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[30 Dec 2003|02:49pm] |
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Yeash. I got a camera for Christmas. That would be me. In my pajamas. :)
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[24 Dec 2003|01:30pm] |
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Ummm... I'm really serious. You all should REALLY get livejournals. It's free now. And it's a whole lot better. I don't plan on using this journal anymore. GO TO LIVEJOURNAL. My username is sinktothebottom. GO GO GO!
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[14 Dec 2003|05:51pm] |
You all should get a journal at livejournal. They don't require codes anymore. Besides, Blurty sucks. So go, lemmings, go. Get a livejournal. My username over there is sinktothebottom.
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[08 Dec 2003|07:25am] |
I haven't updated in awhile, so I thought I might. Ugh, I woke up at 6:20 today, like always, took a shower blah blah blah. My mom comes in and tells me that I have an ortho appointment and that I don't have to go to school until later. AAHHHHHhh I could have slept in. No fair.
Yesterday I got to go to small group which was awesome! Michelle is so nice. And the girls in my group are really cool. I felt a little behind, because that was my first time going, but it was still a blast.
Grrrr... Dustin is in so much trouble. He got his cell phone taken away and he's grounded for awhile. Because he was with me instead of being at the library. So now of course I feel bad because it's my fault. Last night I went to Patrick's house to watch Donnie Darko and he COULD HAVE been there if he wasn't with me on Saturday. Well poo. At least I get to see him today :)
I'm being HxAxRxDxCxOxRxE with Lizzie and updating my Blurty.
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[29 Nov 2003|12:03am] |
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Lately I have been listening to Against Me! and Pretty Girls Make Graves.
I saw my Dustin today. His best friend hates me, though. I think it bugs Dustin more than it bugs me.
I made little alert things for my buddies on AIM, and it was really amusing, because I have these little clips of this weird little dude saying things, or just plain laughing. When Liz signs on, it says "I'm real sorry about rippin your head off, you know I love you", when Dustin signs on, it says "Uh oh", when Kristin signs on, it says "Hey toots" and when Alicia signs on, it just laughs. It amused me.
Hope you all had a nice Thanksgiving.
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[20 Nov 2003|04:37pm] |
i named taylor's jacket sally. it's a really cool jacket, and he lets me wear it everyday in sixth period. it's like an old 80's jacket, it's leather with soft fuzzy stuff inside. but today i had to take sally of because she was slowing me down. it's really hard to move when you have her on, because she's so thick. people make fun of me, because i named her. sam said, "you're so weird, you're naming other people's clothing," and maybe he's right. OH WELL.
speaking of sam, i went over to his house to look at his guitar (a Warlock) and his house looked so familiar. like crazily familiar. a deja vu kind of a thing. it was weird. sam is a cool kid.
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[16 Nov 2003|10:25am] |
ok, so it's been awhile since i've updated. things have changed. ok, not much has, but this is still really cool.
dustin asked me out on wednesday. wednesday night. he's called me at least once everyday since. he is the sweetest thing.
i have an ugly ass blood blister right on my finger and it looks really gross.
shane is still obsessed with me. i thought it was over. over and dead. but he still wants to get to know me or something? i don't know... and it's kind of annoying. it's OVER and somehow he just doesn't understand.
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[12 Nov 2003|06:18pm] |
my neighbors painted their house. it looks really good. it's kind of sad, because ever since the lady's husband died, it has been looking pretty bad.
there's this one really annoying kid in my physics class, and today he was in my lab group and was talking about how rich he used to be. he kept on saying that his family lost 45 million dollars in the stock market. holy shit. but that's what you get in a town like pleasanton. oy vey.
p.s.
I LIKE DUSTIN... a lot. he might ask me out sooooooon. :)
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[09 Nov 2003|07:21pm] |
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i think that if anybody is ever feeling sad, or unappreciated, or has a low self-esteem, they should play I'm Too Sexy by Right Said Fred as loud as they possible can and sing like mad along to the lyrics. and dance around. all over your house. and just GO CRAZY. because it really works.
( right said fred )
yeash, i know. i'm weird like that.
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[08 Nov 2003|08:34pm] |
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oh lordy lordy. why must things be so confusing, eh? WHY?
dustin likes meeeeeeeeee. mememe. and i like him? yes, i'm pretty sure i do. so that's easy enough. we like eachother. hurrah. buuuuuut, i still kind of like ian as well.
so la dee da. ian is a junior. a junior with a girlfriend. and oh so totally off-limits.
so, if (hypothetically speaking) dustin asks me out, this should be no problem. i say yes.
but (still hypothetically speaking) if i say yes, and ian breaks up with his girlfriend, will i regret going out with dustin? ...probably.
