Blurty for Pieces Mended.

View:User Info.
View:Friends.
View:Calendar.
View:Memories.
You're looking at the latest 20 entries. Missed some entries? Then simply jump back 20 entries.

Monday, August 11th, 2003

Subject::o)
Time:2:18 am.
Mood: tired.
Music:Mariah Carey "Always Be My Baby".
My tummy hurts and I'm SOOO tired! So, this will be short. Had to wake up early and teach sunday school. Came home and napped! Yes, i <3LOVE<3 sleeping!! It makes me so happy! As sad or not sad as that sounds it's the truth. I woke up and called *Erick* and he picked me up and we went and got tickets....go Starting Line! LOL j/k... Anyways, then we went to Taco Bell... and then WalMart! Yes WalMart rules! I love pressing all the little "try me" buttons on all the kids toys. Fun stuff. Erick and I went to the garden thing and took a long walk around the little lake/pond or whatever. It was nice. Perfect night. We sat and talked for a while and then went to the playing field. There were too guys following us everywhere...which is really weird and creepy considering it's like the middle of the night and there is no one there! Then we found a frisbee...yay! I threw it and made Erick get it like 25 times! HAHAHA!!! Sorry Erick! <333 It was fun! Erick is so awesome...sweeter than anyone could know! Hmm...cant even say everything I want to right now. 'Nough said.

XOXOXOX
Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Tuesday, August 5th, 2003

Subject:"I am not ashamed"
Time:3:39 am.
Music:Nicole C. Mullen.
...
I'm so very ordinary
Nothing special on my own
I have never walked on water
I have never calmed a storm
Sometimes I'm hiding away from the madness around me
Like a child who's afraid of the dark

But when I call on Jesus
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles and soar
but When I call on Jesus
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth
to come rescue me when I call
La La La, La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La
Weary brother
Broken daughter
Widowed, widowed lover
You're not alone
If you're tired and scared of the madness around you
If you can't find the strength to carry on

When you call on Jesus
All things are possible
You can mount on wings like eagles and soar
but When you call on Jesus
Mountains are 'gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth
to come and rescue you when you call

Call him in the mornin'
In the afternoon time
Late in the evenin'
He'll be there
When your heart is broken
And you feel discouraged
You can just remember that He said
He'll be there

When I call on Jesus
All things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles and soar
but When I call on Jesus
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven and earth
to come rescue me when I call
(Repeat)
La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La La

-Nicole C. Mullen
...

xoxoxox
Comments: Add Your Own.

Monday, August 4th, 2003

Subject:"You were meant for me"
Time:12:35 am.
Mood: silly.
Music:X-Tina.
Had an interesting weekend I suppose. I really didnt want to go to my cousin's wedding, but I'm glad I went. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. Left Friday night and got to my dad's at like 11:00 or so. He wasnt home. He was probably out getting drunk, which is very normal whenever he knows we're coming. ::Rolling eyes!:: Then he decided to start saying a bunch of dumb shit that he usually says when he's drunk and hagning with a bunch of pot head/drunks. Saturday morning my dad decided to wake me and my sister up at like 8:00 the freakin morning! Whatever, he ended up going back to sleep and then we had to wake him up. Went to the wedding which was literally like 20-30 minutes long. My cousin Dylon was hilareous...he was the ring bearer or whatever. Then a bunch of us (family) went to grandma's (uncle Mickey's) and played guitar for like an hour with my sister and uncle Kenny and uncle Bill, then went to the reception. Basically the reception was breading grounds for the drunks. We ate, then watched everyone get slashed and just sat back and made fun of all the asses on the dance floor. My dad made me dance with him...TWICE! I wanted to die the first time, omg. I just dont dance...like that at least. I mean I can bump and grind but I cant two-step LOLOLOL!!! Anyways, today we took the boys out and they ate for like a good 1/2 hour or more. I miss my baby SOOOO much already!!! :o*( He has this smell to him and I love it! And i love to kiss his cute lil nose! <333333!!!! Well, now I'm home and clean thank God!!!

