04:45pm 20/07/2004
  This is my journal entry from Xanga>>> The only thing I dislike about Xanga is the fact that you can't reply to people's comments like on other journal sites. I love the comments that people have been sending me. It's very sweet!!! I have a horrible cold today. I've been sleeping all morning and afternoon. I have an appointment to see the doctor tomorrow morning. My grandpa almost died today. He's 66 and he's building his own freaking house and the heat index is 100 or better for today. He's so stupid! They had to call the ambulance and when they got there he wasn't breathing. I miss Anthony so much right now. I hope he's having fun though. I can't wait to see him!!! Sara called to tell me she's moving. I would hate that sooo much if she left me. I got a phone call from my best buddy Chris. He's been babysitting these two little rich girls in Kansas. I was hoping he and I could go to the movies this weekend, but he's stuck working. My friends are always busy. I guess I'm the loser that has no life. LOL! Sorry, I don't feel so great right now. Having a cold in the middle of summer is the worst thing I've ever heard of. No one wants to sit at home with a cold. I wanna be at World's of Fun with my friends right now. I'll update more if anything interesting happens. I will be ending my journal here at Blurty. I'm sorry, but I'm moving on. LOL! Come and visit me. My journal's name is Touchthisangel816 Leave me a comment!  
04:32pm 11/07/2004
  Wow, I have really started to figure people out. Lets just say that I have my ways of understanding what he meant. He had no idea that I knew it all along. Evan: Yes, you may take this one.  
04:15pm 11/07/2004
  Mom and Kelly are back from the farm. I've been swimming all day with the neighbors. That was lotz of fun!!!! I was giving Nat a piggy back ride and she slipped off and so did my bikini bottoms. LOL!!!! Papa Bear (lol, Evan will know who this guy is) got hard!!!!! It was strange. My mom is still pissed at me for buying him that stupid shirt. I dont know why I cant spend my money the way I want to. Oh well. My eyes hurt from all of the chemicals in the pool. I got a little burned. For lunch I took all of us to Taco Bell and we tried the new "Full Menu" food. LOL!!!! Yes, we ALL got full!!! OMG!!! Way to go Taco Bell!!!!!! LOL! Sorry, I had to make fun of that. My kneck hurts from sleeping on the floor lastnight. Nat and I got into a popcorn fight lastnight. My grandma came in the room and starting yelling at us. I left it all of the floor and this morning I woke up and Gypsy was eating it. LOL! It was cute! I'm such a retard. I wish Eric would call me, but Sara fixed all of that. I guess it was the right thing to do. I'm going to miss him a lot.  
04:26pm 10/07/2004
  I just got home from the mall. I bought some Ug Boots!!!! They're so ugly and I'm in love with them. My grandma hates them, but who cares. They're baby pink with wgite fur on the inside. It's sad that I'm caught up in all of the trend stuff. I bought some bigger bras and then I got a pair of pink Chuck Taylor All Star sneakers. I guess I'm cool now. LOL! I didn't get any new clothes because my grandma didn't have much money to spend after she paind $200 for bras. We talked and had a great time. I'm super duper happy! I hope everyone is happy too!!!!! Smoochies. BYE!!!!!  
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11:45am 10/07/2004
  I'm going to the mall at 1. I'm hoping my grandma will buy me some clothes. I painted my fingernails black with sparkles. Very interesting. My tummy isn't doing good today. I haven't eaten anything since Thursday. That's always good!!!! I need some new clothes really bad. I'm running out of bright colors. Mom and Kelly went to the farm to meet the guys about building the new house. It's going to be done during the school year so I'll be moving around then. I'm going to miss my buddies.  
08:13pm 09/07/2004
  I'm waiting for a phone call right now. Sorta nervous about it. David went home today. I'm going to miss him sooo much!!! I didn't do much of anything today. I really wish Chris would start calling me. He works sooo much and we never get to hang out anymore. I hate it bunches and bunches!!! My life is pretty much normal right now. I talked to Steph. That was a little freaky. She told me about her wild sex stuff and I just listened and wished I was having half of that much fun. My friends are pretty boring. I wish I had a crazy life like I used to.  
02:45pm 09/07/2004
  My hair is bugging me today. The humidity is killing me. I haven't done anything today. I got a job lastnight. I'm not very happy about it, but hey it's money. I wont be able to spend time with my friends though. Sara called Eric today and told him that he and I couldn't talk anymore. She told me to pick between him and Anthony , and I chose Anthony. I'm pretty sure he's going to end up hating me after Sara talks to him about it. I never lied to him, I did want to fuck him senseless. I still feel bad. Anthony is just more of what I need. I hate being a bitch.  
