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(1 Jumping Beans)

[04 Sep 2003|05:00pm]
[ mood | scared ]

After driving all night, she had arrived in the said town. Going off of tips from old ladies in cottages, she drove to where she thought they would be. The forested area was, it seemed, deserted, and the rain was still coming down in a torrent. Her worry began to steadily grow more intense as the rain did so also. Going around in wide circles, beginning to doubt they were actually here, she stopped the car and took out a bag of crisps. Glancing up, she saw what she thought was two far-off dogs. Narrowing her eyes a little, squinting through the rain, the figures began to become a bit clearer. Yes...it was two people now, but not three....where was the third?...Her heart beating a little faster, somehow knowing that the other wasn't just off looking for people. Her chin trembling slightly, she temporarily forgot to go make sure it was them, to go bring them out of the rain and into where the food and warmth was.

She slowly opened the door of the car, still staring straight forward and ignoring the fact that her leg was already drenched. Jen made her way slowly over to them, and either they didn't notice her presence or they were too shocked to see that she was there, because they didn't come towards her. Her paranoia getting the better of her, she broke into a run, reaching them quickly and coming to an abrupt halt. Out of breath, because either she'd been running, or worry was gnawing at her lungs.

She could see them clearly, name them immediately. It was Emma and Dan, completely soaked and pale. Where was Jamie..? Her mouth seemed to voice her thoughts, as suddenly her mouth closed and she realized she'd been talking. Feeling a bit bad that was the first thing out of her mouth.

"I mean...are you guys all right? God you're soaked...get in the car, it's warm, and I bet you're starving, I've got tons of food and everything...Is Jamie-Lynn alright?"

The shaking air of her voice probably making it apparent it wasn't just a casual question. The pale innocence and concern absorbing their faces was probably an indicator that they had no idea. They mumbled a bit, not really giving an answer as obviously they had none.

"Well come on...to the car with me...while you two are getting warm and such, I'll...go look for her...if she doesn't want to come, I'm staying with her...Is she far you think?"

Emma shrugged, while Dan looked around probably wishing he hadn't been found so he could jump around a bit more.

"She hasn't been gone long, we don't think..."

Emma muttered worriedly. Jen, nodding and sighing softly, hurried them into the car and showed them the food, drinks, stove...She herself grabbing two jackets, a flashlight, an umbrella, and a large cooler filled with various neccessities. Rushing out into the rain, reaching the forest and stepping under the cover of the dripping trees. There was no where else she could have gone, she'd have to go in here...in the dark...Gulping loudly, peering around for any signs of Jame having been there, but there were none, save a few prints that could have been made at any time. She followed them anyway, winding deep into the heart of the forest, as worry wound deep inside of her own.

(3 Jumping Beans)

[02 Sep 2003|03:37pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | Evanescence - Imaginary ]

Walks out from her house, first scribbling a short apologetic note to Ashton and placing it by the door. Jen opens the door to a cab, slamming it heavily and telling the driver to drive to the airport. Once there, she heads to the International terminal and checks in, grabbing her boarding pass and a few hundred sticks of gum. Once she's in the plane, she falls asleep immediately, and misses all the meals. She hadn't slept for 5 days, hadn't eaten for two, for some reason unknown to her.
Waking up, hearing the Captain's nasal voice coming over the speaker.
'Welcome to England, the temperature is 18 degrees...pouring rain, with a slight chance of thunderstorms later tonight, miserable old England, eh? Croaky unenthusiastic laughter. The crew and I are happy to be the first to welcome you, we hope you enjoy your stay here in the United Kingdom. Please keep your seatbelt on until the plane comes to a complete stop.'
The routine she's heard so many times holds no more feeling and emotion than before. Just routine. In itself.
Climbing up and taking out her one small bag from the overhead compartment, as she rolls it out of the plane keeping her head down as the stewards say their usual 'Have a good stay!' in their Sussex accents.
Once out, she gets a cab to the police station, and questions the officers about the whereabouts of three teenagers which might have been called to their attention. No luck, but she receives a number to call. Finding a sightly hidden telephone box, one of the original red ones, and rings the number, pressing the phone to her shoulder as she looks through her purse to see how much money she's got with her. A booming, proper voice heavy with a deep British accent comes out from the earpeice, and she responds shakily. After much discussion in very few words, she's got the town they were last seen in. Apparently a farmer had seen them all using a telephone box, and thought it strange they were so far out, alone. Sighing and thanking him, she hung up the phone and leaned against the glass, staring at the pouring rain. It was England, it'd be pouring where they were too.

