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Thursday, March 18th, 2004
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7:49 pm - rainbow and the canned spaghetti
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Rainbow
Take a little time baby, see the butterfly colors
Listen to the birds that were sent to sing for me and you.
Can you feel me, this is such a wonderful place to be.
Even if there is pain now, everything would be alright
For as long as the world still turns there will be night and day
Can you still hear me, there is rainbow always after the rain.
(I like this song...it makes me feel good inside)
Ngayon lang ako nakakita ng canned spaghetti. Spaghetti hoops siya in tomato sauce, and it tasted like pork and beans. Hehe. Pero ok lang, spag pa rin naman. Talo-talo na!
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| Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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7:48 pm - mystery solved
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May na-formulate akong isang hypothesis kung bakit medyo (ahem) mahigpit ang dad ko sa akin when it comes to lakad-lakad, gimmicks, et. al, at tama ako. I asked him if I am right about what I think. He confirmed.
Takot siya sa sarili niyang anino.
Overview lang ng nakaraan. When my dad is still in his adolescent years, lapitin sila ng gulo at trouble, at malugod nila itong tinatanggap. Hindi naman sa masama siyang tao kasi actually, napakabait niya. Hormonal rush lang siguro at machismo na rin.
Marami silang nakabangga. At maraming nagalit sa grupo nila noon. Kaya naman palaging nasa alanganin palagi ang life niya.
Pero, noong ipinanganak na ako, nagbago na siya. Umiwas na siya sa lahat ng bagay. Tumigil na siya sa mga gawain niya noong binata siya. Inom, sigarilyo, bisyo…lahat nawala. Pati sa mga dati niyang kasama, hindi niya na masyado pinagkikita paralang makaiwas sa gulo. Kaya nga hanga ako sa kaniya. He has proven himself to be a good dad for me. Hindi niya kami isasalang sa kapahamakan.
So, naiintindihan ko kung bakit ganoon na lang ang treatment niya sa akin. Natatakot siyang mahatapat ako ng isang katulad niya noon.
Minsan, nagagalit ako sa kaniya ‘pag hindi niya ako pinapagayan lumabas kasama ng friends ko. Nagtatampo talaga ako sa kaniya. Pero pag naiisip ko ang reason niya in doing so, nakikita ko na rational naman.
Ang magulang nga naman… =P
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| Sunday, March 14th, 2004
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8:48 pm - hay...
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malapit na mag-vacation, at i'm beginning to feel sad na naman. ganito ako palagi tuwing matatapos na ang semester. mamimiss ko ang school. mamimiss ko rin ang mga tao. ayaw ko naman mag-class ng summer. grabe kaya init sa pilipinas pag tag-araw na.
lalo pang sad kasi malapit na grumadweyt ang mga kabarkada ko sa SABIK na sina dei, heyz at imee. three girls down nanaman. alam ko mjo selfish ang dating pero para kasing mababawasan na naman ang inspirasyon ko pagpasok sa school. un na nga lang makatapos ung ibang kada namin, ang sad ko na, ngyn pa kayang matatapos na rin sila at maiiwan kami ni maj for like a year pa? hay, i wud be really missing the good old days. sana bumalik uli ung mga panahon na magkakasama kami sa AS2F, kahit isang araw lang. masaya na siguro ako. :(
pero, behind that, natutuwa na rin ako kasi at least wala na silang puproblemahin maciado sa lives nila. at proud ako kasi they really did a great job. hayaan nyo, attend ako sa graduation nyo. =P
ngyn, kailangan ko munang harapin ang mga natitirang araw ko for this sem. madami na ang exams, kelangan nang mag-aral. hail to the coffee-addicts!!!
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| Friday, March 12th, 2004
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4:42 pm - arouch!!!
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ouch! sakit pa nga arm ko. ung right side mjo maga pa. kasi yesterday, nagsama kaming dalawa ng masochista kong blockmate na si hecky. tapos he punched me sa arm ko. i hit him back, pero biro lang. un, nagtrip na kami. pati sya tuloy masakit arm. hay, mga walang magawang matino sa free time! that's why i love being a college student!
kahapon din, i attended joe's recital sa PCC. galing nya. i think sya na pinakamagaling na performer that afternoon. na-surpass pa ata nya ung performances kahit ng mga nasa intermediate levels na. wla na ako masabi. at syempre, picture-picture sila ni nancy ng buhay nya. tapos nagpaka-adik kami sa ragnarok.
hinatid ko na sya sa house nila kasi promise ko un kina tita ying at tito lito. niyaya na rin nla ako to stay for dinner muna. swerte rin kasi dumaan si sean na may GONUTS DONUTS! tama si dei, tsalap nga pala tlga nun. hehe!
un lang nman. enjoy ako kahapon kahit masakit braso. (loko ka, hector!)
current mood:  relaxed
current music: ragnarok online BGM
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| Friday, March 5th, 2004
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8:22 pm - vaseline gal
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I have seen the new commercial of Vaseline shampoo. It has this catchy whistling background music, but what really caught my attention is the girl who is the model of the said product. Grabe, she is SO cute! Nice hair and nice smile. Reminds me of the StarStruck contestant Katrina Halili. A few years from now and she’d turn out to be one fine lady. I assure that. Right now, I would say that I’ve added another girl in my crush list! Hehe!
