It's been a long time I didn't login here and was thinking that this blog no more exist until when I've received emails from Blurty regarding the latest comment on my say...2 years ago blog?

On looking back, time has indeed passed by fast and in a blink of an eye, I'm already what I am now. Graduated I am not. I screwed up in college and was thrown out of it. Almost had my degree, it was as close as one more paper left but oh well..no point looking back into the past now.

I am well and alive, working my butts out in this rat race just to make ends meet. There's a lot I've been though and so many things to tell. Anyway here are some of my past working experiences

After "graduation" I was some sort of job hunting, well..something like walking around in Mid Valley which end up bumping into a Citibank booth recruiting staff. That when all the excitement of my life begins. That's my first job. The best experience I'd ever had.

I could still remember vividly the time I step into the training room. The very first time I was dressed formally for work. And the first time I'm in Citibank tower. Ah...the office life..the coperate ladder, the smell of freshly vaccumed carpets. The sounds of the high heel shoes and men's leather shoes tapping across the lobby hall's marble flooring.

Citibank has trained me, groomed me and lead me into being a successful person, to think outside the box and to have extraordinary ideas. I dare myself.

New Gadget for the Year..sorry for not keeping update in this blog...been busy..

"http://images.fotopic.net/?id=2961769&outx=600&oq=0"

Date:	2003-12-05 17:37
Subject:	Birthday prezzie
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Mood:	cheerful

Got this baby from my friends

Date:	2003-11-19 11:31
Subject:	Funny question
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Mood:	crappy

A funny question asked by my roommate which makes me speechless for a while. It may also sound funny to you but I can see the lack of knowledge in her. Maybe she is busy with other things but to me I feel is a necessity to know.

Yesterday she asked me whether is Putrajaya is at Petaling Jaya? If I were to ask my dad this, my guess is he'll kill me for not being observant to the current news. Which makes me think? Doesn't my roommate have General Paper to study?? They should ask this kind of question in A-Level, I guess...

Hrm.. what has education made us now? To me education has ruined my intelligence. They kill your self esteem and torture your ego. Many students are unaware about the current happenings in the world which is far more important than hitting the books.

Oh, well..I do not feel like elaborating more on this but I'll stick close to my role model, Dr. Sharon Teh. Though she is my role model but I fail to follow her footsteps. I learn to be wise from her, she told me there is a time for study and there is a time for play. Do not just be friends to the books but go out an see the world.

I took her advise since Freshman Year and know I feel I'm stronger and more matured after meeting different situations, peoples and also places. I've seen the world (still not enough) and learn to be street wise. However without education people thinking might be different and sometimes will be a joke to those aristocrats.

Seeing the world doesn't mean travelling around and observing cultures.. Seeing the world simply means (my 2 cent thought) goes to observing different people with different character and learning how to react towards them. Travelling to me is ok, people are them same, they are just the same jerks in different skin colour.

Hrm.. I guess enough of crapping for today and better start hitting the books. Will be having music test later on and I'm still stuck in Baroque era..*sigh*

Date:	2003-11-16 20:40
Subject:	Cause and effect
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Mood:	artistic

I have a theory. Another theory on human basic mind thinking. It may look simple but so far I have not found any text regarding this theory so I may conclude it. I guess it may even evolve to Law since it's applicaple to all people. so this is my theory...

The human mind is rather complex however they are not thankful of anything unless they seen it with their own eyes the "what if" thingy.. For example the popular ones, the tragedy of 9/11 in USA. People who missed a flight because of some reasons are thankful that they did not be in the place they suppose to be or else...dead, just like those unlucky people in died there.

Apart from that, they are also not thankful at all. Just like standing in the LRT or MRT, you noticed a guy who stands near the door and soon when the beep goes and the door closes, you know that the door is going to bang him. Being a good Samaritan, you asked him to stand closer however that guy looks at you in a different perspective. So are you going to help him or not...?? if you do, then he is not thankful and if you don't, he feels the pain.

Recently I've dreamed a weird dream, maybe I have the gift of avoidance which I'll talk about some other day. In this dream, dad and I were driving somewhere familiar. In front of us was a motocyclist. An overweight 50 year old man. He was particularly riding on the right side of the road which makes it impossible to overtake. Suddenly he fell and dad couldn't break in time to save him instead ran over him. The bad part was when we got down the car, we could see halves of the man and some flesh and skin sticking on the types of my dad's car. Then I woke up. When I got back to sleep again, comes another dream which is almost the same but this time I told dad not to go near the motocyclist. Another car overtook and WHAM!! Then the dream somehow reset again. This time I told dad to slow down as usual but then dad honked him and the motocyclist just went cursing away.

This explains why the world is changing and there aer lesser good people to help you when you're in need. You'll curse the people when there is no one to help and you're not thankful if there are someone who actually helped you.

To help or not to help, that is the question??

Date:	2003-11-14 12:42
Subject:	gr..
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Mood:	angry

Another day, another obstacle to pass. Humans are hard to predict however there are theories. I believe I myself is a fan of the Sigmund Freud theory or so called the Fruedian.

