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| Thursday, January 22nd, 2004 |
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| Thursday, November 27th, 2003 |
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well.. jenny, julie and i all headed to amelia... as we were walking to the bothroom i turned my head n saw dan.. yes we went to see him n ryan.. buti didnt expect him to be there that early.. soo we hung out.. and it seemed like everything that went wrong was all good.. i missed him soo much and i just dont no how aweosme it was to see him again.. :o) jenny watched ryan.. and i was w/ dan talking kinda but julie found a new love! yes dans friend.. wooo! lol.. god her right.. well julie went over to talk to him alone and shes like "so, do you like tara?" and hes like "no, im not gonan tell you cuz i dont want her to no" and then julie was like "so, when did you 2 go out?" and hes like "may,. right after sapce camp((with a smile))" and in guy terms that all means i like her i juts wont tell her.. lol stupid boyz.. oh ya.. we go hit on by drew n josh.. some kids from catherdral.. they cuz us their numbers and were liek ladies wanna go for a stroll.. supposcivly i was the hottest says josh.. god knows... ryan is one fiesty kid when it comes to hockey but really awesome! and soo was dan.. :o) n now me, jenny, and julie say we have hokcey b/f's lol.. gota love em' but ya.. its thanksgiving gotta go visit my mom's mom.. and then come back here cuz half teh family's coming over.. fun fun... good luck everyone going to nh.. miss ya all.. love ya 2* Happy Thanksgiving :o) xoxoxo l.o.v.i.n.g my hockey player so damn much <3333 xoxoxo *Tara |
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| Sunday, November 23rd, 2003 |
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| well... this week overall just sucked... 98,95,93,90,87,84,82,78.. my report card not bad.. stupid 78.. ahh.. well other than that.. nothing really big happned monday-thursday it just seemed like everything was crappy maybe it was the weather all dreary.. ya no.. but friday was a different story i was suppose to hang out w/ rachel and i was veyr happy.. i havent hung out w/ her in soo long.. and i miss her to death.. and soo i get home at like 315 and i get a phone call from ash n rach saying "wanan come to the mall w/ us tonight?" now.. i love ashley but i needed a night w/ rachel.. and i dunno.. after like 5 min i got off.. and they knew something was wrong i was very sad i guess... but after i called rachel back.. she told me she kinda had to go to teh mall now since they couldnt go on saturday becuz they didnt have rides and since they were getting stuff for bomber blow outon tuesday.. i was kinda upset.. i was looking foward.. and i felt kinda dfitched.. but whatever.. jenny n julie asked me to go to the dance w/ them soo i did.. it was fun.. i love them.. they realyl are awesome.. the dance was ok.. i hung out w/ stina most of it.. and saw sean n brenden again.. havent seen them since july.. i missed em.. but it wasnt that bad.. when i got home i flipped out on ash.. blamed eeyrthing on her.. but its over and one w/ it.. saturday i spent most of the day shopping with my mom.. it was fine kidan got my mind of things.. didnt really help though.. today.. i cleaned.. for thanksgiving.. ahh family's comming over oh joy.. and i did go shopping again.. my p-units fought today.. and for all who dont no.. yes my p-units are pserated even though my dads always here.. i just relivsded they probabaly wont ever get back toegther.. n its sad.. i wish i had that happy parents like i had when i was little.. but sicne i was 5 the've been sperated.. ya no.. i dunno.. and i wish my mom's family could put things aside.. i mean i miss my aunts n uncles and cousins but i seem to miss colin more than anyone.. maybe its cuz we used to spend soo much time toegther.. and he was there alot and i mean we talk but i sitll miss him.. well also saturday night i found out it was offical yes the love of my summer matt.. the boy whos done eveyrthing for me the one i dont with all my heart is moving to california.. im devestated.. and hes gonan move before i have a chance to see him.. i cant belive its happening.. my summers arent gonan be the same.. and not having him there isnt fun.. ahh.. i feel like im ripped in two.. i wish i could go to cali w/ him.. if only.. oh ya... just found out my grandma.. my moms mom is the hospital dont no why.. just no she is.. im scared.. nervous.. i dunno what to think.. i dont no why im soo down lately.. even my p-units are thinkign somethings wrong.. i cry alot now.. maybe its just cuz im scared ill loose my grandma just like i loat my grandpa.. im scared.. and thats all.. and sometimes i feel like i have these feelings for him again.. maybe i really wasnt over him like i thought.. i mean they come back once n a while.. maybe its cuz.. he was the first guy whos ever crushed me.. the one i