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[07 Aug 2004|02:17pm]
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | True life-Im on adderall, reminds me of my sister ]

Im home finally, the ride was really not that bad, i slept a little bit in the car and they all came to my house to watch me and corey play ddr. It was cute. Im on this spiffy new laptop that we just got and i hope to God that Artie gives it to me like he is thinking about because i am madly in love with it right now. The only thing is that until it is actually mine (IF it becomes mine) i am not allowed to download ANYTHING so that means that i have to use aim express which annoys the crap out of me but whatever. I cant wait to go to the city with Lisa again!! I hope she comes home tommorow. Artie is going to LA again next week i think for a few days which is nice...its not that i dislike him its just that we get to do anything we want when hes not here. I think im going to change my blurty name....dont worry, ill let you know what i change it to. Putting the friends only thing on is just not working for some reason and i hope that you like my new colors...i dont know, it took me like two hours to decide. I am so hungry, i havent eaten since like 7 this morning and i am dreading cleaning my room, i wish all my clothes were just dirty so that i didnt have to put them away.

i wish everything could just be like it used to, right now we would be at acme or hair ave or the restaurant pretending to drink out of our paper bag that actually just has iced tea in it. ='(...its devistating really.

does anyone know why it has been so cold lately??? I am currently wearing a sweatshirt and sweatpants and the AC is not even on.

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[06 Aug 2004|08:24pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Nelly & Jaheim, My place ]

omg.....CRAZY DAY!!!! The Tracy problems are endless!! I wish she never started the whole thing with Mazz, thats the root of all of this crap that is going on right now, things would be the same if she didnt do that. Sat at new china forever again today. It was actually really enjoyable this time though. This Leo kid is hilarious with all of his stories about all of his women and what he does with them...it was so entertaining. Much better than being here, especially during this fiasco. Tommorow we are leaving at about 7 in the morning, ugh....this is going to suck. Its weird because i want to go home really bad but like for some reason, i want to stay. I dont know..its very strange. Maybe because like if i was here for longer i would be able to do more, except we would be at that beach house until next sunday.

This trip was not a total failure though....I got to see Emily, twice and we did all our old stuff, I got to see Eddy even though he was around all his friends so hes like too cool for school there and i went to hang out with the chinese people which was boring at times but better than here, also i got to go to a great beach house but besides that it sucked...except for dancing with christopher and teaching katie funny spanish dances.

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[05 Aug 2004|10:11pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | 25 Horas. ]

Last night sucked like i knew it would. But like even more. The power went out at like 8 so we had nothing to do for the whole night...we went to bed atl like 9 and i hated it soo much you dont even understand then my dad was sleeping at 1 when sherri called him (probably tired from a wild night) and so he didnt pick us up until almost 5...and i just wanted to come home. I didnt really do anything on this trip too much, the only thing that i did that was worth anything at all was to see emily at the nail place and yesterday, the day that i spent with her. The rest of it pretty much sucked. Except for some of the beach house but I am like losing sleep because of this stupid sunburn which by the way has faded away into this insane tan and is peeling as we speak (its better than bubbling like yesterday) I just cannot wait to get home on saturday. Tracy is coming back which is good. I wish she would move into collingdale at least so i could walk to see emily which i knew she would let me do and OMG katie just said the cutest/saddest thing EVER, she goes "i wish i had my mom back...i really miss her soo much" im about to cry!!!!! This whole thing is just so horrible but luckily its only one year because next year i will not be trapped in my fathers house, things will be different. I might even be living around here somewhere by this time next year. Who knows. I know that in New Milford i dont even care that i dont have my liscense because I have enough people to drive me around to where i want to be, even my mom will like take her lunch break to drive me somewhere but still like i can go to the places i want to when i want to get there but while i am here, not being able to drive really puts a damper on my entire life...at least im not in Media..ugh. Im going to go because at the moment not even my salsa can cheer me up ='(

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[04 Aug 2004|08:04pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | nothing at all ]

I SAW EMILY TODAY!!!!!
oh man it was so exciting we did all of our old things and sitting on the steps was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo sad!!!! I wanted to bust in the house so badly, i want everything back soo much you do not even understand. My dad says that i do not know what it is to "want" but that statment couldnt be more wrong. I want sooooo bad just for things to be the way that they used to be. I want that. And i want it really bad. I wouldnt be trapped here in sherris freaking house all night right now. What i want is to have my house back, to have emily right next door and eddy across the street, i want right now to be sitting on the couch watching something totally stupid on tv with emily and later going over eddys if shes not allowed to sleep over. So i definetley do know what it is to want becuase right now i want more than anyone even knows.

Away message:
When i first found out about it, i didnt really understand what it meant, i didnt know it would be summer days made boring and summer nights ruined. I did not know that the life i had been used to for 8 years would have to be completley forgotten. I miss that time and everything about it.





It is a sure thing that I am not coming back until i can drive. For real.



By the way i am compltley "blistered" from my sunburn....its disgusting.