Tired of waiting, she opened up the door running to a nearby Sainsbury's. Once inside, she proceded to buy incredulous amounts of food, fresh food such as fruit, bangers, olives, all different types of meat, and infinite amounts more, then dry food like crisps, chips, and some chocolate. Then moving on to buy a portable small stove, lighter fluid, a few water-proof jackets, a small fridge she could plug into a car, a few umbrellas...Really probably buying a bit too much but she told herself she didn't know how long they'd be there and what would happen. Requesting them to hold it all as she rushed out, heading to the rental car area by the airport, she rented a large car, which really wasn't very large, seeing as it was Europe. After much pleading and a bit of trouble, she finally convinced them to let her rent it for an unknown period of time.

Jen drove it back to the shop, piling all the food and miscellaneous items into the back, front....oh hell all over. The car for some reason had a Global Positioning System, so she programmed in the town and began to drive, having no idea where in hell she was heading off to or what she was doing, only knowing that she had to find them quickly. She'd always absentmindedly treated them like adults, as most times they acted, but when it all came down to it, they were kids, they were near half her age, and though she'd never truly believe it, they couldn't survive on her own. They simply couldn't, shouldn't be able to, they needed a parent to collapse upon and assume they knew what they were doing. They shouldn't need to be this strong. Hopefully, if they didn't want to come home, she could be that parent.

Pulling over and plugging her laptop into the car, she decides to update. The windscreen wipers swished back and forth and began to match her heartbeart, and as she started to type her worry seemed to accumulate.


I'm someplace, in England, it's pouring...I don't really know what I'm doing, this is sort of insane, I didn't really think about it until I was gone...But I'm here now, I didn't really screw up, and I'm going to suceed in what I came here to do. You can call my cell or what not if you need to talk to me, which is sounding ridiculous as no one ever does. But still, yes. And I'm really tired so I'm going to stop typing and get a tad bit of sleep before I drive. I'll see you all hopefully soon.

-Jen

Turns off the laptop, closing it and placing it on the floor under the seat. Pushing away some food so she can lie down, she lay sprawled over the seats, and soon was sleeping softly.

(Beans)

[31 Aug 2003|11:00am]
[ mood | amused ]

Woot. Happy birthdayness to Jeff if he ever reads this.

(1 Jumping Beans)

[27 Aug 2003|04:03pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | Bad Religion - The New America ]

Okay, I don't even know what to say, so I'm not saying anything, plus I ran out of angryness in my last post. Not that it's not there, I just can't type it out anymore.

The world is fucked up. Yes, fucked. That feels funny. I'll say it again. Fucked up. Okay so yes I'm not really saying that just to be a spaz, I just don't get the world anymore. It falls apart, it constantly is, you think it wasn't when you were young because it just caves in more as time progresses. There are three different types of people in this world. The ones that make problems, the ones that fix problems, and the one's that just sit on the sidelines.

Do you know what terrible impression we give the children of today? Yes, the ones that will run our world when we're done screwing it over. And oops, they'll screw it over too because they didn't have a good example, and it's just a depressing cycle that will continue forever until people decide to stop it. But they won't. Because they don't have any desire to make the world better for future generations; why should they care, if they're just going to die off anyway? And now, perhaps, you may see the cycle I am trying to make clear to you, the downward spiral of hate and a lack of knowing right and wrong; yes I know you're thinking, who believes in that stuff anyway? Exactly.

It's depressing to look at this cold stale world, even more so to live in it, knowing you can't change anything, can't make it how it used to be, when enemies would join together to fight a greater force than their animosity. This world is merciless and cold, hateful and deceiving. I pity any child that must be raised in it. And now as you're screaming at me to shut up, a hateful sneer growing quickly across your weary face, I'm shutting up as you've liked, I've had my little say, now I'm off to haunt you no more. You can beat me to a bloody pulp, but still my heart will not stop screaming.

