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what up yo..so its been a while. These weeks have been good. Last Friday did something really random..went to skateaway with a huge group of people and had a kick ass fucking time. All the skateaway "REGULARS" hated us tho...i think we were interferring in there comfort zone..they prob go there to get away from people like us hahaha but it was all in good fun..<3 Saturday mere let me drive all day..which was cool. Went to megz that nite mommy was away;) only big papa T was there. alek colin eric nick and sameer came by they were all amused by megz house haha its amusing thats why. Then Shawn came over yay i missed my bro<3 We went down to the spot in the basement and big papa t came down and said "if u guys r thinking of smoking any reefur down here u better invite me" so we did just that. Had a grand ol' time after that. The boyz minus shawn bounced later and then kels<3 and laur<3 came over to join our fun, then so did jon :-) we all had sum more fun. Then the girls peaced :( and then so did shawn. Then there were three<3 me meg<3 and jon<3 had SO much fun rest of the nite i dont even know what we did but we laughed a fucking lot i love them both were all such stupid stoners we do the dumbest shit and have way to much fun with it. We ate pizza and got sick...started watching some freaky movie..then..passed out. *Great weekend let me tell you* This passed week went fast, took a day off on tuesday cuz i wanted to. Friday got picked up really early and *dezalb* before school..WOW haha had the best day ever. Went to coinstar with kels and alek after school. Later, kels picked up me meg and laur and we *dezalb* and went to see our darling friends in M*A*S*H wow..haha it was good. It was geekin me out at first seeing liek everyone i know on stage acting i dont know lol its been awhile since i've been to a play. But it was fun margot and franny were hilarious<3 Me and meg went back to my house and played video games and ate popcorn and eminems. Passed out so early. Woke up and watched SUPER SIZE ME...never ever ever ever ever am i eating mcdonalds ever ever ever ever ever again ew ew ew ew. Went to my dads drove with mere again, took a trip to the old neighbor hood to see JEN!!! Spent the rest of the afternoon with her, she dropped me off to babysit and i chilled all nite there. Got some good news from someone which made me very happy <3 Then around 11:45 finally got to megz chilled then *dezalb* had some fun with it as usual took realllly funny pictures laughed at shit. Got reallllly geeked out by jay and silent bob. Then passed out haha..what burn outs..i love it<3
[its that time of year..]
rip..cbl..11/21
-out love-
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[31 Oct 2004|11:03am] |
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What up! Green Day on friday was fucking AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Best fuckin concert ever, yeah i know i say that every time but this time its for real for real for real. Me n' Laur were so fuckin close. We werent on the floor :( but we were RIGHT next to the stage 5th row back. It was freakin awesome, we were so close i could see billy joe's teeth haha!!! They opened with american idiot and played like almost the whole american idiot cd in order which was awesome cuz that cd is just over the top amazing!! They played ALL my favorite old shit i was so happy. They closed with Good Riddance..sad :( reminded me and laur of mark who comes home in 21 days i mite add!!!!! I'm so fuckin pissed that its over and i cant look forward to it anymore but it fuckin rocked and i'm overly obsessed with green day once again, but hey its all in good fun!!!!
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wat up! wow this feels weird..havent had a blurty since like two years ago. But its true wat they say xanga is over rated so i thot i might as well come back to this because, well i always did like it better.
anyway..still grounded from my baller ass party two weeks ago..haha sooo worth it tho. This passed week had its ups and downs. Mostly its up's becuase of a certain baseball team i love making it to the world series for the first time in eighteen years. <3red sox my home team<3 i stayed up late every night and watched the games, stressed me out to an extent but i had so much fun. I got so many people into to. lauren amanda kelsey and megan are newly born red sox fans haha..they really dont know what they've gotten themselves into..but they came at the righ time i guess. World Series 04 here we come. Watching the sox crush the yankees during game seven was just so rewarding after all the years i've been through being a dissapointed red sox fan. Watching them do good, then right when you think nothing could go wrong..they put in martinez to pitch or something and they dissapoint you once again, being killed by the yankees. HA but those days r over.
Other things this week werent as rewarding as baseball..stuff i dont really want to talk about :( i wish it didnt hurt liek this, i feel like a pathetic fucking asshole its not like im in love with him or anything..why am i so upset about this bullshit? I'm not the kind of person to let this shit get me SO down as it has this week but uh i am now i guess!? Whatever..my veiws were really positive as to what could happen but it was all bullshit cuz once again i'm not good enough. At least thats the way i feel..its not like he knows the way i feel so i shouldnt be saying that. But fuck it all, im freakin done with love and lust and everything that comes along with it.. now all I have to do is get him outta my head..this shouldnt b to hard..i hope..wat to do about the frienship is undecided..
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