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[18 Feb 2004|04:24pm] okay new username *but i'm still on blurty not like some people cough allie cough* CantStopTheEmo everyone add me i'll add you back 4 comments|* Light Me Up *

did you hear he fucked her? [17 Feb 2004|05:32pm] [ mood | energetic ] [ music | Blink 182-Dammit ] Max Mike and Ryan are playing this song for the talent show <3 they're sex. Well, Mike and Max are sex. Ryans just there. Moving on. Today was so good...I got a B on my math test which I usually get like D's on..yeah I'm such a nerd, I studied. And gym was soo funny, I'm a champion ping pong player. Just ask Pam. We have soo much social studies homework tonight. Aaah I was talking about it to my friend Julia and i'm like "the only reason I go to social studies is because mr.stickle is hawwwt" and now all her friends are like "ew hes a teacher " and i'm like "yeah. but have you seen him?" Its pretty funny shit. Steve's away message, 'voice lessons, that's right, voice lessons, so screw you..' yeahhh thats to me. me & mike were making fun of him (come on, he takes voice lessons and he tap dances. you would have made fun of him too.) and fucking Ryan told him about it. But whatever its all good. One Tree Hill tonight...hellll yes. Yesterday I saw these two like 19 year old emo guys at the mall with their pants like half an inch above their ankles. So cute. 1 comment|* Light Me Up *

[15 Feb 2004|09:43pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Gavin Degraw ] Last night and today were sooo good I'm so happy :). Last night I was home alone and I watched Fatal Attraction - best movie ever. And a really good one to watch on Valentines Day. Then today I went shopping and I got this skirt from h&m, its black with pink polka dots and a pink cardnigan (sp?) to match. And I got a sweatshirt from Hollister. I <33 hollister, it smells so good in there. Wow, I'm weird. But anyway I was in their uber small dressing rooms having like a claustrophobia attack because I couldn't open the curtain and it was soo small and i'm so clasutrophobic - scary shit. But then they started playing Gavin Degraw and it relaxed me so it was all good ;). And then when I went to pay they were playing Ender by Finch and me and the hot guy with sex hair at the counted (who my mom later informed me was "so obviously gay. did you see his hair?" and i told her "no, mom, he was metrosexual. gay people don't listen to finch." do they? Not that I have a problem with gay guys or anything. Anyway. I got a charm bracelet and a hair tie with a pink plastic bow on it from h&m. And I got this other bracelet from some stand, and I got this choker made of that suede material with a rose on it and red and black ties. Its so cute! And I got some other stuff, and we ate at Johnny Rockets, the most fun restaurant ever. I played "hit the road jack" on the jukebox. And I got a checked belt from Hot Topic. The people who work there are soo nice. The girl was wearing a TBS shirt and she was like "oh, do you like them?" because she saw me reading it and we had this whole conversation about it it was so funny. And then I got home and Rules of Attraction was on and then I love the 80s strikes back was on! Yeah so that was the past two days. This is a really long entry. Sorry if you read all the way down here ;)! Happy day after valentines day guys! 4 comments|* Light Me Up *

