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asdfasdf [13 Mar 2005|02:34pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | when it burns- finch ] i hate life. i have everything i could ever ask for but im still unhappy. and paul hes just amazing. but he doesnt wnat a girlfriend or anything, but yet he tells me this athorn4mihart (1:30:45 PM): like i said i would ask you to be with me but ive already been fucked over and i really dont want anything to do with it anymore i dont know. i really do like him a lot. its been a long time since i've liked anyone. and i just want to have paul all ti myself. it sucks whatever. im goign to write later when im not mentally handicapped post comment

long time no talk; ♥ [07 Mar 2005|05:07pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | MR BRIGHTSIDE * ] tWENtiEth-- hrmm. well the 20th of Feb. that night my party got cancelled and apehoe came over and we did some insance makeup on the both of us. very 8o's style. gotta love it though. then after that we both went to Bert's casa. Gelf, and Hutch were there. it was kinda boring. So, at like 11 ape and i came back home( to my house )and ape slept here. tWENtYfiRSt-- the 21 (( MY BIRTHDAYY !! )) april went home, and then at like 730 we went to the Movies with AndyP, Ian, and Ashwin and saw Hitch. It was okay, extremely long.. and sorta lost it's edge after the first hour. Then after, we went to D&D's, got kicked out then to Subway and got kicked out again. Nice, right? yeah, NO. lol hrmm. i went home that night to mi casa- no one slept here. tWENtYSEC0Nd-- The next day (22) i chilled all day, then Rachel&Jen and the whole family came over for a get teogether to celebrate my birthday. I got lots of stuff, a beautiful four hundred dollar ring, and three hundred dollars. It was fun. tWENtYthiRd-- That day i went out wth my mom and david, to the EMS store to get my EMS jacket, which wasn't there. so we stopped at flippin TRUMBULL MALL <33 and i shoped. that night i went to the hockey game and chilled thurr with kar, frack, bert and ape. it was really a lot of fun. i seen Matt there. Dre came over and put his arms around me and whispered HAPPY BIRTHDAY, and Matt came over and he was like . GET YOUR HANDS OFF HER! and Dre backed off, all scared. and i stepped up and was like "what if i want his hands there?" and Matt looked at me and was like " well i don't want his hands on my girlfriend" i was kinda shocked, now he's calling me his girlfriend. i was like "'scuse me sir, i'm not kara!" and walked away pretending to be all bitchy and shizznizz. i was supposede to go to Madyson's house aftet that for a deisel party. but mom wouldn't let me sleep out. when do i EVER get to sleep out anymore!? tWENtYf0URth-- i went to the Jewelers to have my pretty pretty ring fit to my fat finger, bit they were closed. so i went to rachels .. around 7 i didn't feel good and got really really extremely cold. nothing would warm me up. when i got home i took my temp and i had a 100.1 fever. the fever last well into the night. at rachels we watched anacondas- it was good. tWENtYfifth-- stayed home all day, muchas online. don't know why i didn't update then? tWENtYSiXth-- mall with apehoe, got muchas from abercrombie and forever. back to her daddies house and we watched movies. i met her fathers fiance and ate some nasty rangoon chinese shit. YUCK. tWENtYSEVENth-- stuck on a road trip to fucking KENT ct. BORING, too much time with family. we stopped at this one store and it had BEAUTIFUL JEWELRY. it made me orgasm. AMAZING STUFF <3 tWENtYEiGth-- half day of school, Julies birthday. went home to aprils house, then to d&d's. mighty cold. came home later and talked to brandon on the phone for a while. fiRSt(0f MARCh)-- no school. went to the mall with rachel. basically for HOLLISTER <3 gosh i lvoe that store. got some polo's ( which i have fallen in love with let me tell you!! ) and got some diesel makeup from lancome. SEC0Nd-- stayed home from school. wasn't feeling well at all. spent the night on the phone with ryan. thiRd-- hrmm, school. then mr brunswicks wake ( Rest In Peace ). i held it through until i saw his fam ( mrs. and his daughter ) i completely lost it. i felt horrible. its so sad to lose somoene who was soo good to the community. then to batting cages for captains practice. then home for conformation. f0URth-- school. then dinner with rachel and her mom at on the border ( Mexican ) had chicken fingers. after that we scrambled over to AC Moore's where Rach and I almost got kickedout. we got yelled at for spray painting. and then like 23984378942 people ( workers ) were sent out to watch us. what fucking faggots. i apologized for doing it, i didn't know it wasn't allowed. gosh. then we went to Mr. Student Body. it was okay, like a battle of the bands type of a thing going on. it was decent. matt hung around with me after words and we shot a deisel stick of gum into Jenna DeCarlo's hair. HA bitch deserves it. Fucking eigth graders. Went home to Rachels, slept there. fifth-- woke up @ Rachels. went home around 330 ad then to cages for some pitching and hitting. stayed home rest of the night. talked to Paul on the phone from 7:00 to 8:30. the only reason we got off was because he had to go and pick up his sister. there's something about him, i just want to know more. He's like a good book that you can't just get enough of. SiXth-- read book all day. talked to Paul at like midnight. he asked my permission to kiss me if we were together. how freaking sweet, a guy with respect for a woman.! i like it ... a lot. =) SEVENth( t0dAY )-- school was good, texted Paul like all day. He asked me what i was thinking about at one pt. and i told him that i was thinking about how i liked talking to him. and he was thinking the same thing i guess. well. thats what he told me. hrmm idk. i guess i'm going to the Ring Dance for trumbull high sophmores with either Dan, Wolfie, or Shane becuase rach won't go unless someone ( me ) goes with her. how weird, i would really like to go with Shane- but i doubt he would go. 2nd choice is Dan cuase he just seems real cool, chill, and funny. and last Wolfie because he said some mean things about me and shane, and he doesn't even know me AND he's supposed to be one of shanes good friends, WHAT THE FUCK?! yeah NO. Cages for captians practice and the sweetheart Amanda St. George brought me home because my asshole brother told my mom to go to the highschool instead of B&B. fucking idiot. ________________________-♥ hrmm, well let me tell you the story with Paul. On myspace this band called Superband added me. and iwas lik eokay, and under there photo's was one of each of the members and i was instantly attracted and DROOLING over the bassist- Paul. and then like two days later "Lost Lonely boy" added me, and it ended up being Paul. well i left him a comment telling him i liked the song, and that he could IM me sometime if he wanted, leaveing my sn- weeniexo. then like two seconds after i posted it he IMed me. i was like =O. and we talked and hes really really shy.. and he keeps to himself a lot. idk why and it bothers me i want him to be open with me. theres a lot i want to know about him.. to much i want to know about him. but he told me that hes a lot more open with me than he is with a lot of people. which is good right? yeah i think. then he said that he normallynever talks to people from myspace. and he talks to me alot which is cool. idk whatever man. i told him to call/text me later on tonight ( his phone is gay and sometimes it doesnt work with outgoing calls ) but for now i'm off to eat, then sleep cuase my head hurts and id on't feel good. <3 hugs and kisses post comment

