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This blurty is so dear to me becuase it's a chronicle of a strange, strange period in my life. A period laden with self-invented melodrama, giggling, and stormy fits of displeasure. A period that I believe is drawing to it's inevitable close.
I began my adventure in blogging on June 22, 2003. To quote, I said, "I'm new at this, so bear with me". I babbled, used those little internet smiley faces, and copious amounts of exclamation points. (Where did all that enthusiasm go, by the way?)
Now, on November 28, 2004, all of this seems as if it was composed by another person. Though it's been little more than a year, it feels like an eternity. I've amassed experience in this time. My beliefs, while not radically changed, have modified themselves in some way.
I feel strangely about change. Because I always have been the person you see now, but in previous years this person was buried under facades and stifled, not free to express itself. So I think evolved seems to be more of an appropriate term for the process. Perhaps other people change, but I'd like to call it evolution. (Because I love euphemisms)
So here I am, the new (and slightly improved?) Kate Noyes. (Strangely enough, the 'new and improved' Kate Noyes is neither new, nor improved. Rather she's been gifted with a new coat of paint.)
And I'll be seventeen on Wednesday. I suppose I'll continue to scribble my faux-epiphanies and crazed ramblings in here for yet another year. It's not as if I have anything better to do.
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