[13 Feb 2004|11:33pm] i'm uber bored, so you're going to have to suffer through the scary details of my life. :x: name = leah :x: piercings = ears, tongue pierced in 4 more years ;) :x: tattoos = none :x: height= 5 feet. almost. shut up. :x: shoe size = 6 :x: hair color = dark blonde :x: siblings = none LAST... :x: movie you rented = bill & teds excellent adventure :x: movie you bought =bill & teds excellent adventure (for jordan) :x: song you listened to = three simple words -finch :x: song that was stuck in your head = degrassi theme song :x: cd you bought = copeland :x: cd you listened to = bright eyes :x: person you've called = erika :x: person that's called you = kaitlin :x: tv show you've watched = degrassi :x: person you were thinking of = max DO? :x: you have a crush on someone = kinda. :x: you wish you could live somewhere else = hell yes :x: you believe in online dating = hell no :x: others find you attractive = haha no. :x: you want more piercings = yes :x: you like cleaning = yeah, now that i think about it. :x: you like roller coasters = yeah :x: you write in cursive or print =print FOR OR AGAINST... :x: long distance relationships = only if you're really in love :x: using someone = against :x: suicide = for if thats what you really want :x: killing people = FOR :x: teenage smoking = against for all people :x: driving drunk = against :x: gay/lesbian relationships = whatever floats your boat :x: soap operas = i have enough drama in my real life. HAVE YOU... :x: ever cried over a girl = yeah, if you mean a girl thats a friend :x: ever cried over a boy = too many times to count :x: ever lied to someone = i'm practically a compulsive liar :x: ever been in a fist fight = no, i would get beat up reallll bad :x: ever been arrested = no WHAT... :x: shampoo do you use = tresemme :x: shoes do you wear = vans :x: are you scared of = lots of things NUMBER... :x: of times I have been in love? = i dont know what love is... :x: of times I have had my heart broken? = oh god... :x: of hearts I have broken? = probably none :x: of guys you've obsessed over who wouldn't date you= one :x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = like six :x: of scars on my body? = alot :x: of things in my past that I regret? = alot DO YOU THINK YOU ARE... :x: pretty - no :x: funny - no :x: hot - no :x: friendly - no :x: amusing - no :x: ugly - yes :x: loveable - no :x: caring - if i like you :x: sweet - to people i don't hate (which is like 1/6 of the people i know) :x: dorky - yes FAVORITE: 5 letter word: penis actor/actress: adam brody/scarlett johannesan Candy: sour gummy worms Cartoon: daria. my role model. Cereal: frosted flakes Chewing gum: orbit Color(s): black, red, hot pink Day of week: friday Least fave day: monday Flower: black tulips Jello flavor: the red one Jewelry: i have an obsession with weird bracelets Special skills/talents: sex. Summer/Winter: Summer Trampolines or swimming pools: definetly trampolines. || Person who last.. || Slept in your bed: me. Saw you cry: kellie Made you cry: steve You went to the movies with: kellie jordan and james Yelled at you: my mom Sent you an email: my cousin sara sent you an IM: mike || Have you ever.. || Said "I love you" and meant it?: yeah Gone out in public in your pajamas: haha yeah Kept a secret from everyone: yep Cried during a movie: all the time Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: helll no Planned your week based on the TV Guide: my whole life is based on tv Been on stage: dont remind me Been to New York: yeah, and never wanted to leave every time. Been to California: no but i've been to hollister, does that count? Hawaii: nope China: ewww Canada: ewww Europe: nope Asia: nope South America: nope Australia: nope Wished you were the opposite sex: no not really What time is it now?: 11:46 at night Apples or bananas?: apples Blue or red?: red Walmart or target?: target, walmart smells Spring or Fall?: spring What are you gonna do after you finish this?: brush my teeth and watch radio free roscoe What was the last meal you ate?: lunch, i skipped dinner High school or college?: college - columbia here i come babyy Are you bored?: not really Last noise you heard?: craig playing guitar Last smell you sniffed?: my nose is stuffy. Last time you went out of state/province?: dont remember || Friendship/Love || Do you believe in love at first sight?: YES! Do you want childrn one day & if so, how many?: NO! Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust || Other Info || Criminal record?: nope Do you speak any other languages?: spanish but not fluently Last book you read: the prince - niccolo machiavellie Identify some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: cds, stereo, guitar Thing you dislike about yourself the most: everything Worst feeling in the world: rejection, depression, jealousy Who you love: lots of people Who you miss: right now - kellie and kaitlin, they're both on vacation. in general - people from middlesex. || You || Nickname(s): none Initials: LRP How old do you look?: idk How old do you act?: about 6 Glasses/Contacts: contacts Braces: two more months Do you have any pets?: yeah You get embarrassed: all the time What makes you happy?: friends, music and emo boys What upsets you?: some people || Finish the sentence: || I Love... you. I Miss... lots of people. I Wish... i could fly I Hope... ohh god. I'm Annoyed by... this stupid survey. I Am...hungry. I Want to Be...spray painted I Would Never...cry again I'd Rather...be fucking *cough* I Am Tired of... being sick I Will Always be...depressed || Have you ever.. || Thought you were going to die: hmm Wanted to Run away: yeah Flunked a grade: haha not yet Skipped a grade: nope died: well thats a stupid question. 2 comments|* Light Me Up *