04:38pm 08/07/2004
  Wow, what an interesting day. Not really. Lastnight freaking rocked my sox though!!! I was about to jump on Eric lastnight at McDonalds . Sara and Nat left in the middle of church because she was having a nervous breakdown. It was a little weird. When I was up in the cafe I walked up to Eric and slid my finger down his back and he got chills. It was sorta hot! When Johnny was preaching Anthony was making me crazy!!! He was drawing little swirls on my legs and holding my hand and I was about to go insane. My body couldnt take all of the touching. He was doing all of the right things. I love him a lot. He asked me out, but it wasn't romantic. I was hoping he would make it a little romantic, but he just asked me when we were getting in the car to leave. I wanted to say yes. I guess it doesnt have to be meaningful. I just wish it would have been.  
09:12am 07/07/2004
mood: pissed off
music: Jo Jo: Get Out
I don't feel great this morning. I'm sunburnt and tired. I doubt I'll be going to church tonight. Sara said she may not be going either. Next week I'm starting her church, sorta nervous. I dont know why. There is something going on between Eric and I , and I'm very happy about it. He called me yesterday and we had a nice convo. He pays attention to me and I need that right now. He makes me feel like I'm the only person in the world that he cares about. I'm planning on hanging out at his house today. Not sure what will happen though. I love it that he is never boring. He always has something to talk about and I can't get enough of it. He's super duper special! LOL! I'm the biggest dork ever. My grandma is coming over today. I'm not looking forward to her giving me big grandma kisses. Have you ever wondered why they do that? It's scary to little children. Oh well, she's nice so I can just live with the nappy kisses. My phone has been ringing of the hook today. I don't want to talk to anyone so I just let it ring. None of my friends know how to leave a message. My sister got in trouble lastnight for starting shit with a little friend of hers. The girl went a little psycho. Drama is so anoying. My mom just pissed me off! She came downstairs and asked me what I was doing. I told her I was writing in my journal so she started reading it and I closed it out. She got all pissy and said "Don't be getting on any porn, I know how you are". I was like fuck off! I hate it that my mom can't even trust me on something simple like that. She's so freaking nosey.
12:32pm 04/07/2004
  Sara is spending the night tonight. I wasn't planning on this, but oh well. She called my mom while I was at the mall and asked if she could come over tonight. Of course, my lovely mother said yes. GRRR!!!! I'm planning on going to the movies tonight at around 8. I wish Anthony could go with us, but Sara would get pissed off if I asked him to go. I'm gonna call Eric to see if he's still grounded. Maybe I could pick him up and have him go with us tonight. I want to see The Notebook, but not sure if Sara likes romance movies. I'm busy trying to get my house clean before she shows up. I really hate this! Why does she always wanna come over?  
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06:14pm 03/07/2004
mood: frustrated
I just finished watching Bowling For Columbine. I am furious right now. I feel like the scum of the earth for being an American. I'm going to see Ferinheit 9/11 tomorrow. I think every American should go see these two movies. It would make us open our eyes a little more to the real problems. America is not this great country. I feel horrible. Please dont send me hate mail or anything like that. This is my opinion. Children die every day because of guns and us Americans are at fault. Why can't we be like some of our fellow countries? Look at Canada for goodness sake. We need to change.
01:56pm 03/07/2004
  I'm really really upset right now. My mom is acting like a child. I never thought I would be more mature than my mom. I wish I knew what was going on.  
09:50pm 30/06/2004
mood: bouncy
music: Tobey Keith: Whiskey Girl
I was going to ask Anthony out tonight. He said he had problems so I knew what that meant. If he decides what he wants then that's good. My mom called him a bunch of names and then told me to go out with Eric. LOL! I'm not mad at all. When someone doesn't feel the same way about you then why should you be sad? It's a good thing because that way you can find someone that loves you. I was hoping it would work, but things work out in the end and I hope I find the right person. I know I will. I have a lot to offer and I'm pretty darn cute so I'm not worried one bit. I had a lot of fun at church tonight. I can't wait 'til Sara gets back. YAY!
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To play in Texas you gotta have a fiddle in the band!   
08:24pm 29/06/2004
  I'm super duper happy right now. I had a pretty fabulous day. Nothing special, just normal stuff. I wish I knew why I was so happy! I can't wait 'til church tomorrow. I really hope Eric can go. I miss him! I tried calling today, but called the wrong number. The guy let me talk for about 40 minutes and then he started laughing and said that I had the wrong number. It was soooo funny!  
