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Monday, November 20th, 2006
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10:53 am - Remember this when get home
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10:52 am - Remember this when get home
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10:52 am - Remember this when get home
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| Monday, August 22nd, 2005
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12:37 pm - uhhhh
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I am tired. I decided to do that thing for adam I just didn't know it would take me 3 weeks. The weird thing is he practically is Kevin Smith, hell! He is Kevin Smith. They are the exact same person. Well if you watch Degrassi and Saw the Episodes that is exactly how Adam acts. I don't know whether to ask for his autograph or beat him senseless. Oh well! I am having a rough time with myself. It probably doesn't show but I isolated myself from my friends. I'm there I'm with them but I am not there. this mainly happens with Adam I don't why I'ts like weve lost our spark. Don't get me wrong were still friends just not the friends we were before weird.
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| Wednesday, August 17th, 2005
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11:31 am
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Damn... Another depressing year. Why do i even try. Well this year it is all about WORK!!! I am taking night school for algebra II, School online and sat prep. Plus making up more courses I failed. I just want to chill next year. yeah, chill
current mood:  optimistic
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| Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
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12:32 pm
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Another Year another bore I didn't get that creative writing class. I wound up getting art I am pissed
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| Thursday, July 14th, 2005
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9:42 am - What to say after all this shit
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Well Its been a while since I've ben on. I am still me except I can't bare to cut anymore. Before it was my passion and now its just nothing. I usually feel this way every summer (no idea why) I feel more apathetic therefore I do nothing just lay around and do nothing and the fact that im in summer school now that's all I do and since the fact I don't have to go. I just go to do nothing. and everyone in the class can relate because we just sit there and slouch. It's funnily depressing if u see it through different eyes. I just put as point blank laziness.
current mood:  lazy
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| Thursday, June 30th, 2005
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10:07 am
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| Sunday, June 5th, 2005
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12:50 pm - untitled
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I question who will save me
When there is no one else around
Who will protect me from the shadow of the world
And feed me with knowledge of light
Who will give me hope when there is nothing left
Who will save me
Who will love me when I can’t seem to love myself
Who will care
Who will trust me enough to leave me alone by myself
Who will save me
Who will protect me
From myself
current mood:  scared
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12:34 pm - Life is funny in a fucked up sort of way
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All the shit I went through led me to this moment. My parents dismissed my cutting as a temporary cry for help(which is a good thing if you asked me) MY dad ignores me as if i don't exist and my mom is trying to pry into my life. I can't really explain this that well but this is quite weird. I was alone before but now its reassured. School is out so Its a good thing. I've been looking for a job. and so far everywhere In North Miami Beach is not looking for fresh meat. I wonder If I can work in a porn store. Its right down my block, so very convienent. I always dreamt of working in a porn shop, no Idea why. but, I doubt they would higher a 16 1/2 year old girl so why hopes of independence went out of the window and all doors are shut, I'mjust sufficating now.
current mood:  dirty
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| Saturday, May 28th, 2005
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11:19 am
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Gosh, while every kid in florida will be in school taking exams on the last days of school I will be home because.......well guess! on you can't I already took my final exams so now I am looking for a job, already signed up for summerchool and I am taking school on line. ME and my dad are not talking to eachother thank god if u ask me. He needs to learn to grow up a black man shouldn't act the way he does. I am free from everyone else but myself. Plus I have been learning new languages. Click here and find out. That's all for now.