On another note: Erick, will you make out with me? I know you want to! HAH j/k.... :o/ well.... i need SOME sort of action, so if there are any takers (besides you Juliya)....let me know. ;o)

ok, that was weird.

Let's get Derrrrrrrtay....

Baby you pretend that things
Ain't what they seem
All this tension on titling
Just exactly what we should be
Now i don't mind us being
Some kind of casual thing
Listen all I want to do for now is
Have you come and take all of me
Can you

Chorus:
Put your hand on my waistline
Want your skin up against mine
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine, you get yours

If you see me with a man
Understand that you can't question me
The feelings that you caught ain't my fault
can't help your jealously
If you can handle the fact that what we have
Has got to be commitment free (free)
Then we can keep this undercover loving, comming
Hidden underneath the sheets
can you

Chorus:
Put your hands on my waistline
(Ooh, on my waistline)
Want your skin up against mine (ohh)
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine you get yours
(But don't fall in love)
Hang a please don't disturb sign
(No, no love)
Put my back into a slow grind (slow grind)
Running chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine, you get yours (ohh)

So come on and freak my body
We can get nasty, naughty
All night private party
Gotta hit that spot just right
Work me like a 9 to 5

It ain't about the kissing and hugging
'Cause this is a physical loving
Straight sweating, our bodies are rubbing
Gotta hit that spot just right
Work me like a 9 to 5

We have a physical thing (oh)
We make love, but don't fall in love (yeah)
(Let me get mine, you get yours)
We spend time, just enough
So, you get yours and i get mine
No strings attached
(Let me get mine, you get yours)
I want your body
Not your heart

Chorus:
Put your hands on my waistline
(Hands on my waistline)
Want your skin up against mine
(ohh, yeah yeah yeah)
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine, you get yours
(But don't fall in love)
Hang a please don't disturb sign
Put my back into a slow grind
(Down my spine...)
Running chills up and down my spine
Let me get mine, you get yours

Put your hands on my waistline
(Put your hands on my waistline)
Want your skin up against mine (ooh)
Move my hips to the baseline
Let me get mine, you get yours(ooh)
(But don't fall in love)
Hang a please don't disturb sign
(Freak my body babe)
Put my back into a slow grind
(Nasty, naughty babe)
Running chills up and down my spine
(ooh, yeah yeah yeah)
Let me get mine, you get yours

Come here
Don't be shy
I won't bite

Let me get mine, you get yours.


Oooooh yeah. You like that didnt ya? Yeah? yeah?? Let me here you sa.... ok. :ox


xoxoxoxox
Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Thursday, July 31st, 2003

Subject:"What the hell am I doing here? I dont belong here."
Time:2:22 am.
Hmmm....sad and lonely night. Sitting here. Wandering why I'm here. Wasting my time. Taking up much needed oxygen that is needed by those who are important....afterall, the number of trees in this world are decreasing. I am sick of being...just me. Sick of being judged and talked about...ignored, disliked. I absolutely HATE being compared to someone else, which seems to be happening a LOT lately. I am alone. Maybe that is what I really want afterall. Is that my purpose? To be a model of what people shouldnt be like? I actually think I got it. Finally SOME sort of answer. Well, hey. If I can help other people then woo hoo. I really wanna hide from the world. From people....anyone and everyone. I think I need to be alone. But that's all I've ever been. Idk. People lately have not been with it. They are dumb or something. They think that other people wont find out what they say about them...BULL FUCKING SHIT! WTF is wrong with you!!??!?!?!? SHUT THE FUCK UP! If you think something, great, good for you! But shut the fucking big ass hole in your face and keep it to yourself!

Leave me alone.
Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.

Sunday, July 27th, 2003

Subject:Happy birthday to meeee!!!!!
Time:11:43 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
LOL. Yay. I'm 19 now. I had such an AWESOME birthday. Got a guitar for my birthday from my mom and sister. Fender, steel string acoustic, red w/ faded edges, zebra strap...awesome awesome sound! I am SOOOO excited. And a sweet ass book called "Fruits" full of Japanese fashion and street trends. I also got a bunch of other cool stuff! Went out to lunch and had a GREAT nacho plate thingy. YUM!!!! I am SOOO blessed to have such great friends and family!!! I LOVE you all!!!!! BTW: Julia, thank you so much for everything girl! LOVE YOU!!!

