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Sunday, October 19th, 2003

Time:7:05 pm.
Journal now closed.

Subject:Morbid bitch.
Time:3:32 pm.
Mood: drained.
Music:Taproot - Poem.

Been reading the journals and smiling lots ;D

Who is the person leaving insane comments on my journal with no name? Show yourself!

I went to visit a dying man this morning, was one of the worst experiences of my life. He looked so old, tired, thin, ill..he looked like he was dying, but then again he is. He is on loads of medication which wont help him because he is dying, he can't survive the lung cancer its gone too far, you can see he wants to die in his eyes. It's upseting..seeing someone in so much pain :(

Not long until my birthday now, *sigh* I'm getting so old, before I know it I will be a grandmother :S

I aint got owt to say, maybe later I will...

[The only thing you can ever be sure of in life, is that you will die.]

Saturday, October 18th, 2003

Time:6:50 pm.
Mood: distressed.
Music:Marilyn Manson - Slutgarden.
Home, early again.

Andrew is going to think something is up if I keep coming home earlier than planned. [Nothing is up btw!!] Came home early because someone was ment to call me and did'nt, I got worried and came home, good job really because I found out someone in the family has taken a turn for the worse, so I said I would look after Sophie so my parents can go stay with him if they want. I did'nt want to come home, but sometimes you have to do stuff you don't want to to help people. So it can be a bitch, but need's to be done :/ [does this make any sense?!]

I did'nt say anything but the other night I had my first "OBE" it was scary..but I'm kinda chuffed with myself *lol*. I'm gonna do some more meditation and see if that helps me, I can only hope it does!! :D

FFS @ Blar's journal, what a crock of shit, I can't even be arsed reading it all, it bores me after 2 minutes :S And Viv, and Sam and errrk, its boring now, but goddamn it keeps me laughing!!!!!

Thanks for the comment Jeff, I was starting to worry!!! :P

I'm missing Andrew...*sigh* It's weird, being so near him but not really seeing him that much...

Hmph, off to the land of *boringness and death*

[Truth is all that matters.]

Thursday, October 16th, 2003

Time:10:36 am.
Mood: happy.
Music:Nirvana - Heart Shaped Box.

Thanks for the comments, I've been pmsfl!! ;D

Been to see the consultant, all good news! I have been "discharged"....!! Brill news, I just have to take loads of pills until I go through the change..*lol* I got some good info off the consultant though, he was very helpful, unlike the other wank I used to see. [The wank actually came to see and my shuck my hand, wished me luck]

I'm off to Andrews later, so I won't be online, I know it is hard to accept, but you will survive, *lolololol*

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS PMSFL)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) XXXXXXMMMMWAHHHHHHHHHH *lolololololol*

[Flesh eating orchids.]

Wednesday, October 15th, 2003

Time:8:09 pm.
Mood: amused.
Music:Marilyn Manson - The KKK Took My Baby Away.
about you
Name: Georgia
Location: Newcastle
1. Ever felt in love so much you wanted to cry?
2. Ever cheated on someone? Nope.
3. Ever hurt someone for no reason? Nah.
4. Ever had a bad relationship? LOL, Many.
5. flirted with your mates girlfriend/boyfriend? lol, no!
6. loved someone? Aye.
7. Been aboard? Aye
8. Hoped you'd not do something? lol, yeap.
9. Have a certain best mate? What is a mate? lololol
10. Told a lie? Aye to me parents lol
11. If yes what was it? Said I was at college when I was gettin pissed.
12. Hit someone for something they'd said or done?
13. Hurt someone badly? Ermmmm...
14. Play a tape/cd/mp3 tell it wouldn't play no more? lol yes.
15. If so what was it? A Slayer album.
16. Favourite TV prog? Eastenders / Southpark
17. Favourite DVD/Video?Loads
18. Favourite meal? Tuna pasta
19. Favourite person to talk to? Myself.
20. Favourite Chat room? Paranormal
21. Favourite clothing? Jeans
22. Favourite room in the house? My bedroom.
23. Favourite pet? Pet camel.
24. Favourite country/hol location/place? Germany. [Berlin] :)
25. Ever smoked a fag? Me?? No lololol
26. Ever drank booze? Nope!!! lmao
27. Got drunk out your brain you didn't know what was happening? Errr Yes. lol
28. Favourite colour? black
29. Favourite time? Sex time.
30. Favourite day? Day full of sex.
31. Favourite month? Novemeber
32. What do you like of the other sex? Eyes lol
33. What do you want in a relationship if in a relationship what would you like to be better? want - smiles, huggles, acceptance.
34. How many guys/girls have you been out with? LOL,I cant remember lol
35. How many guys/gurls have you felt serious about? Erm not all of them if I'm honest. lol
36. How often do you top your phone up? Not much Im a skint flit.
37. When do you go out to special places/meals? Never no one takes me anywhere lol
38. Why you doing this? Drunkish lol
39. Do you like filling these out? When am drunk aye
40. What are you going to do now? Talking and filling this in.
last 2 questions!
When did you start this? Dunno!
When did you finish this? 20:00