was ever crazzy about in love with.. i dunno.. i miss my freshman more and more.. and i do see alot of em but its not the same anymore.. im so surripsed im taking this 2 school thing so good.. josh C.. ahh i love him.. hes soo awesome and bobby to.. i guess leaders is awesome for me this year.. i mean w/ suzy, rachel, liam, lauren, jess, ryan, josh, bobby, liz, kristen, SARA! and of anthony... its great im really glad i stayed but i guess tomorrows another day.. maybe something good will happen instead of all these bad things all in a few days.. i really wanna boyfriend.. the one thats gonan last.. a guy whos always there.. i mean im forgetting about dan freguently yet i still love him and always will.. im infautuated w/ 2 new people.. and ill see how it goes.. well better do homework.. and thanks to everyones thats been there.. <3 you all.. | ||||||||
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| Monday, October 6th, 2003 |
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[STARTING OFF] + date: 10-6-03 + name: Tara + birthday: March 29.1990 + school: Westfield South Middle Schooool. gagggg.. + eyes: hazel + hair: dirty blonde. + height: 5'5 + shoe size: 8-81/2 + who lives with you: Mom and my brother when hes home.. i see my dad alot.. + when is your bedtime?: Whenever I want. [HAVE YOU EVER...] + flown on a plane: Yeah + ever been so drunk you blacked out: No + missed school because it was raining: No + told a guy/girl that you liked them?: Duh + put a body part on fire for amusement: What the fuck...NO. + had a crush on a friends girlfriend/boyfriend: yeah... + been hurt emotionally: Yes + kept a secret from everyone: Yes + had an imaginary friend: yay!! i was 3! lol + wanted to hook up with a friend: No + cried during a movie: lol yeah.... + been on stage: Yes + cut your hair: Yes + had a crush on a teacher? Hell no. [FAVOURITE...] + shampoo: Coconut!! + fav colour: Red, Black, Pink.. + day/night: Night :o) + summer/winter: Summmer + lace or satin: I dont know and dont care + fav movies: theres to mant.. + fav drink: Mountain Dew [RIGHT NOW YOU ARE...] + wearing: My syracuse sweatshirt and some pj's + eating: uhh.. nothing.. + drinking: Nothing + listening to: Trapt--Headstrong [HAVE YOU ... IN THE LAST 24 HOURS] + cried: yeah.. + worn jeans: lol YEAH + met someone new online: No.. + done laundry: no + drove a car: lol i wish + talked on the phone: yeah.. with my brother [DO YOU BELIEVE IN...] + yourself: Yes + your friends: Yes + santa claus: no way + tooth fairy: uuuh Nooo I never did. + destiny/fate: Not really. + angels: Yeah + ghosts: Yeah + UFO's: I dont know + god: Yes [FRIENDS & LIFE] + do you ever wish you had another name?: no + do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: Yes + do you like anyone?: Uh yeah my boyfriend lol + which one of your friends acts the most like you?: uhh.. i dunno. me n rach act stupid alot.. but id have to say MoLLy S. is my secret twin! + which friend have you known the longest?: Lizz Morin! + are you close to any family members?: My brother... + who do you go to for stuff?: Myself and people i know...like friends if they aks nicely...lol + who do you hang around the most? Blah to many people. + what's the best feeling in the world: First love..I have to say. + worst feeling: rejected. |
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well woke up early today to the sounds of guster on the TV. ::Amsterdamn:: video.. ahhh love it! i dont mind that guster is on tv n the radio w/ thier video n songs but i cant stand when people all of a sudden magiclly appear with guster songs in thier profile. mostly just "Amsterdamn" becuz thats the only song they no considering they probbaly never heard of them until they heard or show the video of song.. ahhh sorry im just annoyed cuz guster is my band. ive liked then since the old schoooool. sooo ya i have no schooool. and a house ot myself for the day. awesome. except im sick. i stilll cant hear in both ears and im a tissue maniack. ok... yesterday suzy called me a "poser" now im getting fired up with her shit. im sick of it. when last year.. all of a sudden she decidded to turn "punk" well.. ok i MIGHT NOT always dress punk. but i have a girly side who loves dance and getting dressed up to go places. but i also LOVE baggy pants and punk. rock. alternative music. noones said you EVER had to dress the way you do. by what kind of music you listen to. i mean.. soo what is she going to call a few leaders posers? i mean rachel n i had this convoersations.. now we love punk.rock.alternative. but you dont have to dress punk. and i mean you can still love the music. without dressing it. and you look at kristen whos just the same and me n rach and ashley to. im just fristrated with it when a few weeks ago i recall her tryingt o change me into somethign im not. im always gonan be the girlish. sorta girl. who loves boys. loves rock concerts. and baggy pants. and nones how to have fun with