XOXOX
Comments: Add Your Own.

Friday, July 25th, 2003

Subject:One AMAZING night!!
Time:8:11 pm.
Mood: horny.
Music:the moaning in my head.. HAHA.
coverXme: SO erick
XfenderguitarX6: yes
XfenderguitarX6: brie
coverXme: do you like it when I say your name
coverXme: ?
XfenderguitarX6: actually i do
XfenderguitarX6: hehe
coverXme: good!
XfenderguitarX6: ur in a good mood eh?
coverXme: what is your favorite thing about me saying your name?
coverXme: oh yes...good mood!
XfenderguitarX6: that u always remeber to spell it correct
coverXme: oh i see
XfenderguitarX6: remember*
coverXme: say my name!
XfenderguitarX6: BRIE
XfenderguitarX6: :-D
coverXme: again!
XfenderguitarX6: brie!
XfenderguitarX6: haha
coverXme: louder!!
XfenderguitarX6: BRIE!!!!
coverXme: yes!!
coverXme: say it like you really mean it!
XfenderguitarX6: haha...BRIE U ROCK!!!
XfenderguitarX6: yep
coverXme: YEEEEESS!
XfenderguitarX6: lol ur so silly
coverXme: ...woofta. That was great
XfenderguitarX6: haha
coverXme: i need a smoke
XfenderguitarX6: noooooooooo
XfenderguitarX6: bad brie, bad
coverXme: no no
coverXme: no smoke
XfenderguitarX6: good
coverXme: but you know what they say after the deed...
XfenderguitarX6: haha yes
coverXme: thats why I'm cravin
XfenderguitarX6: rawr
coverXme: dont you need a shower now?
coverXme: after all the sweat?
XfenderguitarX6: ah yes
coverXme: you were pretty loud
XfenderguitarX6: haha
XfenderguitarX6: :-D
coverXme: hope we didnt disturb the neighbors
XfenderguitarX6: lol
coverXme: :-X
coverXme: nexttime I'll have to tape your mouth

...a night I'll never forget!!...
Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Thursday, July 24th, 2003

Subject:Wow, life is short...
Time:3:41 pm.
Mood: grateful.
Music:Hot Hot Heat - "Bandages".
I got this in an e-mail. It really made me think... think about life, things we take for granted, people we love in our lives, how we hold back on things, and hide from things. How materialistic we can be, how we let things and people control us. We dont have enough faith in the things we cant see. That is not trusting God. Well here... just read...

This was written be an 83 yr old woman...
I'm reading more and dusting less. I'm sitting in the yard and admiring the view without fussing about the weeds in the garden. I'm spending more time with my family and friends and less time working. Whenever possible, life should be a pattern of experiences to savor, not to endure. I'm trying to recognize these moments now and cherish them. I'm not "saving" anything; we use our good china and crystal for every special event such as losing a pound, getting the sink unstopped, or the first Amaryllis blossom. I wear my good blazer to the market. My theory is if I look prosperous, I can shell out $28.49 for one small bag of groceries. I'm not saving my good perfume for special parties, but wearing it for clerks in the hardware store and tellers at the bank. Someday" and "one of these days" are losing their grip on my vocabulary; if it's worth seeing or hearing or doing, I want to see and hear and do it now. I'm not sure what others would've done had they known they wouldn't be here for the tomorrow that we all take for granted. I think they would have called family members and a few close friends. They might have called a few former friends to apologize and mend fences for past squabbles. I like to think they would have gone out for a Chinese dinner or for whatever their favorite food was. I'm guessing; I'll never know. It's those little things left undone that would make me angry if I knew my hours were limited. Angry because I hadn't written certain letters that I intended to write one of these days. Angry and sorry that I didn't tell my husband and parents often enough how much I truly love them. I'm trying very hard not to put off, hold back, or save anything that would add laughter and luster to our lives. And every morning when I open my eyes,! tell myself that it is special. Every day, every minute, every breath truly is a gift from God.

