Why is it that most people I get close to feel the need to turn into hypocritical idiots?

Or maybe it's just that it takes getting close to me for them to start showing me their true side and treating me like shit.
Why do I still bother trying to be a good friend to anyone? Everyone finds some way to be horribly disappointing, sooner or later. I'd like to say my current friends are the exception, but I would've said that about a couple other friends in the past. And it's no longer true.

I just don't know why I bother. It's like being a rat in that stupid sadistic maze, and knowing there's a wall there blocking the exit off, but repeatedly running into it anyway, hoping that maybe, just maybe, the wall won't be there next time, even though you know it's never going anywhere. Eternal optimism, I guess they call it.

All I have to do is grow accustomed to the idea of only my electronics for company. Once I get that down, this will never happen again. Because there just won't be anyone to hurt me. Of course, then there won't be anyone to make me happy, either. But there's no one like that now anyway, so what am I really losing in that area? I'd be losing good conversation and good company... but since I will have grown accustomed to the good conversation and company of my electronics, I probably wouldn't notice after a while.

i am:i hear: lethargic i am:i hear: Love Spirals Downwards - Avincenna

The RIAA is really the Third Reich.

That is all.

Just givin' mah Blurty some sweet sweet lovin'.

i am:i hear: about to sleep i am:i hear: Chris Vrenna - Vale of Tears

Okay here we go... the complete version of Chapter 1. I already posted this at the SHFics community but I'd hate to neglect the 2-3 of you on blurty who read this. ;p

( Hometown, Chapter 1 )

i am:i hear: ubiquitous i am:i hear: Nine Inch Nails - The Great Below (live)

Wrote more of Chapter 1 in my notebook but have yet to transcribe it... will do so later...

All the world has closed her eyes
Tired faith all worn and thin
For all we could have done
And all that could have been

Ocean pulls me close and whispers in my ear
The destiny I've chose is all becoming clear
The currents have their say, the time is drawing near
It washes me away... it makes me disappear

As I descend from grace in arms of undertow
I will take my place... in the great below.

I can still feel you... even so far away
I can still feel you... even so far away...
Even so far away...
Even so far away...
Even so far...

(no particular reason, I just really love this song)

i am:i hear: predatory i am:i hear: Evanescence - Even In Death

So... this is the uber-rough draft version I'm just putting up here to play with when I don't feel like finding my Comp. 2 notebook. The 2-3 of you who may or may not read this, do keep that in mind. Parts will lag, parts will suck, parts will look awkward, and parts will be flat out missing. You'll just have to deal with that until I refine it and post the final version at Silent Hill fics.

( caveat reader )

i am:i hear: lethargic i am:i hear: Yuki Kajiura & Kouichi Mashita - Fake Wings

I WILL write more of my Silent Hill 3 fic, I WILL I WILL I WILL. :::vows:::

Random pointless one-liner post... but I didn't want blurty feeling neglected.

i am:i hear: tired i am:i hear: Joseph LoDuca - Poison Milk

I'm a wuss about sharing my fan writings with people who've been writing in that fandom for a long time, but I do wanna try to write this... so here is as good a place as any, since I have nothing to post here that hasn't gone into my other journals.

( Stupid Writing-type Stuff )

i am:i hear: bored i am:i hear: SH3

...I guess I'll steal surveys from my LJ friends. They love me, they won't mind.

I'm too tired to LJ Cut, so if you don't wanna read this post, you know how to use a scrollbar.

[ Name ]: Blahblahblah, it's all over the 'net, figure it out
[ Aliases ]: Ditto
[ Born in ]: former USSR
[ Resides in ]: Michigan
[ Good student? ]: Only when I wanna be.
[ Eyes ]: Hazel with dark green rings around the edges
[ Hair ]: Dark brown, aaalmost black but not quite
[ Shoe size ]: 7 1/2

