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I haven't wrote a full-out entry in quite a while, so here I go...
School's been ok... I enjoy Nardizzi's class sooo fuckin much. He's sucha cool guy to wake up to everyday. Plus Cristy's in that class (: French is fun too. It helps that Mrs. Western adores me and Drew's in that class (even though we don't talk much)... Women's Ensemble's easy as fuck. I sing all hour... what can I say? I enjoy it. And physical science sucks. I hate the people in there. They're all immature and ignorant. I HATE people like that. You can't even hold a decent conversation with them. God, I hate the end of my school days. But, I'll get over it. I feel like writing a story. Even though I think I'm a horrible writer. There's nothing wrong with trying though, right? In CW right now, I'm writing a story about my mother and father. Heh. If they knew I'd be grounded until I was 73. I started writing a story over the summer, but I didn't get very far with it. Anyway... enough of that. I need to take drivers training seg 2. I need to turn 16. I need my license. So much more freedom. Then I could go out with friends and go to local shows whenever I wanted to. I also need a job. I need money so bad right now. But it doesn't help that I'm kinda wasting it on things that I want instead of need. Like cigarettes. I'll probably quit once I get a job. It's fun to waste my parents money every once and again. Ooh, Dave Navarro is on the TV right now. Quite the guitarist I tell ya. Good looking too. Double whammy. Good job. I love it.
I really missed this song. I'm glad that I found my TBS CD. It was in my family room on the top shelf of the armoir. Phew, I thought I lost it. They're my favorite. (: I'm getting into this phase of cartoon t-shirts. Batman is what I'm wearing right now. Plus I have Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Snuffy (which isn't really a cartoon, but all the same, kids shows, right?) and some other older ones. I quite frankly, I'm enjoying it. These past few days have been really good, I suppose. I did kinda get shit on on Sunday, but besides that, I feel the best I have in the longest time. I feel so comfortable in my skin right now. And that's really good because I haven't felt this way in such a long time. I felt like total useless shit from about September last year til I was put in the Fox Center for 3 weeks, and then I still felt bad, but not as much. Since I think July, I've felt the best I have in the past 2 years. I'm quite proud of myself. I really don't take peoples shit anymore. I know who my real friends are and I basically get along with everyone. I'm no longer isolating myself. I haven't cut since before I went into Fox Center, in January. I haven't drank since December. I'm staying clean of booze and razors. I'm feeling pretty good. It's good when you feel like nothing can tear you apart. I enjoy it much.
Pretty, fuzzy, green yarn around my wrist from Jennifer. Reminds me of Oscar the Grouch. (:
*it's getting colder and we're getting distant and I just keep thinking that I never meant it to be like this
You know what comes next so do I, You're begging for a way to gracefully bow or and say goodnight...
It's worse than you think...
On your way home, you should have known, you never listen to me
I'm only complaining to keep myself busy sweetie...
I can't say I blame you but I wish that I could, I'm sick of writing every song about you...
Don't call my name out your window I'm leaving*
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