Had a not so good day today since Dr.W spoiled nearly my whole chirpy mood of the day. Talk about brother in Chirst, geeze. For one, he is unmarried man and I still wonder who is ever interested in him anyway. He had the prejudice against me since Freshman Year for answering methane instead of methly. He knows we both share the same Lord, Jesus Christ but I still do not understand what is with his head againts me.

Based from this experience with him and also many others whom are adults and are either not married or have no kids, I would just jump into this conclusion of their thinking is somewhere immature at some points. Reasons to this? Ok, for once that married people with kids will have to think back on their doing towards their kids, sometimes they laugh their head off with the foolishness they used to make by looking at their kids and sometimes they regret at their doings they made. Based on Frued there may be sexual implications towards this theory but kids will rather play an important role here in adult thinking development.

Single adults and also childless adults are slightly immature in sense that they do not seem to understand the feeling of other people. Before I proceed, I do not meant of shooting any adults without kids or adults who choose to be single and I'm not presenting any biasness towards any readers here but just expressing my thoughts which was just ignited by Dr.W. Why you would ask?? Your child you have is the "mirror" of you. They reflect your behaviour and attitude towards people and themselves. Thus parents are somehow careful on their words and attitude. They also have to sense their child's feeling towards a certain thing. This process continues all the way up to the child is a full grown adult. This results in character building in parents which adds a point of maturity.

Points in maturity? Yeah, you hear me right. Some people may be immature at certain aspects and some in another. I believe I do not have to elaborate further on this.

Thus here I end my case. My heart relieved and back to work.

Date:	2003-11-13 22:51
Subject:	East versus West
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Mood:	blah

Chinese Medication versus Western medication
Started coughing since yesterday ended up with a mild fever. Some say it's due to weather but my thought was that I was too heaty and my body defence was low apart being exposed with sick people in the lecture hall for 2 hours.

The sores around my body have not heal before this happens which makes me feel like hell at the momment. Well, that's the effect of maxing your body limits. It all happens when I was back in PD with a friend of mine, VC. We went swimming along with CK (I suspect VC and CK have some hanky-panky going on between both of them) and guess what?? We swam for 1.5km non-stop which is from one resort to another in the rough seas. *sigh* what a sore in my biceps and triceps.

Back to medication, I did not bother to touch on Western medication which is basically all on synthetic drugs. Oh, well they do have some biochemical properties which I've learned for the past 3 years but hey, what if the bacteria gets resistant towards the drugs? Not that I'm fully againts Western drugs but it's just that I stll love to fall back on the Chinese medication which provides an immune boost towards your system and is 100% all natural. I believe Chinese herbs increases your body metabolism and also immune system to fight againts the foreign bodies whereas Western drugs gives a direct action towards the foreign bodies.

Maybe I could be wrong or maybe I could be right... however my first choice would definitely be chinese medication and am drinking herbal tea now. Hope this works ;)

Date:	2003-11-06 16:13
Subject:	Toy
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Mood:	busy

New toy for me to play with

Date:	2003-11-02 23:36
Subject:
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Mood:	cynical

Just came back from PD. Had lunch in the Seremban Market. Dad told me the past few days there was a murder going on there and pretty much freaky was when he said the dead victim was a pregnant lady. Both the lady and the unborn child died. It seems that a guy came to ask for the lady something maybe $$ but the lady refused and then started a huge fight when the guy drew out the parang(short sword, usually used for chopping firewoods or meat in Asian countries) and started slashing the lady.

The bad part is that today when I went there to have lunch, well that was our last choice since there wasn't any food available for lunch at 3pm. Maybe it was the Asian tradition that pregant woman are considered dirty or something like that plus killing them makes the place even "more dirty". As I stepped out of the car, I have the creepy feeling on the building. Maybe it was just raining making the surrounding gloomy and creepy. I stepped into the building and it was al gloomy but with activities around. It's just that life just go on without any fuss at alL. No one seem to be talking about it.

However inside of me, I still have the feeling of the murder and was really curious how it would look like at that time? Covered with blood? Amnion fluid oozing out of the mother's womb? Hope I don't have any bad dream about it.

Date:	2003-10-30 11:15
Subject:	It if finished
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Mood:	accomplished

Finally, it is finished. My seminar has passed but I do not know how well I did it. According to my friends, I was quite nervous up there while presenting but did very well in Q&A. Dr Banu was there and I kept looking at her for some response during my seminar but her face made it as if she was too bored to listen while Dr.Loke was there in front of me, so I turned to look at her at times to check on her response, luckily she gave me some occasional sweet smile which warms me that my seminar is ok. nOW that's relaxing.

Date:	2003-10-27 12:41
Subject:	final year seminar
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Mood:	distressed

I can't believe it. Just went over to Dr. Banu's room and asked her permission to print out the slides for my coming persentation on coming Wednesday. She had not read my draft and there is little time left so the bad part came when she said I'm on my own.

