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mwahahaha, its what...2 years later, and IM STILL ALIVE MOTHA FACKOS! =D do i still have any friends up in here? hmmmm. mmk byebye now.
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[16 Oct 2003|09:57am] |
So I'm finally back at school. Argh, it sucks. I have a lung infection from smoking. The doctor told me to quit, and if i'm still coughing up blood in a week to go back and get meds. Ahh i hate the doctor. He smells funny. My hearing is all messed up too.
Me and my stepmom had a big fight this morning. My neighbors came out and told us to shut up because we woke them up. It started cuz last night I went for a walk and she freaked out and thought that I went to a friends house, I heard her scream out the door that she was calling the cops. So I went back into the house and she told me that i dont get any lunch money, and dont get to eat the food in the house, so now i dont have anything to eat. grr. But yeah anyways, I went out to her car this morning to get the deodorant that i bought and she RAN out to the car and slammed the car door shut and said "STAY THE FUCK OUT OF MY CAR" i dont know if i wanna go back home. but i have nowhere else to go.
oh well, im done.
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[02 Oct 2003|09:54am] |
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MeOw! HEeHEHEHe!
IM hYPER! aND I kEEP HItTING THE cCAPS LOCK Key! HAH, Im TypEING ALL FUnKY!
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[25 Sep 2003|09:29am] |
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I went over to Hollie's yesterday to do my Biology project, but I forgot my Bio book so i couldnt do any of it. duuuuh! i'm so stupid sometimes! She let me drive her truck. Ahh! I suck at backing up. Lol, I kept thinking that i was gonna hit a tree. We started a fire. yay!!! so now my sweatshirt smells like smoke. Hehe. Smells good! Tj went to go get cigs...Hollie gave him $5 to buy ME cigs..but instead he bought himself some. I was like WHAT THE FUCK! I was so pissed off at him I wanted to slap him. I'm still angry at him. Growl.
Hmmm...I hope Jacob can come to homecoming! That would kick so much ass! Hehe. I love that boy.
Everyone is yelling at me because I don't go to school everyday. Grrrs! I'm sorry if I'm lazy and want to sleep. Ha. I'm never gonna pass school. !>.
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[19 Sep 2003|10:00am] |
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yes, this class is boring. but at least we can go on the computers. yay! well um.....
i going camping after school today with hollie, tj, rob and melodie. i hope theres no fighting if there is, i willl lock everyone in the tent and run away. hehehehe. im evil.
well yeah, thats pretty much all i have to say..except that I LOVE JACOB, and um, im HIS property. not yours.
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[12 Sep 2003|09:58am] |
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I'm sitting here in School within a School. Blah, this class is so boring. GRRs!!! I have Seminar 11 next. Blah, we get to talk about our Goals. *rolls eyes* I don't have a goal lol. oh wells...i gonna go. how come nobody comments here anymore?!
bye
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| take that! |
[29 Aug 2003|05:04am] |
Mmmmmm, cookies. :: drools ::
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[12 Aug 2003|05:16pm] |
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Boys are stupid. I want him so bad, want to be near him, to have him hold and kiss me. But I know he doesn't like me. I'm too scared to ask him. Ah, why do I have to be so damn shy?!
Oh, and that is me in the icon. ;X
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| yeah..whatever |
[31 Jul 2003|06:54am] |
Well..this game is frustrating me...Final Fantasy X. GRR! I cant beat the stupid flower thing! lol...I want to give up..yet i want to beat the fucker. DIIIIE! Its spitting this stupid sparkly shit out at me.. NoOoO!
I died...Humph... Must resist..dont use cheat codes...RESIST!
Yeah, i know its 6:30 in the morning..haha video games rule. I don't knwo why i ever stopped playing them. ::pause::
Today is my brothers 6th birthday. I cant believe its been 6 years already. WOW. it went by so damn fast :( hehe hes my little secret keeper now. I tell him EVERYTHING. lol...yeah. 6 fuckin years.
i want my parents to get a divorce. SOON. actually....no. cuz then i would be stuck with my stepmom, who doesnt even talk to me..doesnt let me go out, EAT or talk on the phone. And if i go with my dad...well it would be okay..as long as hes not drunk and pissed off =\ but right now i just want them both to go to hell and leave me the fuck alone.
=\ i have a bruise..why must i bruise so damn easily..stupid blood coagulation shit. I hate my fucking blood...most of it isnt even mine..its disgusting. I have someone elses blood in me :S Jason came over and hes like...lets take that shit out of you...so we did..we took alot of fucking blood out =\ call me fucked up..w/e
I WANT TO GO TO SLEEEEEP! i think im an insomniac... :\
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[31 Jul 2003|04:31am] |
I want to cuddle with someone...Anyone.