Sighs, taking a sip of Coke that's been mixed with a bit of vodka. Face nonchalant and tired looking, telling herself to be cheerful for the party, though she has no idea why she's going, just feels she should. Putting her laptop away and lying on her bed, turning on the fan and looking up at the ceiling.

(6 Jumping Beans)

[24 Aug 2003|09:50pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | Taproot - Poem ]

Bah bah bah. I really haven't been in the mood at all to update recently, but I will now because for now the feeling has lessened and I don't know when this will come about again. So. This will be absolute twaddle I assume but does it matter anyway, if no one actually reads it thoroughly? I didn't think so.

I went to the hospital to visit Cate, no not because I'm a stupid bugger and wanted to go join the party, and have a good time running around the hospital eating skittles while other people are ill in bed worrying their heads off about if they're actually ever going to be the same again, no actually I went because Cate's my friend. And actually, that's really what you're supposed to do when you're friends with someone, be there to support them and be postive because it actually does rub off. And yes I've used actually too much I realize this but then again this IS absolute twaddle as I informed you of earlier.

Again, I find it almost scary how no one pays anyone the slightest bit of attention until those people might not be around much longer. Perhaps simply to clear their conscience, perhaps...Oh hell I don't know. And please, if you find any of this upsetting thus far because you know it's actually true but don't want to admit it, or for some other reason I haven't been informed of, I'm not exactly sorry, but I am however apathetic. I do not in any way think I'm better than you, nor that I do not have multiple errors in my own life.

And what is with running away? The very words make me want to erase them from the dictionary. When you try to defend yourselves, you simply don't make sense, because running away is in itself a cowardly act, not that that has too much to do with it. You complete the sentence. Running away from...who, what, where, why? Why not face these mistakes and problems head on? You can't escape them no matter how far away you run, they will still torture your mind, and you can't run away from your mind unless you end your life...which of course is another matter I am not currently discussing. Is it not as plain to you as it is to me that attempting to escape your pain only brings more? You still have to sort everything out when you return, but by then it is more tangled than ever before. In your absence, you leave behind people who only long for you as you too long for them, it does absolutely no good and I'm ending this section right here before it turns to pure ranting and raving and rambling and all-over slosh.

I've never written a semi-angry update, but it seemed to come easily to me at this particular time. Perhaps I've gained some patience as I'm new at this and if you get too angry I'll never do it again, hence you lose your revival and you never get a heads-up from someone not very involved that you're acting completely insane. If someone told me I was acting like a moron, I believe I'd actually take that into consideration, but Oops that was me and not you.

Remind me never to update when I don't really want to?

Psst...Christopher Ashton Kutcher rocks my pockets and I'm a loser.

(4 Jumping Beans)

[20 Aug 2003|09:40pm]
Katie Holmes, you make me want to smile
But everytime you laugh, it seems it's only for a while
Everytime your joy fades and you replace it with a frown
I bite my lip and try to be as happy as I can

Thoughts pushed to the back sometimes filter to the front
Katie, will you smile at me, if only for this once?
And if you hold that treasured pose
I promise only you and I will know

And supposing now I tell you
The conclusion that I've come to
That tomorrow never comes
So will you smile at me, if only for this once?

Have you ever wondered why I always let you win?
Arguments are pointless when an angel's joining in
How can I be dying when you're so full of life?
It never really matters if I don't do anything right

Katie, will you smile at me, if only for this once?
I'll try not to screw up, and occassionally trust
Where do your words come from, the ones that make me smile?
If only you would laugh again, if only for a while.

Thoughts pushed to the back sometimes filter to the front
Katie, will you smile at me, if only for this once?
And if you hold that treasured pose
I promise only you and I will know

And as corny as this poem sounds
Let's sing another round!


And Eek I'm dumb. :x Please shoot me so I stop making random weird posts to people.

(4 Jumping Beans)

[15 Aug 2003|12:21am]
[ mood | crazy ]

This is a public service announcement. So please don't run around drowning your children in milk to protect them. It won't work.

