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[16 Aug 2003|01:42am] |
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guilty / scared shitless |
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i wonder why they don't have an emoticon for this emotion...
today was busy as hell. moving sucked. everyone seemed to work real well and hard for about 2 hours, then after that i was sorta on my own. people helped move a few boxes here and there... it was really hot. i was getting really tired, and exhausted and dizzy and dehydrated, but i was still doing it... so i wasn't feeling too good, and wasn't really super happy.
now this.
i can't stop shaking... its all my fault.. she wasn't doing anything wrong... what is she going to do to her? what is she going to do to herself? i hate myself for not being able to do anything. im so scared. and i hate myself, because i feel as if i have no right to be. but to be truthful, im terrified.
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