Last time you..
[ Had a nightmare ]: Yesterday... or since it's 3:30AM now, the day before
[ Said "I love you" and meant it ]: To my doggie... online, sis, 'cause she went to bed last out of all the online people I've been talking to tonight
[ Ate at McDonald's ]: McD's is nastyass and I would never dine there.
[ Dyed your hair ]: Months months months ago.
[ Brushed your hair ]: When I got up today
[ Washed your hair ]: Two... maybe... three?... days ago
[ Checked your e-mail ]: Well since I'm perpetually ON and it's perpetually being CHECKED that's kinda irrelevant
[ Cried ]: I can't remember. When you stop relying on linear time, maybe I can tell you things more accurately.
[ Called someone ]: My parents, to tell them I'm coming home from class early
[ Smiled ]: Like I keep track of my smiles or something?
[ Laughed ]: In class, probably some after that at home too
[ Talked to an ex ]: I have severed ties with all of my exes, and the ones I didn't sever just sorta dropped off the face of the earth

Do You...
[ Smoke? ]: Never
[ Do drugs? ]: Nope. Not that I find anything morally wrong with it, I just don't need 'em. I have an imagination and video games.
[ Have sex? ]: *do* I? No, you generally need a partner for it to be considered sex. Have I? Yes.
[ Sleep with stuffed animals? ]: There's a stuffed panda sis gave me for my birthday tangled up in my sheets somewhere, does that count?
[ Have a dream that keeps coming back? ]: Nope. There are some R-rated dreams I wouldn't mind having every night though...
[ Play an instrument? ]: Not regularly... but when the mood suits, I can sing ("normal" and operatic), play piano, play violin, play various middle eastern and african drums, native american flute, celtic lap harp, and uh... I can't remember if there's anything else
[ Believe there is life on other planets? ] : I think it's out there somewhere, but I don't think anyone's come here to check on us or anything... not a big UFO believer.
[ Remember your first love? ]: Not that I care to, but yes
[ Still love him/her? ]: Love to see him suffer, sure... that's not what the question was asking though, was it?
[ Read the newspaper? ]: Japanese ones. That I can barely read.
[ Have any straight friends? ] Uh... yes? What kind of a question is this?
[ Consider love a mistake? ]: Depends on the person you fall in love with
[ Like the taste of alcohol? ]: It depends on the drink... well, and my mood
[ Believe in God? ]: Which one?
[ Pray? ]: To who?
[ Go to church? ]: Uh, to admire the artwork, sure
[ Have any secrets? ]: A handful, but it's not stuff anyone'd really NEED to know about me anyway, so it's irrelevant
[ Have any pets ]: A grand total of 1... my exceedingly brilliant doggie.
[ Talk to strangers who instant message you]: Generally they don't IM me unless I know them from somewhere and gave them my SN. But when they used to, I did if they sounded intelligent enough. "A/S/L" was always ignored.
[ Wear hats? ]: Depends on the hat, but usually no
[ Have any piercings? ]: Two holes in each ear, and I'd like to get a third set and a helix piercing in one (but dunno if I ever will).
[ Have any tattoos? ]: I'd love some, but there's nothing that means enough to me to be on my body forever right now
[ Hate yourself? ]: On very rare occasions, for silly reasons, but usually I love being me. I'm awesome.
[ Have an obsession? ]: Several!
[ Have a secret crush? ]: Ha! If I had a crush he'd know about it by now and would either be dating me or I'd've gotten over it.
[ Collect anything? ]: Lots of stuff... manga, anime, video games, DVDs, blahblahblah... too much to list, ask if you wanna know
[ Have a best friend? ]: Yes, just one. I once had more, but the others are and were fuckheads and lost that privilege forever
[ Like your handwriting? ]: Not a chance
[ Have any bad habits? ]: My whole life is just one bad habit... and I like it that way
[ Care about looks? ]: If I feel like I have to dress up or be especially clean for something, yeah... or if I'm just in the mood to be especially lovely or something
[ Boy/girlfriend's looks? ]: I don't have one at the moment, but yes, he'd have to be at least moderately attractive *to me* or there'd really be no point, would there?
[ Friends and other people? ]: Not really... I mean I CARE only because aesthetically, some people are nicer to look at extendedly than others, but if someone's a good friend, the hell do I care what they look like?
[ Believe in witches? ]: uh... so... when was this survey written, 1695?
[ Believe in Satan? ]: Kinda... yes and no? Long story.
[ Believe in ghosts? ]: See above.

