster Child for Hot Topics. I'M NOT FUCKING GOTH I DONT TRY TO BE GOTH I DONT WANT TO BE GOTH IT'S ALL A BIG FUCKING JOKE & EVERYONE KNOWS IT IS! SO SHUT YOUR JIZZ HOLE ABOUT IT!
I dont fucking associate myself with those skin slicing, poetry crooning, angst mongers. Please...I can't write poetry for shit & Cloves make me uncomfortable with myself.
Now I *do* post on goth sites though. Not because I *am* goth, but because A.Goth Boys are fine & B. Sometimes I get the urge to dress all in black & coat my face with eyeliner. So fucking what?!
Me being "goth" has been a huge joke since goddamn Middle School. So she can just shut the fuck up about it.
I'm going to hang out with Jacob regardless of her insecurities. Jacob is my NIGGA! We've been down for forever & I'm not going to get up & ignore him just because she has a teeny lil problem with it. I'm not like that. If she wants to beat me, whatever. What purpose is that going to serve eh? Is it going to make Jacob love her more? Yes, sock your ex's friend in the face so he'll want you more. It makes a fat lot of sense. He's sure going to be happy with you now that you've beaten me up! Oh yeaaaaah *cough*
Yeah, it's fucking retarded. Whatever. I'll take a fist in the stomach for Jacob any day.
Chris wants me to come over. I dunno about that...I'm not sure if my claws are retractible or not today. I'll probably want to go to bed after dinner anyways. I can feel the sleepy coming at me already.
Um...I just got called weird. I wont say who by, but normally my response to being called weird is to jump up & scream "WOO PUNKRAWK!" & do a dance or something. But um, now I find it unsettling...I dont know. Now my brain is really working itself. I always thought I was a little on the odd side but I never dubbed myself *WEIRD*
"Weird" is a term I apply to those kids in the Lunchroom who spend thier breaks playing Magic the Gathering & arguing about which chick on Star Trek is hotter. Y'know? Fuck. My head is swimming. Am I really weird? Like...*really* weird?! How weird am I? Jesus...HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON?!
WHY DIDN'T SOMEONE TELL ME THIS SOONER?! Goddamn...
Weird. I'm...weird. Shit. This is GAY! I dont want to be weird!!!!! I want to be unusual...but I dont want to be WEIRD!
This is most disturbing. Now I dont wanna go anywhere. Because I'll be the "weird" one. *sigh* Another Hermit month is creeping up on me. I can feeeeel it coming now. I'm going to be all self concious because I'm weird.
I guess...I dunno...I'm gonna have to ask people. One guy's opinion...but STILL FUCK HE SAID I WAS WEIRD! AND I DIDN'T LIKE IT!!! AND I DIDN'T HAVE A SMARTASS COMMENT!!!!!! What the HELL is going on?!
First off...why the HELL should I fucking care about what he thinks of me?! We hardly know each other first off...
PLENTY of people have called me weird & I never cared about it when THEY said it. So what makes this guy the exception?! WHY?! NYYAAAAAGGGHHHH
*ahem* Dos...I can just IGNORE him if I wanted to, it's not like we're married or anything. I can stop talking to him whenever I wanted & it wouldn't make a damned difference to either one of us, but I dont WANT to. Now I want to like change his mind & shit. Show him how un-weird I am. But I can't because I *am* unusual...I'm "unconventional", I am not "your typical ho". But WEIRD?! I dont even like the way it sounds in my head. Makes me wrinkle my nose up in disgust just THINKING about the fact that someone out there thinks I am weird & I care about it. How fucking unsettling. I'm not going to be able to sleep well tonight I know that. I'll be up all night thinking about how "weird" I am & drive myself insane before dawn.
Weird...me?! DAMNIT! NO!
First I get called GOTH, then I get called WEIRD! What the HELL is going on here?! You people PISS ME OFF!
STOP CALLING ME NASTY NAMES! I'M A FRAGILE DELICATE LITTLE FLOWER WHO WILL CRUMPLE INTO THE TINIEST PIECES IF THE WIND BLOWS ME THE WRONG WAY & YOU PEOPLE ARE FUCKIN WITH MY HEAD & THAT'S JUST NOT COOL!!!
I'm gonna GO now.
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