[12 Feb 2004|08:35pm] heyy guys! sorry i haven't updated, been busy with school, guitar, and cutting out pictures - i want to decorate one whole side of my wall my closet door that has a dent in it from the time someone punched it. *giggle* this weekend is going to suck, i can feel it. most of my friends are on vacation. all weekend i'm going to correct papers (my moms a teacher) and do shit around the house...i need cash mucho badly. Jets to Brazil CDs=the hardest CDs to find ever. someone hook me up with a store that has it! i'm going to the eye doctor saturday, box glasses here i come. yeahh baby! 3 comments|* Light Me Up *

Who came up with the idea of having friends anyway? [03 Feb 2004|03:44pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | Coheed and Cambria- Kinderwhore ] Today was...ehh..not that bad I guess. Pamela's Birthday :) Happy birthday babe i love you! I was just thinking about how I used to be really good friends with this guy. We got to be like best friends in like two weeks, we even hung out a few times - like outside of school. And then we went on Christmas break, and when we came back we never talked again. Whats up with that? Fucker. And then I used to be best friends with this other guy, and then all of a sudden his girlfriend thinks that I like him - which i totally fucking don't - so he stays away from me so his girlfriend doesn't get mad. That sucks. What a bad friend. Newsflash, sweetie: Your. Girlfriend. Is. A. Whore. She's a nice girl and all, but that doesn't change the fact that shes a slut. Fucker. Whatever...today in gym was so much fun. We have to do this dance, which we're so fully not doing. The teacher is so fucking retarded, this guy like comes up with her and starts grinding and she just starts laughing. Come on, throw him out, you know you want to. Fucker. I can't wait to get out of my school, these people are such...fuckers. =) 2 comments|* Light Me Up *

i lied my face of when i said i would be ok, i'm never fine when you go away [31 Jan 2004|01:20pm] [ music | alk3 - i lied my face off ] I'm baaaacckk! Sorry I haven't updated for awhile, I made an xanga cuz everyone has one (wow can we say follower?) but then i realized that was gay so here i am ;). According to Pam I have a virus or bug or something? So I'll forgive you guys if you can't comment ;) Whhatever. This week was so good, remember awhile ago when I said I wanted new guy friends? I got them! Yesterday I was talking to Justin like all Language Arts and then I walked with Anthony from lunch ...yeah i love those boys. I've been playing guitar so much lately, I can't wait to get my fucking fender. Today I think me Pam & Kellie are going to Chuck E Cheese (you're never too old!) and then me and pam are making our coolass adam brody shirts. I need to save up like $300 and go on a vintage spree in new york, and theres all these skirts from delias and shirts online that i want to get. Should I get one that says "Stick it to the man" or "Word to the mothership" or one with pics of slater and zack from saved by the bell and then it says heartthrobs on it? Or maybe I'll get all three. Oh, and I don't know if you still read this steve...but if you do then Happy Birthday! 2 comments|* Light Me Up *

we are lost in a clever game [23 Jan 2004|07:32pm] [ mood | optimistic ] [ music | Sunny Day Real Estate- One ] Home sick on a Friday night. Yeah, its fun being me. But its okay because talking on the phone with Steve totally made my day :). His mom started yelling at him. Haha. Listening to Sunny Day Real Estate and Texas is the Reason...yeah all the old bands that started emo. Jeremy Enigk's voice is fucking amazing. Wow there was just a bug on my computer screen like in the ring...scary shit man. I'm gonna go watch Daria. That chick kicks ass. the truth will not be denied. and it's strange how we're selling our time and we wait, we are lost in a clever game. running from our lives. and they lead us on, but if we try to lift up our eyes replacing the lies, we own this moment * Light Me Up *