the people she lvoes. i mean... im 13.. ok.. and i cant even watch a linkin park video or any song without crying and how im loosing some close people and its killing me. and im sick of trying to act like im soo fricken happy. cuz in reatity im ficken dying inside. im not doign very good.. with my freshman at the high school n me at south... i miss them incredibly and things lately have been soo hard. i just want something to magicllly appear and make me happpy. wednesday when i finally talked to dan about eveyrthing it was great.. thats the best thing. i dunno its like its the one thing i have that noones tryingt o take it away from me. i love him to death. when we first went out wow. i liekd him alot but it seemed andy got in the way. this time no guy is getting in the way. i love him.. alirght there. i love him.. i wanna be able to not cry over being stressed out. be happy. go back to the old me..i dunno something.. i just wanna be soo fricken happy again... im not trying to sound like a syco. lol or anything but im sorry im soo sick of the labels and my schoool... i realy dont no anymore... I've become so numb I can't feel you there I've become so tired so much more aware I've becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me Holding too tightly afraid to lose control Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take -Linkin Park- "Numb" I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress handfull of anger, held in my chest And everything left’s a waste of time I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else’s more I’m riding on the back of this pressure Guessing that it’s better I can’t keep myself together Because all of this stress gave me something to write on The pain gave me something I could set my sights on Never forget the blood sweat and tears The uphill struggle over years the fear and Trash talking and the people it was to And the people that started it just like you (Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me) Told you everything loud and clear (But nobody’s listening) (Called to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me) Told you everything loud and clear (But nobody’s listening) -Linkin Park- "Nobody's Listening" ...sorry..just a few songs i love.. im gonan go enjoy my day off. ha. ya right... : * : TaRa : * : |
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| Sunday, October 5th, 2003 |
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i took 2 months off from writing in this. i thought it would help me calm down a bit. soo here it goes we go way back to august. me n brian went out.. it lasted a few weeks until we got to the taste and after he left on friday i started hanging around w/ justin. i feel completely for him. awesome guy. i decided to dump brian and then saturday night. i hung out w/ brian n we were acting like we were going out i dunno i think it felt awesome. but then we started going out then on sunday i was with justin all day. ya ignored brian soo e just ended it. Schoool Started.. its going increbily well. i'm finally happy w/ my teachers except my syco l.arts teacher but my science teacher loves dmb n phish n its fun. me n brian have stayed friends. hes in a few classes n we have fun in science w/ him. rob n beckie. me n justin are really close. i stopped liking him and just are friends. we talk alot n corrie-nicole, renee, liz, n tif. all wanna meet him lol. dance is aweosme this year. w/ jazz on tuesday w. all the girls! then staright from dance i got to leaders and have a fun time there. wednesday production n tap. pretty fun. corrie, tif n i. have a TON of fun on our break. haha goodtimes ladies! n thursday sr. lyrical. n ballet. ahhh. its funn sometimes i get stressed when i cant do something but im working harder than ever. brian fell for lauren they've been going out for a while untill she decideded to dump him. sooo one day i decdied to kcik frig in the nuts over something he told josh about me. it was only a joke. n then all of a sudden tinnelle's like tara u just didnt do that, dont u touch frig. what does she own him now? right jenny. haha. and then kayla's like ya lauren u coudl kcik her ass the only thing shes got against u is shes fat. ya.. that mean. n then alex was joking n he called me a whore when i walked by him. n then i went to talk to jenny who was near tinnelle. i was like jenny they called me a whore n tinnelle goes "you are" and then goes "i love you jenny, ya ONLY you" and jenny's like that wicked mean to me. and then today she IMed me over dana's house going "i hate u. u nasty bitch ((something like that, not really sure what)) and if u touch frig again. ill kcik yer ass. bye bitch" i've never done anything and i dont get why things get put on me.i dunno. jenny's been their lately more than anyone. sometimes i dunno what id ever do without her. after me n suzy got in the huge fight i decdied i didnt wanna go to the gc concert w/ her.then when we were