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Does anybody else here (besides) grat have an LJ?
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[28 Jul 2003|11:51pm] |
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well the elusive update that didn't happen was just another crapenstanse on my end. yep- my word- crapenstanse. crap + happen + circumstance=crapenstanse.
well to have a quick summary.
- happy garden made in front yard
- hedge started in front yard
- some painting in back yard done
- bought hot tub second hand for great deal
- strippped and refinished hot tub
-hubby passed both courses and got highest scaling grade in province YAY!
- work on a small garden in back yard with wee pond
- helped with the inner fence in back yard
-son to orthodontist , needs 6 teeth pulled. 6!!
- go to municipal meeting about local traffic problem in neighborhood
- cleaning and decrappifying
- sorting through kids room
- tried to clean out way too small shed, too much junk to even move around properly and gave up
- figured out my job isn't worth daycare
- got work day shortened from 8:30 straight through to 2:30 yay!
- ran into old school friend and he tells me he has a brain tumour!!! a freaking brain tumour on his brain stem that has paralized half his face
-hubbys shoulder really bad and off work for a couple of days
gets told to stay home until further notice. now has been put on medical leave with no company pay. WCB or human resources is od NO help. jerks!!!! they are screwing him to get rid of him!!! basically he is without pay or any income . so here i am flipping out inside, trying to remain calm while my peanut paying job is supposed to sustain us until he finds another job with the logging shut down for fire season!!!!!!!!
SCREWED!!!
/end rant!!
on a brighter note, we got a stop sign put in on out block which wil hopefully slow traffic.
I am grateful for my families health , for all the many blessings we have, enjoyed thus far. I realize we live in a country that would never let us live without all the things we need. It's just frustrating to feel so helpless. i feel like we are on our backs with belly and necks exposed.
Maybe we weren't changing fast enough. maybe we needed a "push" of sorts to make changes in out lives. who knows? not me.
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[03 Jul 2003|08:23pm] |
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**waves to everyone**
i'm going to be updating probably tomorrow or the next day. i've been neglecting my online friends :(
i will try to do a decent update.
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| my half assed update |
[03 Jun 2003|08:47pm] |
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i have not been visiting my computer lately. i have been busy doing some gardening and other puttering in the yard. the kids have been keeping me quite busy too. i haven't had much "free time" to speak of. i seem to be in one of those phasses of my life where everything and nothing is happening all at once. the things that i would like to be still are chaotic and shifting through change that i can hardly keep up with. the things i would like to change are stagnant. blah blah blah wanna come to my pity party? just jokin!! my brother told me "god will never give you more than you can handle" which was intersting to hear from him. he just isn't usually like that, which is probably why it meant more to me.
my garden is almost done. i got too much soil and that took forever to move. it's starting to be a cute garden. i got impatient and put my plants in before i finished shaping it.
my hubby is taking his secong course which ends this friday. he still has to wait for about 5 more wekks for his first course results. hhis job that he took a leave from is looking sketchy. they are only working 2-3 days a week right now. he may not be eligible for unemployment if he gets laid off.
i have to get a crown on a back molar . this will not be cheap and i am praying it will be accepted to be covered by dental.
my neighbors dog is still incessantly barking. we have now started video taping him freaking out. we hope th e s.p.c.a. will be fining my neighbor soon.
my daycare costs will be horrendous this summer *cringe*
my job seems quite pointless at this time. i'm debating if paying daycare and working is really financially and family wise really that important. am thinking about quitting.
BUT BUT BUT
the funny thing is, i'm not stressed. i have a really positive feeling that make my chest and tummy feel all butterfly-ish when i think about the future. i get all excited. i have a feeling something really great is going to happen. i know it probably doesn't seem that way but it's true. i rant about crap to blow it off but i feel quite good right now. so if i disapper for a bit, chances are i'm planting a few flowers, banging a few nails, painting, or just watching my kids have a water fight. i'm feeling pretty peaceful actually. just thought i'd do a update because i know i get worried and start to wonder if somebody disapears for a while.