Changing times   
04:25pm 27/06/2004
mood: ditzy
music: Brit. Spears: Everytime
I'm pretty happy today. I found out that Eric is ok and he's home now. I'm glad it turned out ok. My nieces are coming to spend the night. I guess that's ok. I'm not too fond of them. They're super anoying. Tomorrow I have to take them bowling and out to lunch. Only a day and a half with them, thank god. I know little kids think teenagers are really cool and all, but why me? They follow me around and watch everything I do. They don't like my sister so i have to keep them company. I made some cake for them to have while they're here. We can't go swimming because it's rainy and cold. I need to get some laundry done and clean my room today. I have to take my sister to church on Wednesday because my mom and grandma are going to a baby shower and Kelly doesn't want to babysit her. It wont be horrible. I bribed her with some clothes and she promised to shut her mouth for a few hours while we're there. I fell pretty confident that she can do it. I had a dream about Anthony lastnight. It wasn't a nappy dream, it was just strange. I walked into the mall and he followed me around and no matter how hard I tried to get rid of him he was there. My mom said that has some deep meaning behind it , but I think it's just flat out strange. lol, I'm strange! I've been worrying about school. I don't apply for free college now that I screwed up my grades. I'm worried about my future and if I even have one. I don't want to end up like my dad. I want to make something of myself, but I need to try a lot harder. I have a lot of potential, but no drive. Next year has to be different or I'm shit out of luck. I just wish the past few years had been easier. It's time to change and start over. :) I hope everyone is doing well!!! Smoochies!!!
09:07pm 26/06/2004
mood: cheerful
music: Spice Girls: Wannabe (Girl Power!!! yeah!!!)
Eric got arrested tonight. I was soo mad at him for it! He's an idiot! I told him that I wanted to fuck him and he goes and gets in trouble with the cops for destroying property at popeye's. He was mad that we didnt get to do anything, but there's still time. He gets out of jail tonight and i'm going to call him tomorrow morning to see how he is. I feel bad for him, but he knows right from wrong. I had a great night other than what happend with Eric. My little sister really liked our church and wants to start going. I'm really happy for her. I'm sorta tired. I had a very eventful day. Will was staring at Sara when we were watching the guys on stage and she didn't believe me when I told her. She eventually saw him and started getting all happy. Girls are so strange when it comes to guys. We get all giddy and psycho. lol, thank goodness no one was hurt tonight and most of us are safe. I'm pretty happy right now. I can't wait until Wednesday so I can see Anthony. I miss him. :)
02:49pm 24/06/2004
mood: cheerful
music: dog barking
I woke up at 6 this morning, took a shower, called Marlena, ate breakfast, and went to the mall at 10. Nothing too special, but it was fun. I saw a few people from school and talked to them. Evan wants me to go to the movies today. I'm not sure if I want to go. I wish Chris was home so we could go somewhere. I'm not sure when he's coming back. I hope he had fun though. I can't wait until Friday and Saturday. I want to ride the machanical bull at church. Sara might have to pick me up because I don't remember exactly how to get to church. LOL!!! I'm such a retard. I'm sooo excited!!!! Can't wait 'til tomorrow.
10:42pm 23/06/2004
  Wow, tonight was very eventful. Sara's mom got in a car wreck, Eric was touching me and flirting with me, and Anthony's mom saw me in his car and yelled at him so now he doesn't have a car to drive. When I got home I just fell on the couch and tried to think about anything happy. I was hoping to ask Anthony out tonight, but never got the chance. Eric said he wanted to fuck me tonight. I'm not sure what to think about that. I used to think he was the greatest guy there was. He's VERY hot, but I like Anthony.  
11:48am 22/06/2004
mood: horny
OMG! I just saw Keith drive by!!!!!!!!!!!! He's sooooooo freaking hot!!!!!!! I'm going to be happy for the rest of the week now that I saw him. I'm sooooo happy now!!!!!! He's the hottest guy in the freaking world!!!!!! Evan's friend Dustin is coming to pick me up. I've only met him once and I'm sorta nervous about being alone with him. He's cute, but I don't know anything about him. I'm hoping Evan will buy my lunch, because I don't have enough money. I'm wearing a wifebeater and a mini skirt. I don't look hot today, but Evan thinks it's cute. I'M SOOOO HAPPY!!!!!! I love Keith!!!!!!
11:33pm 21/06/2004
mood: awake
I'm awake, but I'm super tired. I can't wait for Chris to come back from camp!!! We have to go to the mall and the movies as soon as he gets back. He's the best guy friend I've ever had. I miss him SOOOOOO much!!! I talked to Anthony. Evan was really pissed about it. I dont know why he cares about me so much. He acts like he's a dad or something. My sister wants to go to Old Navy after she gets home from school tomorrow. I'm just going to sit in the car and wait for her to go in a buy stuff. I don't feel like spending hours with her right now. I hate not being able to sleep at night. Sara gets to come and spend the night with me on Wednesday and Thursday!!!! YAY! YAY! YAY! I don't have anything better to do. The beginning of my summer was great, but now I'm soooo bored. I get to do something fun tomorrow through Saturday. YAY!
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