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Thursday, November 11th, 2004
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5:44 am - The Pilgrim
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Traveling without looking back
shadows moving around you but you pretend not to see them
instead you follow those lights that you see
you let your feet carry you anywhere it leads you
and then you walk on and on and on
until you reach to the end of the street
you take a step back
you stare at the signboard Dead end it says
So you take a step back
you take an alternate route
hoping that this time you'd see something worth of your time
on and on and on and on
you walk and walk
you fade in with the crowd
you watch them as they move about
as they go on with their lives
as they move on each step of the way
hoping the tide will carry you to its arms
every road leads to different kinds of adventure
signs, are they coincidental or are they here to mock you?
you tell you heart not to listen to them
you tell yourself that you are in control
lost again
there's no time to walk away
no time to escape as you used to
but then you realize that what you're looking for is not a companion
and not even a lover
you are not even alone
that is just a state of mind
your tears were never a waste
so as your pain
and then you realize that the person that you seek
is you.
-04/08/04
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| Friday, November 5th, 2004
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3:26 am - Next year, I will sport this mask on halloween.
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| Thursday, November 4th, 2004
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7:54 pm - worthless entry #-00001
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Yay! The new layout's finally up!!!
Yung ibang link, 'di ko pa masyadong naayos. Sa ngayon, nilagay ko muna yung Dailies sa userinfo ko. ^__^v
N.B.:
As for the pending layout, I'll get it fixed right away. ^.^v;
current mood:  sleepy
current music: The sound of the drill?
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| Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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2:03 pm - Missing (part 1)
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I had a strange cat before. He curls up on a couch and makes sure that the electric fan is blowing through his direction and he pees on the bathroom---floor. We didn't train him. He goes in and out of the house as he please.
He was often rejected by the female felines, I guess he was too soft for them, they'd rather go for the aggressive alpha male---the orange one. Or could be that, they have no choice at all?
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One day, last October 2003. The cat didn't show up.
No cat on the couch. No shit on the bathroom floor. No gentle purr.
We assumed he went sight-seeing. Or maybe mate-hunting.
Days, weeks and months passed by. Still no cat in sight.
"Ma, baka na-siopao na si Miming?" I asked.
My mom could only sigh. "Baka napatay siya ng mga aso ng kapitbahay natin?"
"Baka nagutom? Sobrang payat na yun ngayon, parang anorexic." I supplied.
We waited for his return. But still no miming.
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Rest in Peace, gaygay. May the cat heaven provide you happiness that you deserve.
current mood:  contemplative
current music: Find your way back home - Dishwalla
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| Saturday, October 16th, 2004
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11:25 pm - Sa wakas!!! TT____TT
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| Friday, October 8th, 2004
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10:51 am - EARTHQUAKE!!!!
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Oh god! Ang lakas ng lindol...I'm scared. I'm waiting for an aftershock.
It's weird that this afternoon, I had a feeling that there'll be an earthquake.....
Pero bago ang lahat patapusin muna nila ako sa thesis ko! Waaah!!!!
current mood:  shocked
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| Monday, September 27th, 2004
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10:52 am - 30-min break (a cross-post between thesis and sanity)
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| Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
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4:44 pm - lalalalalalalalala!!!
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...can't say last week was my worst. It's my bad bad mood. It's spoiling everything and I can't say that I've been a good company to my friends. Sigh....
I would love to get these mumbo jumbos off me. I end up staring into space. Again. It's one of the things that I don't like about myself, add the fact that I may be half-listening to any of you (and the other half of my mind may be flying off somewhere.) Aside from that, I'm surprised at how I easily get annoyed over petty things. Gyuuu. Kulang na lang giyerahin ko ang mga tao dito nung isang araw. lol! But they were patient enough to keep up with me though... Ayoko naman ng ganito, mainit ang ulo. Masisira lang ang "beauty" ko nito.
Argh. I know. I know the reason why I'm like this. *bangs head on the wall*
Bah! Enough of the drama! If you're all bored, (dahil bobo ako sa math...) be a sweetie and solve this thing for me XD!!!:
( Problem solving: Nasaan ang piso? )
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Kung hindi niyo na-solve yan, eto na lang ang pag-tripan niyong gawin:( Introducing... )
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I hope I can sleep well this time. Ooooh stress. I must love stress. :D Oooh I forgot! Hindi pa pala ako naliligo ngayong araw na 'to! Good thing hindi pa ako naja-jabar (yung najajabar na may putok na halo--hindi pa naman). Bwahahaha! Ligo lang kailangan ko.
*slaps blurty's slow server*
current mood:  dorky
current music: Napakasakit Kuya Eddie
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| Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
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12:08 pm - Remind me to kick my lazy ass.
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Three papers are due today.
Today. With a capital T.
And guess what? Wala pa akong nauumpisahan!