sunshine and clear starry nights *sigh*
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[23 May 2003|08:21pm] |
we had our company return last night after the guys exam. he stayed the night. i have not gone grocery shopping for a while and had nothing aside from oatmeal and ceral for breakfast. our company offered for the 3 of us to go for breakfast. WELL!!!! we just went to a little diner a friend of his told him was good for breakie. when we got our meals he wasn't too impressed with his. he told the waitress he thinks they forgot "the rest" of his hashbrowns. :/ i hate going for meals with nit picky people. if you have something wrong fine. tell your wiatress nicely. she only carries your food to you. that's it! Noooooooo. bitching out the waitress doesn't help. he kept talking about it and other stuff refering to stuff in general about restaurants for the benefit of her to overhear. she came over and asked if everything was okay. he says "no, i told you i didn't get all my hashbrowns" she smiled and shrugged telling him he can talk to her boss if he wishes, he's sitting right over there. he declined. i was embarrased and felt bad for her. finally when he started to bring it up agian i said "listen. i have to see these people again where i work" "sometimes on a daily basis" he stopped. when he got up to go to the loo i heard he tell her boss about him. he said stuff like "there goes her tip" with her just leaving the table. i countered with "she IS doing HER job. she doesn't make your breakfast or the rules". she totally heard. when we left he added $2.00 to the bill for her tip and she made such a big deal about it loudly "oh a tip!!!!$2.00 why thank you!!!!" i smirked smiled at her and left. i left my own tip for her.
next the dentist. i had a good check up and cleaning. no cavities :D i do however need to get a crown that i've been putting off for about 2 years. ouch! that's gonna hurt to fork out about $500.00 for ONE tooth! thank god that we have dental right now. i'm still waiting for approval for the coverage.*crosses fingers*
the guys went crabbing again so our company will have some to bring home with him. they just took off and didn't say anything. grrrr i was so mad. when they got home. i was mad and not trying to hide it. they have already done this to me. because he may do this to his wife doesn't mean it's suddenly ok to do to me. i'll give you the down low.
me is played out in a higher octave and louder volume!!
me*where have you been?!!
him*we put out the crab traps
me*well thanks for telling me!! :x
him*sorry :(
me*not good enough! you said that last time. doesn't fly, not with me!!
him*sorry
me* peck! peck! squack!
him*kisses mucho ass
me*YOU aren't going camping BECAUSE... WE are watching a MOVIE just like I asked to TWO days ago.
him*oh oh yeah. i'l go discuss this with dave
me*ther is no DISCUSSING WITH DAVE. i just TOLD you, YOU are not going camping.
me*AND.......IF...if you think i'm going to be nice just because we have company, .....you...are....wrong.
we then ate dinner without the usual guy bantor. i think i deflated them. we compromised by them pulling up the traps tonight and then watching one movie. and THEY have to pick up the movie because -me*if you have time to pick up beer you have time to get a movie O_o
I WON!I WON!YOU HEARD ME BITCH ***SLAP*** I WON!IWON!
so now i'm waiting for them to come back. i hate being all nice to company just to be"polite" i've had enough. he said he was leaving tomorrow. he probably really is this time :) wish me luck
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| stages of success |
[22 May 2003|10:33am] |
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SUCCESS:
At age 4 success is . . . . not peeing in your pants.
At age 12 success is . . . having friends.
At age 16 success is . . . having a drivers license.
At age 20 success is . . . having a lap top
At age 35 success is . . . having money.
At age 50 success is . . . having money.
At age 60 success is . . . having a lap
At age 70 success is . . . having a drivers license.
At age 75 success is . . . having friends.
At age 80 success is . . . not peeing in your pants.
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[20 May 2003|09:00pm] |
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my hubby writes day 1 of his exam tomorrow. he is all stressed out and trying to get to sleep. he has to get up at about 3:30am and drive down island to do the test all day. he is having a hell of a time sleeping. little man was hacking in his room and then when that stopped the guy across the street proceeded to rev his motorbike for about 15 minutes. i am surprised he didn't go over there and ask them to stop. it is kinda rude to be doing that at about 8:45 pm in a neighborhood full of families with wee ones. ahh the joy of neighbors :/ i think a huge hedge is probably in order. i can't wait for the next 2 days to be over. he is so stressed about writing and then he has to wait 6 weeks to get his grades back. how nerve racking is that?
