18th April, 2004. 10:44 pm. bite me hard you stupit BITCH=]

hah.. so dont ask me where the subject came from .. im in a happy mood considering tomorrow is monday and i have to wake up at 6. so today i got in a fight w/ my dad and he took me home early.. i was happy. then i hung out w/ cool marissa and she strangled me but we had fun... then went home, computer, random people knocked on my door. i was watching my sister though so i couldnt hang out so i told them to come in. so me matt and kathy hung out in my ghettoass room and had fun i guess. then we started walking somewhere. and kathys mom pulled up next to us and yelled at kathy to get in because she was in trouble.. so me and matt started walking to kathys to get his skates and then we were talking shit about kathys mom for a while..hah then we got his skates and were bored so we walked around the block and talked and froze to death. it was fun. then went to my house and then dropped him off. went home. took a bite of some nasty raviolies, so i didnt eat the rest.. so now im pretty much starving because all i had was breakfast. i want popcorn.. BAD. so im gunna go find something to eat, get ready for tomorrow, watch some tv, read my new awesome emo book, and go to sleep and wake up pissed because its monday=].

hollur to your mothur.
- hollee.

Current mood: cheerful.
Current music: mest - cadillac.. all thanks to manda hah.

18th April, 2004. 10:31 pm. bite me hard you stupit BITCH=]

hah.. so dont ask me where the subject came from .. im in a happy mood considering tomorrow is monday and i have to wake up at 6. so today i got in a fight w/ my dad and he took me home early.. i was happy. then i hung out w/ cool marissa and she strangled me but we had fun... then went home, computer, random people knocked on my door. i was watching my sister though so i couldnt hang out so i told them to come in. so me matt and kathy hung out in my ghettoass room and had fun i guess. then we started walking somewhere. and kathys mom pulled up next to us and yelled at kathy to get in because she was in trouble.. so me and matt started walking to kathys to get his skates and then we were talking shit about kathys mom for a while..hah then we got his skates and were bored so we walked around the block and talked and froze to death. it was fun. then went to my house and then dropped him off. went home. took a bite of some nasty raviolies, so i didnt eat the rest.. so now im pretty much starving because all i had was breakfast. i want popcorn.. BAD. so im gunna go find something to eat, get ready for tomorrow, watch some tv, read my new awesome emo book, and go to sleep and wake up pissed because its monday=].

hollur to your mothur.
- hollee.

Current mood: cheerful.
Current music: mest - cadillac.. all thanks to manda hah.

16th April, 2004. 6:02 pm. HELP!

ahhhhhhhhhh BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD . was supposed to hang out at katelyns, called her twice and first she was doing something then she um.. wasnt home... then called again. still not home. called kathy. no answer. called manda. cant come over. called marissa. too tired to hang out. texted nikkos. no response. pshh ii ammm soo boooreeeedddd. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp ITS SO NICE OUT and of course.. hollees stuck home. not faiiiiiir. =[. i dont know what to do.. hmm.. i burned my hair with my moms awesome orange lighter and then was burning some ghetto nail i found them was burning my door.. bbbbb.....oooooo...rrrrr.......eeeedddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.. im listening to my new s.l cd. i like it. wow. i dont think ive been this bored in my life. omggg!!! hhhheeeeeeellllllllllllllllllllpp

Current mood: BORED !.
Current music: tsl - cheek to cheek.

9th April, 2004. 7:43 pm. ice cream

why hello there. HAH no one ever leaves comments. im wondering if this is because i dont have any friends or because for most people this site is blocked.. oh well doesnt matter. my christmas lights are falling down and making all my pictures fall off the wall so its going to take about 4 hours to fix everything up again=]. i just love life. anyway today all i did was sit my lazy ass around until 3ish then hung out w/ marissa and did nothing really. hah so the other day i flashed some random friends of mine. im wondering if that was a good idea or not because now i have to hear about it the rest of my life .. hah. spring vacation sucks so far except sam got me into this amasing song. and now im like obsessed with it. [5 hours a day i listen to it] i hung out with amanda the other day and i guess we had fun. we watched the texas chainsaw massacre [sp?] it was very um gorish .. but it was pretty good. the day after that i slept over sams and we had another water contest. we had 4 cups of water and we felt like we were going to die. sam threw up twice. LOL. then she wanted to get herself drunk so she was drinking random achohol and seeing if it worked. it didnt. we watched school of rock. i like that movie. shes obsessed with kevin clark. because he looks very much like the thomas feltone. hahh member that sam=]. im freezing. hmm. today marissa told me it was impossible to crack an egg in one hand. so we walked to katelyns to get an egg and i tried it but it didnt work so i got mad and used 2 hands and it got all over my hair, sweatshirt, pants and hands. it tastes bad :/. well im leaving now because sam needs the link to a site. and yeah .. u wouldnt understand anyway.
- hollleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
ps. i have a secret but i dont want to put it up here. if you want to know im me.

Current mood: tired.
Current music: tbs-your own disaster.

3rd April, 2004. 11:07 pm. HOLLER.

hi! im bored, whats new. hahahah no. ummm im off being grounded pretty soon so ima b hangn out w/ da gangstarr. peeps. so ummmmmmmm i have no idea what to write. i didnt do ANYTHING today. i went to my dads and watched tv for like, 5 hours... boringggggggggg. i might get my hair cut tomorrow. hehe. im excitered alrighty well gerv is officially one of coolest weird furrends i have because he likes pineapple on his pizza. well ima go. payce niggaz
~hollarrz.

Current mood: blank.
Current music: switchfoot - ammunition.

