Courtney V1's Blurty

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Subject:	This Is Kinda Funny
Time:	2:41 pm.
Mood:	amused.
Music:	Ensiferum - Iron.

Me and my friend went into FYE the other day looking for music that represents St. Patricks Day so we can drink to it. We looked around and saw the same compilations that we saw at Wal-Mart. I asked my friend if she wanted me to ask about seeing if they had any good folk metal music. She was like yeah, go ahead and do it. so I went up to lady that was working and I asked her if she knew of any good folk metal bands? She looked at me like I had mutilple heads or something. She goes to me folk metal. Then she asked the guy that was working with her and he said folk metal. This is our mini conversation about folk metal.

Me: do you carry any folk metal?
FYE Guy: what? are you making that up?
Me: no...
FYE Guy: well tell me about it...
Me: (I go on to tell him what its about)
FYE Guy: wow. thats intreging.

Then the girl working goes oh you mean like Leaves Eyes and I am like yes. Something like that and she goes oh I know what folk metal is.

I was laughing the whole time as I am trying to explain what folk metal is to these 2 people who work at a music store. I thought it was pretty funny so I thought I would share it with all of you.

enjoy for a laugh or two.

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Subject:	Good Morning
Time:	9:49 am.
Mood:	blank.
Music:	Iron Maiden - Children of The Damned.

Hello everyone!!!!! Whats going on? Nothing much is going on with me really. I am just chillin like a motherfucking villian. Hahahaha I thought that was good. Okay well anyways ummmm I havent been sleeping all that well for the last week and 3 days. I dont know why either but all of sudden I am staying up all fucking night and sleeping all damn day which sucks. I hate sleeping all day, I actually like getting up in the morning to do shit.

I am going to go walking and or running around 10:30 this morning with my buddies Kristen and Kenny. It should be good since its fucking nice outside today. I guess its supposed start snowing again tomorrow or something like that. So I am going to enjoy the weather today while I can. I am trying to get myself back into shape. I dont like being lazy at all. I really fucking hate it. Wow can I say I anymore fucking times during this entry, gezz its like my favorite or something. I am sitting back drinking my second cup of coffee not that all of you need play-by-play on what I am doing. I might bring my beagle out for a walk today but I am not so sure. He's not exactly all that friendly when other people are around but I might do it anways because we both could use it.

So yeah right now I am rocking out to my ipod and its on shuffle. I am shuffling through 5,573 or something along those lines. ummmm Shadows Fall just came on so I am currently rocking out to Idiot Box. It's good fucking song and it pumps you up. Just gotta love Metal for that reason oh and plus the mosh pits are fucking awesome. This is my sleeping music and it rocks. My BF doesnt think my ipod is good for sleeping 2 at all. In his opinion its to fucking heavy and loud. I'm like this shit is awesome and its perfect sleeping music. I sleep perfectly fine to my ipod. He just cant handle my music. It's just way 2 much for him. My BF Anthony doesnt know metal if it came up and bit him in the ass. He's so in love with his 80s metal. Thats basically all his ipod has on it except some of the stuff I put on it.

Alright I am going to end this entry right now. I have just run out of things to say at the current moment. I have 2 things that I need to talk about for other entries. Trust me on this, you would like to read them. They are pretty good and worth checking out, well thats just my opinion. I am not even sure that people read this damn thing but thats all good. W.A.S.P. just made its onto the ipod with Cries In The Night.

I'm out

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Subject:	Whats Up?
Time:	11:39 pm.
Mood:	stressed.
Music:	Family Guy.

My Mulitmedia Web Design degree isnt working out so great. I havent found a job and I dont think I will. I keep sending out my resume to jobs but I never get a response back from any of them.

So I am going to take up another major. I am going to be studying Sociology at Worecter State. Well I hope I can take it as a major. I am going to be busy all day tomorrow with making all kinds of phone calls to make this happen. I just hope that I am not too late.

I so regret going to New England Tech. I am supposed to be studying my BS degree in Digital Recording Arts but it never works out. They didnt even offer the damn thing during a quarter. So I am fed up and tired of running around that damn school when nothing ever happens.

I am going to keep trying to get a web design job. I am not going to give up but I think its time to take something else to fall back on. At least there is work in the Sociology field. I see job postings for it in the newspapers which more than what I can say for graphic design and web design.

If this doesnt work out for me then the next step is calling up an Army Ruiter and getting enlisted in that.

well thats it for now.