Current:
[ Dress ]: My black bell-sleeved shirt with gold tribal/Celtic knotwork covered in glitter at the sleeves and laced-up neckline, aaand I changed pants after I came home so, my cozy black sports-ish pants
[ Mood ]: Kinda bored, but playing my third game of SH3 and enjoying the unlimited submachine gun and flamethrower (I feel like a gangster or an exterminator...), and my back hurts a little
[ Make-up ]: None
[ Music ]: None, I'm playing SH3
[ Taste ]: I just drank some water...
[ Hair ]: On my head
[ Annoyance ]: Back pain
[ Smell ]: Nada. I smell... oxygen?
[ Thought ]: "[ Thought ]:" ...well, it's what I was thinking when I read it... so...
[ Book ]: Imajica, Vol. 1
[ Fingernail Color ]: Unpolished(.org? har)
[ Refreshment ]: Hydrogen Dioxide
[ Worry ]: Nnnot a single one in the world
[ Crush ]: Like I said, if I had one he'd either be my boyfriend by now or no longer a crush
[ Favorite Celebrity ]: Uuuuh... no one I can think of, really.

Last Person:
[ You Touched ]: My doggie
[ You Talked to ]: Sis
[ You Hugged ]: RL? It's been too long for me to remember. OL? Sis
[ You Instant messaged ]: Sis
[ You Yelled At ]: Uuuuhhh... either my mom or Lari a week or two ago when she had a naughty behavior night
[ You Had A Crush On ]: How many times do I have to say this...
[ Who Broke Your Heart ]: That's personal (but saying I have sex isn't! my priorities are fabulous, aren't they?)
[ Kissed ]: Uuuuhhhh... I guess that'd be Batty/David in Los Angeles a few years back.

Who do you want to:
[ Kill ]: Would you like the list alphabetized or in chronological order?
[ Slap ]: Same people I wanna kill. There's very little middle ground with me. I either forgive it or I want you dead.
[ Tickle ]: Nobody, I'm not into tickling.
[ Talk To ]: My future husband. Why hasn't the bastard found me yet? (Okay but seriously... nobody in particular)
[ Be Like ]: Me! I'm awesome.


:::sighs, yawns::: I got the Possessed ending of SH3... it was okay. Kinda boring and underdone though, thought there'd be more to it. Now I need my Heather beams so I can get the UFO ending.

i am:i hear: wistful (how come this isn't on the mood list?) i am:i hear: SH3 save screen music

I want some cuddles and a hug. From Vincent. I figure if I set my targets of affection as fictional characters, I'm not in for a disappointment, because even assuming they WANTED to give me hugs and cuddles... they don't exist! Thus, it's a moot point and I can crave tactile affection in peace, knowing it's just not even a chance.

Hooray for pragmatic thinking.

Now, to save outside the Haunted Mansion and to attempt bed.

i am:i hear: bored i am:i hear: SH3

Has anyone else (this is a rhetorical 'anyone else' because nobody who plays SH3 reads this journal anyway) noticed that the background music on the 1st floor of the construction site office building sounds a lot like the opening music to one of the tracks on the Ghost in the Shell soundtrack? And a little like the opening music to one of the Lain soundtracks' tracks too, actually.

i am:i hear: blank i am:i hear: Silent Hill 3 - Never Forgive Me, Never Forget Me

Just beat Silent Hill 3 earlier tonight. It was good... but not as good as I expected, actually. There were a few really amazing parts of course, but some things really disappointed me too. And the whole Harry Mason connection pissed me off because it ruined a theory of mine (and a bunch of other people who also thought the same thing). I always liked to think that Harry was already dead, and his soul was being used as a pawn between opposing forces, and whether he wins or loses decides whether or not Otherworld Silent Hill gets to take over reality. 'Cause when you replay that one the opening scene changes to Harry finding Cheryl with Sybil instead of his wife, implying that the story's simply restarted and the appropriate characters have been filled in now that Harry's already been through it once. But since Harry was still alive for years I guess that one flops. Hrmph.

I'll just pretend that's still how it is.

And Vincent kicked ass, man... I'm still mad at Claudia. Those who've played know why.

That brings me to Claudia... psssssychotic indeed. But I guess you'd have to be to do all the shit she did. I wasn't too fond of her though... I liked her at the beginning, but then... eh. Not so much. I liked her better when I thought she was sane and psychotic, not completely batty.

I didn't like how little exploration of the town you got to do, compared to the other 2 games. But I probably wouldn't've gone exploring even if I could've, I'm too OCD about conserving bullets because there's no way I can run from that many fights. But I've never liked the runaway factor of SH games. It just gets to me.