Ok I'm drunkish.

Funny how people don't pick up on things which are so fucking obvious. Their loss!

Time:5:26 pm.
Mood: drunk.
Music:Georgia Wilson - I'm an alkiiiiii and I'm proudddd *lolol*.
Well hello there sexy people and mongs too, *pmsl*.

Been in the pub, erk I'm not [hic] drunk [hic] with me gay friend carl, awwww bless his cotten socks, he wants a boyfriend but can't find one, maybe I should hook up up with one of me ex's? *lmao*

Well I aint at college for another week, woohoo! God bless coursework, hehe. So I will be down the pub ;D

Erk my mother is scaring me, she was talking about *breast feeding*, ffs I'm young I don't want no baby sucking me nipple, errrk, errrrk, errrk!! Then she told me she used to sqirt me dad with the milk out her tit, now ffs that's going a bit too far, I don't wanna know about their dirty little sex games. :l

Hossie tomorrow, woooooooooo, I'm so excited, I have got myself all worked up and ready to give me doctor a gob full, wish I did'nt have to go alone, but the person I wanted to come..erm well yeah. And it is at 9:00, ffs!! GRRRR.

Okay I aint seen Jeff in like ages, where is he? Does anyone know? Is he in Middlesborough?..hmm *COME BACK JEFF!!* :P

EEEEEE Well, What yer all think about Viv, the 53 year old virgin, who dont play with herself or know what a 69 is? *lmfao* Okay she is ill, sick, demented whatever you wanna call it she is it. Mind she aint half as bad as the sunbed vamp, ffs she is one daft shite. I think her and Viv should hook up for some hardcore banging sex, *lmao* Pair of sad, twisted, evil bints.

Did anyone [other than Fee, the woman who has brill taste in tv!!] watch "Wife Swap"? Me and Fee decided that the"rough" dude was Lee, *lolololol* What a brill show. And "Teen Big Brother" well, *pmsfl* All I can say is Suppperrrrrb [Harry style, *rofl*]

I see Andrew tomorrow [swoon] You have got to see the pic of him in a skirt, I'm seriously jelous, sexyyyyyyy legs! [growls] ;D

Anyhoo I'm off to have a cuppa cause I'm canny tipsy..[hic, hic]

[Dream as if you will live forever, live as if you will die today.]

Tuesday, October 14th, 2003

Time:4:47 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Music:Cradle Of Filth - Her Ghost In The Fog..
sweet and innocent
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Carl [my gay buddy from college] phoned the house last night at 2:40am, pissed as fuck, good job I was awake and next to the freaking phone!! He had been to the pound bin at Trillians, and was telling me in a really pissed way that charva mark was asking about me, errrk this is sickening. He also went on to asking me if I want to go out tonight to Get Ya Skates On I think. Now I would go BUT -

* Charva Mark will be there.
* It is packed full of posers.
* Posh Posh Students.
* I would have to get paraletic to be able to stand half the music.

And the funny thing is Andrew might be going tonight. *lol* [I should send Andrew a text back, he asked what I think of him going to "get yer shit music on" - I think that says it all, lmfao.]

My Parents are at a "party" tonight and not coming home, [more like going for some sex *vomit*] Half the time they say they are going out and never do, so fuck knows what will happen.