BUUUUUUt, who's to say that something would happen with ian even if he did break up with his girlfriend? i highly doubt that anything will happen.
soooo it should still be a pretty easy decision to make, riiiiiight?
OF COURSE NOT. it can never be that easy.
if you don't recall, after i broke up with shane i said i would never ever go out with another boy again because i hate the breaking up part. it killed me to break up with shane. and i still don't want to go out with anybody because it makes me really sad when i have to dump someone. and besides, whenever i go out with somebody.. i stop liking him after awhile. and i don't want that to happen.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooo. knowing what you know. what do you think i should do? i reeeally need feedback, and i would appreciate it very much so if you would leave me with your two cents.
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[04 Nov 2003|04:38pm] |
i need to:
-buy liz the atreyu CD (not the bondage belt anymore) for christmas, because she bought me the best present ever and i owe her
-actually do my homework. i had to copy off of dustin, and usually he copies off of me
-go to the mandatory meeting at lunch on thursday for soccer
there might be a freshman team which is good for me because i'll have a better chance of making it now. there about about 50 girls trying out this year (or more). it's sad. pleasanton is such a soccer oriented town. everrrybody tries to get their kids to play soccer. but it's the only thing i can do well. naturally.
scott cut his hairrrr. he had a mohawk type thing, and now it is gone. gonegonegone. i knew it had to happen.
i was walking home from rite-aid and a plane flew right over me. really. really. close. ok. so not that close. but closer than ever before. twas cool.
tenemos la fiesta de futbol esta noche!
that's not right, because i forgot how to do the present progressive tense conjugation thing, but hopefully you get the idea. technically that means "we have the soccer party tonight", but i wanted to say "we are having the soccer party tonight". ohhh well. i'm taking german, so give me a break. i just remember certain things.
and my foot is asleep.
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( peggy PREJUDICE: )
thislonelyplace7 = me
peggy PREJUDICE = andy
tooooooo ooollllddddd... it's not fair.
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[02 Nov 2003|03:50pm] |
it is only 3:50 and i am extremely tired. the most strenous thing i did today was walk down to rite-aid, to visit andy. andy is a boy i met online, but i saw him before at school. so it's not like he's a complete stranger, right? even though he doesn't go to my school, he was just there visiting a friend. so i saw him at rite-aid, where he works. he has never met me before, so he didn't know what i look like. so i go and find my items and get in line to purchuse my things. and as he's handing me my change, i tell him who i am. he is suprised, and turned slightly red. i found it funny. i am sometimes glad my mouth has no connection to my brain, otherwise i would have never said hi to him. i think too much. sometimes, i just need to do it.
so i have been up for all of 7 hours and i am completely drained. i need caffeine... or sugar. oh look, a reese's. praise the lord. i can not wait for thanksgiving. my grandma makes the best stuffing in the whole wide world. and then comes thanksmas, some retarded holiday my mom's side of the family made up. it might be at our house this year. in which case, i want kristin to come. she could liven up the party a bunch. then christmas eve, and inevitably christmas. i don't want autumn to end. it just started and it seems like christmas is so close.
i am not going to be buying any christmas presents this year. save for liz, because she bought me the most awesomest present ever. she bought me a music box that i wanted, with beauty and the beast. and the store was going out of business too. if she had waited much longer it would have been gone forever. she wants a bondage belt, in return.
this christmas, all i want is a CD player. everybody else can just send me checkssssssssss. it's easier that way for them, anyways. sure, it's less personal, but i would appreciate it more than something that will just take up space.
i am ungrateful.
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[01 Nov 2003|08:42pm] |
i really want to kill cameron sometimes. he really makes me mad. he made halloween so bad for me. well, it wasn't terrible, but as soon as i saw him my halloween went downhill. and it's all his fault. i need to write him a note or something, tell him how i feel. because it seems like whenever i talk to him he isn't listening.
ian was over at kristins house today, and she called me in the middle of my shower and told my mom to interrupt my shower and tell me that he was over there. so i go over there and he's looking gorgeous, of course. he was just having a jam session with nick, kristins brother, and a couple of other friends (dennis and zack). my GOD is ian hot. too fucking bad he has a girlfriend. no fair. kristin tells me to not give up on him though, because she gets "good vibes" from him. whatever that means.
so right now, it's ♥cameron and ♥ian. haha.
