what an effing ass. i don't exactly hate him, i'm just really pissed off. "i'm not looking for a relationship." good for you. i don't care. "i'd be a bad boyfriend...i'm a huge flirt and don't mean anything by it." so i'm not funny, or pretty, or NOT A WHORE. thanks for the brutal honesty there, pal. "when i want a relationship, i'll call you." thanks for putting me on your waiting list. i feel extremely priviledged.
assface. i want to glue your face to your ass so then you will literally be an assface. god. shit like this makes me wonder whether it was worth getting out of bed this morning.
i am so unbelievably bored. && also grounded until thursday.
i told my dad to "stop fucking comparing me to heather because i'm not going to turn out that way!" except i screamed it. && said the "efff word" hahaha. so ya bored out of my mind.
stuck here until 4 and then i gotta go to work. which sucks even more because my pedophile is there. he's so creepy. he told my friend that she was a "hot and sexy Mamisista"
how awkward.
hmmm... canada day! yay! jamie lee, her friends, justine {{maybe}}, me && samer (♥){{maybe}} are going to the canada day show. i'd invite my friends but they all went up to jocelyn's cottage. holly didn't. i'll call holly later then.
my dad is pyscho. he's so paranoid of me taking the bus that he's making me take a cab to work. a cab as a substitution of a 25 minute bus ride. to my work. in broad daylight. ok i can understand on fridays when i'm working until 11:15. then i'll take a cab but on a tuesday. at 3. in the afternoon. in june. && it's annoyingly hott. && so NOBODY WANTS TO BE ON THE BUS. god. paranoid fathers make me paranoid about society.
my mom got a job for the week. at my not real uncle's store. selling running shoes && running gear to all the aspiring runners. she's like "it's only the first day && i already hate it. i'm so bored" && that just made me think of my wonderful job. aww. lol.
blargus i'm waiting for samer to call. && tell me that he's going to the canada day thing. because i want to give him his birrday present. (which i got yesterday..shh...his birthday was in may.) if he doesn't call me by tomorrow night then i'm calling him thursday && i will cry over the phone just to make him come=) he's a sheltered child. his parents don't let him out of the house that often. i promised him he wouldn't get kidnapped. && that he should come. because he's not going to see the wonderful me until september. because he got no summer hours && if he doesn't leave the house that often then i guess he won't see me that often stupid idiot.
well that's about it. i'm going back to school on thursday to pick up my report card. rad. let's hope i passed. ♥ sharon
-i've been listening to the latest fall out boy cd religiously. -my dad takes no credit for raising me [partically because he didn't and partically because he doesn't want to take any credit for raising a bad kid, of which i am NOT! i don't do all the shit that my sister does...and then he goes and compares me to her. god. what a fuck face. i'm not just pissed off. i'm offended] -i called samer=) and i asked him to go to this canada day thing at city hall...ill scarlett is playing..should be fun. -went to work yesterday. had to stay an extra 20 minutes because some stupid fucks decided to take their good sweet time. -going to work tomorrow -i gotta call samer sometime today and tell him all the details and what not.
wow. this week flew by. it was pretty boring. i had my exams. i slept. i tanned. i ate. i went to work. and that's about it. nothing too special.
i spent my friday night at home with my mom watching benny and joon. i forgot how wonderful my mom is. sometimes we may have our fights...but in the end she's the only mom i got so i'm glad that it's her.
i'm debating on calling samer and asking him to go to the canada day thing at city hall. it should be funn! i haveta go! i mean...ya...i'm working that day...but at 5!!! the thing like opens at 10. so that's how many hours to hang out! plus i feel bad i haven't given him his birthday present=(
so to call or not to. this pisses me off.. i think i should but i shouldn't.. bah humbug.
lalalala *singing* i kissed samer i kissed samer i kissed samer i kissed samer *continued singing* lalalala
*sigh*. i know i know i feel like sucha slut. every time i type in this thing it's usually about a guy that i've made out with and how that happened and blah blah blah. and this is how i officially became an idiot .....and this is me not caring=)
but this time it's different.....i swear
samer is adorable. i've liked him since january (shh.) and i've always thought he liked me..he always talks to me and flirts...apparently he's like that with everyone so i decided to, you know, shove my feelings away and hopefully they'd never return. until he starts being OOOOOBER sweet. -he kissed me on the hand when he saw me. -then we were having a little war and he SHOVED me in the equipment room [fyi..he works at a pool..what dirty skank i am.] and he just kisses me. right there. -then i was at work and i was on my break and as he was leaving he kissed me on the cheek and looked me in the eyes and omg my heart just melted. *sigh*
You're the only thing that I love It scares me more every day On my knees I think clearer Goodness knows I saw it coming Or at least I'll claim I did But in truth I'm lost for words
anywho. ya that's my saturday. for the rest of it justine was making fun of how much i ADORED this boy. and she likes a boy who eats soup and polish dumplings everyday at 3 o'clock. [and i'm not joking]
01. What is the hardest subject in school for you? science 02. Have you ever tried sushi and do you like it? yes and i hated it....it's gross=P. 03. Which show is funnier-That 70s Show or Friends? friends 04. Did you ever get a makeover? uhmm...i've certainly changed but i wouldn't classify it as a makeover...but i do need one BADLY 05. How much did your last haircut cost? like $20 because it wasn't really a hair cut..lol.