and honey you should know that i could never go on without you... green eyes [22 Jan 2004|08:14pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Coldplay - Green Eyes ] Woah I was in such a good mood today for no reason. Fun stuff, fun stuff. I was totally looking forward to watching Friends tonight and then...its a repeat. But thats okay. Last night - The OC - I want to shoot the fucking Fox people! What the hell I can't live without these people for 3 fucking weeks! Whats with all the breaks? So today I'm walking and then all of a sudden I look up and there's not one but two girls all over the guy I like. And I mean all fucking over. Ew. But then I went home and was listening to all my old songs and wow I totally forgot about this song! I love Coldplay and I totally forgot about them. Its so funny though because this guy has green eyes and its my favorite thing about him and I thought it was interesting that I downloaded this song like "Oh, hey, this is Coldplay, I bet its good" like last year or something and now its like "Wow, this song is my life." Except not really. Sorry, not thinking straight. I think something might have changed with one of my friends today. Like something good. I'll let you guys know what it is when I figure it out. 1 comment|* Light Me Up *

There was nothing about today that didn't suck. [21 Jan 2004|02:47pm] [ mood | depressed ] I want new guy friends. Scratch that, I want all new friends. Except for a select few, everyone I know is a fucking asshole. They all deserve each other. Someone save me from this hell that people call school... * Light Me Up *

i feel like this song is in a commercial or something. anyone know? [20 Jan 2004|06:28pm] I was sick today. But I got my order from Drive-Thru so that made it all better. And I got to watch Dawson's Creek and Saved by the Bell and also Toy Story while I was waiting in my doctors office. Dawson's Creek... man I forgot how much I love that show. And today was such a good episode too. I wish my life was like Dawson's Creek. I want a fucking Dawson. And a Pacey. And a Jack. And a group of friends like they have. Nothing about being a teenager is the way they show it on the show, thats why I love it so much. I want season 2. And Saved by the Bell...wow I forgot how hot Zach is! He's like forty now but whatever...watching Saved by the Bell and Toy Story today were like childhood flashbacks. It was awesome, I love little kid movies. You know whats weird about Saved by the bell? You think Zach and Slater are like best friends but really the whole show they're competing over Kelly...I mean in DC its Pacey vs. Dawson but they're friends. Why am I even talking about this? One Tree Hill is back tonight!!! Hell yes, this show is the highlight of my life. Wow, its so sad how obsessed I am with television. Yeah, I'm cool like that. 4 comments|* Light Me Up *

you and me babe, how about it? [16 Jan 2004|06:58pm] [ music | Dire Straits - Romeo & Juliet ] This song rocks like woah. Download it. I think its on the Empire Records soundtrack. Today was...ehh. I told Steve something I shouldn't have told anyone. But he won't tell anyone. I don't think. Tomorrow Kellie and I start the celebration ;). Fun. And then Monday everyones going to Kellies. More fun. This weekend should rock. Should is the key word there. Anyone know any movies that don't have pirates (which would distract Max) or pretty girls (which would distract all the guys) but hot guys (which would be fun for me Kel Jordan Lauren Pam Jen and Kaitlin)? Well, not so much Jen, she has Mike, so chances are they'll be distracted with each other no matter what. Not like anyone cares. Me and Kaitlin were discussing how bizarre it is that she has this gorgeous guy and she still feels the need to flirt with Justin and others constantly. "If I had Mike, my hands would be all over him for the rest of my life"-Kaitlin. Haha, I love that girl. So back on topic, anyone know any movies like that? We couldn't think of any. Maybe a scary one. Hmm... 5 comments|* Light Me Up *

my friend justin told me to listen to bad religion. so i am. [16 Jan 2004|03:47pm] [ music | Bad Religion - Walk Away ] The Movielife broke up. As if my life didn't suck enough already. I want one of those shirts that says Brand Nizzle on it. Better go, my chinese food just got delivered :) 1 comment|* Light Me Up *