I did'nt get up until 3:30, I've been ill :( Feel better now, I've been drinking honey and hot lemon tea..*lol* [rather have a spliff *lmfao*]

Right I am off to eat mi dinner, I've had nowt due to me being in bed *dying*.

Freak Test

[You laugh at me because I'm different, I laugh at you cause I could kick yer ass.]

Monday, October 13th, 2003

Time:6:45 pm.
Mood: calm.
Music:Marilyn Manson - Long Hard Road Out Of Hell.
Kat's just found out his girlfriend has been cheating on him.
I hate cheat's, infact I hate people even kissing someone else when they are in a realationship. Discusts me, if you can't control yourself you should'nt be in a realationship! Cheating is something I could never forgive, dont even think I could forget about my partner kissing someone else..erkk..maybe its just me!
But I know Kat wont forgive Sarah!

Anyhoo tallyhoo [pip-pip]

Subject:A month today..
Time:5:26 pm.
Mood: hyper.
Music:Rob Zombie - Run Rabbit Run.

Tis me 18th a month today, I want e-mail cards off everyone! EVERYONE even viv the twit and Sam the man, lmfao. Parents want to know what I want, infact everyone wants to know what I want, and I don't even know what I want, so umm yeah it's not good. Dad is'nt happy because I refuse to have a party, but I mean being 18 is'nt that big a deal to me, I go out drinking now, have done since I was 16, so I dunno what will change, other than me being able to vote..woofuckinghoo.

Well AOHell was a bitch last night, would'nt let me in any chatrooms, so I had to take it off and put it back on, not once but twice, and I have had to do the same today. *sigh* Why do I bother?

My dads so funny, I burst out singing "Love Me Tender" at dinner and he said "Are you on drugs or what?" lol Then he came into my bedroom and said "Her next door is a reet fucking tramp with that garden", ffs people wonder why I am the way I am!! [Dad never swears like that infront of mum.]

So I went to College today, boring! I have some essay to write....Boring aswell! :S Finished early though! So I came home then went back into town for mum, then did some work...cleaned my room, fixed aohell, went to hockey! woooooo! :D Was wicked! Then had dinner.

I was speaking to Kat last night, poor thing, his girlfriend is lying to him. He always gets messed around, he is too nice to people. I cheered him up though, by singing Jingle Bell Rock, and telling him I'm gonna go see him at work on my birthday and he can sing happy birthday to me! :D

Aint me life proper exciting! [Im sarcastic.]

Has anyone seen Jeff around?...

[Seduce my mind and you can have my body, find my soul and I'm yours forever.]

Sunday, October 12th, 2003

Subject:Bored, pissed off with AOHELL.
Time:10:02 pm.
Mood: bored.
Music:Stone Sour - Bother.
1. Full name: Georgia O'Neil Wilson.

