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| 12:40am 01/03/2006 | |||
| he wont update so ill do it for him!!! hes about to be a daddy!!! | |||
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| so i lied......one last important post | ||||
| 05:21pm 01/05/2005 | ||||
How did it start? Well, I dont know. I just feel the craving. I see the flesh and it smells fresh. And it's just there for the taking. These little girls they make me feel so god damn exhilarated. I feel them up, I can't give it up. The pain that I'm just erasing. I tell my lies and I despise. Every second I'm with you. So I run away and you still stay. So what the fuck is with you. Your feelings I can't help but rape them. I'm sorry I don't feel the same. My heart inside is constantly hating. I'm sorry I just throw you away. I don't know why I'm so fucking cold? I dont know why it hurts me. All I wanna do is get with you. And make the pain go away. Why do I have a conscience? All it does is fuck with me. Why do I have this torment? All I want to do is fuck it away. I tell my lies and I despise. Every second I'm with you. So I run away and you still stay. So what the fuck is with you. Your feelings I can't help but rape them. I'm sorry I don't feel the same. My heart inside is constantly hating. I'm sorry I just throw you away. I just throw you away. I just throw you away. I just throw you away. I just throw you away. |
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| LAST POST......bye-bye blurty | ||||
| 12:36pm 26/04/2005 | ||||
"If you can hear me, I need help I'm caught and I'm stuck and I'm trapped in me self don't understand This fucked off hand that G. delt lazarus help Me cause he's hazardous to T's health." Peace bitches |
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| I Miss My Homies | |||
| 10:13pm 21/04/2005 | |||
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[Featuring Pimp C Silkk The Shocker] I want ya'll to play this at funerals in the hood. Til all this black on black crime stop. Some say the blind lead the blind. But in the ghetto you never know When it's gon be yo time. [Sons of Funk Mo B. Dick O'dell] Sittin at the ghetto thinkin bout All my homies passed away (uuunnnggghhh!) Candy painted cadillacs and triple gold That's how me and my boys rolled How could it be? Somebody took my boy from me My best friend's gone And I'm so all alone I really miss my homies Even though they gone away I know you in a better place And I hope to see ya soon someday [Master P] I used to hang with my boy even slang with my boy Used to bang with my boy, goddam I miss my boy We started out youngstas in the park throwin birds In your hearse, damn it's sad to see my nigga in the dirt The game got me workin, got me perkin, never jerkin Still blowin dolja fo ya cause I know you up there workin Ya little baby's cool and ya baby's mama straight But today's a sad day to see the t-shirt with ya face From the cradle to the grave, from the streets we used to fall In the park you liked to ball, put yo name upon the wall In the projects you's a legend on the street you was a star But it's sad to see my homeboy ridin in that black car A lotta soldiers done died, a lotta mothers done cried You done took yo piece of the pie but you was too young to retire Why soldiers ride for yo name leave it vain Some Gs never change, damn they killed you for some change Smile for my homie Kevin Miller my boy Randall The ghetto persons that lost they loved ones to these ghetto scandals Take a minute to smile for the dead (uuunnnggghhh!) Smile for the dead (RIP 2Pac, Makaveli) All my homies who done made it to the crossroads (Biggie Smalls) [Sons, Mo B. O'dell] How could it be? Somebody took my boy from me (It's like I can't believe you gone) My best friend's gone (Sometimes I feel like I can't go on) And I'm so all alone (Everytime I see something you done left I really miss my homies (It just remind me, more and more of you, dawg) Even though they gone away (I just keep reminiscin) I know you in a better place (Cause I know you alright) And I hope to see ya soon someday (And I keep smilin, knowin I'm a see you in the crossroads] [Pimp C] We used to grip on the grain and flip them candy toys But I'd give up all that bullshit if I could get back my boy Off in the club smokin weed til 3, hollerin at the hoes Spendin $4000 on me on gators and clothes When I turned to rap, he had to chase the game Nigga told me, "C, leave that dope, cause rappin is yo thang" I ain't gone even lie, some nights I ride and cry Wonderin why the real niggas always the ones to die So I just smoke my weed and try to clear my mind I wish that I had the power to turn back the hands of time I wonder if there's a heaven up there for real Gs For all the niggas in the game that be sellin ki's I keep my memories, try to keep my head strong But baby it's hard to be strong, when yo main homie gone [Sons, Mo B. O'dell] Even though you gone away (Even though you gone, you ain't never gon be forgotten) I know you in a better place (Cause as long as I'm here You gon live through me and other TRU playas) I really miss my homies Even though they gone away I know you in a better place And I hope to see ya soon someday [Silkk] I'm just sittin here dazed thinkin bout all the times we had Thinkin the past, some was good and some was bad Remember Dante? It was a group of us, just a group of five Now three dead, one in jail, it seem right now I'm the only one alive To all my soldiers before me, may ya'll rest in peace When He took three, took my soul, just the bodies He at the crossroads guide us out to the rest of me Wishin I could rewind time like demos Me and you gettin girls, writin down numbers like memos Makin million dollar bets, makin all our money stretch like limos Even though I smile, it's sad, but they say gangstas can't cry But if I close my eyes and visualize me together Then I suddenly wanna smile To see you laid down when it's yo time, when your time was up You never seen your child, but he's here to remind us Even though you was wrong, I never could belive that that was true You was with me forever, you could check my rest in peace tattoos See me and C and P forever gon be ridin and thuggin Rest in peace to all the ones that didn't make it And rest in peace to my brother We gon miss you (I love these fools) I know you in a better place (Every time I get on my knees) And I hope to see ya soon someday (I pray for you, I'm glad you in a better place I hope I see ya soon, ain't no more killin Ain't no more fights, and ain't no more tears) |
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| what kinda fucking shit is this? | |||
| 10:25pm 01/04/2005 | |||
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e-mail from my father.....spelling is really bad...dumb mother fucker. "how wood you like a new bro or sis? thats right im going to be a dad. kristy is about 2 mo.she is 24you have to meet her.so then peace" WTF he wasnt a fucking father before? dude thats some bull shit and i feel very sorry for this kid....my father will be there for it just as much as he was for us. but i also know if this kid is his i had sure as fuck better be able to watch him/her grow up. |
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| for future reference | |||
| 12:25am 31/03/2005 | |||
| you gain one thing an lose another.....dont forget that | |||
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| Bri told me to update | |||
| 08:20pm 30/03/2005 | |||
| Bri is mean.....very mean....she yelled at me to update this when i just updated a few days ago. bri if you read this your a big meany -pouts- | |||
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| 03:59pm 29/03/2005 | |||
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a few things has happened in the past few weeks that im really excited about. first i found out i passed my GED. something i wasnt so sure i could do. i figured id have to go back and re-take a few sections. then i got hired at Champaign working with the mentally handicapped. and i just got a letter in the mail today from Columbus State saying i got accepted. im finally back on track and where i should be. its almost as if this is all just one big dream. but i know its not. on a lighter note my grandmother died a few weeks ago. she was in and out of the hospital since around christmas time. she refused to eat and kept ripping out her IV's and stuff. she was not really all there. the first time i saw her the doctor came into the room and asked her todays date, month, day, and year. she got the month and day correct but she said it was 1972 at first and kept switching years in the 70's and finally got 2005 out. it was really sad seeing someone who was a lawyer in that state of mind. but it was even harder on me knowing that this was the same person who taught you how to make candy and cakes and all that sweet stuff when i was a kid. the same person who held you in the hospital 19 years earlier. she was part of my family the side i actually grew up with. and now she's gone. but im not too sad about it. i made my peace with her. i told her i loved her and i cared about her. i even did something i havnt done since i was a pre-teen....i went down to the chappel in Mount Caramel and prayed for her. i just hope she's with my grandfather on the other side. |
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| Pure Morning | |||
| 05:55pm 25/03/2005 | |||
