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before school:: people took pictures, i felt left out because i didnt have a camera. kyle ignores my presence. ((not unusual anyways)) 1st hour:: science final and i made up the acids and bases quiz 2nd hour:: on the way there, kyle talks to me, but he doesnt let his creepy frined leave. i start to suspect something is up 3rd hour:: we had no school related stuff at all. everyone ((me, amber, jessi, andy and kyle)) were all sitting in the back and talking. jessi::((points to kyles burns)) why do you do that? me:: for attention kyle:: its because im fucked up! i have fifty people that will agree with me when i say that im fucked up jessi:: by saying that youre fucked up and wanting people to think that, you really arent. silent agreement. jessi passes kyle a note, they whisper for a while, jessi passes it to me, its says "are you two still together" me::i dont know kyle:: ((loudly)) im willing to be friends with you, nothing more. i wont fuck you, i dont fuck andy. ((his pathetic attempt to be funny)) i was really pissed because he should of told me first, in private first, rather than announcing it to the whole class. and the whole fucking thing. that was too loud. and i was sad because it was just like.. what the fuck? after english:: i walk over to kyle: me::Why didnt you tell me first???? kyle:: because you were gone and i didnt know how you would react. --not only did that not make any sense, but its just stupid-- bus ride home:: my eyes keep watering and shit. i keep noticing scott vadnis looking at me. before his stop ((he gets off one before me)) a train gets stalled at the train tracks, after sitting for a minute i say "scott, you wanna walk?" he goes "sure" so after the train does some weird thing we start walking. it was really cool because we talked. and he kept trying to start the conversation. i guess im not used to talking-talking to guys since kyle. i dont remeber any time we ever talked-talked. heres some of the conversation, i remeber it cause its the first time ive talked to a guy in a long time. you know what i mean him: its really nice out me: yeah, it is him: im glad its not raining... of course now that i said that, its going to we laugh ...pause... him: did you have any finals today? me: science and civics, u? him: ((i dont remeber what he said)) ...pause... him: any summer plans? me: not really, u? him: im going to florida me: i hate you laugh me:"but i am starting bass in a few weeks" him"four or five string?" me"four" him "awesome, i play guitar" me "i know, i did the spotlights for the variety show" him:"cool" we just kept talking and when ever i didnt have anything to say, hed re-start the conversation. it was awesome. about 1/3 of the way to his house the bus gets past the train, and we get back on. then when he got off we said see ya and it was really cool. i mean. wow. and after that, i wasnt sad or mad at kyle or anything. -Amy- |
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peaceful.