I feel so lazy I could lie on the floor and crawl like a caterpillar.
Maybe I should get myself soaked in the rain?
Rain. Sheesh. I hate the rain.
Wait?
What the hell am I doing here???
O_O Must fight laziness! Rawr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nb.
Meet Emmerich, my new hardisk. Mucho thanks to my brother bear, he made the back-up process (of me files) easier for yours-truly.
current mood:  lazy
current music: The Fool on the Hill - The Beatles
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| Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
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12:51 am - A bad case of insomnia + In dire need of a heart donor
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I feel weird. Really weird. I can't seem to breathe well.
There's something stuck in my throat, and my chest hurts at the same time.
I haven't had any decent sleep lately. Argh. I've tried to sleep but I can't.
I need to rest. I need to recharge my batt. AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHH! This is pure torture man! This is torture!!! Please let me sleep. TT___________TT Please!!!
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N.B. I hope my collection of jazz mp3s would hail me to sleep.
current mood:  aggravated
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| Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
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11:48 pm - Old habits die hard. (Whooops! No more excuses!)
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Research eh? Well, I'm supposed to. Supposed to? Errr. Not. I don't want to complain about stuff, I mean, hey, I almost have the complete materials for my thesis. Hmmm...am I imposing this pressure on myself? I really have nothing to worry about except, I have to work hard and enjoy what I'm doing at the same time.
To make this entry short, I'm becoming lazy again. =_= Nooo. Must fight laziness. Must be productive. Must. But dang, sleep is so good. Blogging is addicting. Ahahaha. What the hell! Argh!
Anyhoo, my "love-yourself" campaign is starting to work. At least, in the pampering side. >_> Hey it pays to be a little "vain"! *cough* *cough* Not too much though. >_>
Mukha atang wala ng patutunguhan 'tong entry na 'to. Wahahaha!
G'night everyone!
( What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? )
May najajabar sa gilid. Mabuti pang takpan ko ang ilong ko!
Hungry as a monster.
Ganito ako pag na-iinlove! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Beware!!! (Ang sagwa! Wahahaha!)
Nakita ko na yung kay Carlo. Kamukha niya nga! ^_^ Yung icons ko sa taas, 'wag kayong maniwala na ako yan! Wahahahah. Kunwari ganyan ako ka-cute. Pa-feel good effect ba? Anyways try nyo rin, eto yung link: ze icons
At isa pang pahabol. Last na lang talaga ito! As in! Ninakaw ko kay Presea:
( Memes. )
current mood: lazy
current music: CAMPFIRE SONG - Spongebob Squarepants & Patrick Star
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| Friday, June 25th, 2004
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1:21 am - Scribbling fear.
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I stare at my notebook blankly, eager to fill out each pages with words of inspiration, of dreams and of foolish what-nots. The funky design depicts a feel of challenge. Skateboards, snowboards and surfboards. The exhilerating thrill of soaring high, not mindful of the impending danger. The color yellow---a fiery symbol of positivity. A burning passion for the craft.
The words: Go where others fear to tread.
I then snap out of my so-called rationale.
...I'm challenging myself to make a clean record this year. No late projects, no tardiness, and no absences. Ha ha ha! Impossible? It is possible! Not unless I fall off the stairs or something. Heh, let's not hope for that to happen.
Funny how I fight off urges of slacking off, the old me would've died of the thought that I have to literally wake up in the wee hours of the morning and get my brain intact for the first class. As for the weird feeling, I try to yank it off, anyhow. I can't complain. Complaining's a waste of time and it's a sick excuse for my sorry ass.
I can't back-out now.
Sometimes, when I feel like giving up, I give myself a mental pat on the back and I remind myself that I've gone through hell to be here.
I can't fuck up everything just because I'm scared too take that risk. It's a shame, really. I've failed a lot of times. Wallowed in frustration, disappointment, and pessimism. I've deprived myself of almost everything, in fact: the right to express myself, to speak out and to believe in myself.
I know it'll be a long shot, I'm starting to get things in order---even if it means to walk to that path that I always fear to walk on. It's nice to think about the future. To set one's goals, make plans, but then who knows? They might change halfway. Now that's what I call life's small surprises. Well, I'll always remind myself to stick to reality although I'm prone to daydreaming. Hahaha!
I have to prove to myself that I can and I will.
And so, as the saying goes, "Go where others fear to tread."
current mood: sleepy
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| Friday, June 18th, 2004
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6:26 pm - Teasing the idle mind
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I don't know what came into me, but here it is! I've made a new layout for my journal. I guess it looks better from the previous one. ^_^; Ahahaha, I have nothing much to write really. My mood (so far) has changed a bit, I guess I'll get the hang of it anyway. Speaking of getting which, I'm quite surprised at myself a while ago. Believe it or not, I found myself in the library. There I was, with some unknown force drawing me into that place (blah), I snagged four books which is by the way---not even related with my course. I borrowed four (five lang kasi ang limit sa amin) and I don't know if I'll just stare at them or start reading them. Man. I must be possessed by some spirit or something.