"People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there."

I don't believe in Miracles. I rely on them.


*All of this is so true. It opened my eyes. I am blessed. xoxox

.::.Ok ok, go to this...it made me cry!! http://64.177.83.63/liberty/email.htm .::.
Comments: Add Your Own.

Friday, July 11th, 2003

Subject:"my head phones...they saved my life"
Time:3:10 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Music:Post Bjork.
Wow it feels so good to not have to work! I really do need to find a new job soon though. The internet has been very interesting lately. People creating unnesessary drama...ass holes being ass holes, bitches being douche bags. Damn. People need to learn how to get over shit and shut the fuck up! ::Rolls eyes:: Guys continue to find it nesessary to not only get affended over non-affensive words, and also to say the same thing to every girl. What a bunch of morons. They think girls dont talk. We talk. And especially Julia and I...they think we dont tell each other stuff or something? WTF! We are closer than they could even comprehend and they still do it. I am beginning to believe there isnt a single good...or even decent guy that walks this earth! Jesus needs to come back so I can shut up...then it wouldnt be true. :o\ All the guys these days are cocky as a mutha fucka and think they are hot shit. What happened? Where are all the decent ones hiding? Maybe they're in Iceland or something listening to Bjork live. Then that would inevidably be destiny. Match made in heaven. Maybe I should fly there. I wonder if Bjork would marry me...even if neither one of us are sexually attracted to one another...it would be all about the music. Thats all I need anyway. Shit.

I saw Julia yesterday. :o) I love the girl! We are so alike...its like hanging out with another one of you. We are crazy...we even had someone say we're weird. Whateva...we are so what can I say. We're hittin up the "P-house' tonight. It will be nice just to be out and in the city.

I was supposed to be leaving for IL tomorrow morning but now I'm not going anymore. Not gonna even get into that. But it really sucks. Lei asked if I could come down like early August, but I wont be able to...I have a wedding to go to on the 15th and a SWEET ASS concert on the 21st (YEAH BABY!!!)...so I wont see her this summer at all. :o/

Julia: You're my #1!!! :mauh: <3

Things I love:
-Bjrok (thats a no-brainer)
-No work!
-Sleeping in
-mrh and all its bs
-Singing
-Fans
-My desktop theme
-"Dreamer" by Ozzy Osbourne
-Julia
-Benihanna!!!!!!!! (sp?)
-Getting concert tickets! (7/12)
-waiting in line
-Clean clothes
-Mt. Dew (addict)
-Make-up
-Making out
-Going out
-Being with Julia
-Rain

Things I hate:
-Internet bitches
-Internet bastards
-Lies
-Most guys
-Stinky arm-pits! (woofta!)
Comments: Read 4 or Add Your Own.

Monday, June 23rd, 2003

Subject:This doesnt really sound like me...
Time:3:17 pm.
Mood: blah.
Music:Bjork.
pieces mended
Magic Number17
JobWriter
PersonalityRainy Day
TemperamentIf I Lose It - Run
SexualIf I Have To
Likely To WinA Home Help Badge
Me - In A WordDevious
Colour
Brought to you by MemeJack

Comments: Add Your Own.

Wednesday, June 18th, 2003

Subject:I am content.
Time:12:06 am.
Mood: peaceful.
Music:Tori Amos - Under The Pink.
Right now I feel that life is good. Of course there are several things that I would change about my life, but then again everyone could say the same. True, my job isnt my absolute ideal, but I am blessing someone, plus now that I have a few free days a week I feel alive again lol, yet I still get paid some money. I get to see my fav. girl more now too! I feel good for the most part and generally happy. I love where I am right now. I wish I could stay this way for a while...but thats impossible. I need to meet a guy... the right guy. I want to be w/ someone, but at the same time, I am also fine being 'alone'. I guess how I'm feeling right now, whatever happens, happens. And thats that.

