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[28 Apr 2003|01:43pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | cold-stupid girl ]

I wish i went to school today instead of the doctor. Bleh, needles make me gag. Hmmm..My head hurt. im gonna go take a nap. bye

you fucking whore... i dont love you anymore

[27 Apr 2003|10:20am]
[ mood | geeky ]
[ music | alice in wonderland-a very merry unbirthday to you! ]

a very merry unbirthday! to you!!!! who me? yes you! oh me!

HAHA my stepmoms birthday today! shes old! hahaha!

i dont love you anymore

Pretty!! [20 Apr 2003|05:11pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | GC-My bloody valentine ]

New look...All thanks to my new best friend!!! Thank you!!!

i dont love you anymore

Dreams [18 Apr 2003|03:43pm]
I had a crazy fucked up dream last night. Well two. But this is the one that stuck in my head.

I don't remember where i was. But there were people pricking themselves with little darts, after they were pricked they went to into a room and sat there with a certain number a minutes left to live. This was their choice. It was like..a suicide getaway. I wanted to join in..So I got into line and was pricked with the dart. I was given a little timer, which read 10 minutes. I went into the room and saw everyone there. Friends and family. I was given 5 minutes to say my goodbyes. And the last 5 minutes I just sat there, waiting for the end. It seemed like I sat there forever. As i watched the countown it became harder for me to breathe. I thought, well this was easy...why hadnt i done it sooner? Suddenly everything became black and I woke up.

My other dream was similar, deathwise. It was short, but very strange.

I was lying in a hospital bed with a few friends, and my family standing around me. Then the little heart moniter suddenly slowed down until it was that long beeeeeeeeeeeeep. Next thing I remember i was kinda floating above my body watching them laugh at me and celebrate that I was finally gone.

Well that was it.
you fucking whore... i dont love you anymore

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