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A friend in needs a friend indeed, A friend with weed is better, A friend with breasts and all the rest, A friend who's dressed in leather, A friend in needs a friend indeed, A friend who'll tease is better, Our thoughts compressed, Which makes us blessed, And makes for stormy weather, A friend in needs a friend indeed, My Japanese is better, And when she's pressed she will undress, And then she's boxing clever, A friend in needs a friend indeed, A friend who bleeds is better, My friend confessed she passed the test, And we will never sever, Day's dawning, skins crawling [repeat three more times] Pure morning, [repeat this three more times] A friend in needs a friend indeed, A friend who'll tease is better, Our thoughts compressed, Which makes us blessed, And makes for stormy weather, A friend in needs a friend indeed, A friend who bleeds is better, My friend confessed she passed the test, And we will never sever, Day's dawning, skins crawling [repeat three more times] Pure morning,[repeat this three more times] A friend in needs a friend indeed, My Japanese is better, And when she's pressed she will undress, And then she's boxing clever, A friend in needs a friend indeed, A friend with weed is better, A friend with breasts and all the rest, A friend who's dressed in leather |
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| Rules Of Evidence Lyrics | |||
| 05:29pm 25/03/2005 | |||
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You help me survive, you're the reason I'm alive Speak softly, cyanide Passed from your mouth into mine Your breathing sounds like the sickest music playing backwards in my head Contagions, so hellatious You can't find the words so you scream instead This lifeless ordinary My righteous unsuspecting I have a secret- you are a dichotomy What won't kill me- makes me What won't love me- hates me What won't kill me, dies You could help me hide, you could keep me inside, Heart broken, petrified What am I supposed to do if you don't try? Mad symmetry, senseless poetry Laying naked on my bed Contracted and frustrated You won't say a word and your eyes are dead This lifeless ordinary My righteous unsuspecting I have a secret- you are a dichotomy What won't kill me- makes me What won't love me- hates me What won't kill me, dies....... What won't kill me- makes me What won't love me- hates me What won't kill me, dies The whole fucking world's against us dude, I swear to God.... |
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| 08:59pm 22/03/2005 | |||
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1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Fave Color: 4. Fave Movie: 5. Fave Song: 6. Fave Band: 7. Most Embarassing Moment: 8. Are you a virgin? HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ... 1. Are we friends? 2. Do you have a crush/attracted to me? 3. Would you kiss me? 4. ...with tongue? 5. Would you enjoy it? 6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I ask you out? 7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater? 9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? 10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before? 11.Would you walk on the beach with me? 12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me? 13. Do you/have you talk(ed) shit about me? 14. Do you think I'm a good person? 15. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)? 16.Do you think I'm sexy? 17. Would you call me just because? 18. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they dont involve you? 19. If you could change anything about me, would you? 20.Would you have sex with me? 21.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out? 22. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? |
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| Cross your fingers no more labias and genitals | |||
| 08:47pm 18/03/2005 | |||
| i passed my G.E.D | |||
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| Annihilation | |||
| 07:56pm 11/03/2005 | |||
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From dehumanization to arms production, For the benefit of the nation or its destruction Power, power, the law of the land, Those living for death will die by their own hand, Life's no ordeal if you come to terms, Reject the system dictating the norms From dehumanization to arms production, To hasten the nation towards its destruction Power, power, the law of the land, Those living for death will die by their own hand, Life's no ordeal if you come to terms, Reject the system dictating the norms From dehumanization to arms production, To hasten the nation towards its destruction Power, power, the law of the land, Those living for death will die by their own hand, Life's no ordeal if you come to terms, Reject the system dictating the norms From dehumanization to arms production, To hasten this nation towards its destruction, It's your choice, your choice, your choice, your choice, Peace or annihilation |
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| MAGIK MAGIK NINJA WHAT!!!!! | |||
| 11:03pm 04/03/2005 | |||
| i turn 19 in about an hour.....looking back on this last year is really amazing. last year i was living with my dad, then i moved back to london shortly after and started taking GED classes....then me and my moms ex went head to head again and i moved out into Eddies moms house for 6 months went to hookah had the time of my life, honestly i came back from that place with a change of thought and feeling. i know its a 4 day drug party for the most part but thats not all its about. when i came back from hookah the sun was a bit brighter and my attitude and feelings kinda changed. then in aug. i moved into an apartment with Eddie and Angie and lost it in jan. since then ive been at my mommas house and ive taken my GED test. now im just waiting on the results to start applying for colleges. im interested in seeing where the next year takes me. | |||