Comments: Add Your Own.

Tuesday, June 3rd, 2003

Subject:Man, it's been a while!
Time:3:06 pm.
Mood: calm.
Music:none :o(.
I havent written in forever b/c I havent had a single minute of time! Grrr. Well, besides workin, I was incredibly busy this weekend. Friday I got my hair cut, its like right to my sholders and then I got some side-sweeping bangs. I actually like it! The, Friday night I was suppossed to go with my sister to the Union and help out (ven though I didnt really want to)...but when we got there it was like dead so they said we could just watch the bands. It was really weird b/c we saw Phil there (a guy we know) and we were like "what are you doing here?" and it turns out that his band was playing that night and we didnt even know or anything. So it was cool to see them. They were freakin awesome! Then on Saturday, I got ready and my sister and I went and got our lips pierced...(I got mine on the side), and wow it was painless! I like it but it needs to fully heal before I can really tell. Saturday night I went to a cookout thingy at a friend's house, then went to a coffee shop and saw Frequenzy again. Then sunday was Jolene's going away party, so went to that and then went shopping at Rosedale. Fun stuff man. Then I went to Julia's. Man I miss seeing her as much as I used to!!! I love the girl!
Comments: Add Your Own.

Thursday, May 22nd, 2003

Subject:Hmmm
Time:5:40 pm.
Mood: confused.
Music:Good Charlotte "Seasons".
Well, I've been pretty busy lately. Busy doing nothing it seems. Its hard spending a day trying to entertain someone who doesnt really understand anything that an adult does. Never leaves my side.. literally!!! At least I'm getting money, I mean I shouldnt complain too much. Most of all, I miss my girl SOOO much!!! Seriously! I barely have time to talk to her!! Its really getting me sad and depressed! Well, I get Monday and Tuesday off, I am going to be spending it with LJ AND if that isnt awesome enough, we are to see Michelle Branch again! SOO happy! Not only that but I get some money!! :o) Grr, I just want a normal job...and a car and I'll be the happiest ever. It will come soon I'm sure. Man, I cant stop eating this cookie dough! Its so addicting!! YUMMY!!! You know what I think is weird, is when you havent talked to someone in a while, and you think maybe they were just busy or that they didnt really wanna hang out anymore, then when you talk to them, they act like you ditched em. I hate that. I have a head ache! I'll write more later...
Comments: Add Your Own.

Wednesday, May 14th, 2003

Subject:Bla Bla Bla... (my initials)...
Time:11:41 pm.
Mood: peaceful.
Music:Bjork "Possibly Maybe" *best song ever!*.
I am excited that I actually decided what tattoo/s I want! Not only one, but two! Its been taking me forever to figure out where and what I wanted...but now I know! Well, if I decide to go through with it which I strongly think I will. I need to think of how I can incorporate some color in there somewhere. lol. I'm gonna look around and get some ideas. GEEZ, cramps freakin suck!!! What was God thinking?? Man, sometimes I wonder!! ::rolls eyes:: I am really excited that I will soon get some money! FINALLY!! Whether I get the "nanny" job or another one..it will be soon! *SHOW ME THE MONEY* omg, that is SO gay! HAHAHA!!

::not til you halo all over me::i'll come over::not til it shimmers round your skull::i'll be yours::I weave for you::a marvellous web::glow in the dark threads::all neon like::the cocoon surrounds you::embraces all::so you can sleep::foetus-style::they will assist us::cause we're asking for help::and the luminous beam - it feeds you!::the soft distortion::fills you up::nourish nourish::your turtleheart::dont get angry with yourself::dont get angry with yourself::I'll heal you::...with a razorblade, I'll cut a slit open::and the luminous beam feeds you honey!::

xoxox
Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Monday, May 12th, 2003

Subject:Nothing fitz like a RITZ!
Time:3:20 pm.
Mood: annoyed.
Music:Bjork - Homogenic "Immature".
YUMMY! I LOVE ritz crackers with a passion! They are my only refuge in a world of chaos! Bjork and ritz mix very well together! I miss my Julia-Chun!! I think I wanna spend the night! ;o) I need someone to be bored and stupid with!! I feel like I havent seen her in like a week and its only been like a few days. I've had a lot on my mind lately. It sucks to be stressed and somewhat paranoid at the same time!!