happy happy [20 Feb 2005|11:12am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | you're cute when you scream ] yesterday was good,tons of fun. well. it started off as me waking up and then scrambling to get ready to see Grease again cuase it is simply fucking amazing. of course it was good. i went with rachel, and her friend jess deeb, deebs mom brother sister and sisters friend came. i sat next to jess and lawren it was sweet i had fun. umm, well after that rachel came over and she opened her present FINALLY . and she liked it. then after that we decided to do her hair and make up. well her makeup was some BRIGHT turqouise eyeshadow with blaring blush streaks in hot pink and hot pink lipstick with clear gloss. then i put her hair half up. in a high pony tail and teased the front to make it poof up like a bunch of models. and then i teased the pony tail. it was HUGE then i sprayed on Neon orange tips on her hair ( the pony tail ) and hten i put silver streaks and tips in the down hair part. It sounds like it would come out as a mess but it looked sooooo freaking good. well if you think about it, makeup (insane as it is and colors and crap that i did) being put on by a fourteen year old, you wouldn't think it would come out good. but i love fucking around with make up its so much fun. and it just always comes out SO freaking good. i LOVE it. i think maybe, *just maybe* i'll become a make up artist. haha lol .. well we did that and took TONS of pictures and we discovered that rachel can't do a hot pose for shit. =/ oh well lol she left at like 10 ish. and then i just sat around. talked online . did NOTHING for like 2 hours then cleaned my room and burnt my hand. becuase the curling iron was broke. the light to tell you wether or not it was on or not wasn't lit up. but the iron was HOT like a bitch. yeah so i BURNT my mo fo'in hand. hurt like a bitch, i even cried. i haven't cried over pain since my back. lol how insane. well. then i put some lyrics into my planner. and then hit the sack. i was exhausted. 2:30 AM bitches. woke up at like 10 and i'm still real tired. i wanna go back to bed. i think i might. well. my party ( since it's my birthday tomorrow ) is at my uncles cuase my dad got sick, real sick ( flu they think ) last night and my mom doesn't want the food to spoil. soooooooooo my party is today. i'm trying to convince shane to let me do make up on him. lol =) well im gonna go .. write you later post comment