at leaders interviews suzy was talking about the concert n i asked if i could go again. and shes like ya. but now she claims she said i dunnol. after i gave her my money a long time ago. so we got in a big fight over that. and now i guess shes going w/ katie reardon n katie invited katlin laudo. soo ya. ok. realy coooool. soo im not going. im getting my money back. im extremly pissed. and i havent told my mom. cant wait to hear what she says...i've missed my ash n rach n jess soo much! even though i see rach n jess every tuesday its not the same! i dunno. i never see ash. n i miss her to death. we're just go busy and differnt shcoools is hard... and i miss all my other freshman! my secret tiwn. miss ya to death!!!! lately ive felt soo alone. i think ive lost sont realyl close friends and thats the hardest thing im trying to understand. what i did. i never did anything.. well one good thing is dan. yes we are liek madly obsessed w/ each other says age. lol i miss him soo soo mcuh. n i was gonna go see him on friday except i was sick. n still am! :o( but we likes each other an incredible amount and i dunno i wish i was at north w/ him. im soo tired of south these days.. i miss age, jess, erin, stina, matt, cole..dan.. all the north people i see them at dances but i dunno i just miss the hell outta them! these days..ive been missing jon. i no 3 1/2 hours away no biggie but it feels like i havent seen him in soo long when in realtity i just saw him a few weeks ago... he had front row at guster in syracuse. thanks to me. and my guster show rocked! back to massachusetts! ;-) wow i love them.. they do rock my world!! well im gonna go try to get a lil better no shcoool tomorrow! woooo! party!! haha .Not much of this makes sense to me-Guster. <3 Tara* |
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| Friday, August 1st, 2003 |
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Favorite... ~Drink Alcoholic- pina coloada ~Kool Aid flavor-um...dont no.. ~Store- American Eagle or Express ~Type of dog- yellow lab ~Type of cat- i dont like cats ~Fruit- strawberry! n lemon w/ ashley. lol ~Dessert-my grandma's cheesecake, lol ~Website- www.plyrics.com ~Car- dark red mustang convertable ~Hair color- blonde ~Eye color - hazel ~Gum - lemonade flavored gum.. that i found in Nh w/ ashley, its awesome!! haha ~Type of bed- queen ~Thing to talk about- um... if i feel comfortable with the person, then anything ~Stuffed animal-my dance bear, ive had it since i started competing, :o) ~Type of kiss- Romantic/passionate ~Person to sleep with-umm...that a secret.. ~Time to go online- probably at night, when im home..n during the day..to make plans..lol ~Rugrats character- ToMMy ~Slurpee flavor- Pina Colado..im additced, lol ~Animal noise- uhhh.. ~M&M color- blue ~Lame joke-Q. i have no idea DO YOU...... ~like your name? yeah ~like your hair color? yup ~bf/gf? nope...soon though ~have a crush? yupp!! :o) ~write in cursive or print? print ~drive? not yet, SOOON! lol like 3 years... ~think your good looking? sure ~like the stars? I LOVE EM! ~like clouds? sure ~live with both parents? no...not really..but kinda.. ~have any online friends? yes ~like to party? yeah..."girls just wanna have fun" ~drink? not too often, sometimes.. ~like yourself? sure ~plan on having kids? yeah ~plan on getting married? yeah ~plan on going to college? yeah, syracuse or ucla ~know how to make a website? um.. if i really wanted to i could prolly do it, but i have no reason to ~sleep with a night light? nope ~like to kiss? haha yea, when the time is right ~enjoy reading? not really... ~still play with kids games? no..unless im w/ my baby cousin ~believe in love? yeaa :o) ~believe in heaven/hell? yep ~use highlighters in school? when i have to ~spend too much time on the computer? pretty much ~treat your parents like shit? nooo..my parents are chill ~get alot of junk mail? ya...defneitly.. ~ever not eat breakfast? yeah..alot.. ~have a cell phone? nooooo :o(...soon though! ~cross your legs when you sit? sometimes ~love shoes? yes!!! i have 30 somethin pairs ~bite your nails? yea especially when im nervous ~have candles in your room? yeah but rarely use them ~write on the desks in school? ocassionally ~like to talk on the phone? yaaaa...of ocurse! ~look at pictures of the past and wish you were still there? yup the one picture i cherish from teh alst day of school w/ him..that ash gave me! and the sapce camp pictures.. ~have freckles? yeah ~think your hott? noo.. ~act your age? alot older...thats what peopel say ~stay home from school alot? when im sick ~make your bed? sometimes ~like to cuddle? yea :o) ~like water beds? yay!!! ~believe in love at first sight? yah ~believe in god? yea ~like sleeping underneith the stars? yea defiently ~like to cook? i dont like it but i can cook ~like the rain? ya, i like riding aorund on my bike w/ rachel..lol. ~kiss on the first date? yea ~feel lonely? yeah sometimes ~have sex? lol havent yet ~have a dream that keeps on coming back? yeah..every memory of the last 2 months of school ~believe that you can stay truthful to one person forever? yeaa if u truly love the person ~have any bad habits? prolly ~trust anyone? yeah alot of people actually ~have a second family? yeah..liz morin..