Things I love:
-Homogenic
-head phones
-my bed!
-dreaming
-Less Than Jake's punk covers
-Mountain Dew
-"Body Bumpin" HAHAHAHAHA!!!
-JULIA!
-"5 years"!
-growing boobs!! WooHoo! *how's it coming LJ??*
-sleeping
-my #1 fetish! :o)

Things I hate:
-guys
-LIARS!
-people who dont call
-spiders in the shower!
-waking up
-alarm clocks
-being hungry when there's nothing to eat
-missing my numba one stunna!
-being alone! :o(
Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Thursday, May 8th, 2003

Subject:The Goth Queens WILL Prevail!!!!
Time:4:46 pm.
Mood: happy.
Music:Less Than Jake "I think I love you" (punk over)!.
HAHA, j/k. Yeah, Julia and I have been getting somewhat uneasy responses to our new pics! LOL They are just expressions of our alter egos... no one sees that side of us except eachother. It's deeper than make-up! The way we see it...if you dont like what you see, dont look. But if you wanna look (lol) go here: http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=999&gid=2072933&uid=1100871
Enjoy eye candy that will leave your retina's burning. Hah. I wanna talk to Justin right now. I miss him. LOL. Its weird..but whatever! ::kiss kiss:: I am going to Julia's again tonight! I was just over there yesterday, but ya know what!? I cant live without her!!!!! Seriously...she's my everything! LOLOLOL.
Comments: Add Your Own.

Monday, May 5th, 2003

Subject:Why must the world leave me with no creative doing at my left hand?
Time:9:04 pm.
Mood: weird.
Music:Good Charlotte "Seasons".
Ok, I actually have NOTHING to say...but I really feel the need to talk about nothing, so here goes. I am SOOOO sick of waking up early every Monday morning!!!!!!!! I mean, it's a nice feeling when you help someone out, but at the same time I never get paid and I do all the hard work!!! GRR. Whatever, I'm over it. Right now I'm talking to um...HOT KID!! (aka"bringerofmosh")! Wow, unbelievable! Hehe. Coldplay rules!! Yes, sing it BOI! "Just skin, oh yeah your skin and bones..turn into something beautiful.." I'm jammin here! HAHAHA. Speaking of "Jammin" where's Bob at? He needs to hit it up and shake some bones. Omg. I am now wondering what happened when I was a child that made this disformality in my personalities... Hmmm!? Well, Joel and I must spend some time ALONE...well, the rest of the boys will be there too..singin. Wow, I need to stop talking ASAP!!! xoxox


Later (1:10 AM):
I got to talk to my Julia-Chun!! Woo Hoo!!!! Hehe. Man, I sill cant stop thinking about the KANGAROO!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! I dont want to look like a kangaroo! Julia is a chip munk. Chip munks are SOOOOOO cute!! I want one! WAIT! I already have one! Sorry, no I didnt forget about you Julia!!! So, LJ, was it nice seeing your main man today (aka The King of Pandora's!)?? So, tell me, whats it like being the QUEEN of Pandora's?? Lots of Irish line dancing and Red Rose biting?? I bet! Man, what a lucky woman you've become! I'm so proud!! LOL. I just CANNOT stop making out with you!!! ::Talking on the phone with you is like it is stopping making out w/you:: Oh man! you CRACK me up!!! Gotta go. Dont forget to Tango! Peace.
Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.