I'm in need of good physical attention....
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| fuck you |
[31 Jul 2003|02:49am] |
fuck you, fuck me, fuck us, FUCK everybody.
I don't need your shit. So just FUCK off.
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[24 Jul 2003|04:27pm] |
HI!
My face is cold. So are my fingers.
BRR!
my cat says hi.
there is a squished bug on my moniter that I refuse to wipe away. *licks lips* yummy.
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[21 Jul 2003|03:07pm] |
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God, I need to quit smoking...I want to, but I won't...Grr!
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[15 Jul 2003|06:06pm] |
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I'm sick of always being nice to people when they don't deserve it. They treat me like shit, and only use me, and I do everything I can for them. No thanks from anyone.I'm tired of just being the "backup girl". If something doesnt work out with another girl, who does he come to after completely humiliating me and making me feel horrible? Yeah. ME. Well I'm not going to take it anymore! I hate always having to apologize for stuff that I didn't do.
And to top it off, I'm completely disgusted with myself. I look in the mirror and cry. I'm fat, and ugly. I cut and burn myself because I'm already ugly, and I deserve the ugly scars, and pain. People tell me otherwise, but I don't belive it. I believe what I see, and what I've been raised to think of myself. All through middle school I was teased. I would go home and cry, and beg my parents to take me out of school. The school councelers would always call home saying that I needed "outside help" but of course I never went. My dad denyed that his daughter was in need of help. He didn't want to waste his time and money.
Right now, I don't even want to have a birthday/goodbye party anymore. But I don't just want to cancel it because I actually have a few people that might care about seeing me before I move. Idk...maybe It'll change.
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| My Reflection |
[14 Jul 2003|11:22pm] |
Argh! I hate it!
The reflection is horrible.
Disgusted with what I see,
I start to cry.
Sad because I can't love myself for who I am.
Angry because of what I have been given.
I feel so frustrated.
It shows me what i've been denying for years.
Shatter the reflection,
I don't want to see it.
I don't want to see the truth.
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| Lalala |
[13 Jul 2003|10:42am] |
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Ahh. I'm always sneezing! Make it stop!
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[14 Jun 2003|05:20pm] |
So, whats new with me? NOTHING. Eh..Moving is gonna suck. :( I want to run away. Far far away and never come back.
I'm tired. I havent slept at all since 9am yesterday. But Earl and Jeppe are comin over!! WEE! I'm gonna go..bye
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[27 May 2003|04:02pm] |
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Hum...been awhile since i updated. Why did i even make a blurty? .
bleh. i want school to be over. make it go away.
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[05 May 2003|04:46pm] |
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im cold....BRRRRR. somebody warm me up ;)
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| fill this out bitches |
[30 Apr 2003|04:25pm] |
>******Opinions******
>Am i fat?-
>Am i sweet?-
>Am i crazy?-
>Am i lovable?-
>Am i funny?-
>Am i ugly?-
>Am i psycho?-
>Am i annoying?-
>Am i a good person?-
>******Would You******
>Hug me?-
>Miss me if i was gone?-
>Listen to my problems?-
>Hug me if i cried?-
>Be a good friend?-
>******Would You (Opposite Sex Only)******
>F**k me if ya could or wanted too?-
>Ever go out with me?-
>If you already have would u do it again?-
>Kiss me ((Really))?-
>Marry me if u could?-
>Ever talk bad about me if we ever break up?-
>******How Well Do U Know Me?******
>When's my birthday?-
>How old am I?-
>What school do I go to?-
>Do i have any siblings?-
>Who is my most current ex?-
>Who is my best friend?-
>Who am i crushing on/dating?-
>Favorite color?-
>What is my worst subject?-
>Best subject?-
>Am i still a virgin?-
>who was it?
>Favorite sport?-
>Favorite TV show?-
>Favorite song/songs?-
>Favorite music group?-
>******Who Am I******
>What TV star do i most remind u of?-
>What song would u dedicate to me?-
>What famous person do I most resemble?-
>******If You Could...******
>Give me a new name it would be?-
>Hook me up with someone(real) who would it be?(NON-MOVIE STAR)
>Do one thing with me it would be?-
>Drop me one piece of advice it would be?-
>******Just A Few Questions******
>What do u love about me?-
>What do u hate about me (seriously)?-
>What is my best quality?-
>What is your honest opinion about me?
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