absolutley star struck ** [18 Feb 2005|11:41pm] [ mood | giddy ] [ music | we go together; la la la ] wow; G R E A S E. by shelton high is the most FUCKING AMAZING PLAY PUT ON EVER IN THE ENTIRE WORLD> i loved every flipping second of it. now i wish i tryed out for it =/. i went with bert, ape and ed. i found out that christian iannucci is bi and he slashes fruit? yeah WIERD> well . yeah the play was the shit and you should go and see it. BUT HURRY. theres only 2 more shows and like 20 seats left! HURRY MOTHER FUCKERS. yeah the best show in the world. all the leads looked exactly like the real character. and i just wanted to do the kid that played kinicki. and yeah, mike l'altrella . you're flipping hte hottest Danny in the WORLD. do me please NOW?! lol . wow haha i was like "hey mike, good job tonight!" just yelling it as i passed and he was like "thx!" .. then later on like 10 minutes later he came over and was like "hey, you really liked it?" and i was like "i loved it, you did an amazing job" and he stood there like expecting me to say more. and we just kinda looked at eachother for what seemed like eternity with an odd silence just chillen around . then someone called his name and he was like "bye" .. phew glad that was over. i had no idea what to say . all that ran through my head was -- David, david .. david. and i almost said something about it. that would have been wretched. gosh i hate that. its going to be so hard working with him for our peice together. what if i accidentally call him david? HOW BAD WOULD THAT BE? he knows i didnt mean it . but its just .. it's his brother. idk man. davids his brother that i was good friends with, that passed away from luekeimia. now, i'm all stressed. i feel like an asshole for just standing there, but i was so SHOCKED that i almost CALLED HIM DAVID, AND SAID WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY . DOUBEL YOU TEA EFF! tuesday sweet tones was decent, and solo practice was horrible. i felt like crap . and i didn't go to school wed. thurs. or friday. oh well . i just haven;t been feeling good at all . and tonight was the play. well i've been fooling around with make up a whole hell of a lot. just doing tons of wierd eyeshadow colors, hot pink, turqouise, black . you know . insane wierd things?! i wanna try yellow and orange next. that would be hot. the hot pink was THE SHIT . lol . it was flipping amazing color to do. great pictures on myspace from it. post comment

so great* [14 Feb 2005|09:25pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | dreh dich umm ] Happy Valentines Day ! <3 k, so i woke up. went to school? sat through hemenway's class for TWO HOURS. i tought i was going to die / then GYM for two hours which was better cuase i had jor, hobby, issa, peter peter peter, dougy and little boy blue ( idont know his name, and hes older and not htat little? ) to frolick with lol. me and jor cuased soem trouble and then shcool was school. i saw matt with kara. he doesnt knwo whats going on with them two. he says theres nothing. and DEF> nothing between him and Jess =). then . him an di talked for a whiel. I'm Jeff Iwanics valentine =) gosh that kid is so cute. and hten matt and i talked i left school w/ ape came home and did nothing. i talked to brandon on the phone from 8 to 830 then me and ryan have been talking a lot. he's freakin amazing. i <3 him. umm. yeah . ntohing special. peacin out to do homework and shit . 1 comment|post comment