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[19 May 2003|11:33am] |
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my freaking neighbors kids are gawking at us. it's been 3 days of this. they actually sit at the edge of their yard (where the fence is gone) and watch us like a flipping movie or something. when the 2 little ones were doing it it's no big deal because they aren't even school aged yet, but the 10 year old? c'mon!! there mom hasn't said a thing to them about it either. fucking loser pothead welfare wench! when hubby came home i told him to come check it out he sang a few bars of "duelling banjos" and said it was like deliverance !!! so we were the neighbors kids entertainment all day as she talked on the phone all day and ignored her 4 kids. GRRRRRR!!!! i was thinking about things i could do to make them go away. even mowing the lawn and weed eating seemed to be of interest. i live next to the twilight zone!!!!!
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[18 May 2003|09:16am] |
Everclear* Volvo-driving soccer mom
this song pretty much sums up how i'm feeling today :)
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[18 May 2003|08:47am] |
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well yesterday i successfully injured myself numerous times. i managed to get my foot slammed between two pieces of wood. i hit my thumb nail with a hammer :( AND the icing on the cake... i whacked the side of my thumb(the thumb knuckle) with the hammer hard!!! i was sure i broke my thumb. the swelling almost has gone and my finger is looking less sausage like. it still hurts though. and besides, it gives me something valid to whine about.
today i'll probably be back out there puttering again. i am recycling my fence into a wee fence around the garden. it's really too bad i didn't come up with this idea BEFORE i totally disassembled the panels. oh well, now i know how to make fence panels. the kids are loving the hands on work too. i've got them pulling nails, cutting wood, and being great tool passers. hammer? screwdriver?
if anybody has nothing to do this weekend you are more than welcome to come pick slivers out of me :)
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went to the nearby grocery store and was cruising the dairy case when Joe Nichols - The Impossible came over the radio. i ,without thinking, started singing. i didn't mind that there were people shopping all around me. they mostly just looked and smiled. i then however heard somebody else singing too. i look over and see a guy about my age singing :) it was funny. we were both by the cheese for the chorus. we never said one word, just smiled, kept singing, and moved on. i can't explain the wierdness of it.
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[17 May 2003|09:09am] |
soo many things are happing. we had company for 4 days a break for 4 days and then he came back for a day and left after dinner and now i have no idea if he will be coming back for another stay. our company is my hubby's friend. he is a nice guy. but there is such a thing as too much. our house is quite small and to have a non family member over can be quite the change.
it's not uncommon to have a child burst in on your bath or shower to "go pee". we just leave to door unlocked and close the shower curtain. we cope, we are family. to have somebody just walk into the bathroom and jump in the shower is no-no here. we had 2 kids outside the bathroom door pee-pee dancing for a number of occations. we have our ways of doing things to cope with being in a small space. we announce a shower or bath and we don't dilly dally in there if we don't have to.
my my the food bill goes up when you have another man staying too. he isn't a light eater either. i have never had to buy bread, milk and other stuff so often before EVER! i kept my smile pasted on through things that have bothered me about this. friends are friends, never interfere unless it's very bad. hubby came to the conclusion all on his own that maybe he should try staying elsewhere. so i have been visitor free for a few days.
ahhhhhhhh. i can lounge in my robe again :) i can sprawl on the couch :) i can have sexxxxxx:) :) :) :)
it's really the simple things that make me happy!
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[17 May 2003|09:06am] |
a friend of mine just popped in at closing the other day. she was just travelling through and stopped to say "hi". we opted for a dinner just the two of us. very nice :) just like old times. we are terrible at keeping in touch, but when we are together we don't miss a beat. so many things to be caught up on bluntly. she just nods and accepts them. GOLD! she is my treasure friend.
i really must make a point to keep in touch. today i will send some pictures to her. i WILL do this. i can be such a procrastinator sometimes.
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[14 May 2003|10:30pm] |
i reaaally need to win the BIG lotto. first step buy tickets!!!
my manager is a turd! i am so tired of not having the flexibilty of my job without the guilt associated with having to deal with being a mom. as if there is even a thought in my head as to what is of importance. i could tell him to shove this job in a heartbeat if my kids need me. EVEN FOR A SCRAPED KNEE!!!! if it's important to them, or for them, it supercedes EVERYTHING!
i don't know why this is such a hard concept to grasp. it may not be the ideal thinking for a employer to have for an employee, but it is for a mom. that's my important job. i couldn't give a shit if joe what's his ass gets the wrong asswipe. at the end of the day it just doesn't matter to me. my kids do. plain & simple.
