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[08 May 2003|05:30pm] |
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"If you love someone set them on fire" By: Dead Milk Men |
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Today was the first time I cut myself... I relieved the pain...it helps a lot, in my opinion. Everyone that used to be close to me..backed away and it seems like everyone hates me now and everyone is mad. Fuck them. I don't need anyone. Espically my parents, fuck them fuck them fuck them. It used to be my dad that I hated, well I still do, but now my mother is a bitch. I hate being yelled at, it makes me feel really degraded, and she yells at me everyday now. I hate it...I hate her. I hate everyone.
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| Thomas Scott Mowery, Jr. |
[08 May 2003|05:35pm] |
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"Bitchin' Camaro" By: Dead Milk Men |
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I have half a mind to break up with my boyfriend. Today I exclaimed in frustration, "I AM SO UGLY!!" It took him a moment to respond, which means he thinks I'm oogly as well. He said, "NOOO, no you're not! You're beeeeeuteefulllllll!" And I think he was trying to play it off. I guess I used to be decent enough...but I decided that I didn't care what people thought so I dyed my hair black, cut it, and I'm expressing my punk side, even though I do not belive in 'Labels'. He also never listens to me, he constantly has wandering eyes when I try and tell him what is bothering me, or what is makimg me sad currently at the moment. Aren't significant others supposed to help you? Listen to you? Talk and help you cope with current situations that contantly put you on the doomed edge of suicide?!?!?! But he never listens. When I ask him why he doesn't listen to me, he says he does.
===I'm going on a fasting spree---I haven't eaten In an hour and a half and I wanna see how long I can go. My current record is two days...lets see if I can at least lose a little bit of weight. ::96 pounds is my current weight::
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