The religion... didn't like it nearly as much as I liked SH1's, and the HPL-style Rebirth ending of SH2. I do understand the point... I mean it says in the book in the church library that the later settlers of Silent Hill injected the original religion with their Christianity... but I just wasn't that entertained by it. I liked it better when it was an ancient religion shrouded in mystery, not a demonic Heaven's Gate group.

But most of all, I'm annoyed at Heather. Who in the bloody hell narrowly survives a nightmarish Otherworld shopping mall filled with horrible critters and then merrily skips off to take the subway home? And even when she sees that it's deserted and mostly dark, she still goes on like nothing's wrong. What the hell is wrong with her? And let's not forget how friggin' rude and/or vapid she is with everyone. Why does everyone try to kill her? Because she has the social skills of a 3 year old, like certain people I used to know.

Let's review...

( Stupid Things To Do in SH3 )

But now that I got that over with (granted, I left some things out), on to the praise!

( Things to Sleep with Game Designers for )

i am:i hear: amused i am:i hear: Silent Hill 3 - Hometown

My favorite quote thus far today, taken from my Seidh mailing list...

"I work with the dead as a sycophant."
"Um... did you mean 'psychopomp'?"

If you don't get it, look up the definitions to both words. That was quite entertaining... but I guess me being sleepy has something to do with why I found it so funny.

Hey, how come there's always a hospital level in Silent Hill? Other levels come and go, but there is ALWAYS a Brookhaven hospital. Does someone on the staff just have issues with hospitals? Or are they trying to send a message that people should stop going to doctors and rely on herbs and psychotropics like White Claudia to heal themselves? The world may never know...

Really gotta try to start posting here again... my LJ's getting all the lovin' and that's just not fair to this journal.

i am:i hear: excited i am:i hear: TV

Hikoki de California ni itte imasu. Totemo ii desu yo! Ja, matta getsu-yobi ni!

Just displaying my mad language skillz... like that's such a hard sentence to form or something.
To those who don't speak my crappy textbook formal Japanese:

Off to California, back on Monday!

Love and cuddly things to everyone I like, plagues and violent genocidal deaths on those I don't.
Don't miss me too much!

i am:i hear: amused i am:i hear: TV

There is a rabbit stalking me. It's really quite unnerving.

Earlier this afternoon, after I got out of bed, did the usual waking up routine, piddled around and eventually signed on, I glanced out the window to see a rabbit make a beeline from out of the bushes at the yard boundary line right into the plants underneath my window. He stared at me for a good 15 minutes... and yes, he did see me, 'cause he was looking straight into the window, and my mom even came in and talked to him. Eventually, I decided that the rabbit mafia had sent a lookout to keep an eye on me, and as soon as I said this out loud to my mom, he disappeared.

Then he came back! Watching me from further away, by the tree, and everytime I told my mom he was back he'd disappear and return 5 minutes later.

I thought I'd seen the last of him, but just a few minutes ago he came hopping on a beeline straight for my window again... and this time the clever little bastard hid behind the faux waterfall in the patio so I wouldn't see him. Fortunately, something spooked him and clued me in to his location.

:::peers nervously around::: He twitches his nose conspiratorily at me... as though he knows something I know not...

i am:i hear: hot i am:i hear: Ravenous Soundtrack - (21) Saveoursoulissa

So dad got another copy of YM today.

Flipping through before going to bed (for the 3rd time... insomnia's fun, but it's been this way for years, so hey), apparently YM does dream interpretations now. Eeeeugh... reading through one, it's pretty obvious that whoever did the interps. is a complete moron. Oh yes.

Dream interpretations are tricky to begin with... in teen mags, they're pretty well crap. I'd feel sorry for the chicks who sent them in, but I stop and remember that they're stupid enough to SEND THEM IN. So hey. They had it coming.

Man, it is obnoxiously hot today. But I lieeeeebe my new silver chrome nail polish. Makes me feel all cyberpunk again.

i am:i hear: groggy i am:i hear: Banco de Gaia - Mafich Arabi

DP girls... I think, in these times fraught with morons who have the reading comprehension of a small purple gel pen, you deserve a shout out of appreciation.

