| Saturday, July 17th, 2004 |
| 12:45 am |
song by fingertight
FINGERTIGHT LYRICS
"Nathaniel"
Go and find him
Cuz this may be the only chance you have to
To redefine him
And mold him into something that you find beautiful
And ever since Ive been here
Youve done nothing but
Hold him down and make him live in this world
That you have some how created
What about him?
Its just about the time they sit you down
They run the sickness through your mind
They tell you everythings gonna be just find until...
Its just about the time they sit you down
They run the sickness through your mind
They tell you everythings gonna be just find until...Then
Go and rescue him
Cuz this may be the only chance you have to
To redefine him
And mold him into something that you find beautiful
And ever since Ive been here
Youve done nothing but
Hold him down and make him live in your life
(youve done nothing)
What about him?
Its just about the time they sit you down
They run the sickness through your mind
They tell you everythings gonna be just find until...
Its just about the time they sit you down
They run the sickness through your mind
They tell you everythings gonna be just find until...
And oh
Im getting better
Im better with you
And oh
Im getting better
With or without you
And oh
Im getting better
Im better now that i have seen those things you hide from me
What about him?
What about you?
Its just about the time they sit you down
They run the sickness through your mind
They tell you everythings gonna be just find until...
Its just about the time they sit you down
They run the sickness through your mind
They tell you everythings gonna be just find until...
And oh
Im getting better
Im better with you
And oh
Im getting better
With or without you
And oh
Im getting better
Im better now that i have seen those things you hide from me
[Repeat 2x]
They run the sickness through your mind. |
| Friday, July 16th, 2004 |
| 4:51 pm |
untitled
I look out beyond this small
space. and visualize a freedom
I do not know. I look for a form of
peace... that others dream of.
And I fall as I know I
drift off into nothingness.
Iknow I am alone. others
are around me, but I am in
solitude. |
| 4:25 pm |
untitled
do you feel the bottle pressed to your lips?
can you taste the poison you love to drink?
who he hell do you love?
can you live your life sober?
or... is it you cannot face your disease?
i ask myself what is it i think.
look at the world through eyes that are fogged
say words with foul breath.
what is it i sought to find?
yes, i have my own reality.
and i am as good as dead for haveing it too.
looking for the truth while intoxicated.
finding only pain, with what seems the only cure, i drown it.
forgetting my problems only temporarly.
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: 45 shinedown |
| Thursday, July 15th, 2004 |
| 9:45 am |
uuurrrrrggggiiiiiii!
ohh i so need to wake up and yes i do realize i have the same entery in my journal twice i messed up now forget it. hmmmmmm i don't have much to say except that i do believe that a few people are going to be sick of me after a while. and do so believe that i will not be talking to anyone today it will be so totaly dead where i am. but thats ok i'll live i hope.....
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Gypsy by: Bella Sonus |
| Wednesday, July 14th, 2004 |
| 8:26 pm |
????????
plesent memories
half lived life full of lies
waiting for the words
that tell me the worst is over
Ilooked past the masks;
I didn't like what I sa.
Looked for the pasts hidden truth
finding only an un-escapable trap.
listening to thousends
hearing only one.
fear is my sanctuary
doubt is a poison
without an antidote.
Life is a cage with faulty locks
sanity is someting I starve for
truth is an illness
that kills.
sweetness is deadly.
bitterness is sweet.
all that is, once was before
it will also be forever more. |
| 7:19 pm |
????????
plesent memories
half lived life full of lies
waiting for the words
that tell me the worst is over
Ilooked past the masks;
I didn't like what I sa.
Looked for the pasts hidden truth
finding only an un-escapable trap.
listening to thousends
hearing only one.
fear is my sanctuary
doubt is a poison
without an antidote.
Life is a cage with faulty locks
sanity is someting I starve for
truth is an illness
that kills.
sweetness is deadly.
bitterness is sweet.
all that is, once was before
it will also be forever more. |
| 6:25 pm |
untitled
Bleeding slowly,drifting coldly
What is it that I had wanted from this life?
Why is it that I had wanted anything to begin with?
Misery loves company. Black as ever is my
soul. Pure as white untouched snow is my love.
What lies! I cannot feel love; that is why
it is so pure. I only know painful attachment.