       2. Nicknames: Geo, George, Georgie, Half Pint, Weed Girl, Rancid..

       3. Eyes: Hazel.

       4. Height: 5ft4.

       5. Hair: Black, Curly a fucking mess.

       6. Siblings: Sister and 1/2 brother.

       7. Do u like to sing in the shower? Sometimes..

       8. Do u like to sing? All the time. 

       9. Birthday: 10th Nov

       10. Sign:  Scorpio

       11. Address: 666 Helvete Street.

       12. Sex: Female

       13. Right or Left: Right

       14. What do you want in a relationship most? Trust, Acceptance and Love.

       15. Marital status: Got a boyfriend.

      16. Do you have a car? I can't drive so nar.

       18. What kinda car do you want? One with wheels.


       19. Movies? Fuck, er a lot. Battle Royale, The Nightmare Before Christmas, The Crow..

       20. Song? * Hold on - Limp Bizkit.
* Bother - Stone Sour.
Fuck loads..

       22. TV Show? South Park.

      23. Actor: Sean Bean!!!

      24. Actress: Sean Bean in a skirt?! lolol

       25. Food: Pasta.

      26. Number: 13.

       27. Cartoon: South Park!!

       28. Disney Character:  Snow White.

      29. Colour: Black.


       30. Do you plan on having kids? Erm one day yes.

      31. Where do you plan on having kids? Where? In a hossie lol.

       32. What will be the name of your firstborn? Depends what sex it is really. lol.

       33. How old do you wanna be when you are married? When it happens it happens.

       34. Would you have kids before marriage? Well I dunno, ffs.

       35. Do u have a b/f or g/f? A bf.

       36. How long have you been dating? A while now, does this matter?

       37. Do you have a crush: Nope.


       38. Music/TV: Music!

      39. Guys/Girls: Errrrr.lolol

      40. Green/Blue: Green.

       41. Pink/Purple: Purple!

      42. Summer/Winter: Winter!!

       43. Night/Day: Night of course!

       44. Hangin Out/Chillin:  lol, ffs is there a difference? Chillin with a bud? hanging with a donkey? lmfao

      45. Dopey/Funny: Daft shite is better.

       46. You know I'm around when you hear: what the fuck?

       47. What school do u go to? Sacred Heart lol

       48. Are you on MSN? Aye.

       49. What's a major turn on for you? So many things lol

       50. How far would you go on a first date? LOL, errrm well..lolol


       51. Most blonde: Kat!

       52. Nicest: Kat, he is too nice.

       53. FunnIest: Jord.. the shithead.

       54. Tallest: Jord, he is 6ft6!

       56. Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? None of them!

      57. What do you think of soul mates? Aye!

       58. Is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? I dunno how to flirt lol but I wouldnt flirt.

       59. What was the last thing you cried over? Someone being an insensitive twat, was at the weekend actually.

       60. What's something about guys/girls you don't get: I dunno, Guys are guys, I tend to understand them.

       61. Why? I've spent too much time with lads.

       62. What's an object you can't live without? Erm me comp lol

       63. Love or Lust: Love.

       64. Silver or gold: Silver.

      62. Diamond or pearl: Diamond .

       63. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset, means it nearly time for me to

       64. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? Yep, long time ago.

       65. Do you sleep with stuffed aninimals? Nah.

       66. Do you have any piercings? Aye.

       67. What colour underpants/thongsr are you wearing right now?  None I'm naked. lmfao

       68. What song are u listening to right now? Demon Speeding By Rob Zombie.
      69: Whats the last 4 digits of your phone home?  6666.

       70. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? Skegness lmfao.

       71. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? That dude over there.. *points* :P

       72. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Bulge, lmfao, nah its the eyes.

       73. Favourite sport? Hockeyyyyyy.

       74. What makes you happy? Being pissed, lmfao

       75. What's the next cd/s you're gonna get? Not sure, I want a COF one, and the HIM one.

   76. Do u wear contacts or glasses? Nah.

       77. What's the best advice given to you? Be yourself.

       78. Have you ever won any special awards? Long time ago aye

       79. What are your future goals? To be happy!

       80. Worst sickness u ever had? Chickenpox. fucking killed me.

       81. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better?  Scary.

       82. On the phone or in person? In person.

       83. Hugs or kisses? Both.

       84. What song seems to reflect you the most? Stone Sour - Bother, or Hold On - Limp Bizkit. Im a depressed fuck.

   85. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? No-one would want me

       86. Do u have any enemies? LOADS!

       87. What would you like to do to your enemies? Piss on them, then set fire to them?

       88. Would you rather be rich or famous? lol BOTH!

       89. What time is it in Albania now? How am I ment to know?

       90. Have you ever been in love? Yes.

       91. Have you met Santa? Aye, I have his carcass under my bed.

       92. If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign and asked 2 use your phone, what would you do? Throw something off him, and sell him.

       93. When did you last talk to the person that you like? Before his Away message came up on msn.

       94. Do u have any pets? 2 cats

       95. Why does this survey keep missing questions that Kent then make up to make up? What the fuck.

       96. Last time you were depressed? The other day.

       97. Are you an alcoholic? Oh

       98. Who sent this to you? Jenny.

       99. What do you think of this person? Mini Moi lmfao

       100. Do u want your friends to write back? No lol

Subject:Sunday, yet again..
Time:4:49 pm.
Mood: indifferent.
Music:INME - Underdose.

Came home yesterday due to me being 17, details which I can not be arsed explaining.

Came online then went out at about 12:30 ish, I cant really remember, but I ended up at a house party which was funny as fuck, free drink, loud music, pissed goths and freaks, wayhay, felt at home!