I love Jamie Lynn Marie Spears, daughter of Jamie and Lynn Spears. Sister Of Britney Spears and Bryan Spears. Wife of Joel Madden, Liv Tyler, and myself. Queen of everything that is glue. Queen over everything that is you. Doesn't normally rhyme obsessively.

Likes
Edible paper
Joel Madden
Not swearing
Insanity
liv Tyler
Nicknames
Love
Dishwashers
Britney Spears
Elijah Wood
Orlando Bloom
Clay Aiken
Johnny Depp
Acting
Candyland (8, preferably.)
Spamming with multiple random letters
<3's
Love, peace, and chicken grease
All that
California
Rupert Grint
Emma Watson
Presents
Hyperness
Others

Dislikes
Swearing
Meanness
Paper you can't eat
Jumpo Babies
Drama
Hate
Death
Suicide
Saddness
Crying
Most anything un-happy

Is good at
Pretty much everything
Being cute
Having control
Living
Pouting
Eating edible paper
Making people love her
Acting
Singing
Talking
Eating
Walking
Running
Skipping
Dancing
Shouting
Screaming
And more.

Why I love her and she owns me...:
Because her name is Jamie Lynn Marie Spears.

Why I stalk her obsessively and don't really notice I bug her..:
The world shall never know.

Why I spent forever doing this scary...scary thing that will give her nightmares:
Don't know really. Me = Insomniac. Also, so she won't die. *nods* NO DYING. Feel
Loved, officially....starting....NOW. Thank you. <3333

Please ignore my insanity.
This is only a test.

(Beans)

[11 Aug 2003|10:20pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Sitting in her room, lying on her bed, window open and mind blank. Staring at the ceiling, pitch black, and breathing in the warm summer air. Silence penetrating her thoughts and stabbing her skin with such precision and a feeling of being real it's as if nails are pressing into her back, she's standing on a bed of nails, swirling in the clouds, spinning on a tall building, and it seems to grow, as she waits there in anticipation of her decision, though subconsciously knowing she's too confused to make it. The sands of time scraping down her skin, making it raw, heat pressing into her, as if her insides will lose all life and energy, wither and become nothing. As she stares unblinkingly forward, a figure appears, blurry at first, but clarity developing after what seems like seconds but strangely must have been years. Confusion turning to peacefullness, a faint smile accumulates as sections of her dry lips move into that treasured pose, but as she looks down, sees her hands, holding a nail, one of those of which she is standing on, her face droops, and the figure is gone. Cold tears stain her face, burning like dry ice into her skin, leaving pale white marks of regret. As she drops the nail, waiting for the clank as it hits the ground, it must have escaped her ears, but she looks over the side, and sees it, spiraling in mid-air, seeming to not have moved. A cold sweat enveloping her face in a cloud of white mist, she sets off running, gaining deep cuts as the nails dig intp her bare feet. No one's there...no one's there to save her. She sees the edge of the building, making a weak desiscion, continues running, and suddenly she's falling, falling....
A loud scream escapes from her lips, as her body shakes, laying stiff as a board on her bed. Breathing heavily, she weakly tries to stand up, finally noticing the cold sweat she lies drenched in as the wind blows freely from the open window. Eyes wide and unseeing, she steps away from the bed, running into the wall and breathing, as if exhausted, as if she's been running....
And it all comes flooding back. The dream....in peices...that she can't peice together. Walking shakily over to the window sill, curling up and staring at the moon, feeling the cold air run past her, wishing she was quite so free. An hour passes..three, five, and still she dares not sleep. Feeling neither tired nor awake, neither alive nor dead, simply existing. Morning comes, but she is dead to it. Finally, the call of an early salesman shakes her from her deep thought, and she carries on through the day as if nothing had changed. Because, of course, from the outside, nothing had.