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[04 Aug 2004|12:32am]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | tuya soy ]

AHHHH my dad went to NY for a job so i didnt get to talk to him but i will talk to him in the morning when i get up and i will be spending the day with emily tommrow hopefully.

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[03 Aug 2004|03:39pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]
[ music | Britney Spears for Katie ]

I am so bored. The boys are gone (we left them with Sherri at McDonalds) and its soooo boring here. I think i have to sleep over mike and sherris tommorow which i most definetley do NOT want to do. Its just so he can be with donna all night undisturbed or whatever. They can just go somewhere else, i am capable of being here by myslef. I would actually PREFER that since i could "take a walk" and meet emily somewhere, i would even walk all the way to Eddys just to see you guys if i had enough time alone here. My dad didnt let me and Al go to the restaurant today..i think he knows somethings upbecause i asked him and he was like "why dont we go to mcdonalds and we can get some conditioner at acme" and i was just like OH GOD! when we were in mcdonalds alex goes "alyssa, vern thinks youre hot" and then vern goen "dude, mike already told her" what is with this kid?!?!?!? I want to go out sooo bad I just want to get out of this stupid apartment. I think we are going to putt-putt tonight with Donna and CJ and maybe that ridiculous kid Jeff. That should be interesting, (not my idea of a good tim) hahaha it might be good fun though seeing as none of these people know about me and mini-golfing, my mother would never in a million years take me mini-golfing, i need some serious mini-golf therapy because i get so pissed i start like yelling and throwing things and stuff like that, i guess my father needs to learn sometime. But yeah, i would really like to hang out with someone that i wanted to hang out with *a-hem* EMILY!!! or.......EDDY but nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo i have to hang out with these stupid people. My dad asked me the other day if i was planning on going home right away when we got to connecticut and asked me if i wanted to keep cj company because he will get bored......SO?!?!?!? why is this my problem. Im bored absolutley to DEATH right here and all my dad has to do for me is take a 2 minute drive to collingdale but do i even get that????? NOOOO...so why should i waste my DDR time hanging out with this kid?!?!?! Hes welcome to come to my house if he wants to be entertained there but as far as me staying in stupid boring ridgefield with him...thats not happening.

Man i wrote a lot in here, im going to go do something....like dwell on my sorrow for instance

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[03 Aug 2004|01:58am]
[ mood | TRAUMATIZED ]
[ music | the tv is blasting (and everyone is sleeping) ]

The beach house was fun, it was really nice and i got some really nice stuff down there. Tad has completley changed but had a strange dream about me which was a little odd. We didnt go out on the boat because the weather was not the best. Michael, Alex and Tad or "Vern" are sleeping over. Everyone is sleeping except for me. I saw the most horrifying thing of my life onilne today and i cannot sleep at the moment plus i swear i just heard someone in this house yelling so i had enough, every single light in the house is on plus the t.v., i feel a little better. Tommorow we are going to walk to the restaurant if my dad lets us. And if he says no my line is going to be "well, we were planning on meeting emily down there and i didnt think that you wanted to be a part of that but if you do then you can drive us if you dont want us walking" Man oh man thats gonna be a long walk though but itll be worth it if i can see emily and hang out for more than 2 minutes....maybe he will pick us up but i doubt it. I hope the weather is nice. Im sooo glad that someone is online for me to talk to because i was really freaking out, i was about to call my mom. Im gonna go do some non-traumatizing computer fun!!!

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Boring day as you can tell. [30 Jul 2004|01:34pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | Twista & R. Kelly - So sexy ]

also, I have been noticing as Katie grows up how much alike we both are. We are both totally restless and cannot sit still or pay attention to anything, we both love to sing and dance even if its something like stupid and silly and sometimes we even like the same boys (Justin Timberlake, Captian Jack Sparrow, etc.) It was so funny last night at the movies, we were next to each other and we were doing the exact same thing like we were moving around like crazy and even singing little songs (i dont know why i do that, even if I love the movie, theres always a point where i get totally bored and restless) but its just funny that she was doing it too since people are always saying things about me doing that.




by the way, i LOVE iced tea from wawa. Drinking it makes me so happy!!!!

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I love this song and I love the dance just as much [30 Jul 2004|12:47pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Mueve la colita ]

Everyone in the world needs to know this dane...it is just too much.


Arriba caballero!!
Todo le mundo a la pista,
que llegaron los locos pa' poner esto sabroso!!
No quiero a nadie sentado, arriba todo el mundo de pie...

Todos preparados, vamos a bailar,
todos a la pista y vamos a gozar..

Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*

Bueno mi gente llegó la hora de bailar,
comenzamos suavecito con la manooooo..
pa'lante, pa'lante, pa'rriba, pa'rriba, de nuevo!!
pa'lante, pa'lante, pa'rriba, pa'rriba, rápido!!
pa'lante, pa'lante, arriba, arriba,
pa'lante, pa'lante, arriba, arriba,
pa'lante, pa'lante, arriba, arriba,
pa'lante, pa'lante, arriba, arriba,

Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*

Okey mi gente ahora continuamos,
pero con los pies para que muevan el esqueleto
Izquierda, derecha, Izquierda, derecha, de nuevo!!
Izquierda, derecha, Izquierda, derecha, rápido!!
Izquierda, derecha, dale, dale,
Izquierda, derecha, dale, dale,
Izquierda, derecha, dale, dale,
Izquierda, derecha, dale, dale,

Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*

Bueno mi gente ya bailaron con las manos y con los pies,
ahora respondame Okey?
A dónde le gusta a las mujeres? Ahí, ahí
Y cómo es que le hacen los hombres? Así, así
A dónde le gusta a las mujeres? Ahí, ahí
Y cómo es que le hacen los hombres? Así, así
A dónde le gusta a las mujeres? Ahí, ahí
Y cómo es que le hacen los hombres? Así, así

Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*

Llegó la hora de bajar,
así que todo el mundo suavecito, suavecito pa'bajo,
pa'bajo, pa'bajo, pa'bajo, ahí suavecito
Ahora relajaditos vamos a mover suavecito que voy pa'rriba, que rico!!
y arriba, arriba, arriba, arribaaaaa

Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*

A dónde le gusta a las mujeres? Ahí, ahí
Y cómo es que le hacen los hombres? Así, así
A dónde le gusta a las mujeres? Ahí, ahí
Y cómo es que le hacen los hombres? Así, así

Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap*
Mueve la colita, mamita rica, mueve la colita.. *clap clap clap*

A dónde le gusta a las mujeres? Ahí, ahí
Y cómo es que le hacen los hombres? Así, así
A dónde le gusta a las mujeres? Ahí, ahí
Y cómo es que le hacen los hombres? Así, así

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[30 Jul 2004|12:25pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Ivy Queen & Sasha - That sexy body (reggaeton) ]

This weekend goes as follows:
Tonight at 4:15, leaving for Mike and Sherrys...going to dinner at around 6
leaving for the beach house
Tommorow and Sunday = beach house (I would love this if it wasnt my ONLY weekend here and if weekends werent pretty much my only chance to get out of here and go anywhere)
Coming home late Sunday night or Monday morning.

I hope next week goes much better than this one did, I hope i get to at least see Eddy for a little while. I was thinking.... 2 of some of the scariest times in my life happened over there, Ping-Ding (nobody can understand the fear we had on that day..from the minute we walked in the door) and the swingset incident, which wasnt really that scary since I am one of the people who actually tipped it but its not like i was expecting it to happen but nonetheless it was probably more frighteneng for someone in the position of Em or Michael or soemthing like that, pretty much anyone that wasnt me or Ho. hahaha i just think of how sad it had to be for Eddy, the poor kid was in the hospital and comes home to a broken swingset. I dont know why ive been thinking about that stuipid swingset so much lately, maybe because it was like one of the funner nights that we had like, Emily was allowed over Eddys, we were all together Ho was totally different, Xin was still a psyco and there was no rapist ho chi. Hahaha, that was a fun night and omg were we scared of what tony and tracy were going to say. I realized that Ho is like the king of that family, hes always doing what he wants, when he wants to do it like not working for instance. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA remember when he was fat??? and they made him run around the block haha, that was back in the "good old days" I miss it soooooooooooooooooooo much except i DO NOT miss Jimmy and Brandon, thats all though.

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[28 Jul 2004|05:05pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | These are my confessions........ ]

So last night, i sat at that stupid restaurant for TWO HOURS!!! Not my idea of a good time. At least i got home on time and hopefull restored some of my fathers faith in me. Donna is sleeping over tonight. ew and.... I SAW EMILY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! even if it was only for a little bit, still. Me and christopher are having a dance party, this is our break. oh and by the way, Carlos is insane, but were not gonna get into that right now because i am having a pretty good day. Maybe these two weeks arent going to suck horribly.... I guess well see. oh and...i miss DDR!!!!!!!! I need to get back to dancing with Chris..hes calling me.

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[27 Jul 2004|05:53pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | nada, the tv. ]