Grandad has got cancer in his Lungs, too late to help him, he has months to live. He comes out of hossie on Tuesday and is going to live with my Aunty Sandra until he dies, he looks very ill, but what can one expect when someone is at deaths door?..

Got up at about erm, 11:30, watched the rugby..wayhay, love the rugby! And England won Georgia [harhar jokes welcome] 84 - 6, I think! Don't quote me on it..

Sophie is getting wrong because of her little shithead friends, one has MASSIVE teeth and looks like a rabbit, the other, well he is just a twat..

Anyone seen "American History X"? I taped it last night, but have seen it before, its a brilliant movie...Well worth watching.

Am I a blunt person? hmmmm errkkk..I think I am too blunt sometimes, but then again I don't say a lot sometimes, guess it depends who I am with, how comfotable I feel and if I like them, *lol*.

OooooH Henry VIII is on tonight [it is in two parts] *drool* Sean Bean *Droooooool*, ahem. And South Park too!

Nothing else worth saying...

[We drink the vomit of the priest, make love with the dying whore, we suck the blood of the beast and hold the key to deaths door.]

Friday, October 10th, 2003

Subject:>.< So sick and tired, I cant be bothered, I dont want to do anything anymore I want to stay in bed.
Time:1:32 pm.
Mood: cynical.
Music:Metallica - The Unforgiven.
The bands -

*Merrick 1862

*Beyond The 13th

*Few Against Many

Wont bother telling you what I thought, it doesnt matter anyway.

[edit] Andrew did tell me he was meeting..erm her, cant remember name sorry, blame my rage. - still I cant remember being told he was actually meeting her, but I can accept being wrong.

[Out of place but no one noticed.]

Time:8:04 am.
Mood: confused.
Music:Murderdolls - Die My Bride.
Morning :S Way toooooo early to be up...way to goddamn early.

Went to that gig last night, errm at The Archer in Jesmond, three bands were playing..little did I know Andrew was also meeting someone he talked to on the net, I did'nt even know her name :/ I found it out this morning.
I can't even remember what the bands were called, but I have a flyer somewhere so will let you know what each one was called and what I thought of them all.
Had an alright night, nothing special to be honest, maybe nothing pleases me.

Andrew stayed over here last night, because we had missed the train to Durham and the next one wasnt until 2, it was only 11 when we left the pub.

Gotta go visit someone in Hossie today, and shopping with mum, and to Ikea to get some bed lats for Andrew, which he will pay me back for.

geommm *lmfao* ;) Fee..I was Omm-ing last night! :/

Nowt else to say..

[I'm not jelous, I just don't like one rule for you and another for me.]

Thursday, October 9th, 2003

Subject:Errk, to early, should still be sleeping..
Time:12:35 pm.
Mood: sleepy.
Music:Rob Zombie - Demon Speeding.
Morning/ Afternoon/ Too early ;)

This is MY journal I will delete what comments I wish to thankyou :)

Going to see a band with Andrew tonight, dont know what they are called, or what kinda music they do..*lol* I know fuck all.

Nothing much to say as nothing has happened..

Wednesday, October 8th, 2003

Time:11:59 pm.
Mood: pissed off.
Music:The Silence Of The Lambs.
Pissed off.....

Been meditating a lot lately, and grounding, still pissed off...

Meh, men, MEH!!!!!!!!

Time:5:59 pm.
Mood: energetic.
Music:White Zombie - More Human Than Human.
G'day [cam style..does anyone even know what I mean? lmfao]

Well thankies for the comments, *shucks*, I'm loved ;D
Sam is just a sad shite, has no idea what she is on about and lies through her arse..[is her arse her mouth and fingers? Me thinks so..] Lately she has proven herself to be "insane" and I say this looselybecause calling her insane is actually an insult to insane people, to be blunt. Enough of that slug, thing, it..whatever.

Went to College, the tutor was off..ill..hungover more like. So I went into town where I saw Lee, he is a total townie *lol* We used to go out clubbing together to the boat and rockshots..ahhh the good old days. He was talking about Louise, calling her a dirty, fat slag, I was amused..then he said "fucking hell georgia I hope you dont speak to her?!!" I dont..she is a dirty, fat slag..*lol* He works in loads of pubs and nightclubs clearing up and stuff..its canny good money aswell..I got his number again, I should call him and ask him if he fancies getting me a job! *lol*

FFS! Last night my goddamn "Legolas" poster fell down last night, woke me up!! I thought I was being robbed..*lol* [overactive imagination!!] I woke up really early aswell :/ *Goddamnit* Well I can lie in bed ALL morning tomorrow :D

Got a letter from Liam, was actually a funny letter, made me grin, oh and I got my photo's rank I look on them ALL!! [errrrk.]