Jess, you're the best ADMIN I've ever known. Seriously. You're all... cool, and stuff. Most other admins'd kick me lots for the blunt militant mod thing I do sometimes, but you're all like... right there with me agreeing and just saying it a little more nicely (but with that awesome dictator-like sting that only the ADMIN can bring about). You're also a rockin' friend, though we don't talk that often, and reeeeeally fun. You should come back to DP chat more often.

Lari... you're missing. :::cries::: I hope you're having fun on your Alaska trip and cruise, and we all miss you, and you should come back soon. You're probably one of the nicest people I know, and normally that would make me go eeewww, but you're okay. You're a cool adopted (older than me) daughter, too, even if you're the pushy rebellious one... because you have begun to understand the wrath of mommy. I wish you'd stop being so down on yourself all the time, but in the meantime I'll just remember to compliment you lots when I think you've earned it, and maybe someday it'll rub off. Can't wait 'til you get back!

PF, you already know you rock. I love hanging out with you, especially into late night hours, and definitely love laughing over stupid shit together. I'm sorry you got stuck with crazy Amish Chinese parents, and if I were just a bit older, I really would adopt you so you could have all the internet access you wanted. In the meantime, enjoy the VR-family and try not to let Lari get to you too much... with her fondue and such. You are THE mommy of DP chat, and it needs its mommy, so I hope the universe makes it possible for you to start attending again. We'll all hope.

Elwyn, you're like the daughter I've talked to the least out of the 3 of you, but that doesn't make you any less awesome... even if you do like Avril Lavigne, hehe. You've inherited most of my genes (how this is possible, seeing as we're around the same age and completely different ethnicities, we'll never know, but anything's possible on the internet), and although that makes PF and Lari all mad at you, you're a rockin' DP chick. I'd have more to say about you if we talked more often, but rest assured that I think absolutely the best of you.

Kitty... I don't ever talk to you outside of chat and LJ comments, but that's okay. I hope we get to hang out in Santa Monica in July, and I'll keep my fingers crossed for you, so try your best! Thanks for being one of the non-idiot newbies to show up at DP.

Seria... is probably never gonna read this even though she has a blurty journal. Even though she's been fading in and out of the DP world lately, I know we all look forward to her posts (even though they crash DP... teehar.) and her presence in chat, when she isn't running off to call someone or be called. Tsk. Be around more, Seria.

Erin... you of the Dawn fanart avatar... I don't remember when you joined, and I can't remember half of what you said, but I always remember your avatar 'cause I've had Dawn comics since like '98 and would recognize her anywhere. You're... slightly nutty, but that's a good thing - especially at DP - and it's cool seeing you online more, if a bit weird. Hope you can make it to chat lots while recovering from your nasty flu thing, so we can keep you company.

There're also Az, Azulene, Adia, Red, Merrick, and associated others, but them I don't know well enough to be appreciatin' like this. The rest of you, have a nice warm fuzzy feeling-appreciated sorta day.

i am:i hear: irked i am:i hear: Battlestar Galactica... hullo starbuck

Mmmmmotherfucker. :::kicks the NWCD server::: Why is it that just after I run in to fix a MySQL board problem and avoid some downtime, the WHOLE FRIGGIN' SERVER decides to lag?

I wanna read my threads, damn it. I sooo did not fix the corrupted table just to have to reload the Ash thread 50 times only to read half of it cut off because the server's smoking something.

Wait, that answers it. ASH! Give me back the crystal meth... RIGHT NOW! We DO NOT POUR CRYSTAL METH INTO THE SERVER HARDWARE!

Damn vampires.

i am:i hear: bouncy i am:i hear: Star Wars - Imperial March (Club Mix)

I'm really just reposting this so Lari can read it and comment... ;)

IIIII love my dreams.

A few days ago, I dreamt that I was having the Fellowship of the Ring (the ones from the movie, not how I'd personally imagine them) over for a dinner party. Aragorn congratulated me on my wonderful cooking and gave me a hug. Then someone ran in from the garage screaming about how "something evil" was approaching, so I had to tap Legolas on the shoulder and ask him to come scope it out with me. I asked him in elven, which is pretty funny considering I don't SPEAK elven, Tolkien-based or any other. On a random note, Legolas was like... Orlando Bloom... except he was half Legolas Orli and half Pirates of the Caribbean Orli. It was odd.

So anyway, Legolas and I stroll out through my garage, and we're quickly met by an army of crazed kindergarteners painted blue and gray pretending to be Uruk-Hai, all foaming at the mouth and covered in armor and weapons, heading toward us. I hate children, I really do.

