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this weather has me wanting love more tangible something i can hold, because it's getting cold |
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| Friday, December 4th, 2009 |
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this weather has me wanting love more tangible something i can hold, because it's getting cold |
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| besides, you're probably holding hands with some skinny, pretty girl that likes to talk about bands. and all i want to do is ride bikes with you, and stay up late, and maybe spoon. |
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| "look, elliot. every year we bounce around this thing and i never had the courage to stand up and tell you how i feel. i’m crazy about you. and i want you to know if i had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world or sitting at home with you eating pizza watching a crappy TV show, i’d choose you every time." |
| Wednesday, December 2nd, 2009 |
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i could leave you well enough alone believing you'd be overcome and gone by grace away better off than if i stayed i could leave you walk away we'll save it for another day through all the wars i've come to know it's punches pulled, not towels thrown in when they come knocking on your heart's door choose the one who loves you more, oh and when you've found something to die for it can make you face all your fears they'll be knocking on your heart's door. |
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And you can do no wrong In my eyes In my eyes You can do no wrong In my eyes In my eyes A drunken salesman Your hearing damage Your mind is restless They say you’re getting better But you don’t feel any better |
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Know that when you leave, Know that when you leave, By blood and by me, you walk like a thief, By blood and by me, and I fall when you leave. So tell me when you hear my heart stop, You're the only one that knows. Tell me when you hear my silence, There's a possibility I wouldn't know. So tell me when my sorrow's over, You're the reason why I'm closed. Tell me when you hear me falling, There's a possibility it wouldn't show. By blood and by me, and I'll fall when you leave. By blood and by me, I follow your lead. |
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it's just that every time you cheat, you bring me closer to defeat. |
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As we reflect on the mess of all this that I've made It was cowardice that made me push you away I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me |
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Maybe when we’re both old and wise maybe when our hearts have had some time I’m gonna see you therewhere the good times go where you are forever young… |
| Tuesday, December 1st, 2009 |
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Shit get on my level you can't get on my level You will need a space shuttle or a ladder that's forever However I'm better if not now then never Don't you ever fix ya lips unless you bout to suck my dick. You're trying to find a reason for the way you feel tonight Your mind is lined with layers of lead Have you heard one thing that I've said? and Abigail gave everything she had to a boy who changed his mind and we both cried. and tonight, we are the only ones who feel it. shit! nothing makes sense so I won’t think about it i’ll go with the ignorance eat, sleep, fuck and flee in four words, that’s me i am full of indifference and your eyes, they look so lonely. it's only when you think about me "it's what you build, not what you destroy." - barack obama. fuck you fuck you very, very much cause we hate what you do and we hate your whole crew so please don't stay in touch. "In the wild, there is no health care. In the wild, health care is, 'Ow, I hurt my leg. I can't run. A lion eats me. I'm dead.' Well, I'm not dead. I'm the lion. You're dead." -Dwight, the Office. this will be the first time in a week that i'll talk to you and i can't speak it's been three whole days since i've had sleep cause i dream of her lips on your cheek and i got the point that i should leave you alone but we both know that i'm not that strong i miss the lips that made me fly i do as i please, and i lie through my teeth someone might get hurt, but it won't be me i should probably feel cheap, but i just feel free and a little bit empty I don't want to feel anything, but I do, and it all comes back to you. i used to be love struck now i'm just fucked up. i wonder of your whereabouts and hope like hell you're happy where you are. you used to say that you're just fine., but I still wonder all the time. If I could do just one near perfect thing I’d be happy. They’d write it on my grave, or when they scattered my ashes. On second thoughts, I’d rather hang around and be down with my best friend, If she wants me god, that was strange to see you again introduced by a friend of a friend smiled and said, "yes, i think we've met before" in that instant it started to pour I used to rely on self-medication, I guess I still do that from time to time. But I'm getting better at fighting the future, "Someday you'll be fine.." Yes, I'll be just fine. you know, I won't mind if you monopolize all my time I won't say a thing at all. I won't say a word, no Gary's getting drunk to forget Sarah Sarah's stealing money from her parents Aaron's lying straight to Jon about Megan and the things that went on Jessica's a gossip, Laura's a slut Derrick hits Bridget, Ben deals drugs Seth spends all his money gambling Joey stopped praying It is all the same thing would you want me when im not myself? wait it out while i am someone else? and i, in time, will