(5 Jumping Beans)

[10 Aug 2003|06:43pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]
[ music | Evanescence - Immortal ]

Steps blankly into the rental car, blocking out all sound, simply thinking, and only thinking. Hears the faint up-lifting beat of a Good Charlotte song and forcefully shoves all memory of it out of her. As the car begins to move, she glances quickly around, seeing Aly, driving and smiling happily to her music, Liv, looking absently out of the window, and Cate, holding a brown bag to her mouth looking incredibly sick. Slowly she moves her eyes back to the window, though it all seems a whirl. Jen pretends to be fascinated with the plastic on the car door, simply for an excuse to look at something neutral...something that holds no memories. She almost smiles, thankful that it's a rental. As the car stops in front of Liv's father's house to drop Liv off, she hugs her goodbye, smiling, then goes back to observing the interior of the car. Cate's head, lolling, as she slept, and Aly's, apparently, doing the same, but she instead was awake, made her chuckle, remembering the strange days of the retreat. Smiling softly as she gets of the car and enters the airport with her bags, she finally accepts the facial expression as know one of her own.
After saying goodbye to Aly and Cate and finally reaching California, she drives to her home and steps inside her house, now strange to her, and opens up her laptop, waiting for it to load.


Guess who's back...back again...

(2 Jumping Beans)

[02 Aug 2003|08:51am]
[ mood | Frantic ]
[ music | Evanescence - Immortal ]

Calls up the airport, frantically biting her nails and walking around in circles. Finally she manages to get a round trip flight to Ireland even though she can only stay for the wedding. Still sort of annoyed that she can't get to know everyone new, she makes a mental note to hog her laptop for all day and night when she comes back in a week's time. Not thoroughly understanding why she can't stay now, and has to go off again, but knowing all the same it's neccesary. As she packs her small bag for the day, hoping she won't be completely ignored in Ireland, she tries to ignore the fact that she needed more time, telling herself that she really does have control and stability, and after all it will turn happily ever after. 'That's what I'd like to think...' The doorbell rings, and the taxi's here. Climbing into the back, hugging her bag to her knees, closes her eyes, and hopes furvently that she hasn't missed the wedding.

(7 Jumping Beans)

[02 Aug 2003|12:26am]
[ mood | distressed ]
[ music | Green Day - Basketcase ]

I've spent a month with my mom, took some stuff, and I'm feeling better. Yeah, if all goes well I'm going to be actually naturally happy..at least sometimes. The thing is, all my friends seem to be...in foreign countries?! Do they have limitless credit cards? Perhaps I'm just too much of a mama's girl to go too far away for too incredibly long. Heh. But, somehow it is somewhat disappointing to be gone over a month and to come back to a world who has never heard of my existence. Goodness, I hardy survived, all I could think about was my friends and--and other feelings that seemed to penetrate all others.

I miss Jamie, and Britney, Joel, Benji, Liv, Cate, Paul, Katie, Emma, Tom, Tara, Fiddy...but now it seems as if the friendships I had are now nothing but a memory...like I have to start again to be up with all the gossip. That is severely depressing! *Pokes herself and puts her chin in her hands* I think I'm going off again. I need more time. Hopefully everyone will be done with their escapades, too.

-Jen

Edit Shit shit shit *Slaps herself for not knowing, puts up a gigantic poster saying: "Congratulations Paul and Katie"*

(4 Jumping Beans)

[01 Jul 2003|09:08pm]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | Three Doors Down - When I'm Gone ]

Okay, henceforth, Tom and Jamie are MINE, and they are each others. I am like their mom, and I am like their sister, and sometimes they act like my parents. Hah. I love them more than anything. <33

I love everyone else too. All the new people are wonderful, and I hope we've made them feel welcome. Everyone's been good about grammar, smart devils. Punishment from me is detestable. :D Anyway. You guys are wonderful to me, nicer and more understanding than I deserve.

However, I'm going somewhere for a long, icky long time, about a month. I'm not going to go into detail...but just so you know, I won't be around at all, as there will be no computer or accessable phone. I don't want to, because I'll miss you all so much...but I don't have a choice. As I said, I won't go into detail, so, please don't ask. Hmph. I hate the government and the world. But I love you all. And I have to love you and leave you, unfortunately.

OOC Note )

(6 Jumping Beans)

[28 Jun 2003|02:24pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]
[ music | Dropkick Murphys - The Gauntlet ]

I found this on the internet some place, while looking for inspiration. It....well read it, it may make you feel that little bit better.