AllMightyAlmeida: hey
TitaMaravillosa: Hey
AllMightyAlmeida: i was just wondering about a few things
AllMightyAlmeida: like whats going on with u n justin
AllMightyAlmeida: because im a little in the dark
AllMightyAlmeida: and he wont tell me
AllMightyAlmeida: and im not mad or anything like that
AllMightyAlmeida: so dont htink i am
TitaMaravillosa: ok
AllMightyAlmeida: its just that
AllMightyAlmeida: im coming back
AllMightyAlmeida: to visit
AllMightyAlmeida: and i dont know if i should see him
AllMightyAlmeida: i dont want to mess things up for him.
AllMightyAlmeida: u know
TitaMaravillosa: yeah, but
TitaMaravillosa: weve just been talking and hanging out more
AllMightyAlmeida: yeah
TitaMaravillosa: nothing besides that
AllMightyAlmeida: do u like him>
TitaMaravillosa: not more than a friend
AllMightyAlmeida: mhm
TitaMaravillosa: because i have a lot of things going on with carlos
AllMightyAlmeida: he;ll wait,
AllMightyAlmeida: well at least its you that hes hanging out with and not someone mean or slutty.
AllMightyAlmeida: i mean im glad its you.
AllMightyAlmeida: so ur only friends because of carlos.
AllMightyAlmeida: he didnt tell you anything concerning how he felt about me
TitaMaravillosa: yes, he did
TitaMaravillosa: the reason why were only friends is because of, Carlos, you and the fact that weve always been good as friends, you know
AllMightyAlmeida: to tell u the truth
AllMightyAlmeida: i think it has nothing to do with me
AllMightyAlmeida: and i think hes over me.
AllMightyAlmeida: and i wouldnt know if u have been good friends because
AllMightyAlmeida: even since u have been friends
AllMightyAlmeida: he has liked you.
TitaMaravillosa: i definetley dont think hes over you
TitaMaravillosa: he talks about you a lot
AllMightyAlmeida: if hes not over me when is he moving on so qucikyl.
AllMightyAlmeida: which he is
AllMightyAlmeida: ive been away 3 weeks
AllMightyAlmeida: and hes going out with other girls.
AllMightyAlmeida: hes over it
TitaMaravillosa: i really dont think hes over you though
TitaMaravillosa: he always tells me
TitaMaravillosa: how sad it makes him that you dont have too much to do over there and stuff
AllMightyAlmeida: haha
AllMightyAlmeida: greaaaatt he feels bad for me.
AllMightyAlmeida: just what i want.
AllMightyAlmeida: hes not missing me tho.
TitaMaravillosa: i think he really does miss you
AllMightyAlmeida: cuz he was waiting for me to leave
AllMightyAlmeida: so he could hang with you again
AllMightyAlmeida: i was just like..... a time taker upper you know... like just killing time
AllMightyAlmeida: well either way
AllMightyAlmeida: hes over it more than i am.
AllMightyAlmeida: thats what it comes down to.
TitaMaravillosa: have you talked to him about it at all?
AllMightyAlmeida: about what
TitaMaravillosa: about how he feels about you and everything
AllMightyAlmeida: yeah
AllMightyAlmeida: hes so... iduno
AllMightyAlmeida: confusing
AllMightyAlmeida: and i hate the way he talks to me.
AllMightyAlmeida: like the way he does it
AllMightyAlmeida: like hes disinterested.
AllMightyAlmeida: thats why i know hes over it
AllMightyAlmeida: cuz hes not interested in me anymore
AllMightyAlmeida: i was a time killer
TitaMaravillosa: i dont think you were athat at all
TitaMaravillosa: he has told me some really wonderful things about you
TitaMaravillosa: and he seriousley talks about you a lot
AllMightyAlmeida: whatever
AllMightyAlmeida: then why does he make me feel like this
TitaMaravillosa: maybe when you guys see each other things will change
AllMightyAlmeida: i dont want to see him
AllMightyAlmeida: i have decided
AllMightyAlmeida: he breaks my heart
AllMightyAlmeida: he makes me feel worthless.
AllMightyAlmeida: i dont want to see him.
TitaMaravillosa: i think he would like to see you
AllMightyAlmeida: well if u find out that he does maybe ill go see him but i dont know if i want to because ill just cry
AllMightyAlmeida: im not over him even slightly
AllMightyAlmeida: and that fact that
AllMightyAlmeida: he is over me
AllMightyAlmeida: really makes me feel so sad
TitaMaravillosa: when are you coming to visit?
AllMightyAlmeida: and i just dont know if i could handle seeing him
AllMightyAlmeida: the last week of august
TitaMaravillosa: well would you like me to talk to him about all of this
AllMightyAlmeida: i dont think it would make him feel very good
AllMightyAlmeida: so no.
AllMightyAlmeida: i dont want to interrupt his life by visiting him
TitaMaravillosa: he might like it
TitaMaravillosa: to see you
TitaMaravillosa: i think that he really needs to sort out everything
AllMightyAlmeida: which
AllMightyAlmeida: is why
AllMightyAlmeida: i shouldnt see him.
AllMightyAlmeida: he needs time apart
AllMightyAlmeida: from me
AllMightyAlmeida: ill just get in the way
TitaMaravillosa: by the time you come back though
TitaMaravillosa: he will have had a bunch of time awy
TitaMaravillosa: away*
AllMightyAlmeida: and he'll be over me
AllMightyAlmeida: and i wont be over him which will be soo akward
TitaMaravillosa: does he know that youre not over him
AllMightyAlmeida: i duno