I called the hossie, my appointment is next thursday at 9, how exciting o.O

Sophie has been working herself, as per usual...*sigh* Kill all little sisters!!! ;)

Ummmmm not much else to say..

[Believe In Angels.]

Tuesday, October 7th, 2003

Subject:roflmfao slug loves me
Time:11:38 pm.
Mood: amused.
Music:sam the slug has a hairy muff lololol.
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: if u have anothing to say to me geo ok, at least have the bollox to say it to me in person and behind me back u stupid little cunt, why dont u grow up, say it to me now come on??
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: ooooooooooo look who it is
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: lmao go and feed yer kids pmsfl
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: my kids r sleeping
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: aye sure lmfao
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: i dont need to fed then ffs
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: course not, you have none lolololol
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: ohhh dont tell em geo u think my kids r made up
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: me*
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: u pathetic slapper!!!
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: i do sam
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: lolololol
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: yeah sam i am lololol
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: go cyber another 44 yr old man
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: oooooooo yeah sam i did lmao
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: u sick LITTLE girl
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: goodbye
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: well yeah ur that aswell
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: yep
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: sunbed, is that the best u can come up with??
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: lololololololol
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: ohhh geo u know ur new best friend aly, ask her what she said about u in my loft lolol
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: ooo aly my best friend lolol i didnt know she was lolol
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: about u not knowing the bus stops in newcastle out side some fucking club
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: eeee i have a new best friend lololol
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: lol bus stops? lololol
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: and about the places they sick young girls when there preggy
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: bye bye
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: what the fuck lmfao
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: yeah she said u lied ur arse off to her
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: really lolol
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: and couldnt give her an answer to her question
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: funny that i dont talk to aly much
VaMp Vv vV GoTh: bye geo u bore me
PSyChOtiC DoLLi: well thanks anyway sam, although your a cunt you honest roflmfao lmao lololololol

What the fuck is she on? lolololol

Subject:I buy my crack, my smack, my bitch right here in Hollywooooooood..
Time:7:23 pm.
Mood: relieved.
Music:Sysem Of A Down - Prison Song.
~~~~~~~*NEWS FLASH*~~~~~~~

Jord is a cunt.

~~~~~~~*END OF NEWS FLASH*~~~~~~~

Hope all is well today..

I had a very bad day yesterday. Started of with Jord being..well Jord is no longer my friend.
Then sam, FFS, She is one sick bitter twisted bitch, what she has done is discusting.

Sam is a liar, most people know this, yet still talk to her. WHY? Read this and see if you still want to talk to her..

*She has sent out many fake pics of herself.

*She gets close to men, gets into their heads, finds out stuff about them, says she is going to meet them, then makes up shit why she can't and blackmails them.

*She goes on and on about pills she has to take, how she does stuff in 4's or 8's, and has seen a shrink but it does'nt help..SHE NEEDS TO SEE A FUCKING SHRINK.

*She spreads shit about people, lies about them, calls them names all because she is jelous.
*She has kids?? Really? Howcome she is "out all day and all night?" Who is looking after them like? Why don't we see her say she has to make the kids tea's. or put them to bed? Or that they are being naughty? BECAUSE SHE DOES'NT HAVE ANY, FFS! She even lied about one of her so called kids being in a bad accident..ffs, who would lie like that.

*She is a goth? A sunbed tan vampire? lmfao, she picked a vampire name because she saw lots of other people with vampire names, she once copied one of my names, she is no goth, no vampire, if she was a vampire someone should put a steak in her heart..wait she aint got one, ffs.

*She has used drugs to get away from the pain..the pain of what? Lying all the fucking time?

I could go on and on and on but there is the big one..and you will all find out what it is soon enough.

