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[16 Apr 2005|08:00pm]
1 Exhale + Breath In

Some people make me feel good. Some make me feel worse. [16 Apr 2005|03:01pm]
[ music | Filter - Captain Bligh ]

I know it's hard. I know it takes understanding. I will listen and gaze with open arms. Though these lie in the back of my mind; last night i experienced bliss. It's bringing me closer. It doesn't have to be a thousand degrees, it's the little things. If it wasn't wrong, then it's never felt so right. Why i'm so sensitive to your fingers running through my hair...

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[15 Apr 2005|02:17pm]
"hold your breath and count to ten. fall apart. start again."
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when you wake up at 3 in the morning and can't get back to sleep [15 Apr 2005|04:06am]
[ music | Placebo - I Do ]

I woke up from a nightmare, i put in a mix... now i can't sleep cause of this feeling. I wish i could just smash every little distraction in my mind that's keeping me from seeing it so clearly. When i look at the stars i feel like i understand, and when i look away i'm lost. I know how i feel, but i can never find the words to describe it. I wish i could show it all. If you want beauty... i'll hand it to you freely. If you want compassion... it's raining down my shoulders. If you want truth... it's waiting here in my eyes. If you want to feel love... it's here at my fingertips. I am the shadow of desire lying in front of the moon with my back towards the sky. Each digit passing by the clock brings me closer to myself. I'd be closer to you. I'd hold you so close... like there's no tomorrow. Catch me while i'm here. I don't have the answers. I'm lost - while i'm sure of some things. I don't know the path... i've walked so many roads. Nothing's the same. It's a lot to believe whole heartedly; i want security. I won't jump, but the tide's carrying me in. For better? For worse? Does it matter? I am not strong. I am soft. I'll crumble at your every word, but melt at your every kiss. You want to know? You will. You'll know more than i could ever say. I'm lost in my mind again. good night.

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[14 Apr 2005|02:15pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Tonight. Tonight.

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[13 Apr 2005|02:19pm]
"Sometimes i wanna kiss you so hard, i could kill you."
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Slow [12 Apr 2005|02:17pm]
i want to lie in my bed. love. hate. beauty. fear. compassion. misery. solace.
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[12 Apr 2005|12:02pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

I've fallen into a deep state of melancholy.

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[11 Apr 2005|12:02pm]
I give up on webpage design. I'm so far behind in this class. All i do is sit and daydream anyway. I think i'll write more in here once i'm home. I haven't posted anything important for awhile. ugh. Nate's slacking off in this class too. Why nate? why??

-- i am solemn, but content. --
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Truth. [04 Apr 2005|07:41pm]
[ music | Placebo - Running up that hill ]

i used to want people to always be honest... til i realized how much the truth hurts.

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[04 Apr 2005|05:29pm]
Getting super frustrated....
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A little confused. [02 Apr 2005|09:00am]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | The Start - Shakedown ]

I think i've lost consciousness.

Days are getting weirder; but it's a nice ride. Afraid of stepping any further.

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One. [31 Mar 2005|05:43pm]
I think i'm going to stay alone for awhile. It's for the best i think.
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see me. [27 Mar 2005|10:10am]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | Transister - Falling Off The World ]

-I woke up to a pendalum frozen in the night.

Time stands still.

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contradiction [26 Mar 2005|12:51am]
[ mood | rejuvenated ]
[ music | Noel Gallagher - Teotihuacan ]

so nice of a day.
so many new people.
so much fun.
so little sleep.

Breath In

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