to have to be made to feel guilty because i had to leave to bring my son for an x-ray is bullshite. he has been coughing for about a month and is on his second round of anti-biotics. he knows this and still is a jerk about it. "is this going to be a problem for the other girls lunch schedules?" pffft. hmmmm 2 other moms are going to mind? don't think so. it may be an inconvenience for a short time, but overall i'd like to think there is a bit more common sense and compassion happening in the front office. it's not like i just felt like not being there and decided to have a short day. we are allowed to be pissy over that! it's just healthy jealousy then *smirk*
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Sun is shining, birds are singing, feeling good.
our house guest had left for a break yesterday. just when our house was starting to feel a little too full. there is such thing as too many men!
we went to a picnic yesterday at a lake. i packed half my fridge. i can't stand to be without. the kids were fishing for bullhead off a rickety makeshift dock . they had a lot of fun. there were other people there with a few other kids. my guy was fishing in our wee boat. he brought our little man out for a while. our daughter was fishing off the dock with a couple of other girls most of the time.
i was pretty much bored. the other ladies there just weren't anything near what i could relate to. two had 80's hair and kinda butchy.(sisters) they looked like they were ready to play softball. another lady had a leopard print sundress on and leather boots. ????? we were in the middle of the forest. the other lady went fishing with her hubby. a small group of younger folk sat apart from the group. the girl had green streaks and they 3 guys had a squirt gun fight commando style thought the forest.
i got a burn when a spark cracked off the fire and onto my sandal and foot. the spark stuck and i was not too very happy. so i kinda seperated myself from this motley crew and just watched over the kids. i asked to be brought home after about 4 hours. i had just about worn out my happy face by then. hubby went back and fished some more. i kicked back and watched a movie.
so today is a total write off in a good way. i am not motivated to accomplish anything. i am going to putter outside for a while and plant some seeds. maybe i'll go for a bike ride after dinner.
maybe a lot of things :)maybe a few things :) maybe nothing :)
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[08 May 2003|02:30pm] |
i just seen a biker dude in clogs. not just slip on shoes either. i'm talking black leather jacket ,shades, skull cap, accesorized with black leather clogs WITH a wood heel. *titter*
just thought i'd share :)
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on the way home for lunch a car full of teeanger pulls up beside me at the lights. i have my window open a couple of inches, got my shades on. this young man looks over and does a double take. he then smiles, then he waves. i smirk. yeah right ! the light turns green he rolls down his window and starts talking to me. i missed part of it, what i did catch was "i'm not like other teenage boys". amusing. okay cutie jailbait, you are only about 10 years too young for me. i sped up and he tries to keep talking but i pinned it to end the conversation. so i'm guessing he's at home with his mom making him a nice lunch now :)
boys are a never ending source of amusement- you are silly
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[06 May 2003|07:43pm] |
sorry i'm being sooo sporatic in my entries. i've just ben skimming for the last few days. i have been reading others entries -but quickly.
home~
my little man has had a WICKED cough for a while and just when we thought it was getting better, it got worse. i stayed home with him monday and brought him to the doc. soooo now he's on antibiotics. our doctor usually has a stash of samples and is really good about sharing them. he has always given us the really expensive presciptions from his sample stash so that's a big bonus. we probably only end up having to pay for drugs about half the time. so i got to mix my little guys antibiotics up for him. yay! tropical fruit flavored medicine! he rocks!
today little guy stayed home with dad. i think he's ready to go back to school tomorrow. he's perking up and getting to be his little punk self. he asked me to spar with him so how bad can he feel?
work~ i was kinda grumpy at work today. i don't think i was too miserable just not very impressed with being there. i like to be with the kids when they aren't 100%. i think i'm just getting a bit stressed because there is going to be big changes in our life this summer. little things are just getting under my skin that shouldn't bug me.
we had a couple of known thiefs come into the store and pilfer a few things. one girl left with a pretty full looking purse. i hate when a drug addict comes into the store and is scoping the place or steals something. it just isn't worth interfering with them. desperate people aren't worth the trouble. like i need a fist fight with a junkie?!!! BAH!
home again~ stuffed myself with burgers and fries :) mmmm full tummy. sipping tea at computer. bliss. men out setting crab traps. i know what i want for dinner tomorrow!
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[04 May 2003|10:51am] |
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okay, i need to know this. i have had repeated conversations with people about their things that they have as quirks. like the direction of the toilet paper over vs under and stuff like that. we ramble on and inveritably i come to one i have that i havn't come across anybody else doing. is this freaky or does anybody else do this.......( linen closet )
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