Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in Ana Banana's Blurty:

Thursday, June 5th, 2003
9:56 am	haven't in a while Midnight - You are a deep thinker, always searching for answers and never quite at home. You are very contemplative, and enjoy being alone with your thoughts. When are you? brought to you by Quizilla My hormones are kind of out of whack. I am glad Kari suggested I get a blurty because I was starting to really filter my entries on LJ because certain people read it. I think I will only let Linda , D-D and Kari read this one. I haven't told anyone else yet. So I played around with two types of birth control. THe way it made me feel: unreal. I cannot believe that so many women take that stuff. No WONDER the divorce rate is so high. I felt so incredibly detached from Scot during that week it is scary. I actually cried myself to sleep one night because I truly felt he didn't love me. Never again will I take fake hormones for the sake of child prevention. Scot and I moved in together on May 23rd. I love love love the new apartment. We made it SOOOO kute. It is like one of those apartments that if I were to have visited it in high school I would have been like man I want my apartment to look like that someday. Scot built us a dining room table from scratch. He designed it and we went to Home Depot and got the wood. I stained and polyurethaned it. It is SO cool. It is oriental low style so you have to sit on the ground for it. I've never seen anyone have one and it is so awsome. I have it in the dining corner next to Scot's djembe. It looks so kute. Then I went to Ross and got these kute oriental couch corner tables. They are like cream and brown design. The one had a chip on the corner and they were both supposed to be $20 each. I asked for a discount on one and the guy was like yea you can have it for $5 (!!!) but he had to get it approved by his manager and I was like great she won't let him, but then she's like yea and give her the other for $10 because it is chipped around the edges (which I thought looked antique ha!) so I got both for $15 instead of $40. Moral: always ask for a discount just in case at Ross's, Marshalls, etc. We also have a screened in wood porch! It looks out onto a Cypress forest. So great. Okay, I know you girls appreciate this kind of rant, so I had to share. I can't wait until you visit. You are all welcome, but I know Kari is the most probable at this point. Kaytie is coming tomorrow to stay until Tuesday!!!! I am *so* excited. This Saturday we are having a party so everyone can see our new place and Kaytie will be here for that! We are going to take her kayaking too. Hope it doesn't rain! =/ Back to hormones. I feel like a slave to my sex. Sometimes, everything is so awful in life, and I feel like dancing. Other times, everything is more than one could even ask for, and I hate myself and life for no apparent reason. WHY??? I don't know. Depends on where I am on my cycle. Pooh. Okay, I guess I will get back to work. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: teller line sounds (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 26th, 2003
3:39 pm	new year Today is my birthday. Today is the birthday of my blurty. =) I wonder how i will make this different than live journal. Do I really have that much to say? I have been alive for two decades as of today. What have I done? I've had fun, loved, hated, thought, emancipated myself....all kinds of things, picked flowers, given hugs, made friends, lost friends, kept secrets, didn't keep secrets, depended on myself, depended on others... Painted my nails different colors... They say that if you don't come out with your first major philosophical publication by 24, you will never amount to much in the philosophy field. Some disagree. I wonder what else this applies to... Today it is Feb, 26 2003 and it is 84 degrees and sunny in Tampa, FL. I have a blank look on my face. Tonight I will go see a lecture by Bernard Williams who is a prof. from Fellow of All Souls College in Oxford , England talk on "History and Honesty." Besides being intriguing, it will give me 5 extra credit points in my Philosophy class.. I am happy about that. I will follow up with this tomorrow. As for birthdays, I think it goes downhill after 18, perhaps a jump at 21, but I cannot speak of what hasn't happened. Any 21 year olds care to agree or disagree? I got a 200 dollah check from mom along with some giraffe stickers to "remind me of my adolescent years" according to her...and some phone calls from others. Tessie got me a huge basket of Body Shop goodies. THAT was great. Thank you Kari, this is a fresh view...a new box to type my jive in. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Michael Jackson~Billie Jean (3 Comments |Comment on this)