I am starting to stress about shit.

ugh

hopefully I will have good news tomorrow.

later

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Subject:	American Idol
Time:	8:52 am.
Mood:	accomplished.
Music:	Falkenback - Heathen Foray.

I am watching the new season of American Idol and I must say that it hasnt been all that great. They havent taken many people from what I have watched.

I dont think that American Idol should be such an elitist show. They are so quick to say no to all the rocker people that go there to try out. I mean how come they cant get a chance to make it shine. I was so happy that guys like Constantine (sp) and Daughtery go up there and prove that there is still some good solid rock and hard rock people left in this world that havent been taken over by the whole rap scene.

I think that American Idol is a good concept but they shouldnt be so elitist. They are only going after all the pop/r & b singers instead of looking at all the genres of music.

Like for example, what if guys like Amon Amarth went to try out for this show. They would probably say that they dont have any talent and that they arent what they were looking for in musicians. Another example would be guys like In Flames or Soilwork. Hell what about guys like Ensierfum and the rest of the Folk/Viking metal genre. They wouldnt have a chance because the judges of American Idol are so elitist.

They always end up signing stupid ass pop singers that always end up becoming 1 hit wonders and then poof. They are no where to been seen for years until they choose to make a comeback into the music world.

alright I done. I just thought that I rant a little bit about American Idol. Feel free to add in your 2 cents or debate me about this.

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Subject:	More Relationship Troubles
Time:	12:47 pm.
Mood:	cranky.
Music:	Rise Against - Survive.

So my relationhsip is in a struggle right now. I love my boyfriend more than anything and it sucks that we cant be together all time but he has to do his own thing and I have to do my own thing. I am trying to get my shit in order and I am trying to figure out what I am going to do about school. He wants me to pack up all my stuff and just move in with him. I cant do that because 1.) I dont have a vechicle to get around from point A to point B. 2.) I have no way of getting to class from Boston to Rhode Island, 3.) I dont have a job to care take of myself and handle myself financial. It's very stressfull and it causes a lot of fights which leads to yelling and screaming.

The main problem we are having is the whole sex thing. We argue you a lot about sex and getting freaky. not so much me, its mostly him. He wants to come over my house on satruday get laid and call it a day. Then he leaves on Sunday and repeat for the next weekend. The problem with this is that the sex part is all about him and his needs get pleased and not mine. It's always all about him and not about me. I always give him what he wants and I never get any in the end. I always get stiffed and it sucks. I hate it and its not fair at all. I always give oral pleasure to him and I never gotten it in return. I always give him sex and yet again I never get pleased in the end. it went as far as him accusing me that I am sleeping with someone else. That I lost interested in him and that I dont want to be with him. thats not true at all, its just that I want to be pleased and I dont want to have to do all the work. I am always on top giving him pleasuring. He is never on top and he never losens me up before we have sex either. he just shoves in and goes to work and thats that. I fucking hate it and it sucks.

so thats what I have been dealing with all weekend. ugh

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Subject:	More Relationship Troubles
Time:	11:51 pm.
Mood:	cold.
Music:	In Flames - Colony.

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Subject:	I Agree
Time:	5:40 pm.
Mood:	curious.
Music:	Matt Hardy Shoot Interview.

I am watching

They asked him a question concerning champions or what-not. I really dont remember the question but it was a good question. So anyways I happen to agree with Matt Hardy on his answer.

Instead of building the show around the World Heavyweight Champion and the WWE World Champion they should build storylines around the mid-card title belts. Instead of crusierweights being used a jobbers to the super heavyweights. Also instead of having tag teams getting beat by super heavyweights.

I remember the question now, go figure, well anyways, the questions around what time did the tag team division start to fade away. That was the question that was asked to Matt Hardy. If anyone has this dvd knows what I am talking about.

Okay so back to what I wanted to say about this question.

In my personal opinion, I am more into the Tag Team Division, The IC Division, I was into the Womens Division but not anymore, and I am into the Crusierweight Division. I get more into those matches than I do with the WWE World Title matches and the World Heavyweight Title matches. I could give a fuck about those titles. I say all of this because it's always the same 2 or 3 guys feuding for the same thing.

I really think if smackdown started paying attention to the crusierweights and the crusierweight title, that it wouldnt be hurting so bad. Also I think if smackdown started paying attention to the smackdown tag team titles that it wouldnt be hurting so bad all. I think they need to start using the talent they have in this division. I am more interested in the tag team division on smackdown than I am for the World Heavyweight Title. Thats just my opinion, take for whatever you want. I am just giving my opinion.