We ran our asses back inside the house and staged a mighty defense. I almost got my leg lopped off by an axe, but hey! I kicked a kindergartener Uruk-Hai in the head! I'm not sure what happened after that, I woke up.

Then this morning I had two dreams. In the first one, I was trying to stop some people from causing the fall of western civilization, and I'm not really too sure what happened, 'cause saving the world is so blah and mundane, I do it in my dreams all the time. The only really cool part was when we set fire to the evil citadel (which was an old high school... SO TRUE!) and then a whole huge flaming wall well on my car, with one of the evil guys and me in it. Oooooo it was wicked cool. And I think the old guy was Christopher Lee, but who knows.

Then in the second dream, it was pretty much the same dream, except I was on the other side this time; consequently, I had a lot more fun. It was basically just this huge ripoff of The Surge (BAAAAAD movie, Erin knows what I'm talking about), but it was fun. I was in that crazy evil citadel high school again, and there were these three kids I hung out with, and one of 'em was getting beat up and gang-raped by some assholes. So we all somehow developed mighty powers of ass-kicking and came back to kill everyone.

It was FUN!!!!!! :::bounces::: And at one point, I got into this discussion with one of the guys in our group about how he looks like a really buff Thilien (one of sis' RPG characters), and he did, and he laughed. Oh yeah, and we killed everyone and burned them to ashes and danced on their corpses, so that was just a rockin' party.

Then we had to have plaster casts made of our heads, out of some kinda special eeeeevil plaster, and I'm not really sure what the point of that was, except if one of us ever touched any of our plaster casts, we'd all turn on each other and die. Wee, isn't that special?

Then after that, I got to practice my mad magic ski11z0rz on a target, 'cause my power was essentially just the use of huge amounts of magical energy to do whateverthehell I wanted it to do. So I made little Witch Hunter Robin-style energy bullets and shot 'em out of my hand at the target to work on my aim. I was, of course, drifting to the right... 'cause I drift to the right when I shoot arrows. ;)

Oh yeah, but back to the point. Then we went to the park, and I found some girl I used to know way back in elementary school, and she was trying to hang out with me, except... I couldn't hang out with her because I'd end up accidentally frying her. Whoops! So I nicely told her to go away and rejoined my power-mad evil cohorts to frolic gaily through the world destroying anything we found loathsome.

I need more dreams like that. It was beautiful. :::sniffles fondly:::

Behold! My abandoned Blurty journal!

Alas, poor journal, for I have nae to type within thy digital pages.

Perhaps another time, I shalt be struck with inspiration to scribe upon thee.

:::waves to Lari:::

i am:i hear: tired i am:i hear: TV, although I'm too hazy to really hear it

People have been over here like constantly, all week. There hasn't been a day, I don't think, that someone hasn't stayed here for a considerable length of time. And Peggah's coming over tomorrow, which isn't a complaint since I asked her to, 'cause she's been in Vegas most of the week and I missed her. Plus, Peggah's so like me in a lot of ways (we discussed this in the car today), and she's so easily entertained, that we can spend quality time together, talk, enjoy stuff, watch TV, etc... and then I can be on the computer and go through my usual nightly routine and RP, without worrying about her (even though I do anyway, and obsessively check on her), 'cause she just kinda chills and talks to me. And she doesn't have as distinctive and alien a presence as most other people do, so with her, like with Melanie, it just feels cozy, and not like there's someone there that calls for a deviation from too much of your daily routine.

Most of all, I need a long long nap... because it's hard to really rest when you go to sleep after someone leaves and wake up in time for them to come over.

There was something else I wanted to mention... I already discussed the Megatokyo book signing in my LiveJournal, so you can just go there to read it.

Today I went to GameStops all around the area with Peggah on a futile quest for a fucking GBA SP. At GameStop #1 I traded back a bunch of games and DVDs I didn't want anymore, but that only earned me $38. Still good though, goes toward the SP fund. That GameStop was out of GBA SPs, so we tried the one near it. It too was out. Then we called the one at Great Lakes. It too was out. Then, as a last-ditch effort, we went to Wal-Mart... and IT TOO WAS OUT!