Read. )

You know, for most people all that is true. Someone cares. SOMEONE. Absolutely no one lives a life where no one cares about them. Whether it be pity or love, there will always be someone to reach out and hold you up, to touch your life forever in a way you'd never imagine. Oh. And I'll take this time to tell all of you, no matter how mushy and gaggy it may sound, that I love you all more than anything, and if ANY of you ever need to talk, I'll always try to break away and lend an ear or a shoulder. Though it may seem hard to believe, I really do have a sensitive, caring, and serious side. And when you need it, I'm ALWAYS there to reveal it. Because you guys are all I have. <3

- Love

(Beans)

[28 Jun 2003|01:52pm]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | This song/poem thing. I like it for some odd reason. Do you? ]

I think I'm going mad. Insane. Crazy. Nutty. Off my rocker. Call it what you wish, there's enough names to fill the sky.

Ok so maybe I'm not.

Maybe.

Something or other I found, or something. )

(1 Jumping Beans)

[27 Jun 2003|04:13pm]
[ mood | numb ]
[ music | Red Hot Chili Peppers- Taste the pain ]

After being unable to sleep for many hours, making it 72 hours of absolutely no sleep for her, she rolled out of bed, showing no drowsiness of one who has been denied sleep for that period of time. Walking steadily over to her laptop, she opened it up, deciding to open up her journal and update. Producing the white box, she stared at it for a few seconds before beginning to type.

I swear if another person falls in love, another pair gets together within a couple of days, I'm going to kill myself. Well, perhaps not, but I'll definitely be thoroughly sick. Not that I'd want to, it'd be involuntary of course. Not meaning to sound bitter, though I realize how I come across, I'm just plain sick of seeing it. I'm immensely sorry to any of you who's mood I may damper, or who's impression of me withers steadily. However, contrary to popular belief, my reputation and the impression I make on others is not what keeps me going. Rather, ignoring it seems to suit me fine, as by paying the slightest pit of attention to it would permanently prevent any happiness thereof.

Closing her eyes, as if to clear her mind of impatience and pain, then opening them again, taking a rather large breath and following it by inflicting minor pain on herself by smacking her head with her hand absentmindedly.

Goodness...I'm so utterly demented by fear and paranoia I don't see how anyone existing currently could suffer to be around me for but a second. I suppose, though it sounds lame and pathetic, no one knows what's whizzing through my small and mishappen brain. Not that I'm trying to sound as if I'm looking for understanding, much less pity, as my condition I'm sure is by far no worse than anyone's. I just happen to be so stupid, selfish, crazy, and introverted that it has three times the effect on me that it would have on any normal, sensible human being. By saying no one knows what I'm going through, I am not proclaiming the difficulty I have that no one else is special enough to have, far from it! I am merely stating the fact that no one knows what's going through my mind, much less anyone else's that is not their own. That is perfectly normal. In fact I expect it. Think about it, if you knew what was going through any random person's mind the world would be in utter distress, having emotions and wishing to solve the problems and fix the mistakes of random people they've never seen or met. I myself would prefer to live in silence, chew on my own problems, fix my own mistakes, and do a horrible, terrible job rather than express everything I felt would explode from all directions from my confused mind.

Sighs, rubbing her eyes, the lack of sleep seemingly getting to her. Then, as she opened her eyes, you could see this was not the case, and perhaps she was actually absractedly trying to rub the pain and emtion from the very core of her tired brain. Breathing softly, so it was more or less silent, her eyes began to water, and as she blinked, the salty fluid seemed to deem that moment the perfect one to escape from the prison of her eye, and run, as if chased by some invisible fear, some non-existant pain, straight down her cheek. Wiping it away, frowning slightly and trying to close her eyes, more came to replace the first, and though she persisted in trying to stop them, they seemed to have a mind of their own, rampaging down her now pink face as if they were soldiers, sent from their general to ravage the country side of all anger, if only for a moment. Sullenly forgeting her lost attempt at stopping them, she set her mind on finishing her update.

