[Most Recent Entries]
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|Saturday, June 25th, 2005|
It's ben a while since I did a journal a some things have indeed change fir since then. For one I no longer work for Wally Friggin World which I got in at the LCBO though now it is casual work. I wanted to drop down to part time at Wally World but those assholes there told me to quit. My mood and outlook on life has improven a thousand times since then. Another thing is I became an uncle for a second time on April 29 which my sister had a beautiful baby girl named Maddalena. She is so adorabale and loves to driink more like chugging her formula lol. I love working for the LCBO which the enviorment is much better and much less stressful than working for retail. I know soon enough I will be getting more hours just I need to be more patient. Does it bug me that I am still single at this stage in my life? In a sense it does which I feel now that I am going to be single for the rest of my life.
|Saturday, January 1st, 2005|
Look ahead for 2005
Well 2004 has gone by. It was a very good year overall with a few disappointments towards the end of the year. I had hope to get the hell out of Wal-Mart but it didn't happen but I did get a few calls which is a start. I was disappointed when I didn't get in at the LCBO and more disappointed that I didn't get an interview for Johnson Controls but I haven't given up and 2005 will be the year I will get the hell out of Wal Mart. I had lots of fun going out with friends in 2004 and hope it continues in 2005. In a way I changed in 2004 and for the better but I still need to make better changes for 2005. Heck I may be 31 but I do feel a lot younger especially hanging out with good friends. In 2005 I will try not to make any stupid bonehead mistakes as I did in 2004. One of my biggest mistakes in 2004 was when I met Maria back in March which we talked on the phone a few times but I phoned her a lot more than she did phone me. We met but nothing did happen which she said she would phone me back but never bothered phoning. Oh well lesson learned. One big mistake that I avoided was when I got set up with this seperated women from LifeMates which I phoned her but got her answeing machine twice but she called me and we taled for 20 min which she said she would phone me back but never did. I wasn't pleased about it but it was a blessing in disguise that nothing else happened. In 2005 I believe I will find a better job find myself a girlfriend and win the Lottery. Well 2 out of 3 isn't to bad. A couple of friends from work claims that they are going to set me on Matchmaker which I will believe it when it happens. I just don't think they got the guts to do it lol.
|Friday, November 12th, 2004|
Well it's been a while since I last did an entry for my journal which a lot has been happening since. Well in early September I had an interview for the LCBO Warehouse. I actually was confident that I was going to get the position and I was going to get the hell out of Wal-Mart but I get a letter about 10 days later telling me I was unsuccessful which I was very disappointed and shocked to the point that I pretty well had no voice for over a day. I got over it quickly and once again dropped off resumes which not long after I got a call from PIC which would have put me in one place for a couple of weeks but I could also be waiting at home for a few weeks which I wasn't willing to do cause I need the hours and pay. Also for the longest time I had this nasty flu and cough which I thought I would never get rid off. My 31'st birthday was pretty good which I celebrated it 2 nights in a row. I may be 31 but I do feel younger. I also find out my sister is pregnant again and is due in May. I am happy for her but it does make me think a lot as well like why is she married and has a kid and expecting another one but yet I am still fuckin single. Truth is the older you get the harder it is to find someone. I also did one thing that I promised my mom and a few of my friends that I never do again which was join another dating service which I did. It was called Yahoo Personals which I haven't had much success though I am talking to 2 of them on yahoo messenger. I thought that I may have found a match but I haven't heard from her in a week. Just my fuckin luck I guess. Sometimes I just do the craziest things when I get desperate and it usually blows up in my face.
|Tuesday, August 17th, 2004|
I said some things a few weeks ago in my last journal that I shouldn't have said like love being fake that it only happens in movies and other stuff. I was just frustrated that day cause that damn dating service had phoned me for the first time in almost a year telling me they had a match for me which I said no to them and lied to them. It can be very frustrating being single at this stage in my life cause I always thought that I would be either dating or be married at this stage in my life. The only person I have to blame for this is myself. I am trying to remain postive that i will find someone someday but it's not easy. One thing I am very postive about is that I will get the hell out of Wal Mart soon enough. I dropped off a resume at both The LCBO and Johnson Controls. Hopefully one of those places will phone me for an interview and I will get hired and get out of Wal Mart. I went to WWE Summerslam on Sunday at the Air Canada Centre which I had a great time. My seat at section 104 row 16 I believe and seat 17 was blocked off which they had to sit me somewhere else. My new seat was an even better view than I thought I was going to get. I ended up sitting in Sect 108 row 4 seat 19 right behind where they do the pyros, and music which was a great view seeing the ring. Man the pyros can be very loud. I don't agree with them taking the World Title from Chris Benoit this soon. They should have waited till Survivor Series to change the World Title. I am going to the wedding this Saturday after all which I wasn't going at first cause I didn't have anyone to go with. Weddings are a good place to meet someone which I have nothing to lose and everything to gain by going.