you figured it was cool and you figured wrong [15 Jan 2004|03:01pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | the movielife - kellys song ] We had a snow day today. Woo fucking hoo. I love doing the opposite of what everyone else is doing, so since everyones away message was like "out in the snow!! YEAH!!" I had "are these snowflakes or solid tears?" from this song. Haha. I hate snow anyway. Everyone has an xanga now. Whatever. I finished my story, in the end the girl kills herself. I love writing. Holy shit, I just put my headphones on and I didn't realize the volume was all the way up, I think I'm deaf now. That's fucking great. Last night I was talking to Steve and he thinks I should tell Max. I probably should anyway, but who has enough confidence to do that? Not me. I think Steve knows something about him that I don't. He was like "leah i bet you'd have a chance with him.." but still, what if I don't? I wouldnt even know how to tell him anyway. I was playing guitar for like 2 hours, I feel so relaxed. This weekend is official Leah and Kellie weekend (don't ask.) I can't wait, we're going shopping and everything and then on Monday everyone's coming over her house. I think. The guys are being duechebags, but we'll talk them into it. 2 comments|* Light Me Up *

i just got hit on by some 20 year old guy at drive-thru records! story of my life... [13 Jan 2004|05:06pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | the movielife - face or kneecaps ] "hi, i'd like the drive thru crash sweatshirt and trucker hat, please" "oooh, the crash sweatshirt. thats a hot one, but its out." "okay, then can i have the arrow one? and the trucker hat" "wow, people really wear those trucker hats?" "yeeeah." "ooh, you one of those vingate chicks?" ::laughs:: "somethin like that" "you old enough to have credit cards?" "um. yes. ::reads off number::" "cool. call me back some time, its been kinda slow today" "i'll do that." like we needed another reason to prove that the people at drive-thru records are superior to the rest of the world. haha, that was so much fun. i should call back tomorrow and order a poster. * Light Me Up *

so slice open my veins and let the romance leak away [12 Jan 2004|03:46pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | Senses Fail - Bloody Romance ] my heart stopped, it just stopped beating. and for the first time in my life i had that feeling, that feeling you know like the world is moving all around you, all beneath you, and all inside you and you're floating. floating in mid air and the only thing keeping you from drifting away is the other person's eyes. there connected to yours by some invisible physical force and they hold you fast while the rest of the world swirls and twirls and falls completley away. - Flipped That is the only thing I've ever read in my life that actually conveys that feeling. I love this book so much, its awsome. Read it. Is it me or am I always talking about books? I'm such a dork. Today was... a day. I finished my research for this project we're doing, and spent the whole rest of the period staring at this teacher I'm in love with. He's sooo gorgeous, me & Ashley and some other people are obsessed with him. Hehe. I'm so weird. I conversed (haha, is that even a word?) with Max at lunch. Whhhatever. Jen and Mike are going out. Whhhatever. I'm glad for them, really. I talked to John, Kellie's boyfriend, online and on the phone (with kellie) for awhile. He's actually a pretty cool kid. I think on Monday (we have off from school cuz its Martin Luther King day wahhooo) a bunch of us (me, Kaitlin, Jordan, Pam, Mike, Max, Ryan, John) are going to hang out at Kel's house. We didn't formally invite everyone yet, but it should be fun. Kellie plays bass now, and she sucks, so she's coming to guitar club with me Jordan, Jenna, and Christen. I'm not sure how I feel about that, it was always kind of me and Jordan's thing and now its going to be the two of them. Whatever, no problemo, I'll talk to the scary punk kids. I <3 scary punk kids. 2 comments|* Light Me Up *

fall out boy - the pros and cons of breathing [11 Jan 2004|09:39am] Bury me standing under your window with this cinder block in hand cuz no one will ever feel like this again and if i could move i'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you i must have dragged my guts a block, they were gone by the time we i want to hate you half as much as i hate myself you know that i could crush you with my voice stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me hide the details i dont want to know a thing i hate the way you say my name like it's something secret my pen is the barrel of a gun, remind me which side you should be on I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel. 2 comments|* Light Me Up *

