kayla's Blurty

Me and 3 bestfriends have known each other our whole lives. We've pretty much been bestfriends since like 4th grade and this year everythings changing. Two of them have boyfriends that they're really serious about and the other just kinda hangs around with different people now. It's like im here and I'm the only one that wants it to be like it used to be. Everyone else is happy with thier lives now i guess. One of them and I got really close this summer without the other two and she is defently my BEST friend. But that doesn't mean i dont' care about the other two and now this one seems to be drifting from me slowly. She totally obsessed with her boyfriend. It kinda hurts me. I used to be the only one she wanted to hang out with. Now i've got to make plans before her Boyfriend does. But idk it's wierd. I just miss the old days. Every weekend we would stay the night together. All four of us and talk about how life was going to be later on. How Katherine is going to be famous and we're going to go to her award shows and she's going to thank us. How Morgan will just stay in this boring town with her husband and have a Wonderful family. How emily will just be a slut. haha im kidding she's not a slut but we used to joke about her growing up and being a nimph. How i will be..well im not sure how i would be. But it doesn't matter anymore. Idk...One day Morgan and Katherine cooked emily and I dinner and as we sat down at the table Morgan did cheers and she said...Here's to you. Here's to me, and if sometimes we disagree..FUCK you. Here's to me. So that was our little saying we always said. But It's become true. It's like everyones living for themselves doing what they want to do. Yesterday i invited Katherine and Emily to go to eat with me for my sisters b-day and i understand what katherine had to do (she had to watch her little brother he was home alone) But emily, she chose to go work out and i may understand if she was fat. But she ways about 92 pounds. It kind of uppsetted me and then Yesterday she told her friend katie something and i was like what? cause katie was like NO WAY! and she was like nothing. Used to be she would tell me ANYTHING. Then she said i would be upset with her if she told me. So i have a feeling it has to do with her and her boyfriend. He probably broke up with her but she took him back. It's happened liek 20 times. Oh well. I guess i'll just live each day wondering what will happen to the four of us. Thanks for reading this if you did. It's kind of pointless. But does anyone have lyrics on friendship or anything that applys to this?..THANKS SO MUCH. Happy 11/11.