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[25 Jun 2003|10:24pm] |
new name.
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add me there if you love me.
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ok. so i got... indirectly chastized today by the queen bee herself, nicole. i asked spencer if he wanted to hang out because we were both on break, and nicole said no. so as soon as i left, nicole said to him "don't het her get you off track" or some shit. i told mom. she was infuriated. i don't really give a shit. i'm just mad at myself because i didn't have to work this week. because i am a dumbass. i thought i had to. i could have gone to florida with bobby and spared myself this... weakness. last night i fell asleep at 7 because it killed to think about it. and how weak i was to him on the phone. i had to close my hand over my mouth so that he wasn't aware that i was breaking down. but of course, he knew. and i hated it. i wiped my blood in my notebook. i took a shower. that wiped off some of the blood. one cut is about 3 inches long. but it's really not deep at all. it makes me sick to look at them. just because it looks pretty nasty. it's scabbed in between where i sliced, and it's pretty deep.
last night i told catie. she seemed really mad. that worsens it by like. a million. but apparently she wasn't mad? i have no clue, really. *sigh*
i haven't been talking to amy much, either. i think she's mad at me. i'm not sure why, though. o.O jesus christ. i'm just like, so messed up right now. i hate it.
lately, not much has been keeping me sane. i'm just like, about to cry ALL THE FUCKING TIME. i had a dream that bob called me. yes. i'm stilll waiting for the phone call that will never come. at least... until sunday afternoon.
and i'm SO SORRY that i haven't been commenting. i'll get back into the swing of things next week or so... i just really have been too physically and emotionally exhausted to sit here and go through EVERY SINGLE POST and comment. pft. as if i ever did that in the first place...
*turns around and walks off*
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noise_n_kisses
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considering:
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[27 Apr 2003|06:08pm] |
nevermind; im back.
sporadic died because my dad was being a nosy whore and i guess lousyxhero will be... a layout tester or a public thingie. free acounts suck ass. they only allow 10 friends. yes. quite fruity.
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[13 Mar 2003|10:12pm] |
sporadic
add me there.
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[11 Mar 2003|05:52pm] |
if you want to stay on my friends list.. comment. if you want to be taken off, comment.
so comment either way. alrite?
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[06 Feb 2003|10:42pm] |
ACCESS DENIED
this journal is friends only as my old one was. go ahead and add me. i dont bite. most of the time.
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