AllMightyAlmeida: i havent said it
AllMightyAlmeida: but the crying might be a clue
TitaMaravillosa: i think he needs to decide what hes going to do
TitaMaravillosa: because
TitaMaravillosa: he cannot just go around and be happy while you are like that
AllMightyAlmeida: what do u mean decide
AllMightyAlmeida: he has been
AllMightyAlmeida: so.
AllMightyAlmeida: he doesnt care
TitaMaravillosa: i know he does
AllMightyAlmeida: i dont know what makes u think that but eveything he says he contradicts with his actions
AllMightyAlmeida: and hes lied to me about going out with girls.
AllMightyAlmeida: and that was lame.
AllMightyAlmeida: not with you
AllMightyAlmeida: mini golfing
AllMightyAlmeida: it was so fucked up.
TitaMaravillosa: yeah
TitaMaravillosa: that is really bad
TitaMaravillosa: he should definetley be telling you the truth about what hes doing
AllMightyAlmeida: i guess
AllMightyAlmeida: he doesnt owe me anything
AllMightyAlmeida: we're broken up
AllMightyAlmeida: and i guess i was easy to get over
AllMightyAlmeida: the fact that he can lie to me
AllMightyAlmeida: just proves it
TitaMaravillosa: when did he lie to you? when he went mini-golfing
TitaMaravillosa: he told you there were no girls?
AllMightyAlmeida: yeah
AllMightyAlmeida: he told me he was going mini golfing with just jonny
TitaMaravillosa: oh really
AllMightyAlmeida: yeah.
AllMightyAlmeida: so u can see why i wouldnt believe him when he tells me things now.
TitaMaravillosa: yeah i understand that
TitaMaravillosa: when you left, did you guys decide that you were going to be together eventually
AllMightyAlmeida: not decided, it was like.... a notion i guess....... cuz his mom was hid dad's first gf
AllMightyAlmeida: and i thought we had something special
AllMightyAlmeida: and i know that i really love him
AllMightyAlmeida: even though he breaks my heart
AllMightyAlmeida: and i dont htink he feels the same
AllMightyAlmeida: or did at all.
AllMightyAlmeida: and it was never decided
AllMightyAlmeida: it was like if we felt the same about eachother next year
AllMightyAlmeida: as we do (did) then we would date again
AllMightyAlmeida: but something tells me that idea is long gone.
AllMightyAlmeida: and that im just a thing of his past
TitaMaravillosa: you two should really talk about taht
TitaMaravillosa: that*
AllMightyAlmeida: i dont know what to say about it
TitaMaravillosa: it would be bad if one of you felt one way and the other felt a different way
AllMightyAlmeida: when i get on the phone with him
AllMightyAlmeida: i alwayz for get
AllMightyAlmeida: what i want to say to him
TitaMaravillosa: you should ask him if there is seriousley a chance of you guys being together
AllMightyAlmeida: why
TitaMaravillosa: and that you need him to be honest
AllMightyAlmeida: to hear him say no?
AllMightyAlmeida: maybe that would be best just ending our contact
TitaMaravillosa: i just think that he needs to let you know whats really going on with his feelings
TitaMaravillosa: if he even knows
AllMightyAlmeida: he knows
AllMightyAlmeida: he wont tell me
AllMightyAlmeida: but i already know.
TitaMaravillosa: he told me that he was extremly confused
TitaMaravillosa: but
TitaMaravillosa: he cannot go on like that
AllMightyAlmeida: like what
TitaMaravillosa: being confused
TitaMaravillosa: because as long as he is confused
AllMightyAlmeida: huh
TitaMaravillosa: then everyone is
AllMightyAlmeida: yeah
TitaMaravillosa: becuase hes in the middle of everything
AllMightyAlmeida: i guess its all about him
AllMightyAlmeida: i think
AllMightyAlmeida: im just going to stop talking to him
AllMightyAlmeida: and stop it all
AllMightyAlmeida: then nobody will be confused.
AllMightyAlmeida: it would just be best.
AllMightyAlmeida: even if its not what he wants
AllMightyAlmeida: because..
AllMightyAlmeida: theres no reason
AllMightyAlmeida: to keep whatever this is going
AllMightyAlmeida: its just so painful
AllMightyAlmeida: and im the only one who feels that way
AllMightyAlmeida: not him.
AllMightyAlmeida: he doesnt feel sad about this at all.
AllMightyAlmeida: which is stupid.
TitaMaravillosa: well thats why im saying he needs to stop being so confused
TitaMaravillosa: becuase it seems like hes torturing you
TitaMaravillosa: and that is very wrong
AllMightyAlmeida: i duno
AllMightyAlmeida: it feels like he is.
AllMightyAlmeida: he wants two things at once.
AllMightyAlmeida: i think.
AllMightyAlmeida: maybe
AllMightyAlmeida: i dont understand why he wants to keep contact with me
TitaMaravillosa: i think its because he still feels something for you
AllMightyAlmeida: well
AllMightyAlmeida: it kills me
AllMightyAlmeida: cuz its just like
AllMightyAlmeida: tearing me apart
TitaMaravillosa: yeah well, he needs to just figure everything out
AllMightyAlmeida: thats not gonna happen if i keep talking to him
AllMightyAlmeida: and go to see him.
TitaMaravillosa: it actually might help him
TitaMaravillosa: becuase he would be able to see you
AllMightyAlmeida: but why wouldthat be good>
TitaMaravillosa: because he would be able to see you
TitaMaravillosa: and you could talk things out face to face