I am fond of people, I dare not love them.
Once I became close to them, they are taken
away. So I close my heart away.., and allow
my mind to play. I take after both parents
my mothers mindgames I have inherated, as
well as my fathers addictions. I have gained all
that draws as well as pushes away everyone or anyone.
And so... I find that my pain makes me
real, so what better way to show it is to bleed.
and as I bleed I fade. |
| 6:21 pm |
FINGERTIGHT LYRICS
"Magical"
For you
And any minute we'll be sitting at the bar
And for a instant we'll forget who we are
And it happened
And when it does its magical
And it happened
And when it does its mystical
Cuz' im not afraid any-more
Cuz I can feel you next to me
Im not afraid any-more
And any time when innocence should be my right
Im in a battle between alcohol and my life
And I still feel like you're here with me
And its magical
[Chorus] |
| 6:18 pm |
untitled
BROKEN PROMISES
BITTER LAST WORDS
HIDEING WHAT I CAN'T SEE...
LOOKING FOR A WAY OF ESCAPE.
NOT FINDING ONE.
RUNNING AWAY FROM WHAT I LOVE
DENYING MYSELF, LOVE AND FUN
JUST TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY.
FOR EVERY THREE PEOPLE ONE IS IN MISERY.
LOST IN THE SEA OF YOUR LIES.
DROWNING IN MY OWN TEARS OF HATE.
I WILL NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO BECOME ADDICTED TO YOU!
BUT I ALREADY HAVE,
YOUR WORDS HAVE BEEN PLAYING IN MY MIND.
JUST LIKE A RIDDLE INSIDE MY HEAD THAT REPEATS
ITSELF OVER AND OVER.
I'VE GOT IT SOLVED, I THINK,...
NOW IS IT TOO LATE TO ANSWER?
IF YOU ASK AGAIN I WILL TELL YOU; YES!
BUT I WILL NOT BOW AND ASK YOU,...
FOR IT WILL NOT LAST AS LONG....
AND YET MY HATERED STILL BOILS AND MY
HOPE IS STILL TO BLAME.
Current Music: MAGICAL BY: FINGERTIGHT |
| 5:14 pm |
I don't know what the hell my problem is but i do know I'm going crazy i need human contact is there anyone out there on this fucking planet? life hello do you speak any english? for cris' sake heeeeellllllpppppp!!!!!!!! i need life i'm being drained because where i'm at it's soooooooooooooooo dead! shoot me someone put me out of my misery. |
| 4:14 pm |
NO IDEA
The years have aged me
changed me as well.
My desire has died,
my hatered rekindled.
Born of bone
made of flesh.
Let the burn untill it becomes stone.
Let the waters flood to wash away the soils.
cells of poison, walls of glass.
I had to have loved you once...
for I hate you more than you will
ever know.
Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: TIME TO BURN BY: THE RASMUS |
| 10:11 am |
Rain
by Erase The Grey
Everything she loved has left her
In one way or another
So blindly, she calls out
In the middle of this sleepless night
Those scars that dig so deep
This piece of mind that’s just not right
She looks up to the sky
She calls out, and she says
My life is falling down like rain
And I'll be the one to drown
My whole world is nothing but pain
And I'll be the one to drown
Her eyes as blue as the life she leads
Never thinking what she could have been
Why me, she calls out
In the middle of this heartless night
How could the one she loves most
Give her the pain she feels inside
She looks up to the sky
She calls out, and she says
Let your rain fall down on me
Current Mood: depressed & blah & numb
Current Music: rain by: erase the grey |
| 8:44 am |
la la la la la la were gonna get you
in this event we have reason to go crazy.... I am so board out of my mind and its way too early to start calling people up. Why is it I have to be a morning person? I donno.... *hee hee hee* but honestly I ask you this; when a person starts to see things as well as hears things that are not present, can they go crazy without someone being on their back? if so is it ok if I have that privledge? I thank you for your time and good day to you.
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: million miles by fuel |
| 8:23 am |
dont have one
yeah i have blurty journal now, fun stuff! i finaly have internet and i am now in constant ?'s of how did i live without it? i still don't have many people to talk to over the internet yet so yeah it's ok i guess i'm still haveing lots of fun. |