If only I could hug you all, say how completely full of sorry I was, and it all would be fine. I could somehow manage to be happy, I did not miss something in my life, and I didn't have some empty spot in my soul that seems to keep filling itself with wrongly placed misery. It seems just as likely now, as asking the earth to empty itself of all pain and fear and wrong-doings, and watching it quickly obey. It would probably have the same effect, come to think of it. Complete pandemonium. Nothing so drastic can happen so quickly. Too much of a good thing, can be a bad thing. If only I could stop drowning myself in complaints and things that are far from what you could ever possible wish to hear.

I just wish everything would be okay again, and for once, my updates would just be another happy memory to add to the pile. I wish I could look back upon my life and say 'It was worth it'.

-Love

(11 Jumping Beans)

[25 Jun 2003|06:08pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Whirring of my laptop. ]

After arriving in Liv's house, she found herself the smallest room after letting everyone else choose. She placed her luggage beside the bed to unpack later, and began to explore the room, which consequently didn't take long. She walked out. 'Oi, Liv, you got cable here?' she asked curiously, hearing a far off 'Gah, you lazy beast, it's in the living room.' which she settled for as a reply. Grunting a laugh, she went in search of the T.V. and sofa, for a long needed rest. More traveling and less sleep made for a very tired Jennifer Love Hewitt. Plopping down in the comfy material of the living room sofa, she waited a bit, taking in her surroundings. Sighing, a mixture of tiredness and relaxation, she flipped on the television, finding 'The Tuxedo' on pay per veiw. Disgusted at the thought of watching herself and the rotten movie, she made to switch the channel, as Johnny came flipping over the couch onto the cushion next to her. 'Stop showing off, Captain Jacky. Or teach me how to swordfight, eh?' Laughing slightly, he seemed to either not hear, or be completely ignoring her comment. He wanted to watch 'The Tuxedo', so she had to cover her eyes and finally go off to her room, coming back a few minutes later to see if he was actually watching it, or just being a pain in the neck and not letting her watch what she wanted. Seeing him sitting there, eyes closed, she saw he had picked a comprimise. Laughing slightly, she headed off to her room, opened her laptop, and; squinting her eyes to stretch them a few times; opened up her journal and began to type.

Hmm...I haven't given you an update since Ireland. Since, we got d-- had fun, and moved on to Liv's house in Scotland. It's beautiful here as well, and very generous of Liv to let me stay here. I'm sure she needed time to herself...so I'm thankful she's keeping me. *Laughs a little* From here I think we plan to move on to England to visit Emma, then Russia with Johnny and Liv, then if Joel and the rest of his band want me to come, I may follow them 'round for as long as they can handle me and I don't feel utterly annoying. Perhaps from there, I'll do a little side trip to Japan or somewhere on my own. Of course in Japan I'll be completely swamped by adoring fans, which I have come to the conclusion do in fact exsist. After that escapade, unless others' plans say otherwise, I'm heading back home and spending a little time with Jamie. This trip holds some exciting promise. Anyway, lots of love from Scotland, and I hope to talk to you all soon.

-Love (As I have decided to end this with. It is my prefered name ick, there's too many Jennifer's in this world.)

(10 Jumping Beans)

[24 Jun 2003|10:52am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Nothing yet. ]

Mwhaha, I stole the quiz that the whole world loves. For the first time, comment.

I ____ Jen.
Jen is __________.
I think Jen should _________.
Jen needs to ________.
I want to ________ Jen.
If I have seen her picture(s), I think Jen is ________.
In one word, I would describe Jen as ________.
I can see Jen being a _______ someday.
If I were alone in a room with Jen, I would _____.
Someday Jen will ______.
Jen reminds me of ______.
Without Jen, my life would be _____.
Jen can be _____.
________ is how I describe meeting Jen.
Worst thing about Jen is _____.
Best thing about Jen is ____.
One thing I would change about Jen is her ____
Jen needs ____.
I am ________with Jen.

Hmmm.