I think they need to start using the crusierweights so they can feud with Gregory Helms for the crusierweight title. Gregory Helms can put on one hell of match, hell just go and watch his matches against Matt Hardy on smackdown and watch some of his wcw matches. The gguy can wrestle and should be used to his potential. I can Super Crazy going after the crusierweight title. He is doing nothing on Raw, so I saw move him back to smackdown and have him feud for the crusierweight title. They shouldnt have cut Kid Kash because he can work a match and would fit well into the crusierweight division as well. same goes with the other crusierweight guys they let go. So now they have a crusierweight division that they are doing nothing with.

Again this only my opinion. Feel free to write your own opinioin to this.

I really think that the writers should stop focusing all there engery around the the World Heavyweight Champion and the WWE World Champion that both smackdown and raw can be good. They need to start focusing on the tag team division because I miss it and it was entertaining as al hell to watch. I also miss seeing the crusierweight divison because that was my only reason of watching WCW Monday Nitro. They guys can work one hell of a match as well. They should start focusing in that more instead of the stupid storylines they are coming up with now.

I want the tag team division back along with the crusierweight division, and the IC title division.

carlito should be used instead of being used for backstage segments, same goes with Shelton Benjamin. These guys can work a match and yet they arent being used. Charlies Hass could fit into the IC Title division as well.

Thoughts/Comments/Opinions?

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Subject:	A magical moment
Time:	3:39 am.
Mood:	awake.
Music:	Killswitch Engage - Unbroken.

After four long years of great anticipation, the dream WWE fans were about to give up on finally happened: the Hardy Boyz reunited.
“Anytime I’m in the ring with Jeff, it feels magical,” said Matt of the reunion on ECW on Sci Fi.
Heading into a huge Traditional Survivor Series Match with his brother, DX and CM Punk, Matt is planning to use the atmosphere the Hardy Boyz generate to help bring his team to victory.
“I have good nervous energy, if any nervous energy. We’re out there with Triple H and Shawn Michaels – two of the biggest Superstars in the history of the business – and up and comer CM Punk; we just want to do our part to help our team to survive,” said Matt.
Just returning from an three-year hiatus, Intercontinental Champion Jeff Hardy was barely able to contain himself when he spoke about his Survivor Series match.
“I’m amped; I know our team is ready. This is one of the biggest pay-per-views of the year and teaming with Matt and DX has me prepared,” he said excitedly.
With their father intently watching at home, the Hardys have even more motivation to succeed at Survivor Series.
“Watching us compete together means the world to our father,” Jeff explained.
Matt added, “Our dad said seeing us reunite [on ECW on Sci Fi] was one of the best matches he’d ever seen. I know he’s happy for us to be together again at Survivor Series, and we’re both happy that he’s happy.”
Tonight they’ll continue to make their father proud. But, more importantly they will excite a frenzied Philadelphia crowd and millions watching live on pay-per-view.

credit - wwe.com

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Subject:	Annoyed
Time:	10:25 pm.
Mood:	annoyed.
Music:	WWE Confidential.

I am going through my wrestling tapes. I am trying to watch a whole year of wrestling. I am trying to watch all of 2004. I found some or most of my tapes. I am having a hard time trying to find a couple of 2004 tapes tho. I seem to be missing Raw 1-20-04, Raw 03-01-2004, Raw 5-24-2004, Raw 6-7-2004, Raw 6-21-2004, Raw 6-28-2004, Raw 7-12-2004, Raw 10-25-2004, Raw 11-1-2004, Raw 11-8-2004, Raw 11-15-2004, & RAW 12-27-2004. I remember recording these but I just cant seem to find them. I think maybe I am looking to hard or I missed labeled some of my tapes. Well I just thought I rant about this minor problem. I am getting pissed because I cant find these tapes.

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Subject:	Lita Out
Time:	10:14 pm.
Music:	ECW.

After a remorseless attack upon Mickie James on Raw, Women’s Champion Lita both surprised and appalled WWE and its fans by announcing her retirement from sports-entertainment. Callously addressing the Baltimore crowd in the 1st Mariner Arena and those watching at home, Lita essentially told the world that she was done with WWE.

“I was debating about retiring for a quite a while,” Lita told WWE.com following her announcement. “But, I’ve made my decision and made it official tonight on Raw with the WWE fans.”