Friday, May 2nd, 2003

Subject:I'm full!
Time:1:33 am.
Mood: tired.
Music:The Used.
Yes, it is 1:30 in the morning and I am FULL! I just ate chiecken noodle soup (dont hate LJ!!) and now I'm full! I am listening to The Used...they were just on Conan O'Brien and they were sweet as hell! The sound was a little bad..but they are amazing no matter what!!! Wow! Hmmm..had a good day. :o) Hung out with Justino...such a cool guy. And very hot! ::Nothin but love:: Cant wait to hang with him again... :o)~ Um...my left shoulder is in knots...it hurts! OUCH! lol j/k, its not that bad. Spron is being weird as usual, he wont stop saying "WTF". One of my stockers is trying to ask me out on a date..hah...grrr, I hate so many questions! At least right now. I'm just not in the mood. I am still getting head aches every day! I hate it!!! My nose hurts. I think its b/c when I took a shower this morning I took the stud out then forgot to put it back in. lol. Man I'm a dumb ass! Well, I'm about to fall asleep...later. xoxoxox
Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Wednesday, April 30th, 2003

Subject:I am SOOOO bored!!!!!!!
Time:3:00 am.
Mood:Undescribable weirdism.
Music:Bjork - Homogenic.
Well, now that I am WAY beyond exausted, I am wide awake and hyper like nobody's business! So...hmmm, what can I talk about? Justin is ignoring meeeeeee. Thats always a great fun time!! Um, there's no one to talk to. That's also a favorite past-time of mine! Eeerrrm, I've been listening to the same two songs for about an hour now...that never gets annoying. I am thinking of violent things in my head to keep my brain cells circulating, b/c if I wasnt, they'd all be dead by now. They would've drown in what I call the sea of human destruction. A tragedy embarked on by the likes of lonlyness and desire for un-capturable elements. I like the way the cord to my head phones feels in my mouth. I could bite, but I dont. It comforts me.
Comments: Read 2 or Add Your Own.

Tuesday, April 29th, 2003

Subject:My life sucks!!!
Time:1:13 am.
Mood: lonely.
Music:Tori Amos - Under The Pink.
ok, well, it's technically Tuesday, but for me its still Monday b/c I havent gone to sleep yet. So, here was my day: Went to the hopspital with my mom (and her posse) and found out she has cancer again. Its in her liver. I feel so helpless, and mad and sad, and a bunch of other emotions. I feel so confused and I dont want to live in this world where bad things wont stop happening. I know, there is a part of me that says, "well, life is life and everyone goes through bad times...just accept it" but at the same time, thats easy to say...and really hard to keep as a state of mind. I dont understand why this is happening to me. What did I do? I feel so alone. I'm on my own. No one wants me. What's my purpose of living, when I cant improve anything, but only make it worse!?
Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Monday, April 28th, 2003

Subject:Good to be alive
Time:12:53 pm.
Mood: good.
Music:Led Zepplin "Whole lotta love".
Today was the first day in a while that I was really happy to be alive. I drove around lake of the isles, and wow! Windows rolled down, warm air, sun in your face (yes, cheesy i know!) but the best feeling in the world! Man, all those thoughts of wanting to end pain and everything...went away. I guess I've learned there are better things to dwell on. On a more immature level, here is the first half of my day: I was @ LJ's, so we woke up and got ready really fast and went to Rosedale. There were NO cute guys there...I feel sorry for us! :o( I guess the funniest part of the Rosedale experience was the embarrassment I endured afterwards. You see, last night LJ and I were childishly writing on eachother. (Bordom and early mornings can get the best of ya) Well, when i got up, i washed it off. But wait! Wasnt there something on the BACK of my arm! OMG! It says G C in old english letters on the back of my fucking arm! Wow, i walked around the mall with pen on my arm! What a loser! HAHAHAHA! Ok, if you dont think thats funny, then i guess you had to of been there!

Some things that RULE:
-Good Charlotte (& their 1st album)
-Trying to freestyle rap HAH!
-going to sleep when the sun is rising
-silence
-tank tops
-chapstick
-nice weather
-LJ!!!!
Comments: Read 1 or Add Your Own.

Blurty for Pieces Mended.

View:User Info.
View:Friends.
View:Calendar.
View:Memories.
You're looking at the latest 20 entries. Missed some entries? Then simply jump back 20 entries.