(3 Jumping Beans)

[22 Jun 2003|02:30pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Spongebob repeats playing happily. ]

Rolls out of bed at 2 A.M., wearily dragging herself over to the bathroom. Splashes freezing cold water on her face, jolting her out of her zombie state and into more of a groggy one. Makes her way dizzily over to the door of first Liv's, then Johnny's room, checking for any sounds of life. She heard none. Taking a big breath and rubbing her eyes, she stumbled over to her bed. Plopping down, she tossed and turned fitfully for hours until 5. Glancing at the alarm clock, she covered her eyes letting out a slight exclamation of fury at the neon lights enblazened upon her not yet fully awoken retina. Mumbling nonsense meant to be curses under her breath, she tried to reach the shower, failing horribly and crawling half the way. Reaching up to turn the shower on as cold as it would go, she undressed with much difficulty, but finally got herself unclothed and inside the luxorious shower. After adjusting as much as she could to the freezing water, she glanced around finally taking in the size and spaciousness of the bathroom and shower. Sitting down on a ledge on the wall that was seemingly provided for that use, she ran her hands down her face, blinking a couple of times to keep the water from entering her eyes. She stood up, somewhat refreshed, and took a proper shower. While drying off, she glanced out through one of the large circular windows and smiled at the beautiful countryside. Sheep, who to her seemed to never sleep or grow tired, were already munching on the hillside. The sun was rising, and as it did the rays split off into a beautiful array of vibrant colors. Red, orange, yellow, purple, blue, even a hint of green, and maybe a touch of maroon covered the sky. 'If only the others could see this...' she thought to herself, laughing slightly. 'I guess sometimes jet-lag pays off.' Chuckling, she put her clothes on still watching the sunrise. Hesitantly, though the sky had lost most of it's brilliant colors, she stepped away. Brushing her hair and feeling ten times more refreshed than before her shower, she denied herself the ability to lie down again, comprimising and sitting in a large red leather chair. Nearly hidden in the billowing material, she grabbed for the remote and came out triumphant, finding it on the table beside her. Flipping through channels with the T.V. on mute, she finally found something that suited her. Turning the volume up slightly, she sat back to watch 'Spongebob' until her companions awoke.

(3 Jumping Beans)

[21 Jun 2003|12:07pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | Airport sounds...you know. The usual. ]

After a long, red-eye, plane trip, she stumbled off the plane at about 11 in the morning, grabbing on to her bags as to not fall. Following Johnny and Liv, she sat down on an airport bench with them. Johnny said since the plane took off early, it turned out their taxi had left without them. They would have to wait until the people who just came off the plane left and they could find a free taxi. Sighing and getting out her laptop, she slumped down on the bench and shut her eyes for a little bit, took a big breath, and opened them again. Opening up her laptop, she lazily moved the pointer around, taking forever to open up her journal. Finally, it was on the screen, and she began slowly to type.

Ugh. I just got off the plane, and I probably slept all of five minutes. I watched some dumb movie about little kids finding some magic broom, or something. I watched it with my eyes glazed over and Johnny's hand on my lap, for some odd reason. I didn't dare to move it, for fear that he would be awoken, and he too would get no sleep. So I sat for 10 hours with his arm resting on me. I can never eat plane food, so when breakfast arrived I took a breakfast bar and passed the rest to Johnny, who seemed bright and cheery considering the situation. Then I got my five minutes of sleep, unfortunately only to be awoken by a flight attendant checking if my seat belt was on. There was a REASON I wanted that little bit of sleep. It was a horrible landing procedure, took 30 minutes of fun-filled turbulence. I turned white for the whole thing, had to close my eyes, avoid any distractions, and have the air conditioning blasting overhead. I made it through without throwing up, fortunately, but it's not an exprience I wish to repeat, thanks. I feel sick talking about it. Now thankfully we're off the plane, but have to wait an hour or so for a taxi to drive us to our hotel, so I'm trying to speed up time typing on this thing. The hotel, according to Johnny, is a few hours away, at the least, if the traffic's bad...who knows. We have to pick one sort of...far away so people don't bug us, and we can have some much needed solitude. Oh well, an opportunity for me to sleep for a couple hours, or if that dosn't turn out, talk to you guys for a little while. Right now I'm trying to get a little long-lost shut-eye, so I'm out for now. Much love from Ireland!
-Jen

(Beans)

[20 Jun 2003|11:36pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Barenaked - Meeee, ick. ]

I love this song )

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