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Thursday, May 6th, 2004
6:38 pm - hiding behind the flag and our troops
still hiding behind the american flag.....delay's response to the request of the bush administration for an additional 25b.

"This is not money for Iraq, this is money for our troops, this is supporting our troops. Nobody is going to have any problem with that," House Majority Leader Tom DeLay, a Texas Republican, reportedly told journalists afterwards.

Well mr. delay, I have a problem with that. this is not for our troops, we are fighting a losing battle, and we need to start cleaning house....we should begin with you.

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Tuesday, April 13th, 2004
7:34 pm - a rose is a rose, and a person is a person
a rose is still a rose by any other name, and so a human is a human from any other country.......

from a website called "wildfire" a story from falluja...........

And the satellite news says the cease-fire is holding and George Bush says to the troops on Easter Sunday that, “I know what we’re doing in Iraq is right.” Shooting unarmed men in the back outside their family home is right. Shooting grandmothers with white flags is right? Shooting at women and children who are fleeing their homes is right? Firing at ambulances is right?

Well George, I know too now. I know what it looks like when you brutalise people so much that they’ve nothing left to lose. I know what it looks like when an operation is being done without anaesthetic because the hospitals are destroyed or under sniper fire and the city’s under siege and aid isn’t getting in properly. I know what it sounds like too. I know what it looks like when tracer bullets are passing your head, even though you’re in an ambulance. I know what it looks like when a man’s chest is no longer inside him and what it smells like and I know what it looks like when his wife and children pour out of his house.

It’s a crime and it’s a disgrace to us all.

read the entire story at

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Monday, April 12th, 2004
11:25 pm - a prayer for peace
Having family in Baghdad and seeing a growing number of soldiers and civilians from many nations dying every day in Iraq, i feel an urgent need to pray for peace. I am learning to put aside the anger on how we got to this very bad place, because it doesn't matter any more, it is not time to find blame or make accusations. With the anger now eliminated in my soul I find it easier to focus on peace. I can visualize a soft energy of healing covering the entire land and touching every soul that walks the earth in Iraq. I see each soul as a divine being, there is no labels attached, all are divine in the eyes of god. I feel a strong energy inside me, and i willing and lovingly let it flow freely and with the strongest intent that I have ever felt to let this divine energy flow from me to cover each and every soul. Even if it is for just one small moment, I intend for them to feel the comfort of peace and divine love.

my prayer is to those that are afraid and tormented in this very bad situation. To those that have no voice, to those that have lost their will, to those that have been hurt and want revenge, to those that are angry, to those that have lost, to those that believe strongly in their purpose, to those that are blinded by their cause, to those that just want to feel peace.

Even if it is for just a fleeting moment, I want them all, each and every one to feel the comfort of this divine loving energy in hopes that they will thirst for more.


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Saturday, April 10th, 2004
5:01 am - vote now
the US election for the rest of the world

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Sunday, April 4th, 2004
11:33 pm - Do not become troubled or discouraged
"Whatever happens to you, do not become troubled or discouraged, but see to it that your spirit gradually regains control of the situation. In this way you will discover true freedom, because the spirit soars high over events, and it alone is truly free. When you restore the spirit to its place within you, something tells you that these difficulties or irritations cannot destroy your balance, your peace or your love. On the contrary. Since these illuminating experiences have taught you values you can count on, cling to them. Do not doubt the beautiful and great things you have lived, but take them along with you as provisions on this difficult path you must travel. And when the storm has passed, you will realise that what might have caused you to lose heart has actually strengthened you."

~ Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov ~

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Saturday, April 3rd, 2004
6:01 pm - a howl from the desert
A Sonnet to a Quivering Bush
Walt Abbott – 6/29/03

We should not let the terrorists win
By default and out of fear
But we are letting them beat us when
We're afraid of freedom here

The land of the brave – home of the free
Has been hijacked by the frightened few
Where the hope of the world used to be
We are now led by a wrecking crew

Our civil rights are taken away
And there are few willing to resist
We need more people who will not say,
"O K George, if you want to insist"

There once was a George that we threw out
We can toss another one, no doubt

From Poets Against The War
Written by Walt Abbott - 83 - Tuscon Arizona

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Monday, March 8th, 2004
8:59 am - playing ball
My husband and 11 year old son were outside in front of the house playing catch on Friday afternoon getting ready for baseball season. The little girl across the street looked on, and my 11 year old has kind of taken a fancy to her. He prodded his dad to throw him a dive ball, my husband replied, “just enjoy playing catch with me son, we will have time for that later”. But my son saw the little girl looking on, and pleaded with his dad to just throw him one dive ball. So my husband threw a dive ball, and my son “Keith” dove for the ball, but he could not help himself and glanced over at the little girl to see if she was watching, he didn’t have his eyes of the ball even a fraction of a second, but it was long enough to lose focus, and sure enough he missed the ball, and it went straight in the drainage hole in the curb and he lost the ball completely. A bit embarrassed, he told the little girl that they were playing with a tennis ball, and he would go get a real baseball and that would work better. So he got another ball and prodded his dad again to throw him another dive ball. My husband said “Keith, just enjoy playing catch with me son” but Keith saw the little girl still looking on and he pleaded with his dad again to throw him another dive ball. So my husband again threw him a dive ball, and sure enough, Keith could not help himself but to look to see if the little girl was watching, only taking his eyes off the ball for not even a fraction of a second, but it was still long enough to lose focus, and again he missed the ball, and again it went straight down the drainage hole. So he lost 2 balls in not even 15 minutes, and didn’t really enjoy just playing regular old catch with his dad. However he did get an invitation to pizza at the little girl’s house for dinner.