Here's what I borrowed from the library:
1) Wind, Sand and Stars by Antoine de Saint-Exupery
2) Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov (naalala ko tuloy si  bottleofrum :P)
3) Daydreams & Nightmares (A fearless anthology of Italian short stories)
4) The Dark Arena by Mario Puzo
At least this'll be a good start to unwind eh? Hahaha. Tell me guys, alin sa kanila ang uunahin kong babasahin? O_o;
current mood: walang magawa
current music: The Reason - Hoobastank
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| Sunday, June 6th, 2004
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1:21 pm - System Hiatus?
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I'll be offline for a while T_T
...thank goodness my brother Sasquatch agreed to fix my pc. Whoohoo! ^_^Y
Gah I just hate those stupid porn pop-ups, they're jamming my comp's system. May bigla na lang sumusulpot na kung anu-anong links sa bawat page na binuksan ko and...theres this xxx dialer thingy on my desktop, nabura ko na nga, sumusulpot pa rin! Grrrr!!!!!!!!!
I guess that would be all for now...I'll just bum around and relish my well-earned rest... about my allergies, okay na sila, hindi na sila nangangati! Hohoho.
So I guess I'm off to TV surfing again and yeahhhhh...pigging out! TT_TT gusto kong mag-chicken joy! Waaah! TT_TT Ang sarap kumain! Huhuhu. Ang hirap pigilan, pero kailangan! O_O! Sniff!
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Be well guys! ^^
current mood:  hopeful
current music: Balisong - Rivermaya
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| Thursday, June 3rd, 2004
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3:43 am - Akala ko okay na.
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Akala ko okay na.
Akala ko hanggang lambot lang ng buhok ang matatamasa ko sa tubig na iyon...'yun pala meron pa
may kasama siyang isa pang pabaon, mga allergies na ngayon pa lang sumusulpot
Late reaction 'tong balat kong kasing kapal ng kalabaw
Waaah! Ang k-katiiiiiiiiiiiii!
Ang sarap kamutin ng mga allergy ko. Kumalat na talaga sila.
Now if you'll excuse me...magkakamot lang ako dito at maya't maya'y matutulog na rin ako.
ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
current mood: itchy
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| Monday, May 31st, 2004
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12:40 am - Hair conditioner
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There are 1001 ways of acquiring a beautiful, smooth and shiny hair. Some would resort to coconut oils, hot oils, conditioners, and whatever hair oils available in the market. But...would you believe me if I tell you that I've acquired a smooth and manageable hair just by swimming in a chlorine-rich swimming pool?
Hell yes! It's my first time to see (and feel) my hair so daym smooth while in the pool. Last Saturday, my hs friends and I went to a nearby cheap resort, a few miles away from our traffic-stricken town. Well, I guess it's just one of the highlights of my summer---I'll have like, two weeks of vacation before the start of the schoolyear. Hmmm, so going back to my topic, I'll fill you in about the secrets of that hair treatment we've had in the pool:
Night swimming conversation:
Hs friend #1: Uy, napansin 'nyo ba na ang lambot ng hair natin?
Me: OO nga 'no. *touches hair* eh di ba dapat matigas ang buhok
natin pag nasa pool tayo?
HS friend #2: *giggles* OO nga *shifts her gaze to a "cutie"
swimming nearby.*
Me: Hoy, pedophile ka talaga! Bata pa 'yan! Bwahahahaha!
Anyways, iba nga tubig dito 'no? Para tayong nagkukusot ng
labahan.
HS friend #1: Ah basta iba! Anlambot talaga ng buhok ko! Pero
napaka-asim ng tubig. Di ko na binubuksan mata ko
pag sumisisid!
Me: *muses* Siguro sobrang dami ng wiwi dito sa pool kaya ganun?
HS friends: Gagu ka talaga, 'Vet!
Hs friend #1: Uy Tignan mo yung tubig!
Me: Ampucha! Ewwww! 'Kita mo yung mantika??? Grasa ba yun?
Ayun!!! *points* Lumulutang-lutang! Wahahaha!
HS friend #1: Ay! Kaya pala malambot buhok natin!
