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...a dimly lit hallway where shadows of moths decorate the walls... [20 Aug 2003|12:39am]
[ mood | artistic ]
[ music | modest mouse - never ending math equation ]

so i just tried to find another free online journal site,
and this crap called "bloop diary: the online journal for teens" comes up...
...and i figure i'd give it a shot.
lo and behold...it sucks.
i think ill stick with blurty, even though the server is weak

-comment on my posts please!!!-

today was a great day!
i saw my sponsor at the meeting tonight after getting the hottest pair
of chick pants from savers (can you believe it? they have the best five-
finger discounts!!)
he seemed to be doing pretty well...im still xxx, thank god
then lupe, amber and i went to my house to burn amber the modest mouse
cd's i told her i'd burn like two months ago...
amber was playing on my computer and lupe started to make out with me
in my bedroom....quite an accomplished kisser, she is.
...anyways, they left like three hours ago, and here i am still restless as
hell, listening to one of the best damn bands around...modest mouse...

speaking of music, i figured out today that i really dislike "emo" music. i mean, sure,
i've been called "emo" before, but aren't all humans "emo"? "emo"=emotional, and all of
us have those, no matter how much some of us don't seem to like that. and when we call
someone emo, aren't we showing an emotion (i think its called hate or intolerance). but
before i start to sound like a big hippocrite, let me clear things up. the type of music that can be
boxed up, labeled, and sold as emo music is just a bunch of whiny powerchords adorned
in tribal tattoos, ridiculous piercings, date-rapist mentality, oh-feel-bad-for-me-because-my-
girlfriend-broke-up-with-me-so-i-can-get-some, two minute three chord progressions (a la
new found glory, good charlotte, sum 41, blink 182, and the toilet bowl is full with countless
other bands) packaged together to be sold to the drooling masses that are today's youth.
now, im not saying that that music isn't good for some youth...

but not this youth!!! i much prefer melodic rhapsodies of musical brilliance laced with lyrical
angst and energy, with a beautiful coalescence of joy and frustration; love and hate; acceptance
in rejection. and sometimes not even about anything in particular. this is the primal beauty
i find in my genre of choice: indie rock.

this is why i live today: art, music, and love.
without that, there is nothing

...i guess i'm kinda rambling on now...
so, that's my two cents for the day...

"...i'd rather die with love than live with hate..."

mrg

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[20 Aug 2003|09:40am]
Yesterday was a shitty day.... my family is getting on my nerves! My mom is trying to get me to eat! I will not! My fasting went terrible.... I ate a hamburger:( but today I'm starting NEW and fresh....I haven't eaten at all! Yah! I just need some encouraging words from my Ana/Mia sisters! My boyfriend has been acting weird lately, I hope we are okay. I love him to death. Its like my whole life is coming to an end. I thought about suicide long and hard last night, but I know thats not the right way to go. That would be selfish and stupid. Today I feel really good about myself... I'm drinking tons and tons of water, and chewing gum. TO ALL MY GIRLS: GUM IS THE KEY TO FASTING! It takes food off my mind... especially winterfresh tasting gum... its wonderful! Well I just wanted to tell everyone what's been going on... Thanks for all the support and help. I love you girls!
Love,
Hope

Random Things!!!!

dont ever let anyone be your everything
bcuz once they're gone, you got nothing

Spotted skunks do handstands before they spray.

*never lose your passion to dream, it's the best thing given to you*

:Don't Bother::Don't bother wanting me,if you only want me for one thing.Don't even bother to make promises,if you don't intend to keep.Don't tell me you love me,if you don't mean it.Don't even bother to be with me,if you are going to hurt me in the end...
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