((we've been freinds since we were lil ones, n our moms work together, and we dance together!lol)) ~like sarcasm? kinda.. sometimes i cant tell if theyre really serious or not, so i get all confused. ~kiss with your eyes closed? yeaaaa i find it wicked weird when people dont ~love your friends more then your family? noo..but my friends so mean the world to me ~think there is a reason for living? yeah ~believe in the afterlife? yeaa ~live in the moment? kinda ~have any secrets? defiently.. ~believe in your friends? yepp ~have a pool? noo...but alot of peopel in my family do.. ~sleep alot? not rreally ~sleep with one pillow? 2 ~IM ppl or wait for them to IM you? both ~Call ppl or wait till they call you? both ~go more on looks or personality? both ~fear change? yeah.. ~like sunsets? yeah.. i got kissed under a sunset at the beach..:o) Who.... ...is the last person you saw? my daddy ...is the last person you were on the phone with? ashleykins..lol ...are you talking to? no one..but ash, julz, n kevin IMed me..while im away..lol ...are you with right now? my dads downstairs ...are you going to talk to soon? umm.ash n kevin..n Brian... ...was the last person that slept in your bed? ?? me :o) ...was the last person that saw you cry? ??? um..my brother.. ...was the last person you went to the movies with? wow..long time ago..but jenny, sean, pat, n alex ...do you think youll still be friends with ten years from now? Rachel DEFINELTY.. and prolly Liz M, Renee D, Courtney, Ashley..some others... ...is the last person you fucked? umm...noone..YET lol ...is the one person that youll never hate in your whole entire life? rachel THIS OR THAT Nice smiles or nice eyes? both.. Italian food or Chinese? italian..i like pizza, lol Dark or light eyes? light Milk shakes or floats? shakes Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? choc milk, rigth rach! Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? pefect friend Vanilla or Chocolate? choc Fly or breathe under water? fly Night or day? night Cuddle or make out? depends how i am feeling, and what is right..for the mood, lol Tea/coffee/cappuccino? cappuccino! starbucks is the GREASTEST! Milk/dark/white chocolate? milk Santa or Rudolph? ruddolph i like his nose, lol Single or group dates? single..:o) Black or hot pink? hot pink! Halloween or easter? halloween 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? i would say one best friend.. |
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my brother told me the day before he n my mom were suppsoe to leave for NJ that i was going to the phish ocnerts too! i was great phish denfeitly rocked up the tweeter center at the waterfront in Camden, NJ!! we ended up going to Philadelphia on thursday n wedmeday it was cool...we got home at 6am this morning but it was worthg it!!!!!! there were cute boyz...haha Phish Rocks My World! :O) Six flags was great me n rach tried to find some guyz but it didnt work..there were some HOTT n cute boyz but a lil old..lol anyways...i liek someone..that noone likes lol..i no it shoudln tmatter but sometimes i want a b/f my friends relaly like n i never find that..i guess now he likes this otehr girl n me but who knows..lol its boyz oh well.. Renee Got Her Permit!!! yay!!!!! love ya girl! banana2404: just so u kno i love u more then i love my chex mix and that is alot! ..i love you like a fat kid loves pizza, right julz! haha.. ~In the end, you always go back to the people who were there in the beginning~dawsons creek ..its the truth... i love you* |
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| Monday, July 28th, 2003 |
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well i got back from NH last night it was fun, im tan!!! n me n ash had fun being fruits, lol..saturday night we got the *Hoogdies Sepcial* 12 scoops of ice cream, haha, me ash n her dad split it and didnt finish it even though everyone had some..it was the biggest thing ive ever seen!! lol me n keith messed w/ brian's head last night when he asked me out again...it was great!! keiththnaks for the help, <3 ya! i almost thought i was ognan go out w/ him but then hes just over obesseive more than me,lol i cant deal w/ that, haha! omg..ash gave me this picture of me n andy, and its soo cute..honestly i love it, lol..i miss him alot..i mean this fight is driving me crazzy and i just miss him.but there's nothing i can do anymore..oh well..and like me n ash think hes not at happy as hes pretednign i dont think..i realy think he just stuck molly there to proove a point to me..ya no..who knows hes a guy..lol Six flags w/ rach, my aunt, n mom today..weee!! lol i love you* |