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[31 Oct 2003|04:53pm] |
my plans are falling through. only a couple of people are coming tonight.
i want to go to dennis's party.
i feel bad because nobody is going to john's party anymore, and it's his birthday party too. even though i wasn't invited, i was just going to crash it. but i feel bad.
this junior in my german class is constantly trying to get a hug from me. he's weird. and then nithin asked me for a hug too. do i look huggable?
i got a free pumpkin from mr. fuller. he got really mad at me today. because we were supposed to go over to alisal and read the halloween horror stories we wrote to little second and third graders, but i forgot my permission slip, so i couldn't go. but i wasn't the only one. we had to go in the library and write a summary of eachothers stories.
cameron was in the library too. fucking asshole. sometimes i could kill him. i wish he would just make up his mind, to decide whether he's going to be nice or mean to me. his excuse for being mean to me is because i snubbed him for about a month after we broke up, but that's because i still felt weird around him.
i want to go to oakland. to the iMusicast show. sean and ryan are going.
monday night dead poetic is coming and playing at the pound.
my last soccer game is tomorrow. thank god. our team sucked horribly. i think i'm going to try out for the school team. even though about a bajillion other girls are trying out and they are way better than me. it's the one thing i can do really well.. naturally.
that and play the tenor sax and flute. but i gave that up awhile ago.
fucking long entry, i apoologize.
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[30 Oct 2003|05:58pm] |
pass it on
my friend's brother's friend made it. hellav funny.
cameron is being a big fat asshole and he can just kiss my ass. because he's hellav nice to me when i'm with him at his house or with people younger/the same age as us. but when he's with people that are older he's so mean to me, like he has to be cool or something and i'm not cool enough for him. and, last time i checked, being mean is totally not cool. and if he's not going to be nice to me, fuck that. i'm done with his shit.
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[29 Oct 2003|06:48pm] |
a pirate! how kickass.
HALLOWEEN IS THIS FRIDAY!!!!
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[26 Oct 2003|02:07pm] |
TO AN ATHLETE DYING YOUNG
The time you won your town the race
We chaired you through the market-place;
Man and boy stood cheering by,
And home we brought you shoulder-high.
To-day, the road all runners come,
Shoulder-high we bring you home,
And set you at your threshold down,
Townsman of a stiller town.
Smart lad, to slip betimes away
From fields where glory does not stay,
And early though the laurel grows
It withers quicker than the rose.
Eyes the shady night has shut
Cannot see the record cut,
And silence sounds no worse than cheers
After earth has stopped the ears:
Now you will not swell the rout
Of lads that wore their honours out,
Runners whom renown outran
And the name died before the man.
So set, before the echoes fade,
The fleet foot on the sill of shade,
And hold to the low lintel up
The still-defended challenge-cup.
And round that early-laurelled head
Will flock to gaze the strengthless dead,
And find unwithered on its curls
The garland briefer than a girl's.
Think no more, lad; laugh, be jolly:
Why should men make haste to die?
Empty heads and tongues a-talking
Make the rough road easy walking,
And the feather pate of folly
Bears the falling sky.
Oh, 'tis jesting, dancing, drinking
Spins the heavy world around.
If young hearts were not so clever,
Oh, they would be young for ever:
Think no more; 'tis only thinking
Lays lads underground.
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[25 Oct 2003|01:37pm] |
in the spirit of halloween last night i went to the corn maze. kind of boring. oh well.
speaking of halloween. i have no idea what i'm going to be or where i'm going.
well i have some options of where i can go. but i have no clue about what i should be.
my options for halloween night are:
a) stay home by myself
b) go to kristin or rachels house and just chill
c) go to john's party
d) go to dennis's party
i'm pretty sure either c or d will happen, but i'm not sure which party i'm going to yet. john's party would be heck of fun, just because those kids are so cool. but dennis's party would be fun too i think. but the thing is is that if i go to dennis's party then i won't really know that many people there. i'm pretty sure ian would be there... so that would be way cool, but i don't know. i think we'll probably just end up going to john's party. technically me and kristin would be crashing his party because he didn't invite us, but i told him not to specifically so i could crash it. i am a lame-o.
any ideas for a halloween costume that's easy to make and cheap???
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[22 Oct 2003|03:30pm] |
ok.. i don't think i've written much (or anything at all) about ian in this journal, but ian is this junior who's in my german class who is super nice and super hot. unfourtunately (for me) he has a girlfriend. but listen what he did for her (SO CUTE!!!):
apparently, his friend mike had been taking pictures of ian and his girlfriend for the 2 months that they've been going out. so they got all the pictures and made a collage on a big poster board and in the middle he wrote "i love you". he also got a big calander and on each day he wrote what they did together. he got all the stuff and put it on her porch and doorbell ditched her.
how fucking sweet. and he's really nice to me too. he's got this awesome smile, and laugh. it's so unfair that he has a girlfriend. he goes to the same church as me too. aarrgghhh. he's so nice................
SPEAKING of juniors in my german class... there's this other kid named john and he's so weird. sometimes he can be a complete asshole, but other times he's really nice. it's weird. he has nice eyes.
german = my favorite class.
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