come around i always do for you "Something really is wrong with me. And I don't know what it is. I know that I brought this all on myself. I know that I deserve this. I'd do anything not to be this way. I'd do anything to make it up to everyone. I just wish that someone would just tell me what's wrong with me. Just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. To make this all go away. And disappear. I know that's wrong because it's my responsibility, and I know that things get worse before they get better, but this is a worse that feels too big. " maaaaaaybe some pretty girls are in your world excuuuuuse me, but i could also be your girl. And I do believe it’s true That there are roads left in both of our shoes But if the silence takes you Then I hope it takes me too So brown eyes I hold you near Cause you’re the only song I want to hear A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere Summer secrets keep me breathing, my old routine stopped repeating And I'll never forget anything that happened today The days go by but we don't change These nights I get high just from breathing. When I lie here with you I'm sure that I'm real, like that firework over the freeway. I could stay here all day but that's not how you feel. do not offer me a contract, i've got no use for a house by the sea. all i ask for is a warm body to keep this winter from killing me. We made love by the ocean As the waves crashed around you Sunsets never were so bright And the skies never so blue While you were sleeping I figured out everything, I was constructed for you, and you were molded for me. Now I feel your name, coursing through my veins. You shine so bright it's insane, you put the sun to shame. |
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it won't be better than I remember it before and this month only, will be so lonely and not so homey anymore |
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it's the only way I see clear |
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You know I love you, but I'm playing for keeps |
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I should just be my own best friend, Not fuck myself in the head with stupid men |
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All I can ever be to you, Is a darkness that we knew |
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Niggaz wanna know why, why I fly by |
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you're left with a feeling i let go you are just a feeling i let go |
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When I saw my best friend yesterday She said she never liked you from the start Well me, I wish that I could claim the same But you always knew you held my heart |
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bleached and blinded by these nights where i'm tossing and tortured til dawn by you, visions of you then youre gone the shock lifts the red from my face when i hear someone's taking my place how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel when all, all that i did was for you i am so goddamn tired of being replaced. fuck. |
| Monday, November 30th, 2009 |
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I'm a slow motion accident Lost in coffee rings and fingerprints I don't wanna feel anything but I do And it all comes back to you |
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And there's just one last thing that I have to say As we reflect on the mess of all this that I've made It was cowardice that made me push you away I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me |
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| Life is full of regrets and I should be one. Try telling me off, try slamming the door. Or telling me I am not worth your time Or the breath you are breathing. |
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| So we bottled and shelved all our regrets, Let them ferment and came back to our senses, Drove back home and slept a few days, Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be |
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| Love is not a big monster you should be scared of. |
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Allright Lovers! I need some new music... I want to make some mixes, so send me some songs you think I should download that connect with you about love and faith or just plain life.. |
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"I must learn to love the fool in me—the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom I also harbor and who would rob me of human aliveness, humility, and dignity but for my fool." - Theodore Isaac Rubin |
| Sunday, November 29th, 2009 |
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| "Take a broken girl, treat her like a famous princess. Give her the best seats in the house. Buy her coffee and cigarettes for the coming down, books and bathroom things for the days ahead. Tell her something true when all she's known are lies. Tell her God loves her. Tell her about forgiveness, the possibility of freedom, tell her she was made to dance in white dresses. All these things are true." |
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And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied. |
| Saturday, November 28th, 2009 |
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but there's nothing to see, cause it's a broken heart that you're giving me. Give me your fave xmas songs/covers please! It's time to make christmas mixesssss!!!!!!!! |
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of course i do, except perhaps in spring, but i should never think of spring, for that would surely break my heart in two. |
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| all the roads lead back to you. |
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