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"Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You? [25 Jan 2004|11:02pm]
Thug Bear<

hahahah so true so true
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"Which of my favorite bands are you: Taking Back Sunday, Thursday, Something Corporate, Dashboard Confessional, or AFI?" [25 Jan 2004|12:40pm]
good quality
You're Dashboard

Random Song Quote: "I hope your as
happy as your pretending."

I am 66% Emo

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.
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The type of pain ur eyes behold" [25 Jan 2004|12:48am]
You are the crying eye. You think nothing out
theres worth it an u just want to be alone. You
know uve been hurt 2 much wen u open ur eyes n
all u see are tears.
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[24 Jan 2004|10:20pm]
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most.
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[24 Jan 2004|08:05pm]
She can?t hide no matter how hard she tries
Her secret disguise behind the lies
And at night she cries away her pride
With eyes shut tight
Starin' at her inside

All her friends know why she can?t sleep at night
All her family askin? if she's alright
All she wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all she's gotta do is stop kidding herself

she can only fool herself for so long

I'm too weak to face me
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[22 Jan 2004|06:07pm]

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god?..[edited] [22 Jan 2004|04:37pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | brandston- words for you ]

I wrote this in my physics class this morning.

For 2 days now in this class we've been talking about religion and god and the creation of the earth and the universe. I hate it. I hate talking about it because it reminds me of all the bad things in the world. We are talking about Pascal. And one things he says is that, if you don't live for god then why are you living.. because you then don't believe and any after live or anything. Like why are you living if you have nothing after that.{also he said something about how most people should and do believe in god.. because you can only gain from it you wont lose anything where as if you don't your not losing anything but you have nothing to gain either.. i don't agree with that point either.] It made me horridly mad for some reason.. It was just absurd. I felt so many different feelings throughout that hour. Theres so much I cant explain but feel so strongly about. Like I know how I feel inside and how strongly I believe in what I think and feel but I just cant seem to explain it. *its just so hard to explain. I always feel so weak. then we got to talking about why people live life if they don't believe in a god or higher being and someone said something about people killing themselves.. they started talking about that and how people just have an instinct to live and all that.. a whole bunch of stuff it just mad me so upset.. because I felt like I was the only one who felt so totally different.. finally someone said?I think what stops people, that don't believe theres anything more after life, is fear because they don't know whatll happen next.. fear.. I agree.. fear plays a big role.. but a lot of things people said made me so incredibly angry and upset and sad and left me feeling morbid. It torn me apart.. then Lou said something about people that do that [kill themselves] cant cope. Or something where he implied it was just weak and lame.. sitting right next to me he says this.. I don't get people? they don't understand that they don't know the people around them and they just say anything.. and in a way that should be good, I mean to be able to speak your mind.. but it hurt and made me feel like less of a human? this whole time im thinking?.
Why? Why am I living if I don't believe and have nothing to gain or lose? What am I here for still? Why am I one of those people who don't believe but still is here for nothing? Why? Fear? Fear of what? I have nothing to lose and if I don't believe in a god why fear what'll happen next? Why am I still here?

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Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?" [17 Jan 2004|11:55pm]

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What's Your Personality Type? [17 Jan 2004|07:01pm]

Hopelessly Romantic Geezer Named Alfred
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"What Sign of Affection Are You?" [17 Jan 2004|06:58pm]
cuddle and a kiss
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
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What Drink Are You? [14 Jan 2004|09:04pm]
You like it fast and strong and you drink for one reason: to get piss-ass drunk!
Congratulations!! You're a shot of some good old
hard liquor
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What kind of girl are you? [14 Jan 2004|08:59pm]
GIRLY GIRL - Clever Kitty
A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature,
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority
complex, timidity.
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What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? [14 Jan 2004|08:54pm]
You're Perfect ^^
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend
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What kind of kiss are you?" [14 Jan 2004|08:51pm]
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
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Which male celebrity are you going to marry [14 Jan 2004|08:49pm]

You are going to Marry orlando Bloom. He will
always treat you right and is very romantic. He
will do anything for you. He is very polite and
has deep brown eyes and is very good looking
(which is another plus!). He can make anythind
cheesy look really good (like sliding down
stairs on a shield shooting arrows or wearing
pointy ears for example). Congrats!!
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[14 Jan 2004|08:44pm]
You are "Waste of Paint". You can be a
very over analyzing person and you are sort of
lost. You aren't really sure where you're going
with your life but for now you hold some hope
that you will indeed get to where you are
going. Oh yeah, and that thing called
"love", you feel it's just a game of
chance. A game you are not good at.
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[13 Jan 2004|06:19pm]
Truly Emo
You're Truly an Emo Kid. You go to as many shows
as possible. You wear lots of striped shirts,
sweaters, and cuffed jeans. You cry about how
you don't have a signifigant other. You write
meaningful lyrics or poetry. Cheer up, life
doesn't suck that much.

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Less Than Nothing [11 Jan 2004|01:17pm]
[ mood | bitch ]
[ music | bitch ]

60 watts, brighter than my future,
an empty forty, fuller than my life,
there must be more, sometimes i don't think so,
maybe i'm right. maybe there's no such thing as bright, a sigh.
A sultry night stare at moons from rooftops,
A broken engine, poisoned never dry,
I pour my heart out to a god that doesn't listen,
You said you'd save me. You said you'd love me always but you lied.
And i can't dry my eyes and there is nothing left inside,
one day. the day. the day that i said i,
my heart inside was cold so that you didn't know,
so all and you, you won't love me at all,
the leaves come down,
there is no sound,
and if i fall would you notice at all?
the thought of me repulses me,
but you'd say you took me anyway,
i am so alone on a corroded city rooftop,
i saw you walking, you didn't say anything,
you always told me that you'd never stop loving me,
but you stopped before you started and now all i have is lies.
What am i gonna be?
Who am i gonna be?
And now that i feel lost,
Well i wish that you had grown
while i bleed all alone,
the falling rain
is what is left for me
We?re gonna be
what's left for me
what is there to learn?
there is less than nothing,
i thought you'd be. be there for me
you weren't there. you weren't anywhere.
You lied right to my face
you broke my fucking heart,
One day, one day you tore my heart apart.
And i have nothing,
And i am nothing,
i?m piss,
i?m shit,
i am less than nothing.

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[10 Jan 2004|11:38am]
the vanishing act
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[22 Dec 2003|11:18am]
Schizotypal:Very High
Borderline:Very High
Avoidant:Very High
Dependent:Very High

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

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