|Saturday, July 3rd, 2004|
I realize now that I need to stop worrying and stressing myself out cause on Tuesday I had my first nosebleed in about 4 years which my have been caused by the house being dry or the stress that I have been going through. I hope it doesn't happen again. I am still debating whether I should go to that wedding on Aug 21 or not. Part of me says I should go cause it can be a good way to meet people and I have everything to gain and nothing to lose but another part of me says not to go cause I would look like a complete idiot going by myself when pretty well everyone else going are couples, people dating or old people. Another reason why I may not go is cause I there is no one for me to ask out. That is one thing I truly need to work on is the fear of asking a woman out. Yes I know I can be shy at times which can be hard to believe but it is very true about me. Good thing is that I am not as shy as I used to be which it's just usually when I meet people for the first time when I tend to be quiet and shy. One thing I have learned to do is just be myself around others. When I look at my sister who is married and has a kid there is a part of me that wishes that it was me instead. Am I jealous of my sister or any of my friends who are either going out with someone or is married? Answer is no cause I am very happy for them and wish them nothing but the best. I know my time will come soon enough. The BBQ party on Thursday was good which the weather was very nice and warm which I would love to do again in the future. Dave and Mike from work came over along with Mike's wife. Afterward we went to Jessica's house which we walked about 25 minutes to the lake to watch the fireworks which were awesome. That night I wore a plain blue t-shirt and pants which I looked good in. I plan on buying a few more plain t-shirts cause I liked the way it looked on me which made me feel great about myself.
|Sunday, June 27th, 2004|
This was kind of a stressful week for me. I had a very bad headache for 3 days cause I got myself so stressed out cause I want to get out of Wally World so bad and I was also worried about what my friends would think of me working there. I shouldn't worry about what others think of me but I can be very stubborn at times. If my friends do care and like me then wouldn't have a problem where I work at. I am very positive that I will get out of Wal Mart soon just I have to be patient and keep on dropping off resumes and it will pay off soon. In the last 6 months to a year I have noticed some great changes about myself. Some of the changes in myself are that I am more confident about myself than ever, am a bit more open which I can talk about my feelings to others instead of keeping it to myself, also I am stronger cause I have been working out more, more patient, and enjoying myself more especially whenever I go out with friends. I have a BBQ party on Thursday which I will have 3 friends over from work coming over which I know we will have a good time which I just hope everything goes well that day.
|Sunday, June 20th, 2004|
In one week from now it will be 14 years that I moved here to Oshawa from Sault Ste Marie. June 27, 1990 is the exact day that I moved to Oshawa. Funny how that before I moved to Oshawa that I was looking forward to it but when I moved here to Oshawa I felt different about it. I didn't really hate moving until the first day of school for grade 11 when it suddenly hit me cause I just realized that I am living here now and I wasn't going back to Sault Ste Maire. I felt like this for at least over 2 years maybe 3 years before I started liking living here in Oshawa. I like living here now but there some days where I am not crazy about this city. There are a lot of advantages to living here now than living in Sault Ste Maire like being able to see sporting events, concerts and other neat stuff to do. Also the future is brighter here. Would I have change things and not moved here? Well the answer is no though there are days where I feel different. Who knows what the future hold these days cause you just never know.
|Wednesday, June 16th, 2004|
A lot of times I do ask myself who are my true friends in this world but in my heart I know who they are. The people who I consider my true friends are Dave, Jessica, Mike, Ryan, Lance, Peter, his wife Liz, Marc and Gus. I am very lucky to have them as friends. If it weren't for Dave, Jessica, Mike, and Ryan then I would hate working at Wally World more than I do now. To which I say to them thank you very much which I appreciate it a lot. Each of them do have great qualities about them as friends to much to say here lol.