happy go lucky [13 Feb 2005|09:31pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | ILOVEUNDEROATH ] k so, sat. i went out to the mall with apehoe and we got rach and jen they're b-day presents. SO cute shit. and i got this BITCHEN glasses and a nice white cami . went home . batting cages. excellent pitching? lol . then i came home with britt and we got ready to go out. we had plans for me rach madyson ape and britt to get FUCKED up off weed and drinks that night but it got fucked and me ape and britt just walked to Dunkin Donuts for the night and chille there. it was really fun. i miss walking =/ then me and britt came home and talked and cried over like grandpa's dying and david . it felt good.. in a wierd way to finally cry about him . i mniss him so much .we didnt hit the sack till 3 then we woke up for church which was churhc. dropped her off after that and then i did softball signups . then i went to Dunkin Donuts to get drunka chino and a bacon egg and cheese, and one of the HAVEN TWINS was working there he was so checking me out i loved it. hes so hot then i left, i hope i see him in school tomorrow. uhh cuase hes hot!? and i got hom checked my IM's .. matt IMed me . yeah eh ewas real drunk last night . he was telling me he wanted to do me and he wanted to have sex with me and he wanted to be with me a whole bunch of shit, then i was likw hat about brittany? and he was like no just you just you just you i was lik eoh okay . so yeah that drunk bitch iMed me this morning . and i havent talked to him since. and then adjflas after i checke dmy IMs i gto ready, wrapped jay--dees present and went to her house. it was okay we are def. two diff people but i'll always love her to death and be there for her you know? yeah me tto . stayed there till 9 then sue brought me home and then im here an dim on the phone with tophy. he likes the word arnge . you know . like ORANGE but arnge and i can hear him talking . hes crazy mofo but i love him . hrmmmmm im peacin love you post comment

fun fun in the sun [12 Feb 2005|10:26am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | let me in your arms to feel ] okay well i just got home. i didn't find out who wrote that but honestly- i'm over it now. if they're gonna write shit and hate. LET THEM i dont care what people think of me. so after all of that i went to rachels, so weird cuase i was pissed at her cuase i thought it was her?! yeah idk who cares. madyson was there and we had a great time talking and just being retards. we all wanted to get together today but imbusy and i dotn think that mady and rach are either. so i think we're all getting together next weekend again and get fucked up which will be tons of fun. well after madyson left me and rach just sat around and talked .. and then we went downstairs fooled around made milkshakes then we watched naploean dynamite and fell asleep at like 930? yeah WTF? its friday!! oh well. i woke up there and we just sat around and then i came home. it was a little awkward this time being there. which i've never felt before . oh well . peace outtie i gotta go eat and get ready for my dayyy post comment

sjdflasdf [11 Feb 2005|03:44pm] [ mood | irate ] [ music | i hate everything about you ] yeah, school was school. i'm really confused as to matt. dee thinks i should talk to him and tell him. im gonna tell him how jav. was tyirng to "hook me up" whatever dude. so i stayed after with britt cuase she had to. and then i talked with Brianne a little bit and that was cool then i galavantd intot he gym and associated myself with bria britt ellen and sulllllll gosh i miss her, her an di havent hung out in ages. then i went back to the hallw ith britt and bria britt and kar come over and were telling me theres some fucked up shit in my myspace . i looked at it when i got hom eand im PISSED. its SO fucked up . and it mentioned some shit aboou tme being a "fake punk" and i dont try to act punk or anything. no i am who i am fuck that dude. rachel is the only one who says shit about me being a fake punk so i honestly think it was herl. and bria and kar are both close with her. so yeah i really do think it was her. i called her and she denied it, but she knew about it even though i didnt mention it. she wasnt like what? what stuff? like the other girls i called. im real pissed about it. and then she was like i dont have a lin k to your myspace and i was like ut you were able to get on it to copy and paste shit from that survey and she was lke thats becuase i went through shanes and etc. etc. whatever dude. FUCK that i think it was her and hwen i find out who did it i swear im going to be so pissed at them FOR a really long time and they have a lot of explaining to do. yeah whatever peace out 1 comment|post comment

