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The Wizard of Oz |
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In the merry ole land of oz! I wonder what surrounds you.
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[04 Apr 2006|10:42pm] |
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I hate it when someone seems like something is bothering them, and they aren't being themselves...but they think nobody can tell-but it's obvious...something. I hope they are happy.
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| slurpee! |
[07 Feb 2006|07:02pm] |
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I have an orange one! They didn't have any other flavor! =\ I need to wake up and self motivate.
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[28 Oct 2004|09:56pm] |
Everyday is confusing...quit thinking.
Don't have expectations, then you won't get disappointed!!!*remembers this cuz im whacked in the head*
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[14 Sep 2004|08:55pm] |
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How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
how to defer to men in solvable predicaments
how to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
how to have that not work and have them run away from you
how to keep people at arms length and never get to close
how to mistrust the ones who supposedly love the most
how to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
how to feel worthless so fast you're helping
I'll teach you all this in 8 easy steps
In the course of a lifetime, I never forgot
I'll show you how to in 8 easy steps
I'll show you how leaderships were taught by the best
how to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
how to play all highest when you're really a hypocrite
how to hate god when you're a player and a spiritualist
how to sabotage when you're in tough seas
I'll teach you all this in 8 easy steps
In the course of a lifetime, I never forgot
I'll show you how to in 8 easy steps
I'll show you how leaderships were taught by the best
I've been doing research for years
I've been practicing my ass off
I've been waiting my whole life for this moment, I swear to you
Culminating just to be this well versed leader before you
I'll teach you all this in 8 easy steps
In the course of a lifetime, I never forgot
I'll show you how to in 8 easy steps
I'll show you how leaderships were taught by the best
how to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
how to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
how to know them all the too well by going with them
how to stay stuck in your life hating them
I'll teach you all this in 8 easy steps
In the course of a lifetime, I never forgot
I'll show you how to in 8 easy steps
I'll show you how leaderships were taught by the best
I'll teach you all this in 8 easy steps
In the course of a lifetime, I never forgot
I'll show you how to in 8 easy steps
I'll show you how leaderships were taught by the best
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[10 Sep 2004|01:40pm] |
For the rest of my life I need to remember to eat at least one meal, other wise I end up hallucinating, weak, collapsing it just is too weird. The feeling like your body is dizzy and maybe I need nutrients. heh. There's a thought.
I am sitting here wondering what the 1% is that Raven is supposed to tell me one day.
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| RAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[06 Sep 2004|09:44pm] |
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The Ramones |
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I've been away from here for a while. Waiting for this guy to stay away, and completely get out of my life. I had to get a restraining order, so he'd stay away and not harass me at home or at work. Maybe I can live now. What's the deal with bubble gum?
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[29 Aug 2004|12:54am] |
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She will be loved o_0 |
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ok I have snapped out of my depressed streak I have been having lately. I don't know what that was all about but I finally got over it. It's weird how someone could mention ONE thing, and you take it to heart, and think everything you've ever done in your life time is wrong, and you're just meant to be nothing more than what you are. Nothing ever will become better in your lifetime, and the things you want in life, you'll never get. I speak too much in metaphors. Or whatever. I have this terrible time with trusting people enough to speak what's on my mind. Usually people wonder what the fuck I'm saying. o_0 And the people I do trust don't realize, they're lucky I'm speaking in riddles and metaphors to them at all, when the rest of the population get nothing out of me. Yes, it's called let's reEvaluate ourselves, and change what we can to become better. That was the red bull talking! ^_~
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[22 Aug 2004|11:47am] |
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Steak and eggs? o_0
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| Words are meaningless and forgetable |
[21 Aug 2004|11:35pm] |
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depeche mode-enjoy the silence |
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Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free
Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now He's gone
No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death Greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye
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[20 Aug 2004|06:52pm] |
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YOU! |
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I miss you!!!! THISSSSSSSSSSS MUCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHH
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[19 Aug 2004|11:15pm] |
*climbs up on my roof and waits*
(hides the ammo)
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[13 Aug 2004|04:16pm] |
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 indescribable |
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afi |
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I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold
I'm better than last night, was stressed out. OMG and I can still feel the stress!
*gasps and starts hyperventilating*
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[11 Aug 2004|09:56pm] |
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I hate my life.
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[06 Aug 2004|11:58pm] |
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I miss Raven
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[05 Aug 2004|07:40pm] |
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Ministry~ |
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I want to walk into your mind and see what you are thinking.
I miss you!
I need to find a needle and thread and sew fur on everyones clothes and stuff! heh.
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| My New Name is PABLO! =) |
[02 Aug 2004|09:41pm] |
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Ziggy Marley |
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I just saw a movie, and thought about you...I always think about you. Maybe I should hit my head into a rock. Whoa, where'd that come from? =X
What I meant to say was;
I just hope that you think about me too.
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[31 Jul 2004|09:14pm] |
Show me lonely and
Show me openings
To lead me closer to you
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| FEED ME! |
[31 Jul 2004|09:11pm] |
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A Perfect Circle-Hollow |
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*makes a castle out of rockstar cans*
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[27 Jul 2004|07:54pm] |
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threw you the obvious and you flew
with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious
and
you don't see me.but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.
so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.
oh well. apparently nothing.
you don't see me.
you don't see me at all.
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