Have you ever... 06. Said "I hope you die" to someone: Of course. 07. Tried to kill yourself: Yeah. 08. Gotten in a fist fight: yes 09. Lied to your parents: Everyone has! 10. Lied to your friends : Sad, but yes. 11. Gotten drunk: Damn right! 12. Gotten totally wasted: nope...people might say so but i classify wasted as "puking out of my mind." and i haven't done that=P 13. Given someone a bruise: lmao yaaaa! 14. Freak danced: What the...? 15. Cut yourself: Yeah. 16. Skipped school: heck ya...do it a lot too..my mommy hates it 17. Hung up on someone: Yeah. 18. Gone commando: yuppp. 19. Thrown up at school: surprisingly no.
GIRL TALK 01. Do you stuff your bra? Nope. 02. Have you ever stuffed your bra? Psst. Nope. 03. What make up do you wear daily? eyeliner, mascara, lip glosss* 04. What are your underwear like right now? they're underwear that cover my whole ass. 05. How many pairs of shoes do you own? like 3 [shut up holly=P] 06. Come on tell the truth. Is that really your true hair color? nope...my true hair colour is like a light brown//dirrty blonde. 07. What do you most like about your body? uhmm...my eyes? 08. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking? pssssht! heck no! i'm ugly as all hell=P 09. Do you look like any celebrities? people say that my eyes are like Jennifer Aniston's...but i don't see it. 10. Do you like a man with muscles or not? i like guys who have developing muscles..i think it's cuuute 11. Tall or short men? Taller than me. 12. Does your dream guy have long or short hair? i like short spikey hair..it'd be awkward to me if their hair was longer then mine. 13. And his hair color would be? brown.. 14. Whos the lucky man right now..if there is one? pssht no one! and even if i did have a boyfriend..i don't think he'd be all that lucky. 15. If not who are you crushing on? brennan...but he hasn't talked to me and i assume he never will sooooooooo. 16. Does he know about it? if he doesn't he's pretty stupid. 14. So whats the hair situation with you? Short, blonde. that's the just of it. 15. How long is your leg hair? it's starting to grow pretty long...ewwww..hairy. 16. Ever come close to having sex but didn't? Yes. 17. Are your eyebrows a different color from your hair? Yes. 18. Do you pluck your eyebrows? Sometimes. I'm really lazy. 19. Are you on birth control? nope 20. Can you dance? Nope. 21. Can you lick your nipple? pssht no..i have the smallest boobies everrrr 22. Do you struggle with self-esteem? Yeah. 23. Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder? Not that I'm aware of. 24. Future daughters/sons names? Daughter- Molly; Son- Jesus 25. Do your underwear and bras usually match? Nope. but i do have a matching bra and panties! that makes me happy.
THE PAST 01. Any good memories from this year? when i got hit by a brick...morgan's party (minus the nick)...bread and honey...meeting brennan...getting over ben 02. Any bad memories from this year? ben. any assholes i've dated (except tim because he's just cool). getting hit by a brick. french. science. 03. Do you regret anything from this year? uhm....don't think so... 04. Do you regret anything you've ever done? Nope. 05. Who was your first real crush? I have no idea. 06. Did you ever have braces? Yeah. but i got them off on tuesday!!=D 07. What is your best childhood memory? Disney Land when I was 5 08. Have the same friends from when you were 7? Yeah. 09. What color hair did you have as a kid? i had like red hair as a baby....and then somewhere down the road it went blonde...POOF! 10. What does your name mean? Sharon? 'a plain flat area.'...wow...sounds like my boobs! lol.
THE PRESENT 01. Current Music: living in dreams by weezer 02. Current CD in player: blue album-weezer 03. Current conversations: none...i'm a technological loser and have no form of instant messaging on my computer. 04. Current time: 9:53 pm 05. Current clothes: my pajamas...how cool. 06. Current hair: flat. 07. Current taste: sea salt and lime chips. 08. Current mood: pissed off and bitter 09. Current smell: dog. 10. Current thing you should be doing: Homework. 11. Current desktop picture: a cute picture of my dogs last summer that i adore. it makes me smile =) 12. Current favorite group: weezer! =w= 13. Current book: my history textbook 14. Current refreshment: diet pepsi 15. Current worry: why the fuck isn't he calling me?? what did i do? what the hell did i say? I HATE BOYS. 16. Current crush: brennan.
i am quite bored as i wait for brennan to email me. uhm...i've been constantly checking my email since THURSDAY and i believe that i am slowly, yet surely, going insane.