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| 07:05pm 01/03/2005 | |||
| OHH BLOODY SIT ON IT | |||
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| cross your fingers and die | |||
| 11:35am 25/02/2005 | |||
| i finished my Ghetto Edumacation Degree test today....ill find out if i passed or failed in 2 to 4 weeks by either mail or internet. so cross your fingers and die ladies and gents. | |||
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| this may not mean much to most..... | ||||
| 01:50am 25/02/2005 | ||||
straight from the official site www.Korn.com |
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sad| The Nameless | |||
| 09:46pm 24/02/2005 | |||
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Pathetic (benign) Accept it (undermined) Your opinion (my justification) Happy (safe) Servent (caged) Malice (heart of weakness) No toleration Invade (kill me) Enraged (in minutes) Don't condescend (don't neither disagree) Decide (decay) Dissapoint (delay) You suffered then, now suffer unto me. Obsession, take another look. Remember, every chance you took. Decide, you live with me Or give up - I thought you want to be free (Don't go) I never wanted any body more then I wanted you (I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hate. Anyone (NO) Anything (YES) Anyway (FALL) Anybody (MINE) Anybody (TELL ME) I want (YOU) I need (YOU) I'll have (YOU) I won't LET ANYBODY HAVE YOU Obey (ME) Believe (ME) Just trust (ME) Worship (ME) Live for (ME) Be grateful (NOW) Be honest (NOW) Be precious (NOW) Be mine (JUST LOVE ME) Possesion (feed my only vice) Confession (i wont tell you twice) Decide - (either live for me) Or give up - I thought you want to be free. (Don't go) I never wanted any body more then you (I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hurting you. (Don't go) I never wanted any body more then you (I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hate. (Yeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaahhhhhh) Stay inside the hole, let me take control. (Dominate) You were nothing more, you were something less (innocent) Something has to give - something has to break (omnipresent) Fingers on your skin, let me savage in YOU DESERVE IT. YOU DESERVE IT. YOU DESERVE IT. YOU DESERVE IT. (Don't go) I never wanted any body more then I wanted you (i wanted you) (I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hurting you. (was hurting you) (Don't go) I never wanted any body more then I wanted you (i wanted you) (I know) the only thing I ever really loved, was hate. You're mine (you are you are) You're mine (you are you are) You're mine YOU'RE MINE im one of the nameless....and i bet no one reads this. |
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| 12:48am 23/02/2005 | |||
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If you woke up and i was in bed with you, what would be your first thought? (reply, then put this in you LJ) |
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| 05:52pm 18/02/2005 | |||
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sometimes i say more than i should....which in turn pisses the people i care about most off. i really dont mean to do it its just that shit gets to me and its so fucking petty but it seems like such a big ordeal for me. i have tried to refrain from doing this but it never seems to work out. maybe it would just be better if i let shit go not worry about a relationship at this moment and focus on my future and my future alone.....maybe i should just say fuck a relationship untill im in a well enough position to have a good relationship....cause i mean lets fucking face it here adrian you have nothing to offer....no education, no job, no money, no car, and most of all no life....for the past 8 years about all i do is either hang out with eddie or hang out with my brother and a few select other people. maybe its time to meet a whole new crowd and get into something new.....just stop sitting around the house and doing nothing all damn day....actually go out and party at a club on the weekends or something. yea some might i say i party everyday but honestly i dont....yea i may smoke on the ganja everyday but thats not partying.....my day consists of this....waking up, taking a shower, watching TV, going over to my brothers and watching more TV, then come home and going to bed.....on some days i might go over to eddies or sarah might come over here....now is that considered partying? i think not....its a fucking boring day to me filled with nothing but shit and its time to improve things a bit. ohh and if i mis-spelled anything including this......ohh wel git over it. |
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