ohhh baby [10 Feb 2005|10:44pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | only one_ yellow card ] school was school, not much to it. ate lunch with the new girl madyson and got her number. she said she wants to chill this weekend and get real fucked up? agian? yeah thats cool i guess whatever . shes awesome i love her to death and shes so funny . bria was sitting across from us and madyson points to her and looks at me and says "i dont like her, she's a bitch!" bria looked liek she was going to cry. i wanted to hug madyson. shes my idol ;D i mean i love bria but she can be a bitch. it was so great. no one has ever had the balls to say anything to bria like that. lets just say thank god that madyson liikes me haha lol . umm well then . the other day doc ford called me a freak of nature? iw asike hrmm . thanks?! he's like "no, no. that's meant in a good way. you're extremely talented for a fourteen year old singer." i was so P U Z Z L E D . i think i almost lost my brians in 7th period . spanish DRAGS AASSSSS ALMOST AS MUCH AS ENGLISHHH . the languages, go figure. well then at track -- weight room was open -- i've known this character named ian since i was like two and i sat with him on one of the old machine things and tom haney ( senoir football captian who is also on track ) sat down next to us and joined in the conversation and then britt came bouncing over and was like heyyyy tom in this little high pitched voice. he looked at her with disgust and was like," you are so annoying ". she stopeed and looked like she was going to cry and to top it off, five minutes later he goes " so i heard steines told you off last night " she got SO pissed. she bitched matt out, but i guess they're fine now? so while she was doing that Javon ( who i've also known since i ws like two, mind you he's one of the HOTTEST seniors ;D ) and was like . "so you like matt? i'll get you the hoook up? what should i say to him? blah balh blah.. " i was like no nono! no talking to matt for me! so what am i supposed to think of that, they're BEST friends?! yea MIXED SIGNALS, so and then i found out that supposedly cody likes me?! what . 7th grade i liked him for hte year . HELLO we are FRESHMAN now! double you tea eff. idk what the fuck is going on, i'm so confused with everythihng. and idk whats going on with rachel either. idk what im doing friday night. and saturday etiher mall with Apehoe ( hollister, HOOTAY HOOOT ) or somewheres with brittany, and then there's always madyson. i think i'm gonna tell her to call me for friday night so if we get fucke dup i can spend the night there . ;D yeah smart thinking i know . whatever peace the eff out mo fo's post comment

asdflkasjf [10 Feb 2005|03:52pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | you playy the song i knowww ] i read this girls journal entry, and i think my jaw hit the floor. shes thinking just like i am .. what if this? what if that? what if i didn't have julie? that girl understands me like no other . shes jsut . my gosh, she's gotten me through everything . then i think about cody, whta if i ever met him? WHAT if i didn't go with julie to shanes house that day? i would have never have met him? there would be so much less pain in my life, but i would still be so young and niave. would it have been better that way? thousands of questions run through my head .. then theres matt, im a fresh hes a senior .. but so many things have happened and when i talk to people about him .. they all say the same thing. theres something there? WHT THE FUCK rawr, my boyfriend is calling me =) AKA music. haha got you there. umm, im going to do homework and shit and then i guess i'll write again after conformation. post comment