i wanna be the girl who he'll call back. i wanna be the girl who oozes confidence. i wanna be the girl that all the boys swoon over. i wanna be the girl that has all the boys hanging off of every word i say. i wanna be that girl sad to say that i'm not
brennan finally emailed me=) and he asked me if i wanted to do something on saturday. . . . FUCK YA! and today people were like 'ok...the second time you met him you made out with him...be careful' ahw...people look out for me=) ♥ j'adore! ♥ but i didn't make out with him because i wanted to [pssht..ya i did!] but morgan shoved our faces together SO...i was forced [but i still enjoyed it=)] anywho..i gotta go work on a history project that's due monday... shit. ♥ sharo!
i am so scared that i'm going to see brendan again. unexpectedly. and i'll look like shit [more so.]
ugh. but he has a tendency to appear on my most ugly days. for example...jess's party...i attempted to spike my hair but couldnt and didn't have time to wash all the gel out of my hair thus making it all stiff and unmovable. but he said he liked my hair.
exhibit b. bread and honey festival. i was wearing a kiss shirt and ripped jeans. my hair was a mess from the wind. my make up was running and i had zits all over my forehead. ew. but he said i was beautiful.
cory: i haven't been together with topanga for twenty-two years, but we have been together for sixteen. 'kay, that's a lot longer than most couples have been together. i mean, when we were born, you told me that we used to take walks in our strollers together in the park. when we were two, we were best friends, i mean, i, i knew everything about this girl. i knew her favorite color. i knew her favorite food. then we became six, you know, and eric made fun of me because it wasn't cool to have a best friend that was a girl or even know a girl, so for the next seven years i threw dirt at her. i like to call those "the lost years". then when i was thirteen, mom, she put me up against my locker and she kissed me. i mean, she gave me my first kiss. she taught me how to dance. she was always talking about these crazy things and i never understood a word she said. all i understood was that she was the girl i sat up every night thinking about, and when i'm with her i feel happy to be alive. -Boy Meets World
Section 1 Hair color?: blondish brown Eye color?: blue Height?: taller than me Six pack?: a developing six pack=) Long hair or short?: short...it'd be awkward to date a guy who's hair is longer than mine=S Glasses?: nah Eyebrows?: there should be two of them. Big butt or little?: little Chest hair?: no Buff or skinny?: skinny! Teeth?: PERRRFECT
Section 2 Funny or serious?: funny Party-hopper or more stay-at-home?: party-hopper Should he be able to bake or cook?: bake...i like my deserts=) Does he have a best friend?: ya Is it okay for him to have a lot of female friends?: it's ok...as long as they're not prettier than me=P Out-going or shy?: out going Does he love his mother?: ya Should he watch chick-flicks?: nah Would he be a smoker?: nah How about a drinking?: sometimes And swearing?: casual is okay...not like a "truck driver on crack" (lol..i stole that from holly) Would he play with your hair?: sure Would he have more than one girlfriend at a time?: no Would he pay for you when you're on a date?: we'd 50-50 it...it'd be nicer that way cuz then he's not broke and i don't feel bad because he paid for the whole thing Does he kiss on the first date?: ya Where would you go for dinner?: somewhere not exactly classy...but not somewhere like mcdonalds...something in the middle Would he buy you flowers?: yessss! i'm a hopeless romantic! i love that shit!! Would he lay under the stars with you?: ya Would he write poetry about you?: that'd be adorable...i don't think he'd be able to accomplish it though... Would he hang out with you and YOUR friends?: ya
Section 3 Does he play soccer?: sure Baseball?: nah Football?: yup Basketball?: yup Water polo?: nah Does he surf?: THAT'D BE AWESOME...cuz then he could teach me=) Skateboard?: nah Snowboard?: ya Can he sing?: hah..no Play the guitar?: ya...that'd be exciting Play piano?: nah Play the drums?: ya Can he keep his room clean?: pssht no Is he an artist of sorts?: ya Does he write his own music?: ya Does he have pets?: ya
Section 4 Does he use the word dude?: nah How about tight?: nah Would he watch the sun rise and set with you?: ya What kind of car does he drive?: one that works? How old is he?: a month and a half older than me What's his name?: [- - - brendan - - -]
weezer-my best friend When everything is wrong I'll come talk to you You make things alright when I'm feeling blue
You are such a blessing and I wont be messing with the one thing that brings light to all of my darkness
You are my best friend and I love you, and I love you Yes I do
There is no other one that can take your place I feel happy inside when I see your face I hope you believe me Because I speak sincerely and I mean it when I tell you I need you
You are my best friend and I love you, and I love you Yes I do
I'm here right beside you I will never leave you and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying
You are my best friend and I love you, and I love you Yes I do
You are my best friend and I love you, and I love you Yes I do Yes I do... Yes I do
Moving forward using all my breath Making love to you was never second best I saw the world thrashing all around your face Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace I'll stop the world and melt with you You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time There's nothing you and I won't do I'll stop the world and melt with you Dream of better lives the kind which never hate Dropped in the state of imaginary grace I made a pilgrimage to save this human race Never comprehending a race that long gone by I'll stop the world and melt with you You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time There's nothing you and I won't do I'll stop the world and melt with you The future's open wide I'll stop the world and melt with you I've seen some changes but it's getting better all the time There's nothing you and I won't do I'll stop the world and melt with you ♥♥♥♥♥♥
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