I remember what Chase had said about that concentrated wiwi. *shudders at the memory of the other "outing" we've had* But this is worst. Mantika? Grabe para talagang may nag-hugas ng pinggan, yun nga lang buti naman walang mga butil ng kanin at ulam na lumulutang-lutang, alam nyo na 'yung mga tira-tira ba? Di naman ganun kainit yung tubig, pero sobrang asim na niya. Thing is, we never had a hard time brushing our hair after shower. Hehehe. I owe it to the amoebas, the fungi, the urines and the libags of the people swimming 'round there! :D
current mood:  high
current music: I'm Walking on Sunshine - Katrina and the Waves
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| Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
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2:35 am - From my mind to your mind
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Still awake huh? You must be walking somewhere underneath that big black sky. Perhaps you could be with your friends...or perhaps you're at it again? Wandering alone as usual. It must be tiring isn't it? Discreetly you complain how boring things may get, but you try not to be as whiny as I am. I smile at the thought that you do remember the things that I have told you before, (although I've assumed that you've probably forgotten about them.) There's a lot of things I wanted to tell you...right now, I'm enjoying things as I am supposed to. I've met different kinds of people and I was able to face some of my fears and insecurities. I think...I think I am getting there already. But then...at the end of the day, everytime I walk along the long streets of Ayala Avenue, trying to catch a bus ride to Buendia---I picture us, walking, talking and laughing. Together. Sigh. How wonderful my mind works. And I snap out of my reverie. It was just my imagination again. Probably...sooner or later, I'd be walking on that road same ol' road, and I'm afraid that it might not be you I'm walking with. I'm scared. Someone might steal my heart away from you. You have no idea I know. You have no idea that right from this very moment, my feelings are just the same as it was before. Nevermind this. Hogwash I say. Confusing? Beating around the bush is my expertise anyway. We're still strangers. Though I said my feelings were the same as before, I guess I've changed. I learned to divert my attention into someone else and something else. Miraculously, it sank in...! I once tried. Once. In some olden times when I wished that I could just build a bridge leading to your road. I guess I was just trying too hard. But I could never make you notice me. But I'm happy to say that now, I'm okay about it, that I'm okay even if you don't show up on my doorsteps. I'll be okay because I've gotten used to this. It would be a surefire answer that halfway, I'll get lost again, or I'll probably fall for someone else. No need to flip the coin. Freewill is our power anyway.
It's getting late, Stranger. This time, you're probably fast asleep within the safe walls of your room. I'm sleepy as well. If tomorrow's going to be a bad hair day for you, please remember that once, there was this girl who tried to show you that life's not a bad hair day everyday.
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| Thursday, May 20th, 2004
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11:48 pm - Mindless entry of the week: The Newest recording "artists" in the 'hood
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Presenting... *drumrolls*
Rainier Castillo
This boy is famous for his robotic dance steps in Hey ya and Whatever title it is, I say ooh-haa. Now, Rainier will be grazing the greener pastures in the field of Filipino novelty "music". Tsk. Poor kid.
See it, to believe it; check out this link: Recording artist na si Rainier
And this fucker,
Eddie Gil is proud to announce that he's back with a vengeance. This time, he's out to spread his horror through music, if you can call that music. So far some damn recording company's still thinking of the title of his album. If you have seen the news earlier, he's trying to beat that AI reject Hung with his soon-to-released song: Pelukang Itim (in the tune of Bikining Itim by Hagibis), or shall I say, he's just joined the bandwagon. Still he's no William Hung. Though there is a striking similarity; they're both rejects. Hung is funny. Gil is just plain crazy.
Well. Whatever works. Let's just say in the light ot the neverending news about the elections, let's amuse ourselves with the current developments of Filipino Novelty music. Hurray!!! More jologs noise to fill our ears!
And lastly, Maraming salamat sa mga taong wala nang magawa sa kanilang mga pera!
Bravissimo!!!
current mood:  amused
current music: Pelukang itim - Eddie Gil
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| Thursday, May 13th, 2004
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1:56 am - What a wonderful world
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| Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
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3:06 am - Short-term memory loss + Lunar eclipse
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Hmmm it's brother Bear's birthday today. I was laughing my ass a while ago. I've just told him that it is his birthday today and he wasn't aware of it. lol. I had to remind him that it's his day and he doesn't give a fig about it, hah he's too engrossed with Suikoden 3 hahaha he's still awake at this moment. As for me. I just woke up from my short nap. ^^;;;
Me: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRADER!!! Woohoo!!!!
Bro: What? Di 'ba 4 pa lang ngayon?
Me: Tange! 5 na! Wednesday na ngayon.
Bro: 1 sa Sunday di ba?
Me: Hinde! 2 'no! Kaya birthday mo ngayon! :D
To anyone of you who's awake at this time...try watching the moon even for a while.
Lunar eclipse...Coolness. Nagsisimula pa lang...wala pa sa kalahati. Woohoo.
Alas a quiz, stole this one from JC and I also got the similar result. Heheheh. Pasadya ba? XD Damn, I'm tryin to get that Eddie Gil result pero hindi sinama. :(
And speaking of elections...I still have no Pres and VP for my ballot. Heheheh. :0
current mood: awake
current music: Lonely Dove - Please save my earth OST
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for my coffee.
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hungry