23rd March, 2004. 3:59 pm. blllehhhh

soo .. noone cool lives in my neighborhood, its so boring. noone wants to doooooooo anything and im so hyper and energetic =[ o well sucks for hollee, anyway, my throat hurts, because i have a sore throat, amasing, i know. anyway. shortest journel entry ever. im done. bye

Current mood: ditzy.
Current music: none.

14th March, 2004. 3:02 am. black eyeliner rocks.

why, hello. i am SO bored. not tired at all. & ..its 3 in the morning =[. no one is on and there is nothing to do. so before i got bored and made myself look all gothic & it was fun because i look bad gothic. so i had some laughs.yes,w/ myself.=]. i met this hot guy, online.. actually i met a couple of hot guys, yeaaah. go me. anyway. my eyes hurt. yup. and.. my parents are really loud right now because they are drunk. hah. my cat is adorable & hes starting to get less scared of me....i think.. um sam & me are going to makeout when we get drunk one day & dont worry we are taking pictures.=].i ate half a bag of popcorn before. hah, im going to get faaaattt. i hate when i listen to a song on the radio and i LOVE it and then its like, the ONE song the djs don't tell you who sings it or what its called. that reeaalllly annoys me. grr. i miss julie. i havent hung out w/ that girl in ....... 1 month & 1/2ish. =[. <3. yes! im getting tired. woo. so, i realised that im online almost for 5 hours a day...which proves i literally don't have a life cause its school, computer, eat, sleep. i suck. & that for one.. tis not a good thing. so sam got her hair cut. i want to see it bad. i know, you dont care. o well. actually, i dont think anyone reads this anyway because i never get any comments, besides that one time sam left me one. goes to show you i have no friends either. no friends, no life, why am i still here??? hmm. well im guna go before i have to hear someone yelling at me because i am online. sooooooooooo yeah. ohh i got my cell on again. so if you wanna call me. yeah. k.. byeee.

Current mood: blank.
Current music: radio.

9th March, 2004. 11:34 pm. someone just punched me in my chest and i blacked out but came but to life

yes, thats how i feel. i sound like a pathetic loser writing stuff on here but i do it anyway. me and my mom got into a fight, but this one was really bad.. i feel like im going to collapse if i scream one more time. its so hard. school, family, social, life. not good things. i couldnt take it anymore so i ran into my room and took a saftey pin and wrote i hate you on my left arm, i was trying to make it bleed cause i figured if i couldnt do it when i was bored, maybe if i did it when i was going crazy it would. it didnt. i got mad, so i made a big x. that didnt bleed either. then i got mad at myself for doing that because its guna leave scars and i dont like to remind myself of the bad times in life.. but the happy, even though there is not as much. but so i said to myself; this isnt me, this isnt cool. so i stopped, then my heart started beating really quick and it still is.. 15 minutes later, my heart hurts, like, it literally feels like someone punched me extremely hard and did it a second ago but im strong enough to take it. shhhhh but when i get fucked up, like i just did. i need a hug so bad. and then i start thinking about friends and... people..... and that makes it even worse because my social life is pretty much a mess too. so that got me mad. and really upset. and i cried, and i took this weird stuffed animal i got from my favorite grandma sue. shes awesome and i can talk to her about anything and she always makes me feel good..and i just layed on my bed for 30 minutes and pretended it was someone amasingly special hugging me, and it made me feel better, weird i know. dont ask how it makes me feel better. i have no idea. so, my face is covered in black from my eyeliner, its annoying my eyes and making them tear worse so everything i see is really blurry. oh well. my heart still hurts. its like screaming something but i cant make it shutup. grr. it hurts. i am abused mentally i realised today. there hasnt been one day since i was 2 years old.. that fighting hasnt had anything to do w/ in my house. it sucks. i hate when parents scream at eachother in front of their kids. especially little ones, it makes me so sad. and angry. the worse is when they fight on christmas though, thats just...... not cool at all. it bothers me alot. i wish my parents could grow up a little bit and mature and stop acting like they know everything going on in my life. noone does. some people know some. but noone will ever know how it feels to be me.. and i dont think anyone would want to. being in my shoes is tiring and lonesome. im stopping now, because my mom is about to yell at me because i know she knows im on when im not supposed to be and she wants to call her mom, and i have to take a shower, and calm myself down and get clothes ready. life isnt so good right now. today was the best day though, i dont know why, i was so happy.. actually i do know why.. ill keep that to myself. ok then. goodbye everyone
-hollee

Current mood: restless.
Current music: Brand New - The No Seatbelt Song.

6th March, 2004. 1:50 pm. my foot is itchy

heylooooo. well im waiting for my loser mom and sisters so we can all bond and go shopping=]. woo! not. ughhhhh. i have to go to like, my great gpas 80..something birthday tonight. god i hate family parties. blah. at least i get ta hang out w/ manda, & i think my 2nd cousins are going to be there too.. and i havent seen them in like 2 years? so yeah. anyway. hmm. nothing to say........ well. i guess i should just go then. mmmmmk.. bye now.
-holleee.

Current mood: irritated.
Current music: TBS - Timberwolves At NJ.

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2nd May, 2004. 3:34 pm. ghiksdhgrdfg.

hi there, i havent been online in forevernissfer because my evil stepfather. mike.. dissconected my comp. anyway. nothing new happened. no need to even be on here. nothing to tellllllllll. so boredd.. ahh patrick fugit! SEXY! hes the 4th most hottest guy ever. well im done. goodbye =].




- hollissnessfer.

Current mood: bored.
Current music: none.
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