My husband and I laughed about it later that evening, and I started thinking that I am sometimes guilty of the same. I am on this spiritual path to god, and sometimes I worry so much about what other people think that I lose focus on god and I tend to miss the ball, or I worry so that others don’t see things like I do that I fail to enjoy the beauty in just throwing the ball back and forth. I need to keep reminding myself, that it does not matter what others think, because if I let other opinions interfere with my heart, I lose focus and I tend to miss the balls sent to me. We are each on our own spiritual path and what is right for someone else may not be right for me, and visa versa what is right for me may not be right for someone else. I recently started losing faith that I was even on the right track and friend gave me some advice that I hold so very precious to my heart.

god takes care of sincere seekers, where u dont seek power or control but only love and peace and service to mankind, god shows way and will never let u slide down

My son ran out of baseballs and therefore could not continue. But god will never run out of baseballs and will keep throwing them over and over until I catch one. I just need to keep myself focused and enjoy just playing catch.

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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
12:56 pm - teaching prayer
Moses was passing through a forest and he saw a man praying. The man was saying such absurd things that Moses had to stop. What the man was saying was profane, sacrilegious. He was saying, "God, you must be feeling sometimes very alone--I can come and be always with you like a shadow. Why suffer loneliness when I am here? And I am not a useless person either--I will give you a good bath, and I will take all the lice from your hair and your body..."

Lice?! Moses could not believe his ears: what is this man talking about? "And I will cook food for you--everybody likes what I cook. And I will prepare your bed and I will wash your clothes. When you are ill I will take care of you. I will be a mother to you, a wife to you, a servant, a slave--I can be all kinds of things. Just give me a hint so I can come..."

Moses stopped him and said, "What are you doing? To whom are you talking? Lice in God's hair? He needs a bath? Stop this nonsense! This is not prayer. God will be offended by you."

Looking at Moses, the man fell at his feet. He said, "I am sorry. I am an illiterate, ignorant man. I don't know how to pray. Please, you teach me!"

So Moses taught him the right way to pray, and he was very happy because he had put a man on the right track. Happy, puffed up in his ego, Moses went away. And when he was alone in the forest, a thundering voice came from the sky and said, "Moses, I have sent you into the world to bring people to me, to bridge people with me, but not to take my lovers away from me. And that's exactly what you have done. That man is one of the most intimate to me. Go back and apologize. Take your prayer back! You have destroyed the whole beauty of his dialogue. He is sincere, he is loving. His love is true. Whatsoever he was saying, he was saying from his heart, it was not a ritual. Now what you have given to him is just a ritual. He will repeat it but it will be only on the lips; it will not be coming from his being."

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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
8:35 am - love
Sometimes people get so focused on spreading the word, that they completely lose sight on sharing the love. And without love, the word is meaningless.

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Saturday, February 7th, 2004
6:47 am - finding god
i do not look to words from a holy book to find god, but i listen to the voice of my soul

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Monday, February 2nd, 2004
7:43 pm - laws
There are three major types of laws that people will follow,

the laws of the land,
the laws of the church,
and the laws of the soul

if there should come a time when they are not equal and I must choose one over the other

I shall choose to follow my soul,

for I can step outside of the land and the church,

but I can not step outside my soul.

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Thursday, January 29th, 2004
8:24 am - a can of soup
One cold rainy afternoon I was searching through my pantry looking for something nourishing to eat. I was tired, cold and sick and my cupboard was bear except for two canned goods with the commercial labels removed. One had “chicken noodle” written on it and the other “lima beans”. So I pulled out a soup pot and put it on the stove and opened the can marked “chicken noodle”. To my dismay it turned out to be a can of peaches; not that I don’t like peaches, I just was really looking forward to a can of chicken noodle soup. The can marked “lima beans” sat unopened in my cupboard for months after that. I don’t really care for lima beans so never even bothered to open the can. Then one day my husband grabbed the can of lima beans and opened them up for dinner, only to find it was a can of chicken noodle soup.

So the morel of the story is, just because it looks like a can of soup, and someone tells you it’s a can of soup, unless you actually look in the can and see for yourself, it might be a can of peaches. On the other hand, it might look like a can of lima beans and you may believe that it is a can of lima beans because someone told you it was lima beans and you may completely ignore the can of lima beans because you don’t care for lima beans, when all along it was the warm and nourishing soup that you could have really used when you needed it most.

Think of people (friends, family, co-workers, politicians, school mates) like unmarked cans of soup, if you pay too much attention to the label on the outside, you may get a can of peaches when you really need soup, or you might miss out on the soup completely because you didn’t bother to even look in the can.