She told me that she won't be bias towards me and leave the decision to other lecturers. I couldn't help it submitting late draft since I have several complications while doing it. I guess she does not understand and thinks I'm a slut. Oh, whatever...

My biggest stress is that the title of my seminar is not valid to them that is to say what I present is too general. I'm afraid the seminar is more towards presenting to common people instead of a bunch of scientist, that's why I'm afraid it's too general. I hope to present it and the contents of my seminar is valid for a bunch of nutcakes scientist. *sigh*

Date:	2003-10-23 13:32
Subject:	Lazy bum me :p
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Mood:	guilty

I've been such a lazy bum today... did not go for classes the whole day including practical and tutorials.

Date:	2003-10-22 17:00
Subject:	Insomia
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Mood:	awake

I can't sleep. Maybe my sleeping hours has been 1am and wakes up at 6am to continue on my work without noon nap. Geeze, it's 5 hours of sleep. Recently I slept at 4.30am today and woke up at 7am and back to work. I can still go to class with full attention till 3pm and wash the toilet just now.

Maybe God answered my prayers in giving me strength in going through this final year. God is my double shot espresso

Date:	2003-10-21 21:55
Subject:	Symphony
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Mood:	enthralled

It's been a long time I didn't update my blog... I won't be free until next year Febuary. Busy with my final research in anurans and also examinations.

About my visit to MPO, I really wish to be there again and coming month I'm sure to get the tickets for another magical night. I was simply entranced by Vaughan Williams work especially the piece called The Lark Ascending. Symphony No.4 in minor wasn't that bad after all once you know what the composer is trying to convey. Daniela Rodnite was the guest player who played the violin and wow! She is one marvellous player. The violin that landed on her hand played melodiously. Unlike me the violin sounded more like sawing wood. Hehe...

I was reading through the MPO booklet which I brought it for RM5 and saw the members of the MPO. Most of them came from every nooks of the globe. From here we know that music is international language. It brings everybody together regardless of age, culture and language, they play in a symphony.

Date:	2003-10-17 14:57
Subject:	Malaysian Philharmonic Ochestra
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Mood:	bouncy

Yippeee... Will be going to MPO (Malaysia Philharmonic Ochestra) today... Will be wearing a cheongsam-kebaya there.

Date:	2003-10-15 11:03
Subject:	Final Year Seminar
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Mood:	frustrated

Ugh... Dr. Banu been chasing me around for my seminar.. better get it done ASAP before Ddeepavali comes. Haven't been online for sometime now and I'm hungry... Geeze... Can someone deliver the food please...??

Hrm.. I'm sitting here at my computer surfing the Net for some info and is a rainy night.. Some insects were flying around my head just now till the lizards came to save the day. I shouldn't have do bad things to the lizard like flushing them to the toilet observing the whirlpool theory :p

Hrm.. my guess is from now on this blurty will be a story of a dog I know about ;) Well what the heck, this is the dog's journal right?? Life of a dog.. hrmm.. well here goes

Life of a Dog
The dog lies lonely in the streets of the cruel city of Kuala Lumpur. Trying her best looking strong and healthy. Not to be pushed around by other city dogs. Looking strong is always good for the dog but sometimes do get involve into the street fights which ends up the dog sometimes limping or maybe some wounds around it. The dog lies in the backlane of Kuala Lumpur city on stacks of warm newspaper tending her wound. Away from other dogs or animals. Those other animals are bad for dog, they hurt dog very much.

One day after a terrible fight with a cow in the outskirts of Kuala Lumpur city, the dog was severely wounded. Almost to the meeting with Grim Reaper. It was too pain for the dog to bear but still dog stand up and walk. Walk as further as she can go. Along the streets with small whines bearly audible admist the loud engine of cars passing by. Dog come to rest as she couldn't take the pain. Suddenly she heard someone walking towards the dog, a girl. The girl squat down checking the dog. The dog stood, as again looking strong and healthy, licked the hands of the girl.

The girl was rather doubtful whether to take the dog in. What would the girl think of this dog?? Will this girl be the master of the dog??

Date:	2003-09-22 22:13
Subject:	Mirror, mirror on the wall
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Mood:	giddy

I looked at myself at the mirror which is something I seldom do except for pressing out pimples and checking on my teeth. I looked hard at my own image. My eyes, nose, mouth and face. I stared hard at them, admiring the image of God created in me.

I turned around at look at the surroundings. I feel like someone or something looking through a pair of window which is my eyes. I feel like I'm a robot or something like that. I get to control my hands and legs. Everything. Tthen I wonder, what am I doing here? Who am I? Why am I named "so and so"?? Come to think of it... people do take things around them for granted. The environment, their body, and the people around them.

Hrm.. I'm feeling kind of crappy today. What am I thinking about? Funny me... or some wires in my brain got some wrong connections.

Date:	2003-09-21 21:13
Subject:	Dinner
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Mood:	drunk

Ah, dinner was a YUM! Dad made Black Pepper Steak... we had reds as well.