i'm willing to break myself to shake this hell from everything i touch [10 Jan 2004|07:30pm] [ mood | angry ] [ music | Break Myself - SoCo ] So I'm on the phone with Kaitlin, when we come across Steve's away message: mike showed me all the red scabs of his cutting problem. up close. gruesome dude. and this on steve's profile: Dabomaman: i told you i cut myself Dabomaman: you saw my scars yeah mike, i sure did. Now what logical conclusion would you come to? Since I'm not online, Kaitlin, being the concerned friend of Mike's that she is, instant messages Max and asks him, very nicely, what the fuck steve is talking about. According to Max, it was a joke. "It wasn't supposed to get you guys" -Max Haha. I'm just on the fucking floor with laughter. Pretending (if, in fact, it was a joke and max can be trusted which i very highly doubt) that their best friend (and one of mine too, really) is hurting himself is a joke. Thats fucking hilarious, good one guys. You've sucessfully accomplished your mission, which was obviously to flip out all of Mike's friends and reek emotional havoc. I'm so mad I'm surprised my hands aren't shaking too much to type this. Anyone have any idea how the fuck this is classified as joke? Ha-fucking-ha. * Light Me Up *

i'm tired of looking up into those starry eyes [08 Jan 2004|03:12pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | OK Go - C-c-c-cinnamon lips ] Today was such a bad day its amazing. Steve's ignoring me. His decision, I guess. No problemo. And then his whole xanga entry (not that it was that long, but still) is about me and whats up with that? Well I guess I'm writing about him in this but its different because its not my whole entry. And I'm not mad at him. Whatever. Its not that big a deal. So guess who's back from Colorado? Yeah, that would be Max. I talked to him like once all day. But I kept seeing him in the hallway, and not even kidding, every time I saw him I started crying. Not like sobbing bursting out in tears, but still crying. Our table is next to his at lunch, and I literally had to leave the table because I couldn't take it. And then the lunch lady wouldn't give me a pass to the bathroom so I had to like scream at her. Why was I crying? Any ideas? Its not like he did anything really mean to me. He should be the one crying, Jen broke up with him. So I'm drawing a blank here. But its okay because we have to do this whole big research paper and me and Mike have the same topic so we're kinda working together. They put us in these tables where they don't want us to talk, and mine is me, Ashley and Jordan. Who are they kidding? Kellie got me this great book today. She ordered it for me, and she already got me a christmas present and all. So I got a present for no reason :) Its called - Nothing Feels Good - Punk Rock, Teenagers, and Emo Check it out, its about this guy and he goes on tour with Dashboard and stuff. Its really good. Hope everyone's day was better than mine... 2 comments|* Light Me Up *

and i'd like to see you undone [06 Jan 2004|02:51pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | Dashboard Confessional - The Swiss Army Romance ] Holy shit. I'm alone in my house and I keep hearing someone calling me, like from downstairs. If I don't update for a really long time, its because I was murdered. Just another fun event to add to today's crap. You know how in movies people always say "Well, at least it can't get any worse" and then it gets worse? I did that today. About 30 times. This whole thing is just stupid. I think I should just stop talking to Mike, Max, Ryan, Steve, and Jen all together. Next time they talk to me, I'll just say "No habla ingles" or whatever. Yeah, that sounds good. Yeah, Steve's friends with Mike now. Sounds like fun, doesn't it? I hate when other people steal your friends. Wow, that sounded so stupid. Really, though, doesn't it bother you when you know someone forever (Pamela you'll remember this because its what happened with Andy in 6th grade) and then suddenly all your other friends are going ::imitates stupid valley girl voice:: "Oh. My. God. Isn't he the coolest guy you've ever met? I, like, think I, like, love him!" ::my regular voice:: "Um. Didn't I tell you that like a year ago?" Assholes. In geometry, (yeah, this is what i do in math- and i wonder why i'm failing) I was writing this story like Heartbreakers (if you haven't seen that movie then you won't get it i guess) kind of, and its all my "friends" (and some of the people who aren't my friends) who like Jen but I changed their names and then they all fall in love with her, and she pulls a Susan Sarandon or whoever the hell it was in that movie, and steals their money. Sounds fun, doesn't it? Its extremely satisfying to watch all my "friends" get their hearts broken. I'm such a great friend, aren't I? It doesn't matter. Its just a story. I'm not going to turn it in or anything. But, hey, if it makes me feel better, why not? I love writing. 3 comments|* Light Me Up *

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