With her opponent defeated, Lita made the bombshell declaration that her final match will take place at Survivor Series in her title defense against Mickie. According to Lita, Sunday couldn’t come any sooner.

“I’m sick and tired of not being respected for the contributions I’ve made in the past and also every week on Raw,” said the Women’s Champion. “The [other Superstars and Divas] in the locker room turned their back on me when I wasn’t the cool person to like.”

Seven years a WWE Diva, Lita’s current Women’s Championship reign is her fourth. If all goes accordingly, Lita will leave WWE as the unseated champion, trumping her long-time rival Trish Stratus, who retired as champion in September.

“I’d love to say thanks to my fans that were with me since day one and are still there today,” she said. “I’ve got nothing for fair-weather fans that were with me at one time, but because I make a personal decision they don’t approve of, they decide to turn their back on me.”

The Women’s Champion has not yet devised any post-retirement plans. Lita is looking forward to making history on Sunday in Philadelphia. Only afterwards will she consider her post-WWE years.

“I am going to figure out what I’m going to do the day after Survivor Series,” added Lita. “But, I’m sure I won’t be thinking of the other Superstars, Divas or WWE fans when I’m kicking my feet up and not working.”

credit - wwe.com

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Subject:	Relationship Troubles
Time:	7:37 pm.
Mood:	stressed.
Music:	Evans Blue - "Eclipsed".

Well it seems like my relationship is starting to sink. It hasnt been pleasant the last week or so but I think it started way before me and the boyfriend went on vacation. I told him that I it felt like we were drifting apart and he says to me "Dont worry about it, we are not drifting apart." I am like okay fine, I wont worry about it but when things start getting bad, I will let you handle it and I wont do nothing. We dont seem to have nothing in common anymore and my boyfriend feels like he is completing with my interest. He keeps telling me that I need to grow up and start acting my age. I am like what the fuck. I am acting my age. Anthony my boyfriend thinks its stupid that I read fan fiction and that I write fan fiction. He also thinks that its stupid that I watch One Tree Hill, ER, Gilmore Girls, General Hospital, Port Charles, Wrestling, and whatever else I watch. He tells me when I need to go to bed, when I need to get up, when I can drink coffee, what I can and cannot wear. Anthony goes through my computer and deletes stuff he doesnt like and he also goes through my digital camera and deletes shit he doesnt like. Anthony hates my myspace page because it has pictures and banners of Matt & Jeff Hardy. Oh and he also doesnt like my pictures that I uploaded to my myspace. I have no idea how any of this happened. I have no idea where any of this is coming from. We dont talk anymore and when we do talk, we talk about nothing. I just dont know whats going on anymore.

Anthony thinks that I dont make any attempts to go see him. I dont have a fucking car, so I just cant get up and go. When I ask my parents for the car, they say no. it's not my fault that they wont let me use the damn thing. They the boyfriend says that I dont make sacrifices for him. What the hell am i supposed to sacrifice. I have nothing to sacrifice, I dont do anything. I am trying to find a fucking job and do something with my life. I am trying to get registered for classes so I can finish with my BA degree in Digital Recording Arts. He just wants me to pack up all my shit and move in with him. he wants me to transfer schools so I can be near him. I wont have a way of getting around.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is just so frastruating. I have no idea whats going on or whats going to happen. I just dont know?

so I leave this entry with a song, enjoy

Evans Blue - "Eclipsed"
We love our tragedies.
We're both broken in our own little ways
We're broken, but we fit together just right
You know I saw the black inside your eyes
I saw they were eclipsed by mine and they looked just right.

[Chorus:]
When our lips meet, will you know me then
And will you want to know it?
It feels like I've known you for so long.
When our lips meet, will you love me then
and will you ever know it?
It seems like you've known me for so long.

I love your analogies.
We're both crazy in our own little ways
We talk about the future and our past lives.
I know I loved you then.
I know I'd love you now.
I know I'll love you then.
I know I love you now.

[Chorus]

But you can't have everything you want when you want it.
I will be everything you want, when you want it.

Wait for me. Trust for me.
Fall for me. Even when you don't know you're falling for me.
Will you fall for it? If it should, it'll come around again.
But don't wait for me. And don't trust in me. Don't fall me.
Even when you know you're falling for me.

[Chorus]

When our hearts meet, will we make it then.
Will we even notice that they are eclipsed?