first entry...don't expect much...just a life of a girl who makes wrong choices as a drunk, stoner, and smoker...i had one of these things before on ujournal, it didn't really work out for me too well. everyone from school just criticized my life and what i put on these things...if you rather not read, stop right here. but my first entry will probably mad long...and very boring...but i will try to update as much as possible. today was just a slow, boring day... check up for my weekends.
i had school today, as usual...normal thursday i guess you could say. it's raining...i love the rain. i just hate it when it's so cold.
1st period : an hour of this class just kills me...just because the freshman had to take their pssa's. luckily, i came in late, and get to take mine tomorrow. the only thing velez was talking about the whole period was "manolete" the fearless bullfighter who got his gonads ripped by a bull...mmm...exciting. and i got to work with mark, which wasn't have bad. all we did was some worksheets, and look at some slides of this guy.
2nd period : finally, ms. moses is back. she was in a car accident which nearly killed her. she seemed happy to see us, but she pisses me off most of the time from her pointless rants...like we care. i got a pass and went to the library to just be there. surprise...my cronies were there being the usual jackasses. i love them. i plopped myself down next to manny and talked to him about jay for awhile. then angel, mike, and THE DREW came over for some chattage. angel took off his shoe, put the shoe up to his ear, and shouted, "I CAN HEAR THE SHOE STORE FROM HERE!!!" everyone laughed...he was trying so hard to get me out of my mood. it worked. good job angel. jay came in and wanted to talk to me...i like that kid so much, you don't even understand. we've had our breakups and makeups so many times...he's my best friend...i just love him.
3rd period : i had to make up a test that i missed from being suspended...back over to the library i went. i had to write a pointless essay on muckrakers and what they do to our society. i ended up using a full page, surprisingly... ::cheers:: hooray for raven and her "skillets."
4th period : watched the most boring movie of my life...calc sucks major cock. i thought i was going to die.
5th period : lunch! yes! my favorite part of the day! ;D i found out some interesting stuff from stephanie about mal. "people in this school are just so fake, i can't stand them." mal said that regarding steph. she really had the nerve to say that. one second she is prancing around in her nsync shirts (no offense to those of you that are into that), and the next second she's telling people how hardcore she is and that boy bands are "gay." steph? fake? please. get a life. well after that fiasco, i went to go to the neverending lunch line with jay. before that, we went out in he hallway to talk about us. it felt so good to hear him say, "we need to be together again...i just love you so much raven." aah...i wanted to cry. i don't know why i dumped him in the first place, that kid is my world. within 10 minutes of lunch, we were back together! and on top of that...cheese steaks today....yumm. i always sit next to angel and jay, but today i was practically on top of jay. after eating we engrossed into a makeout session of back togetherness. everyone thought it was about time. i just had a smile on my face for the rest of the time...
6th period : computer lab...nothing but being retarded researching The Sacco and Vanzetti Case for 45 minutes. i could have died, but mark and marty saved me from passing out of boredom. thanks guys... marty kept poking me, and rubbing my leg. i don't know what i feel about him. he's just my really good friend, and i want things to stay that way. he's really pushing his limits with me. then the bell rings! thank god.
7th period : i TRIED to cheer kalief up as much as possible. but stancil, being the asshole he is, just ruins things every time a student isn't having a good day. same thing when my dad died..."bring in that dead body and i'll feel some sympathy." i could have fucking shot him when he said that...but the chair was good enough to throw...so i did that. ashley kept being a bitch and arguing with him. kalief was mad upset about his cousin (he was missing, and they found him shot to death, and in the river)...and all she can do is sit there and bitch at him because she has no life. she should just QUIT LIFE. i want to slap her...i will by the end of this year.
8th period : i was kinda late on a count of my little intermission with jay in the hallway...i could have practically fucked him right there. i wanted him bad. hah, i'm such a pervert sometimes. i told him that i wanted him after school...he put that cute big-ass grin on his face. I LOVE IT!!! ms. jen bitched at me for being late, i told her i was extremely sorry. in return, i got detention for supposedly being a smart-ass about it. boo hoo. i told her i wasn't able to make it today and she said alright. we watched a movie about some kid getting AIDS. this school kinda sucks...every year in health you learn about the same thing. stds, sex, pregnancy, periods, cocks, cunts, aids, the whole 411.
AFTER SCHOOL: went to go get my jay-dog. we went to his locker and quickly got out of the school. we held hands and gave little kisses on the whole way to his house, and i just wanted to hold him. we talked about our childhood memories, and when we first met (i've known him since i was 5). and our experiences in dating, and the first time we had sex and lost our virginity to eachother. we both wanted to have sex then, so it was our plan by the time we got to his house...we would do it. so we get to jay's house...good times...we dropped our books, bags, and whatnot...then ran straight upstairs. it started off with a lot of passionate kissing...and i enjoyed it so much. he is one of the best people i've ever kissed, and i never want it to end. he started kissing my neck...oh god...that is my switch. i wanted to just yell because it felt good, and i like that. i was kind just sitting on top of him, eager to just DO IT!!! (sounds like a porn story, huh?) he smiled out me lightly, and i smiled back. i took off his shirt, and started kissing his chest and neck...that would be his switch. :) he then took off my shirt, and just let me feel him up. then he undid his belt, and i slid off his pants. i then, slid off mine. i could kinda feel him getting hard already, which is awkward to feel...and i wanted to laugh. lol. i got off him, and layed next to him...waiting for him to wrap ol' jimmy up. he did, then ofcourse...it went from there. it felt so good. i'm glad no one was home. i bet the neighbors heard us, it was so loud. in the mist of it, he said..."oh god, i love you so much." i wanted to stop and just be all, "awww..." but that would be not so nice...so i replied in return. after we were done, i just layed in his arms...never wanting that to end. i kissed him on his forehead and told him i loved him. i slipped into a pair of his cute duckie boxers and a wife-beater...haha...i love doing that. i threw my hair up messily, and i got up...and told him to at least get some pants on before his mom and dad got home. he laughed at me...and called me a dork. i wanted to smoke a joint, but he doesn't smoke pot...and he kind of doesn't like me smoking anything...at all...so i save the partying when he's not with me. unless me and him get drunk together...but that's usually just us. so here i am, still at his house, staying here for the night. he ordered us some grub...aah yes...food. i love food... heh. i called my mom and told her i was staying...she sounded a little iffy about it, but was OK. she just told me to make sure i get up and go to school in the morning, and call her before i go...she's so cool when sean's not around. when he comes back to jail, i'll probably be kicked out again...and be back to being the old stupid bitch no one wants in the house...
god that was long...sorry i bored you kids with that...that is if...anyone reads this. i'm not expecting anything. babble at you some other times...