What the fuck is going on?! Why isn't anyone ordering more GBA SPs?! Who the fuck buys that many GBA SPs so soon after their being released?!?!?! Geezus, people.

And now, my favorite scene from Beetlejuice, which I'm watching right now. Lydia's suicide note writing process.

"I am... alone. :::crumples paper, restarts::: I am... utterly... alone. By the time... you read this... I will... be gone... having jumped... :::scratches it out::: having plummetted... off... the winter... river... bridge."

I wanna sleep, but I need to finish reading material for my final tomorrow. Blah. I should've done this earlier. Oh well.

i am:i hear: bouncy i am:i hear: The Two Towers - Gollum's Song (performed by Emiliana Torrini)

Well, this isn't exactly how I want my layout, but it'll do for now. Earlier it looked like my journal threw up all the entries in a binge-and-purge sort of dealie. That was highly amusing, and I was tempted to keep it that way.

I do wanna change the colors, but I'll do that later. And maybe some other fun tricks... although I doubt it. My knowledge of CSS is so rusted over that it could be mistaken for a redheaded stepchild on its own merit, much less applied to journal layout coding.

Erin dropped by on Friday... that was lots of fun. We went to Mammoth to rent Waxwork 2 only to find that the bastards don't have it anymore. ASSHOLES! They reduced their whole horror movie collection to like 4 shelves. How rude is that?! So we rented Four Feathers, HP and the CoS, Dracula 2000, and Troll. And we watched the latter two, which was fun as well. Although, before we watched them, we went to the mall to window shop for Erin's birthday presents, and to try and find Waxwork 2 for me on either VHS or DVD. That was a no go... they didn't have Tales From the Crypt: Demon Knight on DVD either. How rude is *that*? I could've bought it on VHS for like $5, but it's available on DVD, damn it.

And on our way out of the mall, I got a craving for Dairy Queen, so I bought an ice cream cone. And Erin wanted some ice cream too, and I had enough spare change, so I bought her a cone as well.

Finally at like... 3AM, Erin went home. So altogether, combined with that and RPG and the first ever NWCD Forums AIM chat, it was a great Friday night, even if we couldn't find the movies I wanted Erin to see.

And Peggah just taught me how to send text messages on my crappyass phone. I love you, Peggah! Thankee! I can now communicate with her on her trip to Vegas.

i am:i hear: full i am:i hear: Blade Runner - Memories of Green

I think it's kinda silly that I basically post the same update in two different journals on two different servers. But I'd rather do that than have to find two different ways to summarize the same daily occurences, ne?

And I think it's kinda silly that this journal has the same layout as my LiveJournal, but damn it I'm too lazy to make a layout *right now* so... it need must wait.

I rocked my Japanese final's world. I only got one particle wrong near the end, and I was pretty sure it was wrong when I marked it, I was just tired and wanted to go home. I also finally got anime boy's name...

:::drumroll:::

KARL. Yes. Praise Thilie, it is done.

Lesley showed me the new Secret Circle layout... good stuff, but the content still sucks ass. It still has globs of misinformation like that "all Wiccans worship love and light" bullshit, and it's mostly plagiarized from Silver RavenWolf books (gag me). Seeing as I'm in charge of that stuff, I should probably fix it, but again... I'm lazy. I don't want to right now.

I don't really know what to do on here... :::shrugs, wanders off:::

i am:i hear: enraged i am:i hear: TV

I'm reviewing for my Japanese final so I can take it a week early (tonight), right? Right.

So far I've spotted about FIVE errors in the review papers. Possibly six, I've lost track. Mostly heinous hiragana and katakana errors, but on the portion with colors on it, she SAID RED WAS BLUE AND BLUE WAS RED!!! What the fuck is she smoking? AKA... is red. AO... is blue. Not the other way around. And "tsugi" is far different from "tsugo(u)". Oh... and "kopi" in no way resembles "koppu" where did she even get it in her mind to throw a tsu in?

I need to relieve the stress...

:::pauses... looks around... gets all animals and small children out of the vicinity... closes all the doors and windows...:::


:::SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAMS:::

:::takes a deep breath::: Well... that's a *little* better. But not much. God I want to kill her and make it look like an accident.

i am:i hear: tired i am:i hear: Nine Inch Nails - Something I Can Never Have (Bleak Mix)

Wee... new account, fun stuff. I guess I'll get around to trying to make a layout... someday.