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| Thursday, July 24th, 2003 |
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Tonight im going to NH w/ my ashley!! woo its gonan be pretty cool, and we;'re both hyped!! i've missed her!! and i yelled at jenna for her yesetrday it was pretty funny! 2 /n;s what a loserr rigth ash! Ill be back sunday night soo dont miss me too much!! lol well..me n jess w were talking about going to six flags n welcoming me to the dark side, lol and all eveyrthings really good between we and her we dritfed for a while but we're back, and i shoudal said*oh go fuck your mom, bitch*haha..or as jess would say*dont flatter yourself why would u be in my profile* haha..that was funny! Brian asked me out last night..i mean i do like him, but i said no, for now anyway, i really do wanan go out w/ him hes soo sweet to me, and as much as courtney doesnt want me to, i want to and i wanan follow my heart..n he wants a long relationship jsut like me which is good.. gonna go pack.. .i love brian. :o) |
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| Wednesday, July 23rd, 2003 |
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well anyway..today started off kinda werid..nothing happened except Brian keeps asking me for my number and i dont wanna give it to him..soo next time courtney sleepover over we're PUNKING him! haha tomorrow night im going up to NH w/ ashley n her family, till sunday night!! yay!! it's gonna be cool, and james is heading up there sunday, cool too..lol that whole james fight is over.. SchoolSucks5625 [8:19 PM]: im sry i like other people its just I hate hurtin people SchoolSucks5625 [8:19 PM]: and some times i build up alot of rage from a bunch of stuff and just explode on one person SchoolSucks5625 [8:19 PM]: that was u that day that made my day..hes soo awesome..i like him soo much..:o) and o ya i called merati last night..and he met molly n said shes the ugliest n most annoyist girl hes ever met! haha.. and me n matt g have a sorta realtionship, i dont no..we're confsued he lieks me alot again except likes 2 others..i mean i like him..but ya no..i really like james..soo i dont no.. love ya* |
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| Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003 |
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soo ya im sitting here talking to james n rach...ya no..ya great, im feeling soo crappy all of a sudden, i dont like this..ive falling crazzy for james, and its not good, he likes becca n sarah..not me..see never me anymore.. SchoolSucks5625 [9:33 AM]: sounds like ur over andy and now onto me DanceChica329 [9:33 AM]: umm... DanceChica329 [9:33 AM]: ya.. SchoolSucks5625 [9:34 AM]: i dont wanna hurt u or anything thats the thing doesnt wanna hurt me..already did, and here i go again w/ my bitchy attitude..i just cant take this anymore, every time..ugh... SchoolSucks5625 [9:45 AM]: Youll Find somone else better than me trust me maybe i will..but i dont want it, i just want him..an di made him feel bad, and i do feel bad now..but like i dont no i cant help the way i feel, im a teenager i have raging hormones, haha, but seiorsuly, SchoolSucks5625 [9:48 AM]: now ur making me feel bad hoping Ill start to like u more than becca and sarah SchoolSucks5625 [9:48 AM]: ITs not gona fucking work SchoolSucks5625 [9:48 AM]: I love becca and sarah SchoolSucks5625 [9:48 AM]: so SchoolSucks5625 [9:48 AM]: STop making me SchoolSucks5625 [9:49 AM]: Feel bad SchoolSucks5625 [9:49 AM]: Im getting fucking pissed off SchoolSucks5625 [9:49 AM]: A real lot DanceChica329 [9:49 AM]: thast not what im tryign to do, u dont understand SchoolSucks5625 [9:49 AM]: Just shut the fuck up and leave me alone right now i dont wanna talk ..ya..that where it ended my stupid attitude..whatever..i mess shit yup all the time..first andy..now this..grr... but..now its fine..now im so called obsessed cuz hes in eveyr entry, but we're fine, but i need to stop w/ my fricken moods, and reall yim not obsessed, im hung up on krupa!! sean !! and andy a lil :o(... ~.:*:.The Heart Can Only Take So Much Pain.:*:.~ *Sometimes the worst thing he could do is tell you that you can find someone better than him, when all you've ever wanted was him* |
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| Monday, July 21st, 2003 |
