| if i had a million dollars |
[07 May 2008|10:25pm] |
I'd have a one way ticket for a plane away from this place.
I'm tired of the what if's this place holds for me.
What if he comes back, and what if he finds me.
I'm tired of the faces that haunt me, during sleep and waking hours.
Just want the nightmare to end.
I'm trying so hard to not get attached to anyone.
But i'm hoping that good memories with someone new,
could hopefully, possibly, maybe push out the old.
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[03 Apr 2008|12:54am] |
THE LATEST OBSESSION: TEXTING ADAM, SAVED BY THE BELL && DR. PEPPER
if i could change one thing in my life, i couldn't, i'd have to change two. that way i could be a stronger person, and maybe even believe in love. but i can't change the past, so i'm forced to have to deal. and struggle through these obstacles for the rest of my life. i wish it would really just go away. or die.
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| 0RIGINALSz♥ |
[06 May 2007|09:41pm] |
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PRETTY MUCH I'M A QU0TE ADDICT && LIKE 99.9% 0F THE AMERICAN TEEN GIRL P0PULATI0N, I USE THEM T0 DEFINE THE EM0TI0NSz I'M G0ING THRU BECAUSE T0 ME QU0TESz ARE M0RE THAN JUST W0RDSz 0N PAPER ((0R IN THIS CASE 0N A C0MPUTER SCREEN.)) THEY DEFINE A PART 0F MY LIFE THAT WITH0UT THEM W0ULD STILL BE LURKING IN THE SHAD0WSz... THE F0LL0WING ARE STEPHANIE SWEET 0RIGINALSz.... FEEL FREE T0 USE THEM, BUT MAKE SURE T0 GIVE ME CREDIT!
001.)
You say that I am stubborn,
But really, I'm just trying to prove,
To myself mostly,
That I'm strong enough to stand on my own,
And that I can survive alone.
-SL. Sweet
002.)
This year I've learned that good friends are hard to come by
&& that throughout highschool friends are all you truly need to get through.
These people are your support system, your confidants,
your partners in crime, your reality checks,
your shoulders to lean on, and your backbone.
Without them, who knows just where you'd be.
-SL. Sweet
003.)
I'm jumping in this time.
Full fleged, nothing's holding me back.
I'm ready to feel...
The good, the bad, the painful.
I'm ready to take a chance with YOU.
Even if it means a year from now,
Or in 30 seconds....
I am forced to walk away empty handed.
-SL. Sweet
004.)
We drink to get drunk,
And drown out reality
With intoxicated dreams.
-SL. Sweet
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| FYI |
[29 Apr 2007|02:52pm] |
I'm one of those people who doesn't give a FUCK. Everyone is entitled to their opinion, so if you think I'm fat, ugly, a whore, or whatever else your imagination can think up... Well then, bring it on. Because chances are, I've heard it all before. I know who I am and what I am. I live with myself 24 hours a day, 7 days a week... So nothing you say can or will aulter the truth.
PRETTY MUCH ALL I'M SAYING IS:: "GO A HEAD && KEEP TALKiNG SHiT... YOUR MAKiNG ME FAMOUS"
I'VE HEARD iT ALL BEFORE((BUT GO AHEAD && TRY))  CHUNKIN THE DUCE AS S0ME W0ULD SAY... I GUESS iT'S A LANSiNG THiNG  LATINA GIRLSz CAN BE PRETTY IN PINK T00<3  PUCKER UP SWEETHEART  MY EYES TELL A ST0RY N0 0NE KN0WSz  BESTiES - YUPP WE'RE HOMiES F0R LiFE((NO DOUBT))  MY HiGH SCHOOL REBELLiON STAGE. ((CAN i ASK WHO iS GETTiNG HURT BY MY PiERCED NOSE??? NO ONE!)) (♥)(♥)(♥)
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[25 Apr 2007|08:23pm] |
I'm sorry
that i bought you roses
to tell you that i like you
I'm sorry
That I was raised with respect
not to sleep with you when you were drunk
I'm sorry
That my body's not ripped enough
to "satisfy" your wants
I'm sorry
that I open your car door,
and pull out your chair like I was raised
I'm sorry
That I'm not cute enough
to be "your guy"
I'm sorry
That I am actually nice;
not an asshole
I'm sorry
I don't have a huge bank account
to buy you expensive things
I'm sorry
I like to spend quality nights at home
cuddling with you, instead of at a club
I'm sorry
I would rather make love to you then just f**k you
like some random guy.
I'm sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to,
but never good enough to date
I'm sorry
That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car,
but when we went out you went home with another guy
I'm sorry
That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,
but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friend
I'm sorry
If I start not being there, and being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new asshole comes around
I'm sorry
If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work
I'm sorry that you can't realize.. I've been the one all along.
I'm sorry
If you read this and know somebody like this
but don't care But most of all
I'm sorry
For not being sorry anymore
I'm sorry
That you can't accept me for who I am
I'm sorry
I can ever do anything right, and nothing that I do is good
enough to make it in your world.
I'm sorry
I caught your bf with another girl and told you about it, I thought that was what friends were for...
I'm sorry
That I told you I loved you and actually meant it.
I'm sorry
That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your bf was threatening you instead of spending time with my family.
I'm Sorry
That i cared
I'm sorry
that I listen to you at night talk about how you wish you could have done something different.
Ladies always bitch and bitch to their friends that there is never any good guys out there, and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them. Well ladies next time you're bitching, maybe look up to see who you're bitching to, maybe that special someone is right there hanging on you every word as usual, screaming in his head "WHY WON'T YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE?"
Because the person you are usually searching for is right by you.
If you're a guy and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry "
If You're one of the few girls with enough balls to repost, and you would never make your guy feel this way, repost as "To the girls who look past nice guys"
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