look at this b e a Utiful layout! [09 Feb 2005|10:05pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Since you've been gone_ k. Clarkson ] mmkay, so officially 2 hours later i have finished my layout. yes ladies and gents, i - collean, have created this layout. i love it =) well today started out interesting. the hot water ran out . so i waited around liek 15 minutes for the water to heat back up and then i was late, so my mom drove me in to school at like 830 so i missed 1st per. =D i hate that class, it drags major ass. so i walk in and i see amanda hainsworth, come to find out she got kicked out of alternative school. oh well, i see her a lot during the day. shes such a sweet heart. well then around 3rd or 4th period i hear kara benoit telling matt " i have a love letter for you, but i'm scared to give it to you" that bitch fucked him over so many times. why would she ever do that? and if matt takes her back i'll HAVE to kick his ass cuase thats insane. well the rest of the day was decent. the new girl, Madison is freaking gorgous and hilarious and she wants me ape and nomack to go to her house one day and smoke it up and get fucked up. it sounds like fun, but do i really want to hurt my body that way? idk, whatever happens happens. so after school i had to do track attendance which i hate with a fawkin passion and we were locked out of the wieght room so i couldn't do anything! it was me and jewel and we just chilled with the guys and talked to matt and javon for ike 15 minutes. it was so cute, javon goes to Julie, julie will you go to prom with me? and she looks at him an goes . shut the fuck up! and then matt goes "collean, will you go to prom with me?" of course i was like yeah, let's go. so he turns to javon and says " i got my date! i got my date!" thats the second time he mentioned prom to me .. and the second time he indirectly said he was at least thinking about taking me? i get such mixed signals from that kid, and so many people think that there is something between me and him . whatever, i could only D R E A M of that kid and me being together. i mean common, hes the star player of the football team, and hes a S E N I OR, what does a freshman have a chance with him for? yeah, thats right. i know you agree with me. but back to story. so after the whole prom shin dig, me and matt got to talking about the letter and he said it was two pages long, and that he's NOT going to get back together with her. let's see how long that lasts for. i bet i'll see them in the hallways holding hands and kissing by next tuesday. yeah BITCH . umm so after track Julie came home with me and me and rachel fought becuase of some shit on my myspace blog and then she told me shes sick of my shit and doesn't even want to be friends anymore?! yeah, don't be too sure that kara is going to stay around. remember it is the week, and as soon as armando gets his car you won't hear from kara ever again. they're going to be together all the time and your white ass is going to be bumped the fuck out, yeah rach. you know i'm right. so don't come crying to me . so she basically blamed the downfall of our "best friendship" on me, whatever it takes two to tango. i can play this game too. She said she didn't want to talk anymore. I'm going to show her the COLD SHOULDER tomorrow. so after that fight Julie decided she wanted to straighten her hair and i said it was fine.. and continued to fight with rach. then i got bored, put up an away and found myself doing Julie's makeup and hair. god shes so pretty, it's freaking amazing. i love her to death and i think she's gorgous . she should too.. but she doesn't and it's awful. i just wish i could fix everything for her =/ .. well .. IF matt comes on tonight i'm gonna be like Hey Matt, if i wrote you a love letter, woud you fall for me? ( jokingly ) ;D . i am one sly motha fuck aren't i? haha lol. well after that whole julie makup shin dig she left and i worked on my layout =) which i love so dearly and now im here, and its a nice 1019 and i have to still do my homework, which is only a little, clean up my room, and do my conformation summary's. Damn, too much work. post comment

school time [09 Feb 2005|09:37am] [ mood | headache? ] [ music | game music from sarah's computer- ehh ] hey, i'm in school, me and Dee are talking about about our boys... the usual =) ehh .. books are getting jammed in my locker. it's getting stuffed. matt had to get it out =p lol . hrmm .. well yeah i'm so confused when it comes to boys idk what i want, theres matt who i've been crushing on since like november after shane and i were completely over and then theres just the whole idea of going out and trying to get a new guy to fall for me. i really dont want to do that becuase it just takes too much time and matt is just so ughh.. perfect? yeah . i'm supposed to be working on my Ozone project for science. thats why i have internet access in third period. but i really dont feel like doing it becuase its POINTLESS and i hate working on important shit in school cause i can never concentrate. Julie and i talked on the phone a lot last night and we were getting along really well again =D yay. she's coming over after track tonight. should be extremely eventful mwahahaha . well i'm looking for codes to redo this blurty shit cause its so freakin ugly. i wanna put underoath as my background becuase i've fallen in love with them and they have this really cute hot pink and black thing, this kid on myspace has it for a shirt. i think i'm going to have to steal it from him . so if anyone decided to drop in and read my entries, feel free to comment. cause i do enjoy those. and PLEASE if you know the overrides for your blurty to make it in the center, to change the color to do ANYTHING please tell me =) <3 weeeenie_* post comment