and then i went to go eat dinner.

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[27 Jul 2004|03:26pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | haha actually, my dad is watching grease ]

i have nothing to do, i feel like dying here. Emily, if you see eddy or even anyone chinese...TELL THEM I AM HERE, TELL THEM TO COME SAVE ME AND TO BRING ME TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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what a load of crap!!!!! [26 Jul 2004|10:56pm]
[ mood | discontent ]
[ music | aris monkey thing on AIM ]

alycorlos: there is this gurl
alycorlos: friend of my sister n cousin
alycorlos: n iknew her too from school
alycorlos: n she always goes to da club with my sis n cus
alycorlos: n she was kinda hittin on me on my sis party
alycorlos: n yesterday at my cus party she came too
alycorlos: n i was talkin to her outside
TitaMaravillosa: and
alycorlos: on da deck
alycorlos: n she kinda put meagainst da wall
alycorlos: n kinda tryed to kiss me
alycorlos: but wehn she tried she couldnt cuz i told her dat i had to pee
alycorlos: n then i ran downstairs
alycorlos: u kno how da deck is like next to my moms room
alycorlos: so i ran downstairs n walked into ma house
alycorlos: so i think u should b proud of me

whatever...its not my business anyway what he does.
im bored, i want to see emily, debbie might come around friday, christopher will not go to bed and he has a pen in the pencil sharpener complaining that it is broken and it doesnt work!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA what a funny kid!!!

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[23 Jul 2004|11:16pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | Hey mama ]

the city was very nice today even though it poured rain most of the day. we saw catwoman in this beautiful theater and it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. Ari let me borrow one of her manga books and i am so excited to read it, me and lisa got some cool little japanese dolls to share the clothes of so thats fun. i feel kind of sick right now and im really tired. I keep forgetting the name of my doll, sakura, i need to keep that in mind. I havent spoken to carlos in a good long time and i actually really miss him. Im a little confused, i think i need these 2 weeks away because im not a little confused, im a lot confused. Me and lisa learned a new "clap" today and it was pretty funny. We were singing in spanish sooo loud on the train. And in the car on the way home Justin scared us sooooo bad. We were screaming at the top of our lungs seriousley, he did it like three times.

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[23 Jul 2004|09:17am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | nothing because corey is sleeping ]

i wont be able to write today because i am going into the city with Lisa and I think Justin is going too. Corey is sad because he going to have a whole day without me but he will survive i know. I got up at 8:00 this morning for no reason, first, i got ready really fast and then lisas cousin is not ready so theyre not coming for another hour. its fine though, it does you some good to not just sleep the whole day away. Im gonna go play some games.

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[22 Jul 2004|04:30pm]
[ mood | <-- ? ]
[ music | actually nothing, i can hear coreys videogame downstairs ]

today I got my picures back fom Chrissys surprise party and the party that we had kind of for her and kind of becasue we just wanted to have a party in that awesome house. She left like a half hour after it started anyway, she had to be home because she was leaving the next day. anyway, the pictures are hilarious. Today were going on the boat. Me, my family, Ari and Lisa. SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy that junior isnt going. I havent been talking to him at all latley, ive actually been pretty mean to him. So today corey invites him on the boat and he says hes not going because of me. Thats totally fine with me because hes a stupidass.

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[21 Jul 2004|05:59pm]
i have had a good couple of days, last night i went to play ddr with justin and we played for a little bit and then watched some soccer on the spanish channel (the kid is amazing at soccer and loves anything to do with it) and today i went to Hafids house and i played DDR for most of the time. Im pretty tired from it. Lisa couldnt go though :'( I want to hang out with her and Justin before I leave which i want to do a.s.a.p. Stupid Junior is here, this kid really pissed me off. He goes around telling R.J. and even COREY that i am a slut and that he doesnt want to hang out with me but when i walk past his house and dont say hi he calls me up complaining about it. WELL do you expect me to say hi to you, im surprised he is even able to notice anybody besides himself.


My old entrys make me very upset, like when me and emilys biggest problems were that there was no heat and we had to sleep next to those stupid radiators and we could not finish bad boys 2 any night. We never knew it would end up like this. Im going Monday now i guess, Mike Massad is picking us up. Im excited to see him but i know my stupid sister is going to want to sit in the front which I would prefer to sit in the front and i know that Mike would since i know him a lot better than she does and have spent a lot more time with him and his family. But it will be nice to see him anyway, even if its not at his house with his wife and awesome kids or at dave and busters or at atlantic city eating onion pizza and spending $100 on boogie boards. I swear if i could just take a sleeping bag and go sleep on the floor in the living room in Tracys house i would do it, I just want to be there in that house with all of those memories of things like KFC and me and emily eating all the leftovers and things like that. Im gonna go now.
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[19 Jul 2004|07:47pm]
[ mood | Furious, its not in there!!! ]
[ music | Nothing, i really dont feel like listening to anything now ]

