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Subject:	yuck
Time:	10:32 am.
Mood:	hung over.

i just got home from ... guess where? the Fairview hospital. oh joy and elation. i went to the doctor ((different than hospital)) because ive been feeling so bad ((yesterday)). they gave me an IV and fluids. and a shot in my arm ((thats 2 needle holes)). after the IV was done they took my blood. something that was supposed to be around 12 was at 7.7 so they took some from my other arm ((4 needle holes now)). it was 8.2. they put another IV in my other hand and we get sent to the hospital. i basically sit around untill my pizza came. they had this "teen" room where they had internet and a fender guitar ((i couldnt play it worth jackshit)) i talked to andy, reesie and lila. my pizza came. the pizza people actually delivered to the room. i ate some pizza. they come in with my blood. ((i got a transfusion)). they also gave me some benadryl to help prevent allergic reactions. this made me feel all tickle-y and i couldnt get comfortable. i found out that i have a blood type of O-. the universal donor. its the stuff they give to babies when they dont have enough blood and dont have the time to type the baby. they problem with this tho, is that i can only get O- blood. they also took some blood to find out my type((6 needle holes)). i alternated between half-awake and half-asleep the whole night. it sucked butt. when i was finally done with the transfusion ((i got two bags of blood)) they took ONE MORE blood test. i was up to 10 for that gauge thingy. which is still low but not too bad. i got up, had some cherrios, swallowed... 10 pills and was able to leave the hospital. so i got home, took a shower and got online.
-Amy-

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Subject:	hungover from benadryl
Time:	8:29 pm.
Mood:	blah.
Music:	Better of Two Evils - Marilyn Manson.

i went and saw a movie with my "friends".of course they didnt tell me that we changed where we were meeting so i sat by myself of course outside of the movie place for an hour. but i guess that they dont care. when they finally came they pretended to care. but i could tell they didnt by the way they didnt even ask where i was last night. ((a bunch of these "friends" had a big end of school sleep over))

i only came so i could see kyle once more before i go on the ship from hell. during the movie i started to feel really shitty and fell asleep on kyle's shoulder. it was nice. like nothing had happened. when i woke up because he was laughing at the movie, i honestly thought that everything was alright again. then the movie ended and so did my happiness.

none of my friends could even tell that we broke up. amber was the only one who knew. because she was there... at least i got a hug. god i miss him. kyle and james walked over to kyles grandmas to get a ride home, she wasnt there or something. so i ended up giving him one. but then when he got out of the car i went after him. i dunno. i feel so lost. i keep thinking im gonna wake up and none of this happened.

the really sad thing about the cruise is that i have no one to write postcards to. not like anyone would care. heh. i have an idea.

i feel... like that icky feeling you get inside when youre not sure whats going on, but youre pretty sure its not good. maybe there'll be some people on the cruise that i can talk to. i doubt it. i dont get along with people ive just met very well... but i do look dead sex-ay in my swinsuit ;) heh.

the only entirely good thing that happened today is that dad bought a old keyboard for $10. now i can make happy techno... or whatever i want to make :] ill be back on like... sunday next week. i have to leave at 400AM tomorrow, so this is basically my bye-bye thingy. if anyone wants to email me, i might be able to check my email some time thru the trip... firefly3456@cs.com bye-sie bye-sie

-Amy-

Stuff for kyle:
*when can i fall asleep on you again? :)
*email me yur new name thingy
*i still need a decent hug
*even if you dont miss me, im gonna miss you
*and as of tonight, i am offically late

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