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Blurty for she wishes for more ways to wish.
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| Tuesday, April 27th, 2004 |
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on friday morning the clapps and anny were leaving to go out of town to ATF. i was going to go to gym class and then skip the rest of school to go and visit with jesse for the weekend. my cars suspension was laying in the drive way that morning..well part of it anyway, so i was not going to drive it all the way to NY. annys parents decided i should take her car. it was all fine and dandy of course because it wasnt like anyone would be inconvienced by it since they would be away for the whole weekend. so the weekend was really nice and jesse and i had a wonderful time laughing and talking and doing our usual things. Sunday came... on the way home i hydra (sp) planed..and the car..annys car...flew backwards into a mailbox...up a bank smashed into a huge tree then proceeded to roll over onto the roofwhile sliding down the road. finally the car stopped and i looked around after unbuckling myself from the seat and saw that there was a tiny space on my side to escape the car. i was bleeding pretty bad from my mouth and nose..and so i kicked my way out..alot of stuff happened until i got into the ambulance..including kind people helping me out and my darling jesse coming to my aid. i am still really soar..and needless to say the car is gone....pretty much smashed to smitherreens...and i am feeling very thankful to have made it out alive nonetheless with only minor injuries. it was a miracle. anny is getting a new car tomorrow and my car to get fixed was only ten dollars. what a weird way things couldve worked out..but weird in a wonderful sort of weird. i guess i just wanted to write it down somewhere...my first big accident..and hopefully last. God really took care of me...its so weird that at these times in life you can see that He is there in such a real way for you. I just feel like i am meant for bigger things then what is happening now in my life..and i know that because God let me live..he let the car get hit in the back and he let everything be okay. I am just so thankful. thats all. until. shayna. |
| Sunday, April 18th, 2004 |
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I dont update. This weekend was very beautiful. I had to work all during the day both days though. Hopefully next weekend will be warm too...because I get to visit Jesse darling!!! College stuff is overwhelming me lately. The government sucks. I never really understood political stuff or had an appreciation for people who stood up against the government but now I do. There is more to it then just saying "shut up go vote and quit complaining". I know everything will work out one way or another it is just hard not to get angry about all of this. I just dont understand how these stupid girls can go get pregnant and they get to go to college for free but then someone like me who works at freaking burger king and got kicked out of her house because of a stupid woman her dad married canmot get help. It is just ridiculous, you would think the government would hand me all the money i needed in hopes that I am just one less bum who will end up on the street sucking welfare out of them because of laziness to work for my things. But I wont let that happen regardless. I feel very determined. VERY! (excuse my sloppy writing.) I talked to my sister today, she is dealing with stuff from my dad and karen. I just feel so responsible. I know i am not, it isnt either of our faults they act the way they do. They are consumed by selfishness. I just am so glad my sister is a strong girl. She is just so much better at handling things then i ever was. Nothing really has been happening. Next week is the youth groups annual trip to Baltimore for ATF. Since everything is coming up really fast taking off of work doesnt seem like a good idea so i cannot go. I feel kind of bad, but I sorted through my priorities and as mentioned in the latter...i need money. I guess this post was more of me getting things out but i dont freaking care. I am still happy shayna, I just know things will be okay someday and that is what gives me hope. I do love life it is just hard to roll with the punches sometimes i guess. well anyone who reads this i hope you have a good week!!!!! : ) until. |
| Tuesday, March 16th, 2004 |
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so i havent updated for a while. i havent had the time. i apologize for not CAPITALIZING things and using proper grammar..im just not in the mood. well i saw jesse dear this past weekend...it was a very wonderful time, we always have fun. in two weeks he is coming to the one and only tunkhannock area school play..so we will see how that is : ) i started reading one hundred years of solitude...it is pretty good so far. people should read more, thats all i have to say. nothing is really going on lately. we had an early dismissal today( because of the SNOW!) so i just slept then called off of work, they sounded mad but tough crap because im not risking my life to serve gross food to people. i need a new job, i would love to work at borders or something but it is so far away. oh well. keystone gave me a little more money for school...not enough though so we are gonna go in and explain my situation...i hate doing that though its not like i need to be put onto a pedestal just because of the past or anything. i hate talking about it. so i wont. julie is in new york now. we never really hang out very much either way it is just weird not seeing her. well i guess i am just wasting words here so i will be off. i hope everyone is doing well. take care...until, shayna |
| Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004 |
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Nothing much happening. I got to hang out with Vanessa on Monday! I really love her, we always have a nice time together..at least I think so : ) I miss Jesse very much!!! SOON I am able to go see him. Let's see...anything else this week? No...just working and stuff. I guess that is all. Sorry I dont write more. Until, Shayna |
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Nothing much happening. I got to hang out with Vanessa on Monday! I really love her, we always have a nice time together..at least I think so : ) I miss Jesse very much!!! SOON I am able to go see him. Let's see...anything else this week? No...just working and stuff. I guess that is all. Sorry I dont write more. Until, Shayna |
| Friday, February 27th, 2004 |
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So today was good. I am tired though. I got up at five oclock and went to breakfast/bible study. It ws good i was just so tired from it. Then i GOT MY CAR!!! I got to drive it to work then after work i drove home and I just feel so good about it. I am happy about it too because I will get to see Jesse and my sister more. That is comforting. The two people I miss the most : ) ..... Well, nothing else is going on really. I hope that everyone has a good weekend. Until, Shayna |
| Thursday, February 26th, 2004 |
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I love my sister Vanessa a lot. :) |
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Well today has been exciting...I GOT A BLURTY!! haha That isnt really why, but it is actually because I purchased my very first car. It feels nice to own something like that. Plus it is cute and red : ) So, other than that I am doing fair. Im not to sure what to write about. I really miss my Jesse darling...I hope i get to see him soon to catch Kill Bill Vol.2 (the coolest movie ever might I add). And maybe steal a kiss...those are nice sometimes. So to move on to the reflection part of this entry...overall, even though things have been good, I feel somewhat lonely. It just seems to be an inescapable thing lately...not in the family department or anything like that just as far as good friends go. I just pray I can find a good friend and do dumb silly girl things with them, maybe that sounds childish but I think it is a good rational want. So yes. Last night I had the chance to catch the movie Passion of the Christ. It really blew me away, It never really clicked for me how much Jesus loved me...and still does...I just pray i wont take that forgranted like i so often do. I would encourage anyone to see it, even if you dont believe or something...it is still a really good film from an "artsy" standpoint. So that is all for now. Until, Shayna |
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Blurty for she wishes for more ways to wish.
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sleepy.
indifferent.
tired.
calm.