I want to cry. Actually i want to kill someone. Mostly my dad, i was supposed to go on thursday or friday like i said but now it changed. Debbie called and said that maybe my dad will come pick us up this weekend or maybe we will take the train monday. DOESNT MY DAD KNOW THAT THAT MESSES EVERYTHING UP?!?!??!?!?!?!?!? THE ONLY REASON WHY I AGREED TO GO FOR TWO WEEKS IS BECAUSE I WANTED TO SEE TRACY AND EMILY AND EDDY AND IF THIS HAPPENS THE WHOLE THING IS COMPLETLEY MESSED UP AND IM NOT GOING AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also just to top it all off i was in my mothers email today and i found these:

Sue:

Alyssa would like to come down on either July 22 or 23'rd and spend two weeks here. So we're on the same page, I have no problem with that as long as she spends the night of July 24'th with me so that there is NO CHANCE of her getting into any trouble. I also wanted to make sure the timing was okay with you. I have that support hearing on the morning of the 22'cd and I would bring her home on the weekend of August 7'th. Tracy assured me that she would not allow her to see the "HO's", but as I told her this weekend, I will KNOW she won't see them if she spends the night with me. So if the timing is okay with you and Alyssa agrees to spend the night of the 24'th with me, let me know and we can set it up. I did not want to tell Alyssa it was okay until I made contact with you first....



and thats not even the worst part:
Sue:

Alyssa seems very intent on spending time with Tracy one weekend she is here. I would say no problem except that I feel that Alyssa has an alterior motive as I saw when she here last week. It is my very strong feeling that as she knows Tracy always let her get away with more than I ever did, that she is hoping for the same thing again. The attraction is the Chinese "connection" as I call it. One of the good things about moving from that neighborhood WAS the neighborhood itself. I never supported or condoned Alyssa's friendship with these people. The mother and father are fine, but the sons are typical boys if you catch my drift. I kept my mouth shut last year because of all the turmoil that was going on. Tracy used to let her stay out with them until the early morning hours because I wasn't even home after midnight.

Last week we met up with them at the fireworks in town. The mother was there and asked if Alyssa could come over to her house and I said fine, but that she had to be home by midnight. Since it was already 10:30, I thought that was okay. They don't live in the old neighborhood btw. At 11:50 Alyssa called and told me that she couldn't get a ride home (one of these guys does have a car), and that she would be home by 12:30. Sue, she didn't get home until almost 2:30. No phone call, no nothing. I was not happy. The following night she wanted to go out with them again and I told that she could not as Donna and myself had made plans for that night and Debbie was going to be babysitting, I told her that they were welcome to come over here which apparently they did according to Debbie.

My concern is that Tracy won't care what she does as she never saw anything wrong with that kind of behavior. IF you allow Tracy to be responsible for her the weekend of the 24'th and 25'th, then I will make arrangements to get her, but I can't honestly take responsibility for her while she is under Tracys care. I hope that makes sense? Without getting into all the details, there are very strong reasons why the State awarded full custody of her children to their respective fathers. Alyssa might not want to come down at all after you confront her with this and thats okay. It's not my job to be her best friend and condone behavior that is not healthy. It's my job to be her father and take full responsibility for her while she is here. I hope you understand my point.

One thought is to put a stipulation that she has to stay with me at night as that is when she would have the opportunity to see these people. If she agrees to that, then she will see and spend time with Tracy, but not have the chance to get into any trouble. Just a thought. Let me know when you get a chance....

Chris

and my mom completley pissed me off with the reply, i didnt think she would do this:

Chris:
Thanks for filling me in on all this...as Alyssa certainly did not. She is certainly not allowed to come home at that hour, and she knows full well that is completely unacceptable behavior. So if she ever tells you that I find that ok...she is lying. I don't even let her ride in the car with teenage drivers (except for rare occasions). I also feel that she was trying to take advantage of you in this particular situation, and hope you gave her some grief about it (because I would have ripped her a new one - I am a real hard-ass if I do say so myself). I have to say that I was always a little concerned about Alyssa spending so much time over there late at night and into the morning hours, and found it a little odd. Of course she always told me that there was parental supervision...but I am not a fool. For a long time I was concerned about her relationship with Ho Chi. I do believe that she has some alterior motives...but believed them to be for Emily. I do think that she sincerely would like to see Tracy, and that is fine with me. If you want her to stay with you at night that is fine with me (although I thought you had plans to go to Atlantic City that weekend), or I could just make it VERY clear to Tracy that Alyssa is to be at home in the evenings, and if I find out different, there will be trouble. And perhaps I could call in the evenings. I would hope that Tracy would not want to risk losing future visitation with Alyssa. Let me know how you feel about that. I certainly understand your point about being a Dad and not a friend, as well as not being able to guarantee anything when she is not in your care.