Written by Deborah Abdulla, a woman who now tries to makes her decisions by looking in the soup can.

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Friday, January 23rd, 2004
6:47 pm - comes the dawn
After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises

And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open,
And learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
For plans,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much,
So, you plant your own garden and
Decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you

And you learn that you really can endure.......
That you are really strong,
And you really do have worth,
And you learn and learn
With every goodbye
You learn

Veronica Shoffstall

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Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
11:08 pm - savor the good
Sometimes life can seem almost unbearable, and when we have reached what seems to be the pits of despair and hopelessness, it is very difficult to rise above it.

If you are unable to rise above it, it helps to just take a peak?.a small glimpse of what you wish for your life to be, and then savor that glimpse. And the more you savor it, the closer it will come. And even if nothing changes, you will learn to cherish all that is beautiful in your life; and pretty soon that which is bad seems so much less important.

Life is about living, and there are many aspects to living, some are happy and some are sad, we need one to understand and appreciate the other.

Savor all that is beautiful in life, and the rest will come.

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10:29 pm - bad luck
read a post on one of the forums that I visit.....a woman is praying for her son who has run into a stream of bad luck. He is young, poor, lost his job, just got pulled over and had some parking tickets on his record so they impounded his car; his girlfriend is pregnant and he just learned that this really bad hereditary disease runs in her family, and the list still goes on. It is heartbreaking.

I look at my life and i see that i have had it fairly easy so far, i almost feel guilty. sure i have had my trials, but it has never been anything that i could not deal with.

so many people have had it so much harder, my parents lost their home and a daughter to a fire when they were in their twenty's. My husbands family lost most every valuable they had during the wars that have stricken their country. Yet both my parents and my husbands family have had very full and very happy lives. i cherish what i have....a loving husband, 2 beautiful healthy children, a roof over my head, my own transportation, a job that i can tolerate and food on my table.

life can be so very beautiful, we just need to learn how to overlook all the bad stuff and really cherish the good.

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Friday, January 16th, 2004
9:16 pm - a push to read
Someone recommended a book for me to read, and I went to the library and checked it out. It has sat around now for 2 weeks and I have only read 3 pages. So this morning as I was putting newspaper in the dogs pen I noticed that the cover of the entertainment section had a full page photo of the same author that wrote the book that I have not read yet. Then I glanced at the date on the paper and it was a paper from back in August and not even a current issue. It's almost like something is telling me that I really need to just sit down and read the book. So I read a few chapters at lunch today and it is hysterical. The Author is Janet Evanovich and the book is Hard Eight. Well, better get back to the book....

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Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
10:18 pm - happiness
what would you consider the cream of life.....the rich very rich part that you skim off the top and savor.

for me it is things like cuddling up on the couch, watching a good show with a fire roaring in the fire place, on a cold winter night, knowing that i am toasty warm both inside and out.

life has it's ups and downs, but i refuse to give into the downs. i like to look at the good and ignore the bad. it keeps me grounded, peaceful, and happy.

life itself is the cream.

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Thursday, January 1st, 2004
10:30 pm - happy new year!
Ahhhh, day one of 2004...........what great things are going to happen this year? May I predict that Dean will become our next president in November? How nice that would be, we need new blood in the oval office and desperately. I am tired of being threatened by bush and his cronies, of watching them take there sins and present them as honorable deeds, and of the american people falling for their tricks. There was no blood shed caused by terrorists on american soil last night, in fact the only bloodshed i saw on the news was in iraq. Bless those poor people.

But enough of bush, he will be gone by the end of this year, this is my vision, and i see happier days ahead. I see that little by little, small people are going to group together, and stand up to the powerful, because sometimes power in numbers is much greater then power in dollars. like the people of turkey who stood up to their government, and turkey did not bow down to the almighty america. That is power, we the people can move this nation into greatness. we the people, one by one can unite in one voice and let the world know that we truly want peace on earth and good will towards our fellow mankind.

To a wonderful, peaceful, prosperous, healthy and happy new year for all mankind. May we all find that peace that passes all understanding and ever so softly find our way home to the loving light of god.

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Monday, December 15th, 2003
10:01 pm - the capture
ah yes, they have captured the evil one. living proof that evil does not pay, and money can't buy everything. how different the world may have been if the evil one had paid more attention to writings of Charles Dickens and his brilliant creation of the repentant miser, mr. ebenezer scrooge. If he has seen this in his future, life for many could have been so different. America take heed, evil does not pay, whatever wrongs we have done or lies we have made or innocents we have persecuted, will one day come back to haunt us.

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Monday, December 8th, 2003
11:47 pm - christmas cards
Don't know what got into me this year, but on a whim decided to make my own christmas cards. Keith and I were up until 1 am on Saturday cutting and gluing. They did not turn out at all the way I pictured them in my mind, but they actually are kind of cute if you can appreciate the effort put into them. I could not help taking a small political stance in my cards this year. Nothing bad, just a small quote to the side from jesus.

"blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the children of god"

i thought it was appropriate to quote from the source of the birth whom which we celebrate.

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