school time [09 Feb 2005|09:37am] [ mood | headache? ] [ music | game music from sarah's computer- ehh ] hey, i'm in school, me and Dee are talking about about our boys... the usual =) ehh .. books are getting jammed in my locker. it's getting stuffed. matt had to get it out =p lol . hrmm .. well yeah i'm so confused when it comes to boys idk what i want, theres matt who i've been crushing on since like november after shane and i were completely over and then theres just the whole idea of going out and trying to get a new guy to fall for me. i really dont want to do that becuase it just takes too much time and matt is just so ughh.. perfect? yeah . i'm supposed to be working on my Ozone project for science. thats why i have internet access in third period. but i really dont feel like doing it becuase its POINTLESS and i hate working on important shit in school cause i can never concentrate. Julie and i talked on the phone a lot last night and we were getting along really well again =D yay. she's coming over after track tonight. should be extremely eventful mwahahaha . well i'm looking for codes to redo this blurty shit cause its so freakin ugly. i wanna put underoath as my background becuase i've fallen in love with them and they have this really cute hot pink and black thing, this kid on myspace has it for a shirt. i think i'm going to have to steal it from him . so if anyone decided to drop in and read my entries, feel free to comment. cause i do enjoy those. and PLEASE if you know the overrides for your blurty to make it in the center, to change the color to do ANYTHING please tell me =) <3 weeeenie_* post comment

school time [09 Feb 2005|09:37am] [ mood | headache? ] [ music | game music from sarah's computer- ehh ] hey, i'm in school, me and Dee are talking about about our boys... the usual =) ehh .. books are getting jammed in my locker. it's getting stuffed. matt had to get it out =p lol . hrmm .. well yeah i'm so confused when it comes to boys idk what i want, theres matt who i've been crushing on since like november after shane and i were completely over and then theres just the whole idea of going out and trying to get a new guy to fall for me. i really dont want to do that becuase it just takes too much time and matt is just so ughh.. perfect? yeah . i'm supposed to be working on my Ozone project for science. thats why i have internet access in third period. but i really dont feel like doing it becuase its POINTLESS and i hate working on important shit in school cause i can never concentrate. Julie and i talked on the phone a lot last night and we were getting along really well again =D yay. she's coming over after track tonight. should be extremely eventful mwahahaha . well i'm looking for codes to redo this blurty shit cause its so freakin ugly. i wanna put underoath as my background becuase i've fallen in love with them and they have this really cute hot pink and black thing, this kid on myspace has it for a shirt. i think i'm going to have to steal it from him . so if anyone decided to drop in and read my entries, feel free to comment. cause i do enjoy those. and PLEASE if you know the overrides for your blurty to make it in the center, to change the color to do ANYTHING please tell me =) <3 weeeenie_* post comment

=) [08 Feb 2005|10:29pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | beating heart baby_head automatica ] i had one of these things that i'd like to call a journal, like 2 years ago. i miss it dearly i could really use it . umm .. i'm not planning on telling anyone about this journal, this is for my eyes . and if someone is reading it then they know about my life. i'm not holding anything back anymore. this is for how i feel, and i'm not going to edit it to please other poeple, or hope that it doesnt hurt they're feelings. everyone can eat shit =) i still <3 you though ;D weeeenie_* post comment

=) [08 Feb 2005|10:29pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | beating heart baby_head automatica ] i had one of these things that i'd like to call a journal, like 2 years ago. i miss it dearly i could really use it . umm .. i'm not planning on telling anyone about this journal, this is for my eyes . and if someone is reading it then they know about my life. i'm not holding anything back anymore. this is for how i feel, and i'm not going to edit it to please other poeple, or hope that it doesnt hurt they're feelings. everyone can eat shit =) i still <3 you though ;D weeeenie_* post comment

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