I’m still worried about one of my friends. I cannot disclose right now the full detail because I refuse to believe that he/she is acting that way. I don’t know what’s wrong with him/her. I tried asking, but to no avail. What’s the matter? I hope he’d/she’d tell me. I’m really feeling anxious about his/her state…
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| Monday, March 1st, 2004
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3:19 pm - on losing someone...
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For all these time, I thought that I do not fear anything. Akala ko sobrang tapang kong nilalang. I thought I was this super strong persona. Wala akong kinakatakutan, at wala akong nakitang kahinaan sa sarili ko. Matagal kong inisip at hinintay ang kasagutan kung bakit para bang walang bagay na makakapagpanginig sa akin.
Now, I realize that I’m as normal as everyone else. May takot din pala ako. The truth is that I feel like crying whenever this idea crosses my mind. Darned! Ayoko siyang pag-isipan. Nalulungkot lang ako.
Natatakot akong mawalan ng tao sa buhay ko na pinakamamahal ko…
Natural lang kung iisipin, sino nga ba ang hindi matatakot na mangyari ito sa kanya? Pero kasi, hindi ko yata makakaya kapag may mahal ako sa buhay na bigla na lamang mawawala. Hindi ko alam kung ano na ang gagawin ko. Hindi pa kasi nangyayari iyon sa akin, at ayaw na ayaw ko siyang mangyari. I’d prefer that I’d go first bago sila. Pero kasi unpredicatable kasi ang tadhana. Unfair. Iyon ang naiisip ko.
Kasi naman, gagawin mo na lang ang lahat-lahat para sa mahal mo tapos walang sabi-sabi, mawawala rin pala siya. Kung hindi ba naman madaya iyon!
Kaya lagi ko na lang ipinanalangin sa Kanya na sana, sana lang talaga, wala muna siyang gawin na ganito sa buhay ko. Hindi ko pa yata kakayanin. Mahina ako, alam ko iyon sa sarili ko.
Ngayon, sa totoo lang, habang ginagawa ko ang journal na ito, nangingilid na ang luha ko. Pinipilit ko lang na hindi pumatak kasi baka hindi ko matigilan.
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| Sunday, February 29th, 2004
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6:54 pm - verns buckley
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cguro it has been two years na that i've known that there existed a certain girl who goes by the name Verns Buckley. at sa dalawang taon na iyon, i've really grown to like her. ewan ko ba, cguro maciado akong nahumaling sa kaniya. not because model-model cya. nde 'yon. may nakikita lang ako sa kanya na sobrang like ko. she's a really smart girl at sobrang witty pa. tpos napaka down to earth na person. nakakatuwa kaya ung mga ganoong tao. religious pa. hay, sna magkita kmi. i would really love it pag nagkaganoon. hehe, naaaning na naman ako. :)
current mood:  happy
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| Thursday, September 11th, 2003
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8:36 pm - boytoy?
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nothing much...i just can't figure out what is it in me that makes people (specifically the members of the opposite sex) attracted to me. i know for a fact that i am not that good looking (or so i think) and that i'm not the type of guy who would turn anyone's head around when i pass by. my friends are also amazed at how i can get to know lots of hotchicks (they call) in the campus. hell, i don't know what i'm doinfg really.
hypothesis: maybe they see something in me. maybe not on the outside but something from within. maybe it's the sincerity in my voice whenever i speak. maybe it's the dose of flattery that drives them craving for more. maybe it's because of my actions that say a lot about me. i really don't know. if only i could see myself from a different perspective i might figure things out.
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| Wednesday, September 10th, 2003
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12:02 pm - sprained ankle...
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ouch, i got a sprained ankle! it happened yesterday when a friend and i went jogging after our day at school. she brought along with her a jump rope. i gave it a try. i didn't mind a few skips but accidentally i tripped on the rope. my whole weight fell on my left foot, but a managed to maintain my composure. another good thing is that my friend (let's call her andrea) did not see what happened. she whole laugh her head off if ever she saw what happened to me. "happy? tripping on a skip rope? nah...", her reaction would be maybe.
anyway, it's strating to swell already and the bad thing is that we have a sports fest today in our organization. i won't be able to play, even go there in the venue. i think i'll pass this one.
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| Monday, September 8th, 2003
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8:00 pm - happieboie on the house
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"from black and silver..."
hi! this is my first time to write here in this journal. i just found this site from a friend of mine. i used to write in this black notebook of mine everyday. the topics vary from the simplest case like what i ate during lunch time to a more complicated case like my beliefs, opinions about things and mostly my lovelife.
right now, i'm still making myself familiar with this system of making a journal. so, maybe i would start to make an entry by tomorrow.
have a nice day everyone. :)
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