current mood: Cool
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| Friday, May 27th, 2005
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11:13 am
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| Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
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11:30 am - Bitch
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May 21 and may 23 was the worst day of my pathetic fucked up life. It all started on Saturday May 21, 2005. Some reason my dad's ex- girldriend was at my house arguing with my dad. Then next thing you know I hear something break. I put on my clothes go into the living room, all my moms crystals are shattered to pieces on the floor. So I grab my knife and see what's going on. before I could even get in the mother fucking door good, his ex-girlfriend slaps me. I pulled her hair and put my knife right under her throat, just when I was about to change her living arrangements my stupid ass father pulls me away and throws me into my room. When my mom came home she wanted questions from her so-called faithful husband. But he was gone so she took his car(Chevrolet Avalanche), and called the cops. When the officer came, he asked questions. Yet, most of them were about my arm, he kept asking if me and her fought, I wanted to tell him I was in a fight but with myself but not while my mom was there. May 23, 2005 the follow up, My mom goes to press charges, my dad waited all day for the truck, Finally to cut a story short I go home. 2:05pm my mom finally arrives home, that's when he slaps her and starts talking shit, then I pushed him, and he tried to choke her but my hand was in the way. so I went into the kitchen and called the cops, thats when he's all hang up the fucking phone and comes after me and tries to ht me after that he left and I ran after him with his gun in my hand. He's so much of a man when it comes down to hit a woman, but as soon as a gun or police officers are involved into the equation the bitch runs. that whole day I took his clothes out of the closet and wrote in permanent marker I hate Robert, I hate me, Robert sucks dick. I wonder what will happen today all I know is I still have that gun
current mood:  pissed off
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| Monday, May 23rd, 2005
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11:30 am - Bleed
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I hate myself
I hate myself to the point
I'd do anything to die
but some reason my
suicide plot
never goes out as planned
I'm drowning
and no one cares
I'm just wasting away
until time past
What Have I ever done to be treated
this way
all I am is dirt
maybe that is all I will ever be
I just want myself to bleed,
BLEED, bledd for me
take me to my demise
let me for once be
happy and free
take away my misery
and let me bleed
current mood:  sad
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| Friday, May 20th, 2005
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11:32 am
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Fcat scores come out next week. I wil not be here which means I have to get my Fcat scores and then skip school. I have it already because there is no way in hell I am staying in school when I don't have to
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| Thursday, May 19th, 2005
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11:40 am - Coming out of the closet
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Okay, Its time to come out of the closet. Adam I never stopped cutting and the fact your not letting me be the person I wanna be pisses me off I let you be the cynical asshole you are so now its time for me to spread my wings. I AM A CUTTER I like to cut the same way you like to curse out god any chance you get. so to end this matter I am who I am. I cut therefore I am a cutter, got it. Live it, love it ,good! and if you have a problem with that put your mouth to good use and suck it!
current mood:  satisfied
current music: Three days grace(just like you)
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| Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
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9:13 am
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Your Porn Star Name is: Karen Kung-fu Grip
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I AM BORED
It's Not Sex. It's ... :
Having a Squeeze and a Squirt
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I AM BORED
Your Girl Parts Are Named: Fluffy
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I AM BORED
Your Penis Name is: Anaconda
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I AM BORED
Your Stripper Name is: Topaz
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I AM BORED
Your Boobies' Names Are: Siegfried and Roy
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I AM BORED
Your Boobies' Names Are: Siegfried and Roy
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This one is funnily boring
Your Star Wars Masturbation Method Is:
Making the Kessel Run
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Your Hippie Chick Name is: Journey
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I am bored
Your 80s Theme Song: |
Your 80s Theme Song is Wild Wild West by The Escape Club |
I've taken almost all the test. I guess this is my end
current mood:  bored
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9:10 am
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You Are 17 Years Old |
17
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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9:06 am
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| NATASHAMOSLEY |
| N |
is for |
Naughty |
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is for |
Articulate |
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is for |
Tricky |
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is for |
Adventurous |
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Sassy |
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Hip |
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Altruistic |
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Misunderstood |
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Organic |
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Stunning |
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Legendary |
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Easy |
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Young |
Your Japanese Name Is... |
Mihoko Kajuji
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Your Mexican Name Is... |
Doña Leticia
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You Will Die at Age 55 |
55
Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle
Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits. |
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9:01 am
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Your #1 Match: ESTJ
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The Guardian
You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.
Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.
You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.
Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done!
You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective. |
Your #2 Match: ESTP
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The Doer
You are adventurous and risk taking. You act first, think second.
You love being the center of attention. Chances are you were the class clown.
Competitive, charming, and charasmatic - you have your own code of honor.
You live a flexible life, bouncing between a series of activies that interest you.
You would make a great salesperson, marketing director, or entrepreneur. |
Your #3 Match: ISTJ
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The Duty Fulfiller
You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.
You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.
Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.
Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.
You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer. |
Your #4 Match: ISTP
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The Mechanic
You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.
A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.
To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.
You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people.
You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete. |
Your #5 Match: ENTJ
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The Executive
You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.
Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.
Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.
You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence.
You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant. |
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