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so cut off my arms and break my legs so i don't feel this anymore [12 Apr 2004|12:08pm]
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wow. i haven't updated in like forever. so much has been going on, i have been so busy. josh and i had his family here for a few days, and we were real busy with be counselors for the freedom experience. what an awesome event! i really hated it when it was over. i wish there were people here that were like all of the people that we met, josh and i really enjoyed talking to all of them. there were over 320 decisions over the 3 days the event was here.....that's so awesome dude! i did notice though while being a counselor that there were a lot of real young kids coming in that had no idea what they were that was kinda annoying, but hopefully they were able to understand that what they were doing was extremely important.

we also just got back from the ohio teens convention with the high schoolers. i actually had a pretty good time. man, i have been on such a spiritual high as of late....and it feels so incredible! i have never felt so right about things until now. i just want to praise God every single day of my life and to teach others about Him and His awesomeness. dude, He is sooooo amazing! i can't understand how people can go on in life without Him, with no purpose or point. i can't believe that i was like that once, i am so grateful that my eyes were opened.

i found out the other day that my cousin, Angie, her husband is being sent to afghanistan. man, this really sucks. they said that he will be gone for around 2 years! dude, 2 years! that is a heck of a long time. i would absolutely go insane if i weren't able to see josh for 2 years.....and they also have 2 young boys. that's going to be so hard for all of them, so please pray for them if you would. through all of this though, Angie has realized that she's missing something in her life. she has finally decided that she wants to start going to church and that she wants to know Jesus! man, when i heard this i just burst into tears. i was so overwhelmed with joy!!!! dude, this is just so amazing to me.....because she has never had Him in her life. i really want to be there for her, but i don't want to overwhelm i'm taking my time with her. i am just so excited for her.....her whole family definitely needs tons of prayer!

today has been a really blah day. haven't really felt like doing too much, it's raining and it's cold. i slept in today til 11......i have been so tired lately. got an email from my mom and dad, they sent me pictures of all of my neices. they had a dinner and an easter egg hunt over the weekend. dude, i miss my family so much! i just sat there and cried when i was looking at the pictures, it just makes me so upset because i hardly ever get to see them anymore. my parents are coming up this weekend though, so i'm super stoked about that! i am so glad that i have become so close with my family, i just wish that i would've always had that type of relationship with them.

i am absolutely loving married life! there isn't a day that goes by that i'm not thankful to God for what He has given me. He has been so good to me, and i owe Him absolutely everything for it. i'm not saying that my life is perfect, but i'm really trying to make the best of it. just because i have God in my life now, it doesn't mean that everything is going to be a-okay.....because it's not. we as christians suffer just as much as nonchristians.....and i believe that a lot of christians forget that. we aren't going to live through life without any problems or without any chaotic moments......we will definitely have those. i really liked this one sermon that al was preaching one sunday nite.....he said, "when something happens in our lives, God always provides an escape route, but we just have to look for it". i think that we just expect everything to be so easy, for everything to just be handed to us....but that's not how it's going to work. that's why living on the narrow path is so much more difficult than living on the wide road. we have to work, and we have to work hard to be on that narrow path. that's why so many people don't follow Christ because it's too hard and they would rather live their own ways because it's just easier that way. we need to keep our heads held high and we need to keep focused on our Lord, because without Him in our lives......there is no purpose. without Him we are just running around in circles, never getting anywhere.

Narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it. --Matthew 7:14


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