Can you see what a liar she is ? How she is twisted and has no real life, how she is using little bits of people's lifes who she talks to and merges them together to make her own..What kind of person does that? Someone who needs serious help, or locking up.

All I can say is people need to wake up and smell the shit she spews out, Yeah yeah its the net, its not real, but it is real to the people whose heads she plays with, who she hurts...

You will all still talk to her, I know you all will..But remember what I have said, and don't come crying to me when she fucks with you.

Anyway I'm getting some photo's developed, I get them back tomorrow, hope they are okay.
I need to phone the hossie about my appointment tomorrow..
Not much else to say..


Monday, October 6th, 2003

Subject:Change happens, sometimes we want change, sometimes we need change, sometimes it just happens..
Time:8:51 pm.
Mood: indifferent.
Music:HIM - Buried Alive By Love..
I went to exciting, well I did'nt fall asleep, even though I have only had 4 hours sleep..Finished early, praise the lord, played some street hockey! I did'nt go to the pub afterwards though, due to a "I cant be arsed" mood..

Bought some cool stuff in town in my lunch hour, I wont say what ;) *heh*

Talked to my mum this morning, she agrees that I should leave college and get a job and get my qualification that way...yes me and my mother actually agreed! [this also means with a bit of luck I can afford to move out.]
Mum said I have changed a lot..well never..*rolls eyes* I also have to decide if I really want to go on holiday next summer with my parents..hmm what yers think?

I want some sea monkeys..

Julies ikkle girl is bootiful..I am planning to kidnap her ;D

Dunno where Andrew is...

I dunno much, do I?

Had really bad pains in my tummy this morning, I blame the medication I am on [Insane look] *Mwahahahahahaha* >:D [Takes her pink pill..which is a smartie *lmfao*]

I need to speak to Harry, so oi Harry if yer read this get in touch or I will strangle you with yer goddamn celtic scarf/skirt which I'm getting for me 18th..[WHICH IS IN 5 WEEKS TO THE DAY.] *laughs*

Tomorrow night is my "I need 4 bottles of wine night." So you have been warned ;D

[Thinks..Nope I wont bother typing that...]

I'm going to watch "Never Mind The Buzzcocks" now, I love this goddamn show, love it!! AND! Frank Skinner is back :D on ITV 10:30!! Watch it as I say..or I will put a gypsy curse on you! :P

Sue is back :)

[I am what I am, if you don't like it, go fuck yourself.]

Sunday, October 5th, 2003

Subject:Life sucks? Life is good? Does it matter either way?
Time:11:28 pm.
Mood: cold.
Music:Marilyn Manson - Angel With The Scabbed Wings.
Where to start?

I was drunk last night, had a few outbursts but now I am calm..ish. But I stand by what I said, as always. I am honest when pissed..not that I lie when sober..

Went to visit someone in hossie today, shadows on his lungs, 65 years old, probabaly wont make it past christmas, makes you see how short life is. How special life is, and that no matter what you should be yourself, and live life the way you want, be happy do what is right and best for you, and let no fuckwit get you down.

Went to a garden centre with my parents, was'nt to bad really...saw some nice indoor plants, like I keep saying I need a place of my own. Was weird really going out with my parents..they are nice people despite how much they have, and will piss me off during my life.

I have been in Para a lot tonight, had fun, apart from a few wankers. [VIV IS BACK, what a fucking weirdo look at her site ] Loki started spurting out shit about fee, he needs a reality check, dumb fuckwit, he actually wound fee up, which doesnt happen much..
Been speaking to Jeff, a few people don't like him, but I do he has taste with movies and music and is a nice guy, he also didnt say I was minging *lol*

Liam my penpal called me..was weeeeird! :/ But nice chatting on the phone, he is the one who sends me CD's :D
I asked him if he knew Cam, Trin, Lex and Zim..but he doesnt..*lol* What the hell happened to them??

College tomorrow, wooptyfuckingdoo, I might have to kill myself :/ *lmao* I need to leave so much, its doing my head in, I can't hack it.

I start playing hockey again tomorrow, expect to see me with a broken leg..

Arms okish keeps hurting then not, looks bad though :(

[ I'm pouring crimson regret & betrayal. I'm dying, praying, bleeding & screaming. Am I too lost to be saved?]

Blurty for Go†hika.

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