Talk to you soon, and thanks again for the info

my mom is an idiot....ho chi????????? when did i ever hang out with HIM until the early morning??? Both of my parents are completley stupid and i wish they both would die so i could go live with Emily

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[19 Jul 2004|07:39pm]
[ mood | No mood in there for how furio ]

I want to cry. Actually i want to kill someone. Mostly my dad, i was supposed to go on thursday or friday like i said but now it changed. Debbie called and said that maybe my dad will come pick us up this weekend or maybe we will take the train monday. DOESNT MY DAD KNOW THAT THAT MESSES EVERYTHING UP?!?!??!?!?!?!?!? THE ONLY REASON WHY I AGREED TO GO FOR TWO WEEKS IS BECAUSE I WANTED TO SEE TRACY AND EMILY AND EDDY AND IF THIS HAPPENS THE WHOLE THING IS COMPLETLEY MESSED UP AND IM NOT GOING AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also just to top it all off i was in my mothers email today and i found these:

Sue:

Alyssa would like to come down on either July 22 or 23'rd and spend two weeks here. So we're on the same page, I have no problem with that as long as she spends the night of July 24'th with me so that there is NO CHANCE of her getting into any trouble. I also wanted to make sure the timing was okay with you. I have that support hearing on the morning of the 22'cd and I would bring her home on the weekend of August 7'th. Tracy assured me that she would not allow her to see the "HO's", but as I told her this weekend, I will KNOW she won't see them if she spends the night with me. So if the timing is okay with you and Alyssa agrees to spend the night of the 24'th with me, let me know and we can set it up. I did not want to tell Alyssa it was okay until I made contact with you first....



and thats not even the worst part:
Sue:

Alyssa seems very intent on spending time with Tracy one weekend she is here. I would say no problem except that I feel that Alyssa has an alterior motive as I saw when she here last week. It is my very strong feeling that as she knows Tracy always let her get away with more than I ever did, that she is hoping for the same thing again. The attraction is the Chinese "connection" as I call it. One of the good things about moving from that neighborhood WAS the neighborhood itself. I never supported or condoned Alyssa's friendship with these people. The mother and father are fine, but the sons are typical boys if you catch my drift. I kept my mouth shut last year because of all the turmoil that was going on. Tracy used to let her stay out with them until the early morning hours because I wasn't even home after midnight.

Last week we met up with them at the fireworks in town. The mother was there and asked if Alyssa could come over to her house and I said fine, but that she had to be home by midnight. Since it was already 10:30, I thought that was okay. They don't live in the old neighborhood btw. At 11:50 Alyssa called and told me that she couldn't get a ride home (one of these guys does have a car), and that she would be home by 12:30. Sue, she didn't get home until almost 2:30. No phone call, no nothing. I was not happy. The following night she wanted to go out with them again and I told that she could not as Donna and myself had made plans for that night and Debbie was going to be babysitting, I told her that they were welcome to come over here which apparently they did according to Debbie.

My concern is that Tracy won't care what she does as she never saw anything wrong with that kind of behavior. IF you allow Tracy to be responsible for her the weekend of the 24'th and 25'th, then I will make arrangements to get her, but I can't honestly take responsibility for her while she is under Tracys care. I hope that makes sense? Without getting into all the details, there are very strong reasons why the State awarded full custody of her children to their respective fathers. Alyssa might not want to come down at all after you confront her with this and thats okay. It's not my job to be her best friend and condone behavior that is not healthy. It's my job to be her father and take full responsibility for her while she is here. I hope you understand my point.

One thought is to put a stipulation that she has to stay with me at night as that is when she would have the opportunity to see these people. If she agrees to that, then she will see and spend time with Tracy, but not have the chance to get into any trouble. Just a thought. Let me know when you get a chance....

Chris

and my mom completley pissed me off with the reply, i didnt think she would do this:

Chris:
Thanks for filling me in on all this...as Alyssa certainly did not. She is certainly not allowed to come home at that hour, and she knows full well that is completely unacceptable behavior. So if she ever tells you that I find that ok...she is lying. I don't even let her ride in the car with teenage drivers (except for rare occasions). I also feel that she was trying to take advantage of you in this particular situation, and hope you gave her some grief about it (because I would have ripped her a new one - I am a real hard-ass if I do say so myself). I have to say that I was always a little concerned about Alyssa spending so much time over there late at night and into the morning hours, and found it a little odd. Of course she always told me that there was parental supervision...but I am not a fool. For a long time I was concerned about her relationship with Ho Chi. I do believe that she has some alterior motives...but believed them to be for Emily. I do think that she sincerely would like to see Tracy, and that is fine with me. If you want her to stay with you at night that is fine with me (although I thought you had plans to go to Atlantic City that weekend), or I could just make it VERY clear to Tracy that Alyssa is to be at home in the evenings, and if I find out different, there will be trouble. And perhaps I could call in the evenings. I would hope that Tracy would not want to risk losing future visitation with Alyssa. Let me know how you feel about that. I certainly understand your point about being a Dad and not a friend, as well as not being able to guarantee anything when she is not in your care.

Talk to you soon, and thanks again for the info

my mom is an idiot....ho chi????????? when did i ever hang out with HIM until the early morning??? Both of my parents are completley stupid and i wish they both would die so i could go live with Emily

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