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Well here it goes.. Friday/Night/Staurday-i hung out w/ rach n then marissa went over her house and then we got ready and went to the dance, it was boring but i hung out w/ Krupa it was cool..then me n maris slept over rach's we were up till like 1ish talking it was great, we tracehd talked a few, haha goodtimes..then i was at rach's till about 430, then i left n went home, it was fun..but ill never forget this.. Rachel: Alchol Is Not The Answer Marissa: IT Could Be! ~haha, it was a great night!, love ya girls~ Saturday Night/Sunday Morning-Courtney asked me to sleep over! it was great, we hadnt hung out since she just got back! we were talking to tim sheenan and cliff was over his house, that convo was funny! and then we had some fun, ya no..we went to chruch n saw mr. d!! sean, anne, n meghan it was cool! Sunday Afternoon- i called Renee and then we went to Six flags for the day, it was great, we saw soo many cute skater boyz!! and one looked like james :o) who im still crazyz about anyway..ya i saw kim, nate, jess n some otehr people, but i also met renee's friend bri n her b/f, and we tried soo hard to get bri on superman but she wouldnt even if we forced her, o well, we did try. bri's b/f reminded me of andy, and he looked alot like him..oh joy..:o( but it was a great way to spend a day to spend w/ her for her birthday, cuz it was today!! but ya we were there till it closed n then Shannon picked us up it was fun cuz i hadnt seen her in a while, we trashed talked a bunch of people for dance, ahh goodtimes!! *this weekend fricken rocked!! i was soo busy, but it was great!! and james is gonan teach me how to skatebaord, n we;re gonan hang out n stuff and hes gonna teach me tricks, soo its gonan rock!! i cant wait!! KAI!!! n PESKY!!! are here, thats cool, soo hangin out w/ them during the hgue thunderstrom was the greatest!! and GUSTER IS ON JAYLENO!!!!! even better! to top off a great weekend! :o) ~HAPPY SWEET 16 RENEE!!!!~ love you* |
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| Thursday, July 17th, 2003 |
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well..i just got back from new hampshire..it was great honestly! soo when i got there n stuff me n my mom checked it ya no the usual, then we went to the *Mall Of New Hampshire* for a qucik trip, i got a shirt, and then got dressed and then went to the -Stage Door Cafe- for the concert, we ate there and then zox came in at about 7 n set up, i was walking abck from the bath room and Eli the lead singer, goes "do u have a surrage protcter" and im like no..and hes like u dont work here do you, an dim like noo im here to see you, he thought i was a waitress lol, well anyway, soo i said hi to them and stfuf soo it was cool, at like 730-8, they started, and they were really awesome, they played till like 1030, 2 sets w/ like a 15 min break in between, it was aweosme, every one was loving it, and like i was on the stage they were playing on i was soo incrdible close!! ahh..i loved it..this trip to new hampshire, was awesome, eveyrthing was great..now all i have left is *GusteR* whcih will be great too! :o) i come home n find a message from my brother say i got stiched on my upper lip cuz teddy elbowed me in the lip playing b-ball, that great huh, well ya soo he said he was playing tennis at stanely soo when i got home we went up there to give him this message from casey, but noo he was elaving when we got there, soo we had to turn around n coem home, and no the way home i saw james skateboarding, :o) soo that was cool! but i still dont no where my brother went, i hadnt seen these stiched, but my dad said they werent too bad.. and then i find out one of my BEST FRIENDS in the fricken world who ive been friends w/ since like forever, might be moving to new york cuz of her dad and that is sad, and i cant make it w/o her, shes my rock, and i love her, soo kara, im praying soo hard, i love you soo much and i hope this doesnt happen.. love you* |
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| Tuesday, July 15th, 2003 |
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i went to ashley's for a while, cuz we were gonna walk to the library. cuz she going to boston with her mom on thursday so she wanted something to read. it all went fine until james came over... i like james, so we thought it was a "good idea". little did we know ash's dad was comming home an hour early, at 4 insted of 5... and he walks throo the door with james having no way out. ash's parents are strict and shes not exactly allowed to have guys over. so her dad played it cool and when ash went in the other room he was like "we'll talk later" and gave me that smile as if to say "yay i get to kill you later"..and i feel bad, and now shes grounded, and i feel soo bad, becuz we never thought her dad would come home early, i tried soo ahrd to cheer her up ya no..and i dont no anymore... Well i hung out w/ james it was fun, me n ash tried to skateboard..and hwen ash went in to get sneakers i got on it and james pushed me it was funny, then he pushed it soo i fell but he caught me soo its all good, but hwne were just hanging out on ashleys couch n we were cuddling, lol n i loved it, now he tried to make out w/ me, but being tara i psuhed him away, and ya ive done that alot, but no that we;re thinking about it, hes happy n so am i cuz he was surprised but even if i do like him i didnt wanna cuz im not going out w/ him and i wouldnt wanna mess up anything and the girl he really likes, soo yeah, but today was good up until ash's dad came home, i cheered her up w/ my booty shakes, i feel bad though, but i love her to death and she knows it soo hopefully everything will be ok.. and i like keith a wicked lot i addimite it finally, i really do, i really do like him.. well im gonna go ZOX CONCERT TOMORROW!!!! :o) love you* |
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| Monday, July 14th, 2003 |
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..2 days till i can leave! even though im onyl going for like 2 days, im happy to leave mass! ZOX CONCERT in fricken new hampshire!! wooo woo!!! i cant belive it, all of a sudden after everything andy's put me through im wondering if i am really over him? its realyl weird, i dont get it anymore...today i sat in my room n all of a sudden bursted into tears over him, what is wrong w/ me? i shouldnt be doing this..:o\ Goodbyes make u think.They make u realize what u've had. What u've lost n what u've taken for granted.. i've falling head over heels for james burns!! hes great honestly, he cheers me up n makes me feel awesome, im soo happy i met him thanks to keith!! *some things from the past 2 days.. SchoolSucks5625 [6:21 PM]: Im gonna Miss you When You get back Lets watch the 6th sence together rAcHbAbY1228 [8:01 PM]: haha yeah! i was sitting there the other day and i go, i miss tara!!!!!! Skikid624 [10:05 PM]: all my love please dont cry wash my bloody hands and we will start a new life |
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x. name = Tara x. gender = ladies hands up...let me see you shake your stuff x. birthday = 3/29/90 x. piercings/where= ears once x. tattoos/where= cant say i do x. height = 5'5" x. shoe size = 8 x. hair color = blonde x. length = medium last: x. movie you rented =the ring x. song that was stuck in your head = Guster-Amsterdam x. song you've downloaded = Third Eye Blind-Blinded x. cd you bought = Old School MxPx x. cd you listened to = Guster x. person you've called = Shannon x. person that's called you = Renee Do: x. you have a bf or gf = nnnooo x. you wish you could live somewhere else = yea. x. you think about suicide = no x. others find you attractive = i dont no..i think lol x. you want more piercings = more ears x. you want more tattoos = one... x. you like cleaning = can't say i do x. you like roller coasters = hell yah, courtney superman! lol in the past month: x. Had Sex: no x. Made Out: no x. Gone on a date: probablly x. Gone to the mall?: yep:) x. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope x. Eaten sushi: nope x. Been on stage: yep x. Gone skating: nope x. Made homemade cookies: yep x. Gone skinny dipping: maybe.. x. Dyed your hair: nope x. Stolen anything: nope. favorite: x. food = bbq chicken n pizza x. songs = Are you happy now~MB, ANY Guster Song, Evenutally-Zox, On My Own-The Used x. thing to do = talk...hang out...party..dance! x. thing to talk about = just...everything x. sports = volleyball, tennis DANCE IS MY LIFE! x. sports to watch = golf x. drinks = pina coldoa, daquari, maragartia x. clothes = AE, band shirts, anything.. x. movies = Save The Last Dance, Sixth Sence, Just Married! x. holiday = March 29th what... x. shampoo do you use =Starwberry stuff x. perfume do you use = victoria secret or lucky you x. shoes do you wear = i have like 20 million pairs of flip flops but really anything i decide.. x. thinsg are you scared of = drowning number.. x. of boys I have kissed?:4 or 5 x. of continents I have lived in?: 1 x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: defntly there no doubt, rachel! :o) *5 things you are wearing* 1. necklace from florida 2. earrings 3. dark n light blue tank top from AE 4. angel jeans 5. my 4 rings *5 things you are doing right now* 1. trying to figure out things.. 2. typing 3. taking to "the boy" 4. answering these ?'s 5. pakcing for NH *5 things you ate in the last 24 hours* 1. wendy's 2. pizza 3. watermelon 4. bagel 5. blueberries *5 things you did so far today* 1.woke up 2. had breakfast 3. took a shower 4. talked to "him" 5. eye doctor *5 things you can hear right now* 1. my brother playing electric guitar 2. cars 3. my neighbors 4. the fasuet 5. my mom *5 thoughts in your head* 1. why cant i have him? 2. why am i wasting my time? 3. me n kara need to hang out 4. erin better go to the dance w/ me 5. why did i make the biggest mistake of my life.. *5 things you look for when your picking a boyfriend* 1. is there.. 2. sense of humor 3. someone i can talk to 4. a friend 5. smile/eyes, looks *5 things you would like to do in your lifetime* 1. get a hummer, mercedes, mustang, n Bmw 2. have children 3. get married to my middle/high school sweethart 4. live in cali w/ ryan n liam by my side 5. have andy not hate me! *Five things you love* 1. my friends 2. my family 3. JAMES!! :o) 4. my girls!-no doubt! 5. the love of my life |
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giggly.
blank.
depressed.
aggravated.
